Once everyone had finished eating, Emily got up and put the DVD in to the player. Aria and Hanna moved to sit on the floor closer to the TV. Leaving the couch open for Alison, Spencer and Emily. Emily then turned out the lights and sat down next to her girlfriend. Emily put her arm around Spencer. Spencer's body was a little rigid and she hesitated slightly, but eventually settled in and laid her head on Emily's chest. As the movie played on the television screen, Spencer was finding herself having a lot of difficulty focusing on the film. Her mind was spinning as she thought about Emily having a son. She and Emily had been very open and honest with each other since they started dating. How could Emily keep something like this from her? It all left Spencer feeling both hurt and confused.
About half way through the movie, Spencer felt her phone buzz in her lap. She glanced down and saw that it was text from Hanna.
When are you going to talk to her?
Idk. How do I bring it up? She'll know we went through her stuff.
No. Ali went through her stuff. Just blame it on her.
"Is everything, okay?" Emily asked, quietly, noticing Spencer was on her phone.
"Everything's fine." Spencer replied as she shoved her phone into her pocket.
Emily gently kissed the side of Spencer's head and wrapped her arms tighter around her girlfriend's body. Spencer tried to focus her attention back to the television.
When the movie had ended, Emily got up off of the couch and turned the light on.
"Thanks for having us over, Emily." Hanna said. "But we should really be getting home."
"Are you sure? You guys don't have to leave yet." Emily said.
"I'm sure you and Spencer could use some alone time." Aria stood up from the floor and stretched. "Thanks for having us over. We'll have to get together again sometime."
"You guys are welcome over here any time you want." Emily said.
"Thank you." Hanna and Aria both said.
"You coming, Alison?" Aria looked down at the blonde who was still seated on the couch.
"Yeah, I guess so." Alison stood up.
"Bye, Alison." Emily said. "I'm glad you could make it tonight."
"Me too." Alison walked over to Emily. "Thanks for dinner."
"I'll walk you guys out." Spencer said.
Spencer then turned toward Emily.
"I'll be right back."
Aria, Hanna, Alison and Spencer all stepped outside. Spencer quickly closed the door behind them.
"What are you gonna do, Spence?" Aria asked. "When are you gonna ask her about the kid?"
"I don't even know what to say. I just don't get it, we've been dating for over a month, why haven't I seen this baby or at least heard anything about him?"
"Maybe the father has custody and Emily only gets him every so often." Aria said.
"How do I even bring this up to Emily? I just don't understand why she didn't tell me about her son."
"Put yourself in her shoes, don't you think it'd be hard telling a new girlfriend something like that?" Aria said. "Maybe she just hasn't found the right time..."
"Maybe, but I don't think I can pretend to not know about this. How am I going to tell her that I know?"
"You better figure something out." Alison said. "If Emily has a two year old, he's not going away any time soon. Are you really ready to be a mom to someone else's baby?"
"God, I'm so not ready to deal with this." Spencer said, running a hand through her hair as she paced back and forth.
"You're not gonna break up with Emily, are you? Hanna asked.
"I don't want to do that. I love her and if being with her means I'm gonna have to accept the fact that she has a baby, then that's just what I'll have to do."
"Emily's really lucky to have a girlfriend like you." Hanna said.
"Thanks...I guess I should probably get back inside."
"Good luck, Spence." Hanna said. "If you need to talk, you know we're here for you."
"Thanks, guys. I'll see you tomorrow."
Spencer then turned and walked back into Emily's apartment.
"I'm glad you're back. Now, I get to have you all to myself." Emily smiled. "Come sit down with me."
Spencer walked over to the couch and sat down with her girlfriend. Emily leaned over and pressed her lips to Spencer's. Emily gently slid her tongue into Spencer's mouth. Spencer uneasily slid her hands up Emily's shoulders and into her hair. After a few moments, Emily pulled back sensing a bit of tension from her girlfriend.
"You okay?" Emily asked. "You seem tense."
"I'm not tense..."
"You sure? You seemed a little distracted tonight, like your mind is a million miles away. Is it something I did or said to your friends? Do they not like me or..."
"They like you."
"Well, what's wrong, then?"
"Nothing. I'm fine, really."
"Okay." Emily leaned forward and pressed her lips to Spencer's again.
Emily then closed her eyes as she gently began trailing a series of light kisses down Spencer's neck. As hard as Spencer tried to rid her mind of the birth certificate in her pocket, she found herself completely unable to focus on anything else.
"Em?"
"Hhhmmm?" Emily mumbled against Spencer's neck.
Spencer took a deep breath and swallowed the lump in her throat.
"Do you have a baby?" Spencer's voice cracked, her words running together.
Emily's eyes snapped open, she pulled back and stared directly into Spencer's face.
"Why would you ask me something like that?"
Spencer didn't speak, but only reached into her pocket and pulled out the birth certificate. She unfolded the paper and handed it to Emily.
"Where did you get this?" Emily said, surprised to see the piece of paper in her hands.
