Reseme's Story
Chapter 22
Secrets Can Hurt Us Just As Much As The Past
Authors note: So I hope you enjoy this and please feel free to comment or anything. I accept complaints too. Anyway here is the link to the song I suggest you listen to towards the end.
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'The next morning she was gone. I have no idea where she went. She had sat out breakfast like any other day but…I couldn't help but think that her absence had something to do with my stunt last night! Stupid stupid stupid! Why did you have to show your emotions to her! She doesn't understand! You probably only made her feel awkward!' These thoughts all passed through his head as he searched the castle looking for the same person he was thinking about. He had checked almost everywhere! He avoided the kitchen thanks to…issues with the person in charge of the kitchen.
He finally came across a young lady figure that was wearing a blood red dress. 'That has to be Reseme!' He took off into a run to catch up to the girl (She was a fast walker!) "Reseme!" She stiffened before turning to make eye contact with him. Her eyes shining more blue than usual while her hair was in a makeshift twist sort of side ponytail that only made her more beautiful. Her shoulders were out a little due to the way her dress laid on her. Merlin had to admit at that moment he was very attracted to her. He barely heard her speak due to his thoughts and the softness of her voice. "Yes Merlin?" She spoke so softly is scared him. She wasn't smiling as she usually does, she looked weak almost as if she were losing weight. "Oh! I just wanted to see how you were doing." She looked at him only more confused. "I-…I'm doing fine. Why wouldn't I be?" 'Why was she pretending nothing had happened at all last night!' What he did took courage and for her to just blindly let it slip by hurt! "Well I was kind of referring to what happened last night." He noticed when he said that she looked around and down her eyes quickly darting around as though she were making sure no one was listening…though he could see why she would be worried, it didn't sound too appropriate. Which almost made it funny considering how harmless and innocent that one thing was.
"Merlin I'm fine you have nothing to worry about. It's all forgotten." She said calmly but quickly as though she really didn't want to be talking to him. 'What if I don't want to forget?' He thought sadly to himself. "Great! I guess we can just go back to the way we were then, right? No more fighting or arguing just…being friends." He said attempting to seem relieved when really it was just the opposite. "No." She said in a happy tone which caused him to look up the hope evident in his eyes for reasons Reseme didn't understand. "Best friends." She said happily. He nodded giving her a smile "Well I'll let you get back to whatever you were doing then. See you later." She nodded giving him that gentle smile he loved so much….'If only you were mine.'
Reseme dashed through the halls trying to keep all of her work in order when she ran into Gwen. "Oh hi Reseme." Gwen said as friendly as she could muster after the whole issue with Merlin. Reseme didn't like to be mean to anybody not even the people who had hurt her. "Oh hey." She said with a kind smile. "How are you doing?" She asked eagerly enough that Reseme was curious to what she thought she would tell her. "Oh, nothing much. I'm helping Edwin take care of Morgana." She swore she saw a mix of fear and anger cross through Gwen's facial features. "Oh…" 'Great now I'm curious!' Reseme thought frustrated. "What is it?" Gwen shook her head "It's nothing." Reseme rolled her eyes at Gwen's horrible lying skills. "Gwen come on, I know you. What aren't you telling me?" She could tell Gwen was hesitating but she would eventually tell her. "Well…it's really nothing huge. I just…the first day that Edwin was here I tried to help him with Morgana and he told me to leave. I just don't understand why he would want your help more than mine…I didn't mean for that to sound like that! I mean we both have the same job. I don't understand why he is ok with you but not me." Reseme nodded her head thinking through exactly what she wanted to say to Gwen. "Well maybe he could tell you're not trustworthy with any of the knowledge he would bestow to you." She shrugged as though what she had said was no big deal. Gwen didn't seem to understand what she had just said because she looked to her confused "Excuse me?" Reseme gave her as kind a smile she could muster for someone she didn't really consider a friend anymore. "I'm sorry Gwen I have to go." With that she continued her walk to Morgana's chambers.
