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I woke up in a warm embrace, my body tangled with some one else's. My sense were on high alert, I jumped up out of the embrace but didn't wake the person.
The moon showed through the window and lite up his features, his shortish long hair spray on the side of the pillow, his eyes closed and he was vulnerable, perfect. I felt myself pull out a smooth cool dagger and I held it over my head, just before the blade pierced his skin I jolted awake.
Sweat dewed my skin and my breathing was erratic, I shot up into a sitting position and must have hit Dimitri because his eye fluttered some what. I swung my legs over the side of the bed as I placed my hand over my heart as it continued to beat faster. I felt tears well up in my eyes at the thought of someone hurting Dimitri much less me doing it.
I suddenly thought back to before I met and knew Dimitri, my thoughts and our jokes about him and his family.
FLASHBACK
"I'll kill them one day, all of them. Those bastards killed my family, they deserved to die. Dimitri Belikov before them all, so help me by the day I die, Dimitri Belikov will be dead and it will be by my hand." I growled to Mason. He nodded sympathetically.
"Rose, I don't think you want a Belikov's blood on your hands." Mason said softly.
"I hate him Mase, I hate him so much." I said through clenched teeth.
-Another flashback-
"She's as heartless as that Dimitri Belikov, look at her." I heard someone whisper.
"I know, if they say that he's a god at war then she is most definitely a goddess, from everything from her technique to her looks." Some one else replied as I smirked.
-FLASHBACK-
"Belikov's are no good slime and they all deserve to burn in hell." A guy in the bar said.
"Here, here!" I cheered putting up my beer. People around me followed as we all drank. I stepped up to my chair and put my hand up to the bartender who helped me up to the counter. "To the lives lost in this pointless war, for those pitiful uses of space named Belikov's and all who support them burn in the deepest pits of hell, may we end and win this cruel and disgusting war! Here, here!" I shouted followed by a chorus of yelled here, here's.
END FLASHBACK
A soundless sob shook me and I muffled my soundless cries. I felt an arm wrap around me and I stiffened.
"What's the matter babe?" I felt his breath on my neck, his heat on my skin, and I felt the feelings only he can provoke. "Babe?" He whispered sitting up and probably rubbing his eyes while trying to take in my slumped form.
"It's nothing, I promise," I said, looking out the window, running my hand through my hair.
"Rose," He said, his voice soft as I stood up and walked out to the balcony, my arms crossed just under my breasts, I shook my head as I looked out over the trees.
"Kill him…," Something whispered to me. "Kill him and it'll all go away. Just turn that switch off." It whispered.
I closed the doors to the balcony so Dimitri wouldn't come out; I leaned against the doors, clutching my head.
"Stop, please, stop." I whispered to myself.
"Rose!" Dimitri said, tapping on the window, I shook my head as the whispering continued.
"Dimitri, stay away!" I said over his tapping.
"I'm not going anywhere, Rose, let me through, please." He seemed to beg through the glass.
"Dimitri, you don't know what it was like, you really don't know what I was like before you, before this treaty." I said, before stumbling forward, Dimitri was through the doors and was holding me within a few seconds. "If you truly knew you would hate me, you would truly hate me." I said, slowly sucking in all my emotions.
"Nothing you could ever do could ever make me hate you, nothing at all," He whispered in my ear, holding me close to his chest.
"The things we used to say about you and you're family, the things I used to say. What I wanted to do, how hard I used to train for that. I used to hate you so much; there was no diluting that hate, it burned to my core. Dimitri there is so much that you don't know that you may not understand. And even though you don't know, I'm sorry; I am so so beyond sorry, on the behalf of not only myself, but my people as well." I said, he held me closer and kissed my forehead.
"While I may not know what you and your people said or did, I know what we did and I know what we said and for that I will apologize as well, I hate myself now, knowing you the way I do now, I regret it. But what I do know is that I love you and that will never change." He murmured, pressing his lips to my throat and I leaned into him.
"I love you too," I murmured.
"Come on, let's go back to bed Roza," He said, helping me stand straighter.
"Um, you go back to bed, I'm gunna go get some water." I said, whipping my face clear of the non existent tears.
"Ro-" he started.
"Dimitri, don't, I'll be back I promise." I smiled at him, quickly pecking his lips before slipping out of the room silently.
I ended up on a glassless hallway that allowed the breeze and the outside scents fill the air. The breeze tickled my overly exposed legs and I shivered slightly at the cold but other wise I was unaffected. I continued to walk slowly as I closed my eyes and memories replayed themselves in my mind.
-_Flash Back_-
I was up in the trees, my bow and arrow strapped on my back as I watched the battle field. I saw Mason fighting and he was losing the upper hand so I drew my bow and set the arrow and aim before releasing it and watching it hit the guy in the back, right in his heart. He dropped and Mason looked up and at me before smirking and turning to go after some one else.
"Look at her, if she wasn't the Hathaway princess I would think that she was actually a Belikov. The way she walks, talks, acts, so coldly and impassively. It's creepy."
I whipped on her, my eyes darkening at a painful rate as I felt Darcy spring into action. I had the girl pinned against the wall, my hand on her throat.
"Compare me to one of those soulless bastards again and you won't live to say another word." I growled, barely managing to drop her and walk away.
"All Belikov's can go to hell! Every last one of them! They need to be burn and beaten until they're unrecognizable, to hell with them all." I muttered as I punched at the punching bag. "I swear, for future generations, I will kill them all, till the last breath I take, I will fight." I vowed into the empty room.
End of Flashbacks
I wrapped my arms around myself and stopped walking.
