I know, it's been ages. I'm really sorry, I got busy with university stuff and friends and I had to fight a slightly minor lack of ideas. Okay, I was freking out because my banked chapters were less and less so I just paused a moment and only wrote. I also published a couple of other stories that kept my mind a little busy, they had been planned a while ago and they just begged to be published so yeah, there they are.

I also decided to make anonymous reviews possible, which means YOU CANNOT use this as a mean to insult my story but maybe you're just shy or you don't have an account. I accept criticism, I said that at the beginning, but at least if you don't like the story just go read something else. There are hundreds of good stories out there, all right?

After this little rant, the title for this chapter is taken from...surprise! The National - Conversation 16. I neet to seriously stop putting their discography on a loop anytime I write. My apologies.

Enjoy this chapter, I loved writing this ;)

Chapter 25 - You're The Only Thing I Ever Want Anymore

It was dark and stormy outside. Meredith knew that Eden didn't like the weather, only since the shooting the simple dislike for storms became almost full-fledged panic attacks, which was almost crazy for a four-year-old, but considering her background, anything was possible.

Derek was sleeping beside her, sprawled on his side and lost in his dreams. She had grown accustomed to feel his arm draped around her even when he was fast asleep, unconsciously protecting her and their unborn baby, that seemed every day something more and more tangible. They kept things quiet with their friends, the only one that knew was Cristina, but it was okay, they needed time to adjust.

A thunder cracked in the sky and seconds later she could hear tiny feet tiptoeing in the corridor and a tiny hand opening the already ajar door, closing it and then stopping right at Derek's bedside.

"Eden" she whispered, before she could wake Derek up. He had had a long day and he deserved some sleep.

"Meri" she said with a broken voice and she could guess there were big tears ready to fall down her cheeks.

"Come here" she still whispered cautiously and then two little hands were holding onto her arm and two little legs were crawling on the bed.

In a matter of moments they were snuggled close under the covers. Eden was still sniffling quietly, but her breaths were a bit more even and her body a little less tense than the moment she had climbed into Meredith's arms.

"Is this better?" she asked and the girl nodded into her chest. "Was it another nightmare or just the thunder?"

"Both" Eden spoke in a very small and scared voice "Sounds like the gun"

"It does Ladybug, but there's no gun. It's just you, me and Daddy"

"I know"

"We'll be right here the whole time" Meredith whispered "Just close your eyes" she added, brushing her hair gently, trying to calm her down even more.

"Okay" Eden sighed, and Meredith could feel her small body grow heavy in her arms. She laid beside her and she closed her own eyes too, falling back into a deep, content sleep.

She was woken up again when the sky outside was a bit lighter, Derek pressing soft, sexy kisses on her shoulder and on the bare skin of her neck.

"Good morning" he whispered huskily, clearly still half asleep

"Sleep" she groaned, curling up even more and remembering of Eden in her arms. She was in the exact same position of the previous night.

Derek kept trailing soft, tantalizing kisses on her body, slipping one hand under her t-shirt to graze her stomach, then up to her breast.

"Eden" she moaned

"What?" he kept kissing and nibbling her skin, clearly clueless

"Eden's here" she slurred, clearly too asleep or too turned on to form words. He stopped almost immediately, placing one last kiss on her lips.

"Nightmares?" he sighed, finally peeking from Meredith's shoulder and stroking Eden's hair.

"And storm. Bad combination" she sighed.

Eden stirred in Meredith's arms and her big blue eyes fluttered open, just for a moment, then fell shut again.

"Baby, we are going to shower and get dressed, just stay here, okay?" Derek said to Eden and the girl nodded, maybe understanding, maybe too sleepy to care "I hope you'll join me" he whispered then in Meredith's ear, smirking and kissing her favorite spot on her neck again.

"We'll be right back" added Meredith, kissing Eden's forehead then wriggling out of her grasp and rolling out of bed, following Derek who had disappeared in the bathroom.

