Chapter 25
They lay together in bed and talked, expressing all the feelings they had been keeping inside. Alyx didn't tell Cas the details of what the Kitsune had shown her brothers, but she did express to him all the emotions she had avoided for most of her life, even feelings she hadn't shared with Sam and Dean.
Cas shared how he felt about all that had happened since he first pulled Dean out of Hell, speaking of the emotions that he rarely shared with Sam and Dean, or anyone.
They felt that they could truly share everything with each other, the good and the bad, without fear or shame. They began to speak of what comes next, neither of them having any experience with relationships and very little experience with love.
"Maybe we take it slow," suggested Alyx hesitantly "move into the same room when we get back to the bunker, go on the occasional date?"
"Is that what you want?" asked Cas.
"I don't know," replied Alyx. "All that moving in together and dating and stuff is what normal people do. I mean, taking time to be sure you want to be together and all that 'getting to know each other' stuff."
"But I already know you," said Cas. "I don't need to take any time to be sure I want to be with you. But if you need to take some time to be sure being with me is what you want, we can 'date'. I don't want to push you into anything you're not comfortable with." Cas looked so concerned, it made her heart melt.
Alyx lifted up holding Castiel's face in her hands, looking him directly in the eye, "You are NOT pushing me into anything. I know you, and I absolutely want to be with you. I have never been more sure of anything in my life."
Cas looked up into Alyx's eyes, "Then marry me. That is what humans do when they want to spend their lives with together, I want to spend my life with you. Do you want to spend your life with me?"
"Yes, I want to spend my life with you," answered Alyx with tears in her eyes, "and yes, I will marry you!" Alyx leaned down and kissed Cas.