Reseme rushed into the room worried Edwin would be upset with her for being late! 'There are too many people trying to talk to me!' While Reseme knew there were only two she also knew her schedule and when she left to get places in that time. She wasn't excepting to be stopped twice. She paused when she didn't see Edwin…"Edwin?" There was no response. She walked farther into the room only to discover a sleeping Morgana and no sign of Edwin. "Well Uther wouldn't be happy about this." She said with her hands on her hips. She decided to just do the work on her own, doing exactly as Edwin had taught her. Reseme made sure the fever was down and that Morgana was comfortable before making her way to Edwin's room. She knocked politely before entering only to see Edwin hovering over his lab table. He snapped up when she walked in. "Hey." She said happy to see him. "Hey." He said almost awkwardly. "Is everything ok? I noticed you weren't in Morgana's chamber and just came to check on you." He gave her an eager smile but it slowly faded away as she waked closer. "What are you working on?" She asked curiously. "Oh umm it's nothing really." She rolled her eyes playfully "I'm sure it's fascinating. You haven't bored me yet." She nudged him in the shoulder and that's when he realized exactly how close they were standing. He could feel pieces of her soft silky hair brushing against his face. "Alright I'll make you a deal." She looked to him excitedly. He couldn't help but find it adorable. "If I show you what I'm doing you promise you won't tell another soul?" She nodded with a mischievous smirk on her face. "What could you possibly do that would be so bad you couldn't tell anyone?" He gave her a mischievous smirk of his own "You'll just have to find out."
He showed her the bugs…'I remember those!' Reseme's eyes widened when she realized what they were! "Where did you get those!" She asked in hushed astonishment. "I've had them with me for many years. If I remember correctly I got them at a little market in a druid camp." Reseme was incredibly fascinated by this point…also slightly worried. "A druid camp?" He nodded giving her a relieved smile. "I'm glad I told you." She returned the smile "I'm glad you did too." He pulled her in for a hug…she froze…she didn't know if she was ready to be this close to him…she returned it after realizing it was ok. It felt good to be around other people who used magic.
They both froze when they heard the voice behind them. (Start listening to the song now) "You know he's lying to you right?"…Reseme knew that voice! "Merlin?" She turned to look at the figure in the doorway confused. "Hi Reseme." His voice was stone cold. He showed no emotion as he walked up to the two of them. "Merlin what are you talking about?" Reseme asked feeling the dread bubble up inside her. "Yes he has magic, but he doesn't use it like the better of us do. While you have been blinded by your fondness of him I found out about the magic a long time ago. Did you know he was the one who made Morgana ill? He was using her to get into a position in the royal court. Which he succeeded at doing when he tried to prove that Gaius was inferior. While he didn't save Morgana he had everyone including you believing he could by little signs of her waking up. Were you there when he fever broke? Did you know he's already planning to kill the king with those things? Reseme he has been using you this entire time."…'That couldn't be true…surely he wouldn't do that to her.' "Merlin I think there's been some misunderstanding." 'You have to be rational, Merlin looks like he's ready to crack. He's your friend too, they both are! You have to be fair.' "Really? Then why hasn't he said a word yet?" Reseme now noticed this too…he wasn't defending himself. He simply stared at Merlin. His gaze full of hate.
"Edwin?" Her voice was fragile, almost childlike. Edwin couldn't stand the how broken she sounded. He slowly turned to her tears coming to both of their eyes. Both trying to hold back. "Reseme I…" He had no idea what to say to make this alright! "I'm sorry." He said with as much sorrow as he felt. The sorrow only grew when he saw the first tear slide down her face. She didn't move, she just stood there absorbing all the betrayal that he never meant to inflict on her. "I trusted you." She said with such malice that he couldn't think straight! It felt like she had stabbed him in the heart! "Reseme I love you! If you go with me we could start a new life together!" Reseme stared at him in shock…"Reseme don't." That wasn't Merlin's voice…She turned to look to Merlin only to see he was completely emotionless. If anything he looked angry. Gaius came out from behind a podium. "Reseme you can't have a life with him. He's too bitter for love. He would only hurt you in the long run." She didn't want to believe it. She wanted nothing more than to trust him that he would take care of her. That they would take care of each other! But…she couldn't. She knew they were waiting for her to respond. She looked into his eyes and knew that he was truly sorry…but just because you're sorry doesn't mean you'll change.