"I hate you" she smirked, as soon as the door was closed and he pinned her against it, their bodies close as they shared a heated kiss

"You love morning sex" he smirked, his lips finding hers again

"My hormones are running havoc on me and you tease me when in bed there's your daughter!" she pouted and he could just kiss her again, his lips moving then to her most sensitive spots on her neck and shoulders and she moaned again.

"That was a lapse of judgment" he whispered seductively in her ear, nibbling it while she took off his t-shirt.

"We need to be quiet"

"We can do quiet" he smirked, before starting up the shower and undressing her.

The shower took them both a little bit longer than necessary and when they reappeared in their bedroom, they saw Eden slowly sitting up and rubbing her eyes, heavy with sleep.

They both had the Sunday off and they were looking forward to spending it together.

Derek was already wearing a comfortable tee and sweatpants while Meredith had just her bra and her favorite shorts on, a towel in her hands to dry her damp hair while she stared at her reflection in the mirror. Derek stood behind her, gave her a quick kiss to her temple then sneaked his arm around her middle to rub soft, unnoticeable circles where their baby was silently growing. A smile immediately curled up Meredith's lips.

"Daddy?" Eden's voice sounded questioning and when they both turned to her they saw she was frowning.

"Hey, good morning Ladybug" he replied, trying to ignore her facial expression.

"Why do you always touch Meri's tummy?" she asked in a very serious tone and both their eyes widened. They looked at each other, trying to find the perfect words.

Meredith knew this moment had to happen at some point, but it still paralyzed her the idea of telling Eden and especially her reaction.

Derek pulled away from her and sat on the bed, motioning to Meredith to sit on the bed. She threw an old t-shirt on and sat next to him, while Eden crawled into his lap.

"Was I a bad girl, Daddy?" she immediately wondered, after seeing the adults' reaction, tears filling her beautiful blue eyes.

"No, baby girl, it's just complicated to answer your question" he tried to smile convincingly.

"Okay"

Meredith took Derek's hand in hers behind Eden's back and squeezed it gently.

"Eden, do you remember when last Christmas we went at Nana's home?"

"Yes, there were pretty gifts and pretty lights. Then Santa came and ate all the biscuits and the milk!" she giggled, clearly the happy memory sinking in, and for a moment Meredith wondered what would be like their next Christmas, with the Shepherds, with a baby on the way that will have beautiful Christmases.

She sighed and unconsciously put a hand over her stomach.

"You remember Aunt Nancy had the big tummy?"

"Uh uh" she nodded "She said there was Brad in there" she recalled

"Meri has a baby in her tummy as well" he explained calmly and she could hear her heart skip a beat.

"But Daddy, she looks like Meri, not like Aunt Nancy!" she retorted Eden and Meredith giggled at her deep frown while the girl stared at her.

"That's because the baby has to grow a lot before I will be like Aunt Nancy" Meredith explained but Eden didn't seemed very convinced by her answer.

"Why there's a baby there?" ugh, good question girl.

"Well, because I love your Daddy very much and he loves me back" she said. Lame, Mer, very very lame answer.

"Yeah, you kiss each other a lot" she said almost disgusted and in that moment sounded so much like Cristina that she couldn't help but laugh.

"Yeah. When two people kiss a lot sometimes it happens that they make a baby" she replied a smile still brightening her features as she exchanged a look with Derek.

"And how did the baby get there?"

"Well" Derek cut in "You know that boys and girls are different, right?"

"Ugh, boys are messy and they are always bad" her eyes widened

"I mean," he chuckled, embarrassed "they look different"

"They have shorter hair" she seemed to think "And Tuck pees standing up. I saw him once that I went to the wrong bathroom"

"Okay" sighed Derek, almost horrified by the explanation he had to give to his four-year-old daughter.

"You know that boys can't carry babies, right?" cut in Meredith and he sighed relieved. He couldn't do that.

"Yep, why is that?"

"Because girls have a very special place in their bodies made only for them to grow babies. It's called uterus" oh, she's going medical, this is not good.

"Oh, cool" or maybe it is.

