Chapter 25
I have a new fear of cars. I rather walk now instead of driving. Ever since that accident, I've been very nervous. Sometimes I'll wake up from nightmares screaming about the accident.
Usually, Peeta calms me down but sometimes he has to leave for work early in the morning. So when that happens, I get Makayla and we sleep in my bed.
I'm still shocked that Peeta thinks I'm "beautiful". I basically have scars from the accident on my back and on my forehead. My hair covers the scars on my forehead but I have to use make up to cover the scars on my back. I'm freaking ugly.
Johanna comes over everyday, as usual. I've been more crabby lately and she doesn't hesitate to tell me.
"You act like your pregnant again," She groans
"Well to bad Im not," I roll my eyes. "I had my cycle for this month plus I'm on birth control. I shouldn't have anymore children until this little on is 3," I say pointing to Makayla
"I didn't want a full story Katniss,"
"Well you got one, so shut up," I smirk
"You hungry?" She asks going to the kitchen.
"No," I lie. The truth is I'm hungry but I don't have an appetite for food lately.
"You sure? You getting skinny!" She tells me
I roll my eyes. Johanna notices everything.
"I'm fine," I sigh. "But can you fix Makayla some milk?" I ask
She nods. I sit down on the floor with Makayla. Her hair is starting to grow more. She has dark hair like me but I wish she had Peetas blonde hair. As I sit down and admire Makayla, Johanna comes back from the kitchen and hands me Makayla's bottle.
"Thanks," I say while I start feeding Makayla.
Johanna eats a sandwich. It looks weird but Johanna is weird so I guess that why.
She looks at her phone and groans. "I have to go. Annie wants me to find the right maid of honor dress," She says getting up. She bends downs and kisses Makayla on the cheek.
"Bye Katniss, tell lover boy I said hi," She says bouncing out of the door.
"Katniss!" I hear Peeta call out as he opens the door
"What?" I say walking over to him with Makayla in my arms
"Johanna said you haven't eaten all day," He says concerned
"I'm alright, " I lie. "I had a snack a little while ago," I lie again
He looks at me skeptically but it looks like he lets the thoughts go for a second.
I quickly go put a sleeping Makayla in her crib. I go into my room and climb on the bed. My head is killing me. I'll need to take a pill or something. Then Peetas going to be on my case for not eating.
Peeta walks into the room and sees me laying down on the bed.
"What's wrong?" He asks
"My head hurts," I groan
"We'll Maybe it's because your a little hungry. Come on let's go eat something and you'll feel better,"
"No I'm not hungry," I insist
"Katniss, your going to eat," He says seriously
"No I'm not! I had a freaking snack before you came! Im not hungry right now!" I yell at him
He looks straight at me with sad eyes. He just walks out of the room. Great. I just upset my fiancé. I hate him being mad at me!
30 minutes pass. Peeta enters the room with a plate of food.
"Sit up," He says
"Why?" I groan
"If your not going to feed yourself im going to have to feed you," He says simply
"No," I refuse
"I don't want you to starve yourself. I don't want to call someone to help you," He says sitting in front of me.
He starts basically feeding me. I just let him because if I try to not eat we will probably end up wrestling. He would be on top if me with the food on the spoon trying to feed me and I would be on the bottom defending myself by hitting him or maybe bit him.
We used to do that in high school...
Once he finishes feeding me, he looks satisfied and he quickly goes to put the plate in the sink. He comes back and sits on the bed and pulls me on his lap.
"Why aren't you eating?" He asks
"I didn't mean to. I'm just not hungry lately. I've lost my appetite," I sigh
"Do you think it has something to do with the car accident?"
I shrug. "I don't know. I just don't feel myself lately. It's weird and I hate it," I admit
"Why didn't you tell me?" He asks while rubbing my back
"I don't know?" I look down. "I guess I hide my feelings until I feel so emotionally destroyed,"
"You need to tell me these things Katniss, so I can help you,"
"I know," I say
I guess things have gotten a little better. I still feel... different? My minds messed up apparently. I guess only Peeta, Makayla, and Johanna are the only ones keeping me sane. Otherwise, I feel like I might explode.
Peeta holds on to me tight as we sleep. Well I'm not asleep. He even tries to protect me in his sleep. Isn't that cute? Anyway, I slip out of his grasp on me and get off the bed. I watch as he gets a little panicked in his sleep but he holds on to my pillow.
I go into the kitchen and fix some water for me. As I drink it, I check on Makayla to make sure she's alright. She's so pretty when she sleeps. I sigh and go back to the kitchen to put my glass in the sink. I walk back to my room and cuddle with Peeta again. He immediately wraps his arms around me. I feel so safe in his arms. For the first time in a few days I actually smile to myself. Then I fall asleep in Peetas arms.
I don't really like this chapter but I had to update. Why? Because I uploaded a new story if you haven't checked it out already! It's the story I told y'all about a few chapters ago that I was writing. I need y'all to check it out and review it. It's called Secrets in the Shadows. Also if you like this chapter please review it helps me write better if I know that y'all are still interested in this story. See y'all later!