"Can we stay like this forever?" Allie asks the next morning as she lies on her stomach with her blonde hair fanned out around her. Bea can only describe her as an angel, with the sunlight casting a beautiful warmth on her face. She smiles as she runs her fingers through her partner's soft blonde locks as she lies on her side and rests her head on her other hand; propped up by her elbow.
"I wish, but Debbie will probably be back any minute so you should get changed" she tries to reason with the younger woman and it works much to Allie's disappointment.
"Fine, I'm gunna jump in the shower. You owe me" she points to the older woman still in bed with a frown on her face.
"Trust me, I'll make it worth your while" the redhead winks and the younger woman groans as she walks into the bathroom.
"You're a tease Bea Smith" she shouts through the door. All the older woman can do is bite her lip and bury her head in her pillow. Just then she sees Allie's phone light up. She looks over and sees Kaz's name flash up over and over again until it stops; recording that was the fifth time she had tried to call. Bea sighs. She didn't want them to fall out over her. Sure she knows hers and Kaz's relationship will never be a close one, but that doesn't mean she wants Allie to lose her. She understands what the older blonde has done for her girlfriend, and that's a bond too tight to break over her stupid low self- esteem.
Allie walks out of the en-suite ten minutes later with her hair damp dressed in a baggy top and booty shorts. Bea can't get enough of her girlfriend, and when she wears shorts like the ones she's got on now her heart skips a beat.
"Kaz called" Bea pushes back her hunger for the blonde and focuses on the serious subject.
"That's nice" Allie replies casually as she slumps back down on the bed. Bea sighs as she rolls onto her right side and rests her head on her hand.
"Babe. Come on. She might have said some things you don't agree with but she was only looking out for you. She's probably worried sick, just call her" she tries to reason with the blonde. Before Allie can argue the front door opens and closes. Debbie walks into the house and makes herself a bowl of cereal before walking up to Allie's room and knocking on the door.
"Are you awake?" She asks.
"Yeah honey we're awake" Bea answers and sees the handle move but the door doesn't open.
"Are you naked?" A second question comes through the door and the blonde starts laughing.
"We're fully clothed kiddo, get in here" she answers and the door finally opens.
"Morning campers" the young brunette walks in with her cereal and climbs onto the bed; settling herself in between the couple. Bea whispers something into Debbie's ear and Allie frowns.
"You need to call Kaz" Debbie looks the blonde directly in the eye and the blonde rolls her eyes.
"Seriously? That's the card you're gunna play?" She asks over Debbie's head towards the redhead and she shrugs.
"Is it working?" She replies and Allie has both sets of chocolate brown eyes on her.
"Yes fine. I'll do it once I've eaten. Speaking of food, where's my cereal?" She questions the young girl and in reply she holds the spoon full of Cheerios out for the blonde to take. Allie leans in and puts the spoon in her mouth; smirking as she chews on her mouthful.
"Anyway how's Mia?" Bea asks.
"In pain. I ended up sleeping on the floor after she hit her toe against me three times in the night. We swapped places in bed but then she kept moving so I gave up and went on the floor. You should have seen her though when they had to re-break the toe to set it in place. She was so drugged up she was talking so much crap. A solid thirty minutes about cheese at one point" Debbie explains with a giggle as she recalls yesterday's events. Bea just shakes her head and grins.
"Anyway did you have a good evening? You all made up now?" She asks.
"We're all good now and yeah we just chilled really. Didn't really wanna go out with all these bruises. We saved you some goodies we baked yesterday" Allie replies with a smile and Debbie looks up at her.
"I'm sorry for what my dad done, and now my uncle. Just wish this court case would hurry up and we can get away from them" Debbie sighs and Bea runs her fingers through her daughter's hair.
"So do we. But it will happen, and it will be over"
"What if it doesn't go our way? What if I end up with him?" Debbie looks up at her mum with fear evident in her eyes and the redhead is lost for words. What if the worst does happen? What if she loses her daughter? Allie can sense that the older woman is stuck for words, so takes over.
"That isn't going to happen. Franky won't let that happen, the case she has been building leaves no room for him to get out of this. You are staying right here, and he is not going to ruin this. You're stuck here kiddo" the blonde ruffles the young girls brunette locks and leans in to kiss the side of her head. Bea's heart swells at the sight, and fights back the tears as she nods in agreement.
"She's right. Don't worry about it, it will all work out" she pats Debbie's knee and smiles encouragingly at her.
"Love you" the brunette declares.
"Love you too" Bea smirks and Debbie looks up at Allie.
"Rude, don't say it back then" she says jokingly but Allie's eyes widen slightly before the biggest grin forms on her face.
"I love you too" she says and catches her girlfriend quickly wipe a tear from the corner of her eye.
"Can I ask a question?" Debbie breaks the silence.
"What is it?"
"Why is there egg on the kitchen wall?" She asks with a frown; sending both women into a fit of laughter.
"Long story Debbie. Don't ask" the older woman manages to answer and winks over at her girlfriend.
"I done it. She's coming over in an hour. Happy?" Allie pops her head around the kitchen door as Bea left her to call Kaz.
"Yes I am" Bea looks up from her sketchbook and smirks.
"Whatcha drawing?" The blonde walks closer and expects her girlfriend to shut her book. But she doesn't.
"Oh just a person" she shrugs and for the first time shows Allie her drawing. The younger woman had only seen the seahorse sketch Bea had done for her birthday, so had some kind of idea of how good she was. But she didn't expect this. Her eyes grow as wide as saucepans as she sees herself staring back at her.