"Girls have tiny little things similar to eggs that when they meet boy's eggs could create together a baby"

"But eggs like the ones we eat?" Eden asked confused

"No, much more smaller but inside they have all they need to create a baby"

"Oh. And how can the baby get big?"

"Well, their mommies gives the babies everything that they could possibly need until they come out"

"How they come out?" Eden was clearly into the subject at this point.

"Well, mommies have to push their babies out" she shrugged and felt Derek's hand resting comfortably on the small of her back, rubbing soothing circles.

"But it hurts"

"Yes it does, but it's better when it hurts or mommies will need surgery and doctors have to take out the babies"

"Surgery?" her eyes widened in panic

"Oh sweetie, it happens very rarely" Derek spoke again "Meri will be fine" he smiled reassuringly for all of us.

"So Meri is this baby's Mommy?" she asked when the panic passed.

Both adults nodded and Derek could see Meredith's eyes fill with unshed emotional tears "And you are this baby's Daddy?" she stared at Derek almost accusingly.

"Yes, Eden, this is going to be your baby sister or your baby brother" he smiled softly at the idea of a boy.

"But..." her lip quivered "You are my Daddy! My Daddy!" she said, storming out of his arms and in her room.

Derek remained dumbfounded for a second, staring at the open door where Eden had disappeared.

"I'll talk to her" Meredith came into his thoughts then she moved out of the room, leaving Derek still sitting there, wondering where the conversation had gone wrong.

Meredith knocked gently on the door, but she was met only with a teary "Go away Daddy!"

She knew it was big and she knew the girl would have an hard time accepting it, but it didn't broke her heart any less.

"It's Meri, please, can I come in?"

"No" she replied sternly, despite the tears

"Okay, I'll talk from here then" she sighed and waited a moment for the door to open, but it remained closed, so she began "You still have your own Daddy, he is not going anywhere. It's this baby's Daddy too, but he's also your Daddy"

"It's not true" Eden's voice filled with tears, anger and fear.

"You know Lexie?" she asked to the closed door

"She's your sister"

"Yes. Her Mommy is not my Mommy, just like I am not your Mommy" she said, a little bit of sadness filling her heart.

"Addison is my Mommy" her voice barely a whisper, like she wasn't very convinced of the answer herself.

"Yes, she is. My Daddy is still my Daddy even if he had Lexie just like your Daddy will remain your Daddy when I'll have this baby"

Silence stretched between the two sides of the door, until Eden finally opened it and stared at Meredith with tears in her eyes.

"You promise?"

"Of course I promise. I'm not going to take your Daddy away from you" she said with a convincing smile, crouching at her level and the girl wrapped her chubby arms around her neck and held her tightly.

Meredith picked her up carefully and sat with her on the tiny bed, Eden's legs wrapping around her torso while she buried her face in her t-shirt.

Meredith saw Derek hovering at the doorframe, looking out to see the scene but Meredith mouthed that she was handling the situation, so he simply remained there, watching his two favorite girls sharing a very big moment.

When she finally calmed down, Eden looked up and her eyes met Meredith's. The girl then looked down and touched Meredith's slightly rounder stomach with her tiny fingers.

"You're gonna be this baby's Mommy, Meri?" she asked softly, all the anger gone

"I am" she admitted simply, stroking Eden's hair.

"And this baby is going to be my brother or my sister?"

"Yes"

Eden finally lifted up her gaze and met Meredith's "Can...Can you be my Mommy too?" she asked shyly, a hint of fear in her voice.

"I would love to be your Mommy" she said, pulling the girl closer to her chest and hugging her tightly, tears forming in her eyes.

AN: Okay, this was kind of a big chapter. I wanted to get it right and I hope I did.

Thank you for your patience while I was busy freaking out, I hope this chapter made up for the lost time!

Anyway, I'm metaphotically pouring my heart out on the screen already after the Premiere, but you won't see results anytime soon. I bet it will be a little harder writing my S8 story, but I have been working on it for a while so it will be done.