A/N: Thank you to my beta, for making sure that I don't have too many mistakes. The trend these days are to recommend other stories for people to read, I think it is a good idea, so I thought I'd try it out. So I'm going to start with "A Lesson in Release" By Lillie Cullen. 'Jasper can't handle the overpowering emotions from Edward and Bella anymore. Jasper decides to teach Bella how to satisfy her own needs. But what will he learn in the process?' It's lemony but an awesome story. Everyone should check it out.

Edward POV

I was half way to Vancouver when I heard their thoughts enter my mind.

Eddie, you can run but you should realize that the longer I chase you the harder I'll kick your ass!

Slow down, Edward! Alice will kill me if we come back without you.

Son, please stop. We need to talk.

My head struggled with what to do. I didn't want to slow down; I wanted to run until everything disappeared, until Bella would want me back. I knew the longer that I kept them running though, the more livid my family would become, thus making it worse when they actually caught me.

I decelerated my pace until I finally came to a halt. I took an unnecessary deep breath and waited for my brothers and Carlisle to reach me.

There is seriously something wrong with you. Emmett muttered, throwing pictures of Bella into his mind.

-"Did you know that Edward doesn't want Bella to have their child? That makes me sick to my stomach!" Rosalie shrieked running into Bella's living room.

"What?!" My family said in unison.

"Bella, tell me it isn't true!" Esme cried, walking over to Bella, engulfing her in a hug.

"It's fine, Esme. I can do this by myself. Let me rephrase, I can do this with everyone's help. I love this baby and I know he isn't a monster. He's just a baby, he can never hurt anyone."

Tears filled my love's eyes as Esme swiftly wiped them away. -

I flinched away from the memory but Emmett kept replaying it over in his head. I had to find a way to make them understand. That thing growing in Bella is going to kill her; it's going to take my love away from me.

I needed them on my side.

"Edward please, we need to discuss this situation. Bella needs you right now." I felt Carlisle's hand fall onto my shoulder.

"Carlisle, I don't want her to have this child. She has Elizabeth and Masen, she has me and she doesn't need another monster complicating her life. I've never heard of this happening, if I would have known…this whole thing is…twisted. I know this baby will kill her. I don't want to change Bella and if this baby puts her life at risk during labor, I wouldn't even have the time to change her. She could…die." I looked into his eyes pleading with him to understand.

"You are correct, Edward, I've never heard of this happening before. But son, you don't know that this baby is a monster or that it can even harm Bella at all. Even I'm not privy to that information! I'll start the research as soon as we get back to Forks. This baby could be born human."

I looked between Carlisle, Emmett and then Jasper. I felt a wave of calm hitting me and I tried my hardest to fight against it. I didn't want to be calm.

I was angry as hell and I wanted to share my feelings with my family.

"Bella having a human baby makes this situation even worse! We can't have a baby growing up in a house of vampires! It's bad enough that Elizabeth and Masen are being thrust into this life. If Bella has this baby, I would have to stand by and watch as my family grows up and dies without me. How will I explain to my son or daughter that I am stuck at seventeen?!- How could I possibly tell them that no, they can't make friends because we can't stay in one place too long?! " I turned so my back was facing them. I was putting my guard down, making myself vulnerable and I loathed it.

"How would you feel if your own child was your son, then your brother, then your father, your grandfather? How would you feel if you went to your own son's funeral as a 'grandchild'? You don't know what it's going to be like to be me." I turned back around, facing my family.

"Bella cannot having this baby, this monster, this…" I was interrupted by Emmett's whole body shoving against me, causing me to fly in the air landing on a hefty boulder a hundred feet away.

The boulder crumbled under my weight, causing tiny pebbles to dig into my skin.

Emmett ran over to me attempting to pick me up, when I managed to punch him in the head trying to send him forward. He managed to not budge instead he grabbed me around the throat. It didn't hurt, it just threw me off.

I've never seen Emmett act like this. He truly looked like a vampire.

"You are an idiot! You are a stupid, freakin' idiot!" He shouted, shaking me. His eyes were fading to a coal black when he pushed my back into a tree, his hands still around my throat.

The massive tree trunk started to crack under the pressure of our force. Pieces of woods splintered off, digging into my clothes, pricking against my skin. I tried scratching at his skin, I tried punching him in the head again, anything to make him let go.

I tried to read Emmett's thoughts, but instead only saw the emotions playing through.

Red. All he was seeing was red.

Carlisle and Jasper appeared behind Emmett. I felt waves of calmness hitting us.

"Emmett, put him down." Carlisle's smooth voice washed over us. He was trying to coax Emmett out of this deadly tango we were dancing.

Emmett shoved my back further into the tree before letting go.

"Jesus Christ, Emmett! What was that about!?" I demanded, brushing the debris off of my clothing.

"You know, brother, for being 'the smart' one in the family you sure are stupid. You honestly don't care about Bella at all do you?" He spat accusingly.

It was now my turn to be angry. How could he say I didn't care about Bella? The only reason I didn't want her to have this baby was to protect her.

