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Song Used: Bliss(I don't wanna know)-Hinder

Chapter 25: Bliss (I Don't Wanna Know)

Tommy POV:

I watched her go, I can't believe I stood there and watched her go. All I was doing was being honest with her but, why couldn't I look into here eyes and say it. Why couldn't I go after her? Why did I stand there and watch her go? I can't believe it.

I walked out of out room and I walked into the kitchen and grabbed a glass and then I walked over to the liquor cabinet and grabbed a bottle of vodka. I poured a drink and another after that and another after that.

I looked up and I saw Alex there in front of me. She just sat down beside me and didn't say a thing. She looked into my eyes and I looked away. I poured another drink and I drank it.

"At least, now we can be together." She said.

"Are you deluded? I don't want you anymore. I want nothing to do with you. You ruined everything." I said. I was feeling a little fizzy but, I wasn't drunk yet, that required a few more drinks.

"Tommy look, you can deny it all you want but we are meant to be together." She said, and she kissed me. I pushed her off of me, and I got up. I walked over to the door and opened it for her. "You can get your stuff and go to a hotel now." I said to her. She walked to the guest bedroom and got her stuff and she came back out.

"You know you want me. I'll be at the Hilton Garden if you change your mind." She said and she walked down the hall and she left. I shut the door behind her and I went to grab my keys and I left. I got in the car and I went to G-Major. I walked in and it was silent.

I walked into Studio B and I began to write. I scribbled for a while and I just looked at it, and I started again. I finished writing and I picked up the guitar that sat next to me and I began to sing. When I finished everything I walked into the soundproof recording booth and I started to sing with the headphones on my ears.

(I don't wanna know)
(I don't wanna know)
(I don't wanna know)
(I don't wanna know)
I'll go ahead and pour myself a drink
I really couldn't care less what you think
Well I don't have to listen now

I closed my eyes and I relived when Jude walked out. I could smell her perfume, and I got kicked myself mentally for letting her walk out.


Live this day down
If I can't feel a thing
You might as well save your goodbyes
We can give this train wreck one last ride
I'm gonna have to listen now
Live this day down
If I don't make things right
I'll tell you one last time

I don't wanna know it's over
So save your goodbye kiss
I don't wanna know it's over
Cause ignorance is bliss
I can hardly see
What's in front of me
Cause the vodka's running on empty
I can't stay sober
If it's over
(I don't wanna know)
(I don't wanna know)
(I don't wanna know)
So save your goodbye kiss
(I don't wanna know)
(I don't wanna know)
(I don't wanna know)

I woke up with a heartbeat in my head
I reached for the bottle by the bed
I saw your side was not slept in
Cold sheets again
Remind me of what you said
We need to take a break for a while
It's been so long since I smiled
I don't wanna listen now
Live this day down
With you so drunk and high
So I'll say goodbye

I don't wanna know it's over
So save your goodbye kiss
I don't want to know it's over
Cause ignorance is bliss
I can hardly see
What's in front of me
Cause the vodka's running on empty
I can't stay sober
If it's over

I don't wanna know it's over
So save your goodbye kiss
I don't wanna know it's over
Cause ignorance is bliss
Now I know I can't stay sober
Cause you left me here like this
I don't wanna know
(I don't wanna know)
(I don't wanna know)
(I don't wanna know)
So save your goodbye kiss
(I don't wanna know)
(I don't wanna know)
(I don't wanna know)
Cause ignorance is bliss
I can hardly see
What's in front of me
Cause the vodka's running on empty
I can't stay sober
If it's over
If it's over
I don't wanna know
If it's over
If it's over
I don't wanna know

When I finished singing I got up and I turned the lights off and I left. I looked to the room beside me and I saw Jude sitting there crying. I walked in and I tried to put my arms around her but, she made me leave. I turned and I walked out. I told myself that I would give her time.