"Until my heart stops beating
Until the breath leaves my lungs,
My love, I will keep on defeating
Those who wish to bring you harm
The birds shall sing
The eagles will fly
Soon enough our song will ring
Someday that future will come true
For my love you mean everything to me
And the fights will eventually end
Never alone there will always be a we
This war will stop and peace will rise
The birds shall sing
The eagles will fly
Soon enough our songs will ring
Someday that future will come true
For you my love,
I'll give my all,
For my people and their love
I'll gladly give my life.
The birds shall sing
The eagles will fly
Soon enough our songs will ring
Someday that future will come true
My duty is to you,
To the war that surrounds us,
I see the war I never want you to see to,
So for you my love I will end it all."
I sang to song softly and with closed eyes. The song is really a lullaby, one my mother and father sang to me, one that I sang to my sister and one day I might sing to my child.
"You sing beautifully," I turned around sharply as a breeze ruffled my hair. I saw nothing; all I heard was a child like sigh.
"Hello?" I called softly.
"Could you sing to me, my mommy used to sing to me all the time." I looked in front of me to see a little girl, about 6 years old, clutching a teddy bear, her form withered and grey. She was a ghost. My eyes and posture immediately softened and I leaned against a wall and opened my arms.
"Of course sweetie." I said gesturing her trembling form toward me. She, unlike most ghosts, walked straight into my arms and curled up into my chest. I felt a dull warmth that radiated off of her and I held her, or what I could to me, my hand slowly petting the space where her hair should be and she relaxed into me.
" In a world of war
Your smile makes me forget,
You remind me what I'm fighting for
I want to end it all
A voice so soft to me
Never wanna let you see
And I'll have to let this be
Life is nothing but a hectic sea.
You have so much to live for
So don't follow in my footsteps
Even when it seems there's nothing to live for
Look at me and you'll find your way home
A voice so soft to me
Never wanna let you see
And I'll have to let this be
Life is nothing but a hectic sea.
Trust me to see for you
The world I wish to hide
A life of peace I want for you to
Away from the world around us
A life where is free
Where peace is blessed
No longer will there be a plea
A voice so soft to me
Never wanna let you see
And I'll have to let this be
Life is nothing but a hectic sea"
I sang softly, the little girl placed her hands on my neck and I felt a light shock but it faded quickly.
"Her voice is so warm and soft, it feels like a blanket." The little girl thought, I simply smiled and took her hands from my neck and continued to stroke her neck as I hummed softly.
"Thank you," The girl whispered as she began to fade away.
"Your welcome."
"You would make a good mommy," She said before she disappeared.
"A… mommy?" I whispered.
"Little D? What the hell are you doing up so late?" I shot up and quickly blinked away any un wanted emotions.
"Ace! I actually couldn't sleep, so I came out for some air." I said, semi telling the truth, he studied my face as I turned around sharply. "Um, good night," I murmured, jogging in the opposite direction.
"Rose, wait!" He called but I ignored as I continued on my way back to my room. I made it back faster than I thought and I silently padded into the room, Dimitri had fallen back asleep, his face was so soft and vulnerable. I leaned down and my fingers ghost on his jaw, his cheek, his nose and his lips, under my touch his lips parted and tears slightly pricked my eyes.
How the hell could I hate him? Taking in his features, the ones I'd come to love, I could barely find that hate that I used to feel.
'You still hate him, its just buried beneath lust and what you think is "love", watch the first time you do something even remotely "wrong" in his eyes, he's gunna leave your ass.' Darcy hissed as I shivered and my hand jerked back on instinct.
'No, he wouldn't do that,' I fought back weakly. Trying not to think about it, I leaned down and lightly pressed my lips to his. Right when I was about to pull away, Dimitri's hand snaked into my hair and pressed my lips back to his. I immediately responded and brought my hands to his face, my thumbs gently pressing on his skin.
I felt like if I didn't feel him he would disappear. Somehow, I ended up laying on top of him, our lips pressed to together, dancing their own soft and sweet dance.
"Hmm, that's a nice way to be woken up in the middle of the night." Dimitri whispered as I leaned my forehead to touch his.
"I'm sorry, I didn't mean to wake you up," I murmured, kissing the tip of his nose.
"What's the matter Roza?" He asked as he lightly pressed his lips to the corner of my mouth.
I shook my head and kissed him lightly. "Nothing comrade, nothing at all," I said before rolling off of his bare chest and resting my head on his shoulder as he wrapped is arms around me, securing me to him and I managed to wrap my arms around him as well. "I love you," I whispered.
"I love you too, sleep now, you need it." He murmured as he kissed the top of my head and my eyes fluttered close as a wave of exhaustion collapsed over me. I sank into a blissful state of sleep.
The next thing I knew, I woke up to the feel of warm lips on my neck and sun beaming through the window. I moaned quietly as his breath tickle my neck.
"Babe, you need to get up." He murmured from my neck. I groaned.
"Five minutes," I whispered and he brought his mouth to mine. He kissed me roughly and passionately and I easily complied. His chest pressed to mine and I slowly inhaled through my nose, taking in his scent.
"Mmm, I might just start sleeping in more often if I get woken up like this every morning." I chuckled as he pulled away.
'Who said he was gunna be here every morning.' Darcy hissed as I physically tensed.
'That is none of your concern Darcy,' I growled in response trying to focus on Dimitri.
'It's my concern when you're lusting after the enemy!' She snapped back.
'It didn't seem to bug you the other night so shut up Darcy,' I growled pushing on the restraints that held her, she wince but growled.
"Rose, what's the matter?" Dimitri asked, looking genuinely worried. I smiled.
"Nothing love, my thoughts just got away from me, now shoo I need to get changed, I'll meet you for breakfast." I said, kissing his cheek before pushing him up and out the door.
I leaned against the door and sighed, sliding down slightly, time to restart the day. Time to take another step in life with my love standing at my side, or so I hope.