"Of course I care about Bella! I love her! I'd do anything to protect her, even run away from her!" I shouted, my chest heaving with the last word.

"Even kill my own child before it kills her." I whispered to myself, but I knew they heard me.

I felt my emotions shift from anger to guilt to pity and I didn't know if I was truly feeling the emotions or if it was Jasper. I looked down the soft forest floor and then back over to my family.

Emmett still had murder in his eyes.

"Edward, stop being so selfish for once! You don't even know how lucky you are to have those things! All you've done is dwell on the negatives of this entire situation!"

Did Emmett just say that I was lucky? Please, Emmett, define lucky for me. Am I lucky because my child would kill the love of my life? Or am I lucky because it could be born human only to grow up and die in front of my eyes?

"How am I lucky Emmett?" I could not wait to hear this one.

"You don't even get it do you?! You didn't see Rose's face when Bella said she was pregnant. I have never seen her so pained. God, the look in her eyes. You hurt my wife by denying your own unborn child!" He said, punching his fist into his chest.

"You know what happened to her, you know what she wanted. Do you even know what I would do, the depths to which I would sink if I could give Rosie a child? I would gladly give my left arm to be a father, even if it was to a human. We all feel that way!"

He paused for a moment trying to regain composure.

His thoughts filled of Rosalie as a human, as a mother, as a girl lying in the streets dying. I knew it was hard for him to think about how much Rose hated our condition, how she wished she would have just died.

"Esme tried killing herself because she lost a child. Yet she treats us as if we were herchildren. And Alice, well honestly I can't picture Alice being a mother, but she loves this baby already more than you do. I'm sure Jasper and Carlisleagree with me but I don't even know what I'd do if my wife had the chance to be a mother. If I was given the chance to be a father, to teach a child how play baseball or read, or simply just the facts of life…You just don't see it though, Edward. All you see is the negative, it's so like you." Emmett chuckled to himself.

"You need to see how lucky you are. You, Edward Cullen, are lucky. The vampire whom I thought was going to be a virgin for eternity. You are going to be a father. And that baby is going to be the luckiest, most loved baby alive; human, vampire…hell, that baby could be born with three eyes and scaly, blue skin and we would love him."

I chuckled to myself, letting the words sink in. I sank down to the ground, putting my head into my hands.

Emmett was right; I was only looking at the negative. For the first time in my vampire life, I did something without confronting my family. I told Bella to terminate my child, our child. What was wrong with me?!?

I just got Bella back and I was ruining it. I was ruining my family.

I wanted to kill my own baby. I was utterly revolted with myself.

I think it's time to go home to your family son. Carlisle said in his mind.

I lifted my head in their direction. I nodded my head and shoved off of the ground.

I'm really sorry for doing that, Edward. I was just upset because you are taking for granted everything that Rosie and I would do anything to have.

"It's fine, Emmett. You are completely correct. I was taking this for granted. I'm going to be a father." The words made me stop in my tracks. I felt my family stop behind me, giving me space.

"Oh my God. I'm going to be a father! Even when I was human, I never pictured myself being a father." A million questions, memories and pictures filled my mind. I turned so I was facing my brothers and father.

"What do I do now? Do I ask her to marry me? It's part of the norm to have a baby out of wedlock in this century, correct? I can't do that. My human parents would roll in their graves! I don't want Bella to think that I'm only proposing because she's pregnant." I don't know which one was moving faster, my mouth or my mind.

I closed my eyes and pictured it.

My mother's ring still nestled away its original silk box, hidden away in my night stand.

Bella's beautiful, brown orbs filling with tears when I propose. She would say yes.

She would look like an angel, walking towards me, a blushing bride in white, tiny flowers intertwined in her chocolate brown locks. She would be mine, finally.

We would buy a house in Alaska or maybe build a house in our meadow. We would have to work something out with Jacob but Bella would fight tooth and nail to keep the twins.

As for changing Bella or explaining what we were to the twins; well, that would have to wait until we got there. I didn't want to think about it until I had to.

I just wanted to be back in Bella's arms.

I wanted to apologize for being such a pompous ass. I would crawl around on my knees begging for forgiveness for the next one hundred years if I had to.

I had to get back to her.

So I ran faster than I've ever ran before.

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I made it back to Forks in the half the time it took me to ran away. I lost Jasper, Carlisleand even Emmett along the way and that gave me time and space to think. The thought of Bella swelling with my child and being my wife pumped so much adrenaline into my veins that I could barely focus enough to avoid trees.

I had to make it back to Bella in one piece.

When her house broke into my view, a smile broke out onto my face. I should have stopped and gotten flowers or jewelry or chocolate covered pickles. Women still had those cliché, crazy cravings, right?

I should have Alice pick up baby books for me the next time she is out shopping. What to expect, when you're expecting. I think that's what the book is called. I would definitely need a copy of that book.

I needed to focus so I replayed my apology over in my head. I reduced my speed and slowly climbed the steps to the house.

Would Bella want to keep this house or move into a bigger, more secluded house? Maybe she'd prefer to just move into our house. Esme would love that.