"I can't." She said softly. Her voice breaking within the two words. Neither broke eye contact. Only watched how much pain the other was in. Gaius and Merlin looked to each other having a silent conversation before Merlin nodded. Gaius looked up before speaking deeply. "Abea." Reseme snapped her gaze to Gaius. She glared furiously at him for doing this! Edwin almost felt a smile come to his face when he saw Reseme get mad at Gaius. For he knew why. They both knew that the spell was wrong. Gaius had messed up. "That's almost funny, you know if you hadn't taken the women I love away from me. He reached his hand out before saying "I think what you meant to say was abeo." Gaius flew into the same podium he had been hiding behind moments ago! Reseme watched in despair as she heard the grunt of pain that came from Gaius! Merlin glared at Edwin before shouting "Volant!"
Reseme cringed when she heard the crunch knowing that someone had been somewhat injured. She had no idea what to do! She didn't want anyone to get hurt but she couldn't get her voice back! It was as though her mouth was glued shot. The ball wadding up in her throat to keep her from crying only brought more unnecessary pain. She turned to see Edwin smirking mischievously just as he had moments ago when everything was fine. "Ignis gyrus." It sent chills down her spine the way he said it. She wasn't expecting it even though she knew what would happen, what does words would do. She looked up alarmed when she saw the circle of flames surround Gaius and Merlin! She looked up to him hopelessly hoping he would just stop! He looked down to her the tears stinging his sorrow filled eyes. The conversation was brief but understood. "Please don't do this." She could hear Edwin's voice reply in her head "I'm sorry." With that the conversation was caught off as she saw the axe go into him chest…'Pain is not a feeling that slowly creeps up. It stays…and it doesn't leave. It's a searing feeling in your heart that will never leave. It's something you have to deal with it the rest of your life.'
Reseme collapsed onto the floor next to him…she cradled his head on her lap watching her tears fall onto his face. "I'm sorry." She whispered into his ear hoping he would somehow hear. She felt Merlin and Gaius put their hands on her and slowly pull her up. She slowly turned her eyes completely dull of emotion before slowly walking past them and taking that magical box the two had fawned over in her hands as she slowly walked to Morgana's chambers. She did exactly as she had been taught. She imagined their moments in that room. The laughter and bright smiles. She imagined him helping her say the spell and guide her hands to where they both knew the bug would come out. She imagined him hand on her shoulder as he told her she did a good job. It brought a sad smile to her face. She made sure to stay until Morgana woke up. She allowed herself to be enveloped in a warm hug from her friend who she had gone through so much for. "I missed you." She whispered before going to inform the family of the good news. She slowly made her way through the castle to her room. Not even bothering to change as she crawled into bed allowing all of the tears to finally fall and the pain to finally make its way fully into her heart. "Goodbye Edwin." She mumbled looking up to the window. Hoping that somewhere he could hear and know he was loved.
Authors note: So hope you enjoyed it! Personally one of my favorite chapters. So I will talk to you again later this week. Also since I have hit over 1500 views on this story I would like to do something special for you guys. Feel free to Private Message me or Review the story telling me what you would like me to write. I'm literally up for almost anything! I will just state now I won't do detailed sex and personally am not comfortable doing it in general. So anyway, I will try to combine the requests I get. If I don't get any I suppose I either will make something up on my own (which I don't consider as special) or I just won't do it (well that's no fun!).
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