"Glass" by Thompson Square

Trying to live and love,

With a heart that can't be broken,

Is like trying to see the light with eyes that can't be opened.

Yeah, we both carry baggage,

We picked up on our way, so if you love me do it gently,

And I will do the same.

We may shine, we may shatter,

We may be picking up the pieces here on after,

We are fragile, we are human,

We are shaped by the light we let through us,

We break fast, cause we are glass.

Cause we are glass.

I'll let you look inside me, through the stains and through the cracks,

And in the darkness of this moment,

You see the good and bad.

But try not to judge me, 'cause we've walked down different paths,

But it brought us here together, so I won't take that back.

We may shine, we may shatter,

We may be picking up the pieces here on after,

We are fragile, we are human,

We are shaped by the light we let through us,

We break fast, cause we are glass.

We might be oil and water, this could be a big mistake,

We might burn like gasoline and fire,

It's a chance we'll have to take.

We may shine, we may shatter,

We may be picking up the pieces here on after,

We are fragile, we are human,

And we are shaped by the light we let through us,

We break fast, cause we are glass.

We are glass.

Chapter 25

11:35 PM

November 12th, 2012

Backstage at Raw

Oh I was pissed. No. I was livid. I was on the brink of a murderous rampage. It wasn't so much that she beat me, it was how she did it. She did it...so dirty. She used my own fucking finisher against me, and she fucking kissed my taken best friend in front of me! Not to mention she had the fucking NERVE to act like she was superior to me! Fuck that. "Vanessa."Phil said. I stopped my angry pacing and looked at him. "What?"I asked dangerously. No one was spared from my anger right now. Not even Phil. "Stop with the anger. You're scaring me. You're being way too much like Adam. It's not healthy."He told me. I glared at him for a second before realizing what he had just said. My brother was considered by many to be the sleaziest wrestler to ever enter the WWE. He was the Master Manipulator. He was one of the dirtiest players in the game. "She wants to play dirty huh? I'll fucking show her dirty. My brother is the fucking Rated R Superstar damn it!"I yelled to no one in particular. I stormed out of the locker room, Phil sighing heavily and following after me. "Vanessa!"He said in a tired voice.

On my search for AJ, who will be called the stupid bitch from now on, I ran into someone I really wasn't in the mood for. "If it isn't little Vanessa Copeland."Brock said in the usual mock cutesy voice he used when talking to me. I glared at him, but walked around him. He grabbed my arm and spun me around. "Hey, you don't ignore me when I talk to you."He said. "Brock, that's not the smartest choice right now."Phil said. Brock just laughed. "Right. Because this little thing could do anythig to me."He gloated. He was stunned when I grabbed his face with my hand, bringing it inches from mine. "Look. I am not in the fucking mood for your pathetic little games tonight."I said lowly, my nails digging into his cheeks. "Got that?"I asked. He nodded as best as he could, eyes wide. I smiled sweetly at him. "Good."I released him and turned on my heel, walking away from him. I continued my search for the stupid bitch with Phil trailing behind me.

Apparently, word had spread that I was on a murderous rampage, and a crowd had formed behind me. Among these people were Phil, Rue(who was just as pissed off as I was but was plotting her revenge secretly), John, Kofi, Jay, Randy, Chris, Mikey, Zack, Dolph, Beth, Natalya, even Glenn. If I wasn't so pissed off, I would be amused. After a long search, I finally found somoene who would lead me to the stupid bitch. "KAITLYN!"I yelled. The rookie looked at me with fear in her eyes. I smirked at that. I was feared. I stormed up to her. "Where the fuck is the dumb bitch?"I asked her through clenched teeth. She cocked her head to the side. "Who do you mean?"She asked cutely. I narrowed by eyes and slammed her up against the wall. "FUCKING AJ! WHERE IS SHE?"I yelled. "God I love this. Her brother would be proud."I heard Randy mutter. "Dude, I so agree with you."Dolph said. "Totally."Kofi, John, Glenn, Zack, Chris, Mikey, Beth, and Nattie echoed. "She just left! She's probably still in the parking lot!"Kaitlyn said. I smirked. "Thanks babe."I told her, patting her cheek. Not wasting another second, I booked it to the parking lot. My crowd followed.

When I walked out into the darkness, a very Adam-like smirk crossed my face. She was there. Talking to Justin Gabriel. I started marching over towards her, intending to kill her. "Hey, can I request something?"Rue asked. "What?"I replied. "Don't hurt Justin in the process. I really enjoy his existence."She said. I nodded in agreement. I didn't care about Justin right now. AJ was my main focus. "Rue, go get your friend."I told her. Rue smirked and nodded. "JUSTIN! GET OUT OF THE WAY!"She yelled at him as I practically ran towards AJ. Justin moved to the side, seeing I was on a rampage. AJ just stood frozen in fear. I was about to give her the hardest punch she'd ever feel in her life, but someone grabbed me by the waist. My crowd let out disappointed sighs. "ARE YOU FUCKING SERIOUS PHIL? LET ME GO!"I yelled, not looking at my keeper. "Don't direct that language at me young lady."A very deep voice chastised. Fuck. Mark. I looked up at the only father I ever had. "Please let me go. She deserves what I'm going to do to her."I begged him.