She'd need all the help she could get to take care of a child and go back to school.

School? Would Bella want to go back to school? I would not allow her to re-enroll in that community college. I'd pay for her to go to the best college my money could pay for.

When I finally reached the door, I felt awkward and out of place.

I knew Bella is more than likely still mad at me, so I knocked. I waited for Bella's face to pop up in the tiny windows in the door but I was greeted by Rosalie's scowl.

She flung the door open and stepped out, causing me to back up. This wasn't a good sign.

"She doesn't want to see you, Cullen." Rose spat bitterly.

Did she just call me Cullen? I've been living with Rosalie on and off for the last eighteen years, and she's called me some pretty colorful names, but never just Cullen.

"I have to see her, Rose. I have to explain why I behaved in the deplorable manner that I did. I have to make her see that I'm sorry." I wanted to get down on my knees and grovel.

"You really don't get it, do you? You tell, no, demand that Bella get an abortion and then you disappear on her! Now you just show up and you think she's going to forgive you? You are absurd! She doesn't need you anymore, Eddie, she has us. We love this baby; we don't want to harm him. You, on the other hand, have mood swings like a prepubescent girl. You love her, you leave her. You make love to her, you get her pregnant and then on what should be the most blissful moment of your life together, you tell her to kill the life growing inside of her! You truly are a monster. I'll tell Bella you stopped by…but don't waste your time sitting next to the phone." Rosalie twisted the door knob and walked backed into the house slamming the door in my face.

I stumbled down the stairs and stood in the yard, not sure what to do.

"That was cold, even for Rosalie." Jasper said, showing up at my side.

"Want me to talk to her, Edward?" Emmett flanked my other side.

"It won't help, Emmett. I won't be offended if you guys go in. I have to head home anyway; my shift starts in a few hours. Please tell Bella that I'm sorry and to please just call me. Tell her that I love her." Then I faded into the trees.

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Bella POV

I stood at the top of the steps, listening to Rosalie tell Edward off. I wanted to run down stairs and fling open the door.

But then what?

I run into his arms, smother him with kisses and kick everyone out to make love with the love of my life?

Or I repeatedly slap him across the face and tell him to never come back.

I didn't know which scenario would come to pass if gave into the desire to go to him, my Edward…so I just sat still, not even moving an inch.

I finally heard the door slam and knew it was safe to venture downstairs. I took the steps carefully; one at a time, glancing out the window when I reached the bottom. Edward stood on my yard, Emmett on one side, Jasper and Carlisle on the other. Edward said something to Emmett then disappeared.

Emmett, Jasper, and Carlisle walked back towards the house and up the stairs.

One by one they filed in with gloomy looks on their faces. They all walked over to their wives, whispering something into their ears. They were telling them what happened with Edward.

I was about to ask what happened when I heard Masen run down the stairs shrieking. He ran into the living room, bouncing into Emmett's arms.

"Emmett, where'd you go? I thought we were going to play!" He asked, placing both of his hands on Emmett's face causing him to have fish lips.

Out of the corner of my eye, I saw Eli's feet pattering down the stairs at a slow pace. She was wearing her new fairy outfit. I picked her up into my arms and placed a kiss upon her cheek.

"I had to go find Edward. He was hiding out in the woods but we talked some sense into him, don't worry." Emmett glanced up at me, then back down Masen.

"He isn't coming back is he?" Masen asked.

"Masen, don't be rude." I scowled.

"No, Masen, he isn't. Good riddance." Rosalie stated, a small frown tugging at her lips.

Eli squirmed out of my arms and walked into the living room. She walked over to the couch, and climbed onto Rosalie's lap.

"Why isn't Edward going to come back? I want Edward to come back. I miss him." She inquired sadly and started to play with the lace at the bottom of her tutu.

I sighed and walked into the living room. I guess this was as good of a time as any to tell them that they were going to be a big brother and sister. I peeked over at Alice for reassurance, she nodded her head encouragingly.

I bent down in front of the couch, turning both the twins towards me. I took a deep breath to steady myself.

"Mommy and Edward are…having a baby. I don't want you two to think that I am going to love you any less. You two are my little angels and I love you so much. Ok?"

Masen spoke first. "I want to have a little brother! I'm sick of playing with dolls and dress up. What do you want Emmett?"

"A little boy would be sweet! We could teach him how to play baseball, Cullen style!"

Great! Just what I wanted; another miniature Emmett running around.

"What about you, Eli, what do you want?" Esme asked.

"I want a little brother, too." Her face lit up.

The rest of the day was spent lounging around the house, trying to figure out what to do about the little love growing inside me.

I had so many thoughts swirling around my head. My life was changing so fast, it made my head spin.

I had to tell Charlie. And Renee.

Oh my God, I had to tell Jacob.

A/N: Thanks for reading! Review please. I'm going to try my hardest to update this weekend. I only have about 4 weeks left of school and its kicking my ass. I really need to focus on school so i can graduate next month. Please bare with me. Much love.

-BB