"When you left, Alison started going through your stuff, I tried to stop her, but before I could, she found that...I'm really sorry. I wish I never saw it at all, but I did and you just can't unsee something like that..."
"Spencer, I know how this looks, but I promise you, it's not what you think."
"Then what is it, Em? You have a birth certificate that belongs to a two year old with your last name. What am I supposed think?"
"It's a long, complicated story..."
"We've got time and I think I'm smart enough to keep up, just tell me the truth..."
"Listen, Spencer...I've been meaning to talk to you about this..." Emily took in a long breath and exhaled. "Bryce is my ex-fiancée's son."
"Fiancée? You were engaged?"
"Yes." Emily nodded. "When I was in college, I met this girl...Stephanie. She was an accounting student at Texas Tech. We started dating, we were together for a while and things were great. But, then Steph started getting really sick, she'd throw up almost every morning. We just thought maybe she had a digestive problem or something, so I took her to the emergency room to get checked out and that's when we found out that she was two months pregnant."
"You obviously didn't get her pregnant...she cheated on you?"
"Yeah. Stephanie didn't have a choice but to confess that she got wasted and slept with an ex boyfriend one night when I was away visiting my grandparents. I was pretty much crushed, but deep down I still loved her. I told her that I wanted her to keep the baby. I promised to marry her as soon as I finished college and adopt the baby. So, the next day, I went out and bought an engagement ring, nothing fancy, but the best diamond I could afford."
"A girl cheated on you, got pregnant and you still forgave her...and volunteered to raise a baby that wasn't yours..."
"In a nutshell, that's about it. Stephanie was nineteen at the time, she was scared and I just wanted to do the right thing, but my parents weren't exactly thrilled with my decision to stand by Stephanie. My mom never really forgave her, but I figured she'd get over it, eventually. So...Stephanie dropped out of college and I moved her into my apartment. My mother was pretty much dead set against us living together before we were married, but I needed to be there for Steph and I thought living together would be the best possible way for me to take care of her."
"You've gotta be the sweetest, most selfless person I've ever met. I think it takes a really big person to forgive something like that."
"It wasn't as simple for me as I made it sound...I really struggled emotionally for a long time. Even though we were working things out, I still had a lot of trust issues. Stephanie and I definitely lost a lot of intimacy. I mean of course I helped her through her pregnancy and I still loved her, but it had been months before I ever felt any sexual desire again. A lot of times, we didn't even sleep in the same bed. I pretended to have developed a bad habit of falling asleep on the couch, watching TV before bed, because I didn't want to sleep next to her some nights. It was so hard pushing myself to trust her again, but when that little boy was born and he looked up at me with those big, beautiful blue eyes for the first time in the delivery room...it felt like nothing else in the world mattered. There I was, holding my newborn son in my arms, Stephanie and I would soon be married and we'd officially become a family...but things obviously didn't work out the way I had expected..."
Spencer could see the hurt in Emily's eyes as she talked about Stephanie. Spencer reached out and placed her hand on top of Emily's.
"Emily, no one could possibly blame you for breaking up with her...even after the baby was born...you tried to do a good thing, but she still cheated on you. It's hard to get around that."
"I never broke up with her...she left me, two weeks before our wedding. She walked out and I haven't heard from her since. She didn't even dump me to my face. I went to work one morning and when I came home, she was gone, along with all of her stuff and the baby. She left me a letter and her engagement ring. She said she felt like she should be with Bryce's father...even after all I did for her. Just because he was the one who knocked her up, that apparently made him somehow better suited to raise a child than me. He wasn't the one who took her to all of the doctor's appointments, he never sat on the bathroom floor holding her hair back while she puked her guts out at four a.m. almost every morning during the first trimester. He wasn't the one who worked two jobs while finishing college so Stephanie wouldn't have to work. He didn't even have a job at all. Does that sound like someone who's well-suited to take care of a baby?"
Spencer gently stroked Emily's hand with her thumb. She could see a few tears begin to well up in the architect's eyes.
"Would you believe the bastard never once called or even texted Stephanie during her pregnancy to see how she was doing? It was like she didn't even exist. I treated Bryce like he was my own flesh and blood...I loved him more than anything and it ripped my heart out knowing I'd probably never see him again."
Spencer watched as a few tears slipped down Emily's cheeks.
"You could fight for custody. You know my parents are lawyers, I'll talk to them, maybe they can help you..."
"There's nothing they could do. Believe me, I tried." Emily slumped forward, resting her elbows on her knees. "But, I'm not biologically related to Bryce so I don't have any rights."
"But he has your last name."
"It doesn't matter. Stephanie planned to take my last name when we got married, so that's what we put on the birth certificate, but at the time she left me, I hadn't yet filed for adoption. So, I have zero legal rights. I'm sure she's changed his last name by now."
Emily closed her eyes and blinked back a few tears. Spencer placed her hand on Emily's back and gently moved it up and down.
"I'm sorry." Emily wiped away her own tears. "I don't like to let anyone see me cry."
"No. Don't apologize to me. You're obviously still hurt over this."
