Hello babyeeeeee! How has life been. Man, I think god doesn't want me to have a good phone. See even the new phone I have for some strange reason is not charging. UGH I FUCKING HATE THIS!

Whatever. I am on with the story. Oh and I have decided to write the nasty, smutty fanfic for Jake and Ness because I want to write something… sexy. Lol.

To the story.

Chapter 25 no life without you

*Jacob*

Life is going so very awesome. I mean I had my girl, I was back home on the couch with Ness, paul and rachael. And let me just say my sister, well she was in her last month and I will admit she was scarier than any supernatural being I have ever met.

"PAUL! WHAT THE FUCK IS WRONG WITH YOU? HUH? I FUCKING HATE YOU, I ASKED FOR ONE GOD DAMN THING, A MOTHERFUCKING COOKIE AND YOU STILL HAVENT COME BACK! UGH" she threw a pillow at Paul. I could hear it as it hit him, lot of force behind it.

I heard her crying, yep crying.

"I am so sorry Paul. You know I love you it's just my hormones are out of whack. You mean the world to me and I love you but sweetheart while I am still sane, I think it would be best if you leave before I go all psycho and kill you. I will call you back when I feel better" said Rachael. She sounded sad and Paul, although you could tell he was wore out walked in real slow showing that he missed her. That is one of the things about imprinting. It is so freaking pure that no matter how much your imprint may piss you off you can't help but love her and always want to be around her.

Paul walked out of the room and looked tired as shit.

"Hey how is Rachael?" I whisper laugh, which is really hard, so I settle for chuckling. Why do I chuckle? Two reasons, one Rachael is fucking insane and will beat me for laughing at her husband. Two Nessie is laying with her head in my lap and if I move to much I might move her head. She is way too close to my manhood for me to allow that. I don't know what the hell has been up but ever since we got back to La Push, we have been seeming a lot more like the sex crazed teenagers we pretend to be. We always took our make out sessions to far, we had began groping and touching and damn I was getting a little too excited just thinking about our last make out session. I had just settled for stroking her bronze hair causing her to smile in her sleep and hug me.

I didn't know if she was reading my mind but I just told her that I loved her anyway. She beamed brighter but I could tell she was still asleep.

"Bro, Jake? Are you even listening?"

"Huh? What you say?"

"Of course you didn't hear me, you were too caught up. That's fine, one day it'll be you. Hell, soon it'll be Embry" said Paul grabbing some chips and sitting down. Shit! I had totally gotten caught up with Ness, as usual, and forgot that she wanted to go visit Van about 30 minutes ago.

I really didn't want to wake her I knew she was tired. We had went to the cliffs yesterday and dived many times. We ran, we hunted and my favorite we made out for hours. We stayed up basically all night, and unlike her I am used to staying up all night. I couldn't wake her up so I just lifter her up, dismissing myself from the house and setting her gently in the car. As soon as I let her go and left her side she began to stir and I could see her arms moving everywhere as if they were looking for me. I smiled and grabbed her and pulled her into my lap. Luckily I am supernatural and an awesome driver so she had no effect on my driving, also hell my dad is best friends with the chief sheriff.

I texted him and he gave me "his and Van's" address. Yes I know, they have only dated for about 4 months but were completely in love. Embry had to tell her because she was on the verge of leaving when she found he kept sneaking out, for patrol when she thought he was cheating. Of course he checked in with me first and I understood. She didn't believe, he had to show her so yes he phased in front of her. He was so scared that she would think he was a freak but Van being one of Ness' weird friends she didn't find it creepy but extremely cool and said that was probably the reason she loved wolves so much. They fell in love more than before of course, they moved into a small property that Esme helped them find and from what I was seeing in Embry's perverted mind they were definitely enjoying themselves. Ewww!

We finally got there and I knew I would have to wake Nessie.

"Ness, Ness sweetheart?"