"Bea… This is insane" she admires as she picks the pad up and examines it up close.
"Like it?" She asks.
"Like it? I look better on paper than I do real life" she giggles. She goes to turn the page but looks at Bea for permission.
"Go for it" she answers, feeling incredibly nervous. Debbie is the only one that has seen her drawings, as it's something so sacred to her. It's one of the last things she has that Harry hasn't tainted. She watches Allie's face as it brightens at every sketch she views. Allie can't believe her eyes. Her girlfriend is incredibly talented to say the least.
"Babe these are amazing, the detail is phenomenal. Why don't you pursue this?" She asks and the redhead just shrugs her shoulders.
"It's just a hobby to me. I don't think I could draw for a living, it's something I do to express myself. It's a personal thing you know?" She tries to explain and Allie seems to get it. She puts the sketch pad back on the table and pulls the older woman to her feet; connecting their lips. Bea responds instantly, wrapping her arms around the blonde's neck. She pulls away too quickly for Allie's liking but rests her forehead against the younger woman's.
"I'm going to head out and do some shopping. Give you and Kaz some space" she pushes Allie's soft blonde locks behind her ear and kisses the frown that forms on her forehead.
"Besides I think it will be best if I'm not here. Not that Kaz would really care if I overheard anything else she has to say about me" Bea slightly giggles but Allie's frown doesn't disappear.
"Come on Allie, hear her out and then decide. Put your big girl pants on and suck it up" she lightly pats the blonde's cheeks before grabbing her jacket and her keys.
"Bye baby" she calls out over her shoulder and walks out the door; leaving Allie alone with her thoughts. Does she really want to do this? Kaz is like a mum to her, and despite her being bang out of order she saved her life. She takes a deep breath before heading upstairs to make herself look more presentable.
"Can I get you a drink?" She offers Kaz as she walks through the door.
"Erm just a glass of water thankyou" she answers as she takes her jacket off. The older woman never thought she would see the day where she felt awkward around Allie. But she has no idea what to do, or say. She hangs her jacket on the back of the chair and sits down, smiling when Allie hands her a glass before sitting opposite her.
"So how are you?" Allie asks out of courtesy.
"I've been good. I've been worried though, you haven't answered my calls" she runs her finger around the rim of the glass.
"Yeah well you were kinda the reason I had my heart broken so… didn't really fancy a chat" Allie bites back but slightly regrets it when she sees the hurt in Kaz's eyes.
"I know, and I'm sorry Allie. But please believe me when I say that I was only looking out for you. I didn't want to see you get caught up in something that could have sent you back to that time. But I can see now that you won't. Are you and Bea…?" She trails off, hoping she hasn't put her foot in it.
"We sorted everything out Friday. Physically she might be tough Kaz but mentally… she has no self- confidence so when people fill her head with shit like what you said, it takes her back to him. I thought you cared about women? Would you not want to help her, regardless what she means to me?" Allie questions.
"I do, of course I do and I do want to help her. No woman should be subjected to violence at the hands of anyone. But I guess I just let my bond with you get in the way and I panicked when I saw you that night. It took me back to that night when you walked in to the shelter" Kaz explains and that seems to make Allie realise what Kaz's motive was behind her outburst.
"She's not bad for me, Kaz. I do deserve a relationship like ours. You have no idea how happy I am with her, she makes me feel like living through all that shit was worth it you know? And her daughter is amazing, she's just like Bea. She's going to grow up and make something of her life, I know it. She's such a smart girl, Kaz" Allie gushes and the older blonde just watches her as her smile grows bigger and bigger as she continues her story.
"What?" The younger blonde asks as she sees Kaz give her an odd look.
"You really love her don't you?"
"I do. I really do. I've never felt like this before. I just wish you would accept it" Allie sighs. Before she can comprehend her movements, Kaz reaches forward and grabs Allie's hand.
"I do. And I'm going to help in whatever way I can. You just say the word and I will make it happen" she squeezes her hand and Allie smiles.
"thankyou Mumma" she grins and Kaz lets out a breath she doesn't realise she's holding. Allie stands up and walks around to Kaz's side; instantly falling onto her lap and hugging her. Kaz kisses the side of her head and rocks her gently; something she used to do when Allie was struggling.
"I'm always here for you, you're always my number one. I'm sorry I caused so much shit" Kaz apologises.
"It's done now, everything has been sorted. I'm sorry I ignored you" Allie replies.
"Don't apologise, you were hurting. I understand" the older blonde responds and continues playing with Allie's blonde locks.
Bea and Debbie return fifteen minutes after Kaz leaves with bags of shopping. They walk into the kitchen and put the bags on the floor; Debbie heading to her room while Bea puts the food away.
"Hey the hot stuff" the blonde calls from the doorway; undressing the redhead with her eyes.
"Hey, how did it go?" The older woman turns around and looks at her girlfriend.
"Good. Great actually. We cleared the air and we've moved past it" Allie grins and walks towards Bea; wrapping her arms around her waist before moving her hands down to cup her arse.
"I'm glad" the redhead replies and cups her cheek, bringing her in for a soft kiss.
"Thankyou, for pestering me into calling her" the blonde smiles.
"No need to thank me. She's your mum, Allie. Blood or not and I couldn't be the person who ruined that"
"I love you, so much" Allie breathes out.
"And I love you too. To the moon and back" the redhead winks before kissing her lover again. Just before things get heated, Debbie's voice filters through the room.
"Now we have food, what's for dinner?"
Thought I would get a chapter up before I luckily get to meet the Queen herself tomorrow! Let me know what you think, as always I love hearing your thoughts :)