"I've tried not be angry, but it's so hard. I did everything I possibly could have…"
"It's okay to be angry. I don't blame you." Spencer said as she wrapped her arms around her girlfriend and hugged her tight. "You've been through a lot."
Emily shifted her position to face Spencer and returned the embrace.
"I just wish you'd told me all of this sooner." Spencer said, gently rubbing Emily's back.
"I wanted to." Emily pulled away to look at Spencer. "But, I was scared. When we first met, I liked you a lot and when I found out that you liked me too, I didn't want to screw it up. You're only eighteen, I was afraid that you'd think I had too much emotional baggage to deal with. I wanted to wait and try to win you over first, but the longer we were dating the harder it got for me to try to bring it up."
"It's all out in the open now. Don't worry. None of this changes how I feel about you. I'm really sorry that Alison when through your stuff, she had no right to do that."
"Maybe it's better that she did. I'm glad that you know everything now. It's a huge weight off of my chest."
"I'm glad you told me…but, I need to ask you something."
"What is it?" Emily asked, looking straight into Spencer's eyes.
"Do you still have feelings for Stephanie?"
"No." Emily didn't even hesitate. "It's over between us. I left her behind when I left Texas to come here. You're the only person I have feelings for now."
Emily watched a tear roll down Spencer's cheek.
"What's wrong?" Emily panicked.
"I'm just trying to process everything. Em, if Stephanie didn't walk out on you, you'd probably still be living in Texas, married to her, with a son. I'd never have even met you…I just can't imagine not knowing you."
Emily placed her hands on either side of Spencer's face.
"I should thank Stephanie for leaving me. As hard as it was to lose her and Bryce, I've gained a lot since then. I've been able to further my career and even better, I've gotten to know you in the process. I firmly believe that everything happens for a reason. Maybe I was meant to go through all of the pain so that I'd be able to really appreciate what I have now...with you…I...I...love you, Spencer. These last few weeks I've wanted to say that to you, but I just couldn't get the words out..."
"Stop..." Spencer placed her index finger over the architect's lips.
Emily's heart began pounding hard against her chest.
"Oh God, you're totally freaked out, aren't you?" Emily mumbled against Spencer's finger. "I knew it was too soon…I just..."
"No, Em. I need you to stop talking, so I can say that I love you, too." Spencer smiled brightly, leaned forward and pressed her lips to Emily's.
The kiss was passionate and pure. Spencer closed her eyes and tangled her fingers into Emily's hair as the brunette smiled against Emily's lips. Emily held Spencer close and slowly opened her mouth, tentatively deepening the kiss. When the kiss was broken, Emily reached up, gently tucked a lock of Spencer's hair behind her ear and rested her forehead against her girlfriend's.
"After Stephanie I thought I'd never fall in love again, I wasn't even sure that I wanted to, but then I met you and everything changed."
"Aw, Em." Spencer wrapped her arms around Emily and hugged her again.
"Can I stay over tonight?" Spencer asked, taking Emily's hand.
"Spencer…"
"I don't mean stay over like that…I just wanna be with you tonight."
"Okay." Emily nodded. "I'll find you something to sleep in."
Emily stood up and extended her hand down to Spencer. Spencer followed Emily into the bedroom. Emily opened one of her dresser drawers and pulled out some clothes for Spencer.
"Here. You can wear these." Emily said, handing the clothes to Spencer.
"Thanks."
Emily then went back to her dresser and picked out a pair of Philadelphia Flyers pajama bottoms, as well as a black t shirt for herself.
"You can change in here." Emily said. "I'll give you some privacy. I'll be in the living room."
Emily then turned and walked out of the bedroom, closing the door behind her. Emily unbuttoned her shirt and slipped it off of her shoulders. She then unbuckled her belt, unzipped her jeans and let them slip down her legs. Once Emily had gotten redressed, she knocked on the bedroom door.
"Spence? You dressed yet?"
"Yeah." Spencer called out. "You can come in."
Emily opened the door and walked in. She tossed her clothes into the laundry basket near the dresser.
"You ready for bed?" Spencer asked.
"Yeah. It's been a long night and I've gotta be at your house early tomorrow morning. I should get some sleep."
"Goodnight, Spence." Emily said as she leaned in and kissed her girlfriend.
Emily then turned and walked toward the door.
"Were are you going?" Spencer asked.
"I wasn't sure that we should sleep in the same bed, so I was gonna sleep on the couch."
"Em, we can sleep together without sleeping together. Get into bed."
"As long as it's okay with you…"
"It's more than okay. We can cuddle."
Emily and Spencer both got into bed and laid down.
"You wanna spoon?" Spencer asked as she got underneath the blanket.
"Only if you'll let me be the big spoon."
"Deal."
Spencer rolled over so that she was now facing away from Emily. Emily protectively wrapped her arms around Spencer, pressed her body flush against Spencer's back and nestled her face into the brunette's neck. Spencer then closed her eyes and spent the next few minutes enjoying the warmth of Emily's body against her own before happily drifting off to sleep.
