Ch. 25: The Sun is Setting
OKAY I'M SORRY I'M SORRY I'M SORRY!!! FORGIVE ME!!! PERSONAL BUSINESS KEPT ME FROM INTERNET!!!
"Temari, now you're just being unreasonable," Kankuro said, standing up. "We have all the time to see Gaara. Let her have at least a few minutes with him. It's only fair."
Temari tapped her nails on her arm, not liking the idea of this at all. But she sighed in agitation, "Fine, ten minutes, and that's it." She stood up, and the two siblings left.
"Th-thank you," she said as the door closed. She silently sat down beside Gaara's bed. He still lay motionless, except for his breathing chest. Kazakii averted her gaze away from his tightly bandaged wrists. "G-Gaara…" she whispered, lightly touching his hand. He didn't even flinch. "I know you probably can't hear me, but…maybe when you wake up…" she looked up at his face. She sighed, "I don't know how you could ever think I would hurt you like that…" Kazakii wrapped her fingers around Gaara's open hand, "Because I would never dream of doing that to you…Kelo…I can't even describe how terrible of a person he is…he forced that kiss on me. You won't believe me…" her head snapped up once she said that. "No…you will believe me… Gaara, you can't truly think I would kiss that bastard willingly, do you? Do you really think I would do that? Why would I? Obviously I'd choose you over him any day!" She paused. "Ya know what, I should be mad at you…No…I'm not mad…I'm disappointed…how could you think I would do something that horrible?" She paused, and began stroking his fingers. "I guess I can't completely blame you…It was more than noticeable that I had a crush on him before, and I guess no matter what happens, we keep those crushes, even if it's just a small fragment…" Her head dropped, "Please, Gaara, just wake up…just wake up…" She lifted up her head, and began to pray with eyes shut tight, "Dear God…please…let Gaara wake up…let him understand…let him know how I feel…let him know that I love him with all my heart and I wouldn't hurt him to save my own life…"
"Looks like he doesn't have to…" a weak voice said.
Kazakii's eyes snapped open. "GAARA!" she yelled, automatically tears running down her cheeks. She flung herself on him, hugging him around his neck. "Oh my God…" she said in between sobs, "I thought I was gonna lose you!"
"I felt the same way…"
"Gaara, h-how much did you hear?"
"All of it."
"R-Really? Wh-what was the first thing you heard?" she asked to be sure.
"You thought I couldn't hear you." Kazakii put her head in the crook of Gaara's neck and shoulder and cried even harder. He raised one of his hands to pet her hair, trying to calm her down. "That stupid bastard tried to lay a move on ya?"
"S-so you do believe me?" she looked up at him. He nodded.
"It's sounds like something he would do…"
"But then why…" she quickly covered her mouth, realizing the start of her stupid remark.
He sighed, already knowing what she was going to say. "I didn't think things through…and…I haven't had the most fabulous life…"
"G-Gaara…have you done this before?" Kazakii was afraid to ask, but knew she had to.
He silently nodded. "But not to kill myself…just to…relieve the pain…"
"How long?" she whispered, trying not to show her massive fear/concern/worry.
"…A few months before I moved…" Kazakii began to cry again, and hugged Gaara even tighter. "Kazakii…my life was terrible…and once I met you…I lost the need to…you made my life so much better…you made it worthwhile…that's why when I thought I lost you…" he stopped.
"You felt…you lost reason to be?" she said, looking up, a hint of anger in her voice.
"Y-yes," he admitted.
"Gaara…" she shook her head. "Do you know how many times that happens every day to other couples? Too many! And when it does, the guy or the girl doesn't go run off and cut themselves! They face the problem, or at least they should!"
"Kazakii, I told you, I've had a terrible life-"
"That doesn't matter! Gaara, if you truly lose hope to live, that just means you're weak! Especially over something like this!" Clearly Kazakii had gone from sad and scared to angry and dissapointed. A few days ago, she would have never guessed that Gaara would give in to depression so easily.
"B-but, Kazakii…I love you so much-"
"And I love you, but you can't go to such lengths if something like that happens! Did you even think once what would happen to everyone else if you died?!" Gaara stared, dumbfound into Kazakii's eyes. "Your brother and sister maybe? They'd never get over it! Suicide doesn't just kill one person, it kills so many others! In their heart! I've seen one person kill themselves, then close family members are soon to go! It's because their heart can't deal with the loss! And I can promise you, I would never have gotten over it, either! Neither would Mirra or Akail! Oh my god, Gaara, I can't even imagine, I don't want to!" she rapidly shook her head. She stopped and looked to the side. "Gaara…I want you to know…that…I love you…I do…but…"
He looked down, "You want to break up, don't you? I don't blame you…"
"There you go again, jumping to conclusions. I thought we might have been hinted that when we do that, really bad things happen?" Kazakii pushed his face to her direction. "But listen to me. I think…we should just take a break, not break up, but just take a break. We don't see anyone else, but we don't see each other. That would be best. You, and maybe your siblings…have some issues you need to deal with. Whether you see a psychiatrist or not, that's up to you three. But I cannot be with you unless you do something about these problems. They don't go away. You have to face them and find the resolution. Do you understand?"
Gaara stared at her with his icy blue eyes. "Yes, Kazakii…I do…and you're right…" She leaned over and softly brushed his lips with a kiss. "And you promise we'll be together again?" he asked softly, once lips parted.
"Do cows say moo?"
He smiled with sadness in his soul as he watched her leave.
End Chapter, please review!
(A/N: I got a review talking about Gaara and his 'eye-liner', and I can't believe I have to explain, but I guess I will. Of course I know that he has it because of insomnia, but this is a real life story. Gaara doesn't have Shukaku.)