"Yeah let her go!"I heard Dolph say.

"Yeah Mark, what the fuck bro?"Glenn butted in.

Mark ignored them and just shook his head at me. I sighed unhappily at him. Then a very obnoxious giggle sounded. "Look who isn't big and bad anymore."The whiny and high pitched voice of AJ said. My blood began to boil once more. "WATCH YOUR MOUTH YOU STUPID LITTLE GIRL!"I yelled at her, trying to fight Mark to let me go. His grip was iron clad. "Daddy. Please."I pleaded through clenched teeth. AJ just laughed again before Mark could reply. "Why are you calling him Daddy? He's not your Daddy."She said. She then proceeded to smirk. THE SMIRKING WAS A COPELAND THING DAMN IT! "In fact...you don't even know who your Dad is, do you?"She asked. I wasn't going to take that bait. My father was Mark, and he knew it. "I think your brother said that your Mom never told you who he was...maybe she herself didn't know who he was."

My top lip twitched angrily. You don't EVER talk about my mother. EVER.

"I'm going to fucking slaughter you, you dumb fucking cunt!"I screeched, fighting Mark harder than ever. He still didn't let me go, even though he was now glaring at AJ for basically calling my mom a whore. "That's not right. Judy's a wonderful person."Jay said. "Mark, I think you should let her go."There was a round of agreement at Jay's words. "No, I'm not letting her go. If I do, she will put AJ in the hospital and seeing as this isn't a wrestliing match, she could get sued. Not to mention she'll get suspended."

"Mark, AJ just called Vanessa's Mom a whore. I think you should let her go."Mikey said.

"Yeah just let her go."Kofi chimed in.

"Yeah!"Everyone else echoed.

"No!"Mark said, using his Undertaker scary voice. "Isa."Mark said.I ignored him and continued glaring at AJ. That was all I could do right now. "Vanessa Isabelle. Look at me."He demanded. I still ignored him. "Just wait. I'm going to hurt you so bad, you'll be begging for me to kill you."I told her quietly. "Does anyone else just LOVE how Vanessa's acting right now?"Rue asked. I would give her a hug later. Right now, threatening AJ was my only goal. She laughed. "Well. I have better things to do. See you later champ."She said, but stopped. "Oh wait...I believe that's me."She said, winking. She turned her back, and walked to her car, leaving me even more pissed off. Slowly, my followers began drifting away. Soon it was just Mark, Phil, Rue and I. That's when he let me go. "I'm mad at you."I told him. He smiled a little. "You'll get over it. Now go to the hotel and get as much sleep as you can. Your flight leaves early."He said. I sighed, giving in. My anger wasn't sated though. Not one bit. "I'll drive you."He told me, pushing me in the direction of his rental. I willingly went, and he drove me to the hotel.

*Jeff's POV*

"Hmm...she's late."I said to myself, looking at the clock. It was almost midnight. Vanessa usually called me around this time. However tonight, she had yet to call me. I was really looking forward to this call too, because I knew I was in for a rant. Vanessa had lost to AJ and morphed into Adam because of it. I knew she was probably still pissed about it. I smiled when my phone started playing Vanessa's ringtone. "Hey Nessie."I said, smiling. "I. Am. Going to. Murder. AJ Lee."Vanessa all but yelled. I chuckled. "What'd she do to get on the business side of your anger?"I asked. "Well you better get comfortable Jeff, because you're in for a long long rant."She said. "I'm comfortable. Begin your rant."I told her. And ranted she did. I guess she wasn't pissed about losing, but was pissed about AJ calling her mother a whore. "I'm going to fucking kill her Jeff, I swear I am. I'll take the years in prision, I don't give a shit. She must die."

"I have a better idea Vanessa. Instead of doing that and missing our wedding, why don't you just wait until next Monday and attack her then? You can do whatever you want to her then, because you'll be in a WWE ring."

"That's Mark said. Speaking of Mark, I'm mad at him. Wouldn't fucking let me kill her."

"Well I'm glad he didn't."

"And why is that?"

"Because I'd miss you if you were in prision."

"Stop that!"

"Stop what?"I asked, confused. Vanessa sighed heavily. "Making me smile when I want to be pissed."She said. I chuckled. "Well I'm sorry that I have a natural talent for making you smile."I said. "But look Nessa. It's late, and I have to get up early to pick you up from your early flight. I think we should go to sleep."I suggested. With that, she yawned. "Alright. I'll continue to rant at you tomorrow."She agreed. "I'll see you tomorrow Mrs. Hardy."Vanessa giggled. "I'm not going to correct you because I like the sound of that. But goodnight. I love you. Even if you diffuse my anger."I smiled. "I love you too Nessa baby. I can't wait to see you tomorrow."

"Believe me, I'm long over due for some Jeff time."

"Then tomorrow should be good for both of us."

"It should. I suppose we should quit stalling, and actually hang up now."

"Good idea Nessa."

"Night Jeffy."

"Night Nessie."

-8 AM(Still Jeff's POV)-

"She's going to kill you."I told Adam. He shook his head. "No. She's not even going to notice me. She'll be far too distