So much for updating more _ xD I'm so so so so sorry. College this semester is kicking my ass so I've barely had time to sit down and write (at least write things that weren't school related). But during spring break, I had some time (who needs to party xD) and I sat down and wrote out like 5 chapters and then last night I wrote out about 10 more out of the blue. I've been missing fanfiction. So I am back, hopefully for good :D

Disclaimer: I own nothing. The great SM created this lovely world. I just play with her characters :D

Edward

While Bella and Rosalie we're still upstairs getting ready, Jasper, Jake, and I were playing greeters as we tried to keep the little ones entertained. Mac, my little angel, was fast asleep in my arms so I didn't have to do nothing more than rock her a couple times.

However little Jack and Eli, we're bundles of mass energy and wanted nothing more than to run around and touch everyone and everything.

I found it funny and cute all at the same time.

"Just wait until she learns how to walk," Jake warned. "You'll be chasing her down the block."

Oddly enough, I looked forward to that.

"Edward," Angela whispered.

I smiled at her but it quickly turned into a frown, "What's wrong?"

"So, uh...Ice bitch is here," Angela whispered in my ear.

"Which one?" I knew several of them.

"The Queen of Ice bitches."

I paled, "Irina?"

I haven't seen or heard from her since I left rehab. After Bella barged into the apartment and nearly knocked her teeth out, I left.

Irina, of course, tried to visit me in rehab but I put her on the block list. Irina was poisonous, no I'm not exactly pushing all the blame on her but she wasn't someone who would help me stay clean.

In fact...

I trailed off with a grimace.

"Why is she here?"

"She came with someone from Rosalie's family," Angela shrugged.

"What a great family member," Jasper growled. "Why the fuck would he do that?"

"Well, he is a journalist so it's not hard to guess." Maria piped in.

"He's a what?"

"Yea, he works with 'People'."

Just fucking great. I'm sure he brought her along to get a good story. I'm sure the next cover would feature Bella killing her or some kind of rumor that I was still holding onto the relationship Irina and I had.

eye-fucking-roll.

We never had a relationship. Not gonna lie, I did fuck her but that's it. No more and no less.

"Just stay away from her," Angela said. "I swear I will string you up by your balls if you..."

I chuckled.

Like Bella, Angela was like a little kitten when she was mad, it was adorable.

"I might do it anyway." She grumbled, elbowing me.

"What did he do now?" Bella asked amused.

"Uh...I have to go...take Jackson to the potty, Come on, buddy." Jasper bailed with Jackson in tow.

"Might as well go along," Jake said, escorting Aiden and Eli away.

I looked down at Mac, who was fast asleep in my arms.

I couldn't exactly use the 'I have to take my little one to the bathroom' excuse.

"Not so fast," Bella glared. "What's going on?"

"Irina is here," Leah grimaced.

"Say what?" Rosalie nearly shouted. "What is that bitch doing at my wedding?"

"Dylan invited her," Tanya whispered.

"That fucking punk," Rosalie fumed. "Who invited him?"

"Honey, he's family..." Jodie tried to reason.

"He's an asshole who works for 'People'. I have several clients here today, mom. Famous clients who want to be able to relax and let loose without ending up on the front page of a gossip magazine." Rosalie turned red in anger, I almost expected steam to come out of her ears.

"It's just one day, I'm sure they'll manage," Jodie soothed. "Let's just get through this, okay?"

"It's okay, Rose," Bella said. Our eyes met and I could see that she was terrified, angry as well, but I could see the terror overpowering the anger. My shoulders slumped knowing that she was scared that Irina would get to me, again. "Don't worry about her. It's your big day!"

Rose searched Bella's eyes and then glanced at me. Her blue eyes narrowed as she gave me a silent message. I gave a stiff nod and looked down at Mac.

Irina wasn't the one who forced drugs up my nose. She may have given the idea to someone to help me get to that point but It was me who did it. I hate her but I've stopped blaming her...well, I'm working on that with my therapist. Isn't as easy as you'd think it would be. I'm not going to lie, I did want to drink...a lot just thinking about having to spend an evening with her but those other urges weren't strong.