She woke up with tears in her eyes but a huge grin, so I knew it was happy tears. She had begun to have those tears a lot ever since she had seen "the green eyes" as she called them. I don't know why she was so happy but as long as she was I couldn't help but smile at her.

"Come on Ness, where at Embry and Van's"

"Jake I saw them again. They were so beautiful. I don't know why but they look like yours but green. I love you Jakey." She said. I don't know why but she had begun calling me Jakey. I guess, I just shook my head and pulled her out of the car and into me, she smelled so good. She looked at me and she looked so beautiful. Then all of a sudden… I saw her eyes turn emerald green. I pulled back and then stared at her. What the hell?

"What's wrong Jakey?" I heard her in the background but I couldn't get that beautiful green out of my head. I mean she had showed me through her vision, but I never truly understood until I was looking at them. They were amazing and for some strange reason filled me with happiness. Ness said she only saw the green when she was truly got lost in my eyes, now that I was lost in hers I could see them, and i could totally understand the joy.

"N-N-Ness, I see it. I see the green" I said in a shaky voice. She squealed and jumped on me and the green was gone.

"I'm sorry Jake I know my movement made them go away but I couldn't contain it. Aren't they so lovely?"

I just nodded my head. I guess our visions were slightly different she said they looked like mine, well the one's I saw looked like hers but green with chocolate brown specs. Hmmm.

"RENESMEE!" came a joyous Van hugging Ness as hard as a human could.

"VAN!" she had fully let go of me and was hugging her friend.

"I heard about what happen and Embry tricked me and snuck out so I wouldn't go. I was so angry, oh my god are you ok?" van was crying. Lavanna was a true fried and now their bound to be forever. Here's the thing since Ness is my imprint she is basically loved by everyone. I don't just mean because of her awesome personality. All the pack is bound to protect her because she is mine and therefore, as much as I hate to say it, she is in a way their imprint. They are bound through me to protect her. Since they have a bound with their actual imprints, their imprints automatically have respect for her. Long story short she is like an Alpha but not a werewolf.

"Yes sweetheart I am fine. You look so different" said Ness. She did look different. I think she had her hair pressed, no streaks just pure dark brown. She didn't look so sad, she looked like she was truly happy. Soul mates can do that for ya.

Her and Ness had began to walk into the house, when out popped Embry running to me. He pulled me into a wolf hug. Awww, my dear best friend.

"You know Embry you don't have to hug me so hard I just saw you like four days ago." Once Ness woke up and everyone was assured that she would be okay Embry and Quil left, they had to go see their imprints. Seth was the only wolf that stayed the whole time and just came back with us. He was her best friend and seeing as I knew he didn't have feelings for her I just let it slide.

"So" he waved his hand dismissing it.

"You are still my best friend and the only time I saw you either you were sad because of Ness or I was on suicidal Jake patrol" he said.

I heard a glass break in the house.

DAMN! SHE HEARD THAT!

The next thing I know Ness is in my face looking demonically pissed.

"What did you just say Embry?" she said in a low voice. She was talking to Embry but staring,well glaring at me.

Embry was stuttering so she grabbed him by his collar.

"EMBRY WHAT DID YOU JUST SAY!" oh spirits I am going to die. Well at least this time I died knowing she was safe.

"we were on… um vampire patrol for Jake" she just set him down and closed her eyes and then sighed.

"No you didn't. you said you were on suicidal Jake patrol. Jacob" she said looking back at me, I gulped, "what does that mean? And I want the truth." I wanted to say the cheesy line 'You can't handle the truth' but it would probably get me half vamp slapped. The thing is, Ness can be very scary when it comes to me being hurt. I remember when I was playing at the beach and this chick threw a ball at my head and although it didn't hurt it caught me off guard so it looked like it should have. Ness cussed her out so bad. She grabbed the girl by the collar and told her if she ever hurt me again she would assure that the girl never saw the light of day ever again. The girl literally tried to get a restraining order and almost sent us to court. Yeah, ness can be very scary. I know she would kill me if she found that I tried to kill myself.