"Okay...okay, let's get this show on the road."

I walked inside real quick to give Mackenzie to my mom who sat with Sue and Charlie and then returned to Bella.

The wedding ceremony went very well. We walked down the aisle at the appropriate times and shared laughs as Eli and Jackson came down. The flower girls that Rose had at first got sick and were unable to make it so Eli and Jackson were more than happy to take over. They had a blast throwing flowers around. It was hard not to grin at them, especially when they started picking up the flowers they dropped and throwing them down in a different spot.

When Rosalie walked down the aisle, we all stared at her in awe. She looked beautiful and very happy. My mom was in tears by the time Emmett took Rose's hand. The boring part-great best man, aren't I?- their vows went by without a hitch. And then they were pronounced Man and Wife. They kissed while the rest of us cheered, or cried in my mom's case.

I've never found weddings fun, even as a little kid I would sit there and stare on in boredom. I tried to muster up the right enthusiasm but it was boring. Don't get me wrong, I was incredibly happy for my brother and Rose.

And a bit envious.

I just think about Bella and I. How If I never messed up, this could be us right now...

It can still be us with some work. I knew that if I were to propose today, she would probably say no to me. Not that I blame her. It hurt to think about but I did bring this upon myself.

One day...

One day we'd get here.

I should just be lucky that she took my sorry ass back.

The bridal party and parents posed for various pictures while the rest of the guests were escorted to the reception hall. It didn't escape my notice that Irina lingered with Rosalie's cousin.

She winked when she saw me staring. Well, I wasn't staring, I was glaring at her. But guess she can't tell the difference...

Once we were in the safety of the reception hall, Irina was far away from where we were seated and I was pleased. Mackenzie was up and smiling. I won the fight to hold onto her first, Bella second, and then whoever else afterwards-I didn't pay attention after I had Mac in my arms.

"You know, I'm still going to fight to hold you on your wedding day," I told her, poking her chubby little cheeks. "My girl forever, promise me. Pinky promise..." I wrapped my pinky around hers and her eyes snapped to my face.

During the father daughter dance, I got up and danced with Mackenzie. Bella looked at me with dark teary eyes and smiled brightly at me while she snapped a couple photos with her phone.

One our daughter daddy dance ended, I finally passed Mackenzie to Angela and went to my other girl.

"May I have a dance, beautiful?"

"I suppose so," she grinned, taking my hand.

I took us to the dance floor. Bella wrapped her arms tightly around my neck and mine rested on her waist. We swayed back and forth to Trading Yesterdays 'May I'.

"Having fun so far?" I asked.

"mhm," she hummed. "Despite the unwanted guests..." she grimaced. "I'm still doing well. you?"

"I get to dance with two of the most gorgeous girls so yes, I'm having a great time."

"Flattery will get you everywhere, Mr. Cullen."

I chuckled.

"Don't...don't take this the wrong way but..." Bella trailed off, biting her bottom lip nervously, "I mean, do you feel anything for her?" She refused to look at me.

"Irina?" I guessed without missing a beat.

Bella nodded, still not looking at me.

"Nope. Nothing Good, at least." I answered honestly. "I hate her...but I can't blame her."

"I can." Bella glowered. "This would've never happened had she not been so fucking evil."

"Maybe...Maybe not." I said. "Tyler was our opening act anyway..."

"Never mind," Bella cut me off quickly. "Let's not go...there. I was just curious..cause...cause I can see that she does love you. Whenever she looks at you, that's all I see and I...I wanna punch her in the face." Bella laughed. "I'm so violent today, first with Renee and now with her."

"Hey, punch whomever," I said. "I'll hold your jewelry."

"Don't encourage me." She giggled, laying her head on my chest. "I love you."

"I love you too," I said, pulling her closer. "More than my own life."

When the song ended, it was time for the throwing of the bouquet and garter. I wasn't even standing with the guys but Emmett still managed to slingshot me in the face with Rosalie's garter. I flipped him the bird but continued to laugh.

Rosalie's bouquet landed in Angela's awaiting hands. She looked a little saddened but smiled nonetheless.

After that, we cut the cake. Emmett was threatened but Emmett being Emmett, still shoved the cake in Rosalie's face and then licked it off. Rosalie was livid...for about five seconds before she started laughing and smeared some on his face.

And then, when Eli and Jackson had cake they decided to smear it on whomever was close enough- Jasper was one of the victims and Tanya was another.

The night went pretty well but what's a wedding without a little drama?

The night was winding down, people were starting to say their goodbyes and whatnot. Mackenzie was getting fussy and smelly so I took her and went to change her while Bella danced with Maria and Angela.

I didn't realize I was being followed until I turned to go into the bathroom and caught her blonde hair.

"What the..."

Irina stopped and smiled at me, "Hey, Edward."

"Why are you following me?"

"I may be going to the bathroom," she smirked, nodding to the woman's room. "But I did want to talk to you..."

"I don't want to talk to you."

"Well too bad, you already are," she grinned cockily and I rolled my eyes.

"Just leave me alone, Irina."

"Edward, what we had..."

I stopped her, "We had nothing...nothing at all."

"Oh really?"

"Really, me and you...there was never anything. I kept you around to fuck and thats that."

Her jaw clenched. "I took care of you, I loved you!"

"You poisoned me just to do so."

"I didn't do anything," she said innocently. "I didn't make you take the drugs so get over it."

"You gave the idea..."

"Says who?" she demanded. "It's not my fault that Tyler was a druggie and its not my fault that you were weak."

"You're right," I said. "But that changes nothing. You're still a bitch and I still will never love you."

"You don't mean that..."

"I love Bella."

Irina stepped closer, "She's nothing. She doesn't know what it was like when you were on drugs. I do, I was there. And I stood by you..."

"First of all, you delusional bitch. Bella went through worse. I broke her, and I'm so fucking lucky that she took me back..."

"That makes her just as weak as you," Irina spat. "You have nothing in common, nothing at all. I mean, what the fuck does she want you for? You look good but that's about all you got going for you. And one day, One day she'll leave you for a newer better model and I'll be all you have left."

"You're pathetic."

"I guess we're all in the same boat," she smirked.

"Get away from him," Bella's cold voice sounded from behind Irina. Irina whirled around with wide eyes and stepped closer. I took a few steps back. "You have a lot of nerve..."

"I was going to the bathroom, that's it." Irina laughed. "God you two are so paranoid. Still on drugs, I presume. Did he rope you in as well?" She shook her in disappointment and then glanced at Mac. "Poor little baby..."

"Babe, take Mackenzie back to the reception," I said.

"What?"

Irina smirked.

"It's okay, I can handle this."

Bella glowered at me unhappily but took Mackenzie from my arms. Instead of going back to the party, she went into the bathroom instead.

"Listen here, Irina. I don't give a shit what you 'thought' we had, nothing is going to happen in the future. Bella and Mackenzie are my future, not you."

"We'll see about that," Irina said. "She'll wise up one day..."

"If I'm so fucked up that someone as great as Bella will leave me, why the fuck do you want me?" I asked. "That's pathetic." Anger flashed in her eyes.

"I'm pathetic? Says the guy who doesn't know how to say no to drugs." she scuffed.

I realized something just then and smirked. "You just want me around because it makes you feel better."

"Excuse me?"

"You heard me." I laughed. "That's cute."

"You don't know shit."

"Sure, I don't."

"Fuck you," she spat

"I'm sure you want to," I replied cockily. I knew my assumption was right. I was a train wreck when we were "together". It made her feel better about herself, made her feel superior.

That's why she wants me back.

"Enjoy your life," she growled. "At least enjoy the time you have left because this fairytale life you think you have...it's going to come crashing down before your eyes. Just you watch."

With that, she turned and stormed away.

I may have gotten to her but...she had definitely gotten to me as well.

How long do I have before the walls I tried to build up around my 'perfect little life with Bella' come crashing down again?

ohhh, I wonder what's coming :o I promised no angst but that doesn't mean there can't be a couple bumps in the road. After All Bella and Edward still have a looooong recovery road ahead. I hope you stay with me to see this :)

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