Well I was not going to lie to hurt so I guess it is my time. The saddest thing is the time I shot myself it was just that but now I am seeing my life flash before my eyes.

"Ness, when you left I thought you had died because I caught a whiff of your scent mixed with something unknown and I saw your blood. The last thing I heard of you was you telling me that you loved me and that those words were your last words. I thought you had died. Ness you mean the entire world and more to me, so I went insane and… I shot myself in the head. Edward and Carlisle got to me in time and that was that" I sighed and said quickly.

She was quiet for a long time but when she got out of her state she cried and fell to the ground. I tried to touch her but she snarled and almost bit my hand. She got up at vampire speed, picked up a tree and swung it at me.

"WHAT THE HELL NESS? I LIVE HERE!" yelled Embry.

"Get inside now Embry if you don't want this next one to go in YOUR HEAD!" she snarled.

Embry ran inside. Oh spirits.

"JACOB WHAT THE HELL IS WRONG WITH YOU?" she yelled and then ran up to me super fast and smacked me. It hurt slightly. She was mad but she would never purposely hurt me.

She wanted to yell some more, I could tell by the way she kept trying to open her mouth, but she couldn't and just dropped on the floor in fetal position crying.

This time I ignored her snarl and picked her up and carried her off into the woods and held her until she stopped crying.

Jacob why would you? I love you and think about what I would've done had I came back and found you were dead. I really cannot and WILL not live without you. She said through her mind.

"Because Ness you have to imagine if the tables were turned. If I had gone missing and the last thing you heard me say was through our connection, you heard me tell you that I love you one last time, then my voice disappeared for 3 damn months" I was slightly angry but not at her, at the situation. "I don't want you to answer"

Exactly. You don't want me to answer because you can't handle the thought of me killing myself. Jake, this may be hard to understand but even though you imprinted on me doesn't mean that my feelings are not just as strong as yours if not stronger. You are not the only who would not hesitate to give their life for the other. I love you Jake and if the tables were turned I know that I would give my life. I flinched. But that is different my life is not worth yours. You have to stay here, you mean so much to everyone else. I don't mean enough and the only tie I really have to this world is you. You are my life. Even if I did die, my life is not worth you giving yours. She began stroking my arm. I was steaming. I turned her around and she could see the anger in my eyes and began stroking my face to calm me.

"Ness you are intelligent but you are extremely stupid. WHAT THE HELL MAKES YOU THINK THAT I WOULD OR EVEN COULD LIVE WITHOUT YOU? Ness you are right, your life is not worth mine. It's worth so much more. You are my life. Without you I am a body, a dead body" I cupped her face with my hands so that she would know that I am serious.

"Ness, I have been with you since you were born. Other than those three months you have never gone without me. I lived 17 clouded years without you. The day you were born was the day that I saw the light, the day that I had a reason to live. I am not EVER going back to the dark. I refuse to live without you even if I could. You ARE my life, literally. The day you leave this world is the day that, Jacob Black dies because if you leave I am right behind you. Do you hear me?" I said sternly so she knew that there was not one lies in my words. Had I been positive that she was dead I would've shot myself a long time ago.

She had tears in her eyes and she was laying her head on my shoulder. She knows me well enough to know that when I was this serious there was no changing my mind. She nodded but still spoke

But jake I don't want you to leave this world. Please don't ever hurt yourself, no matter what happens to me. Please promise me.

I couldn't promise her any of this. So I just held her and said, "I love you my little bloodsucker, my Renesmee" she cried a little harder. She finally looked up at me and we had one of the most intense make out sessions in the history of make outs.

Spirits, the only way I promise not to leave… is if you never ever take her from me.

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HEY YOU GUYS how is this one. I know it is intense. But I think it really focuses on their love, which I love. The next chapter I think I will make with them back in New York kiddies. IDK. Lovya. Review if you can, it will really help me. Hope you all had a nice Homecoming.

We had some of the family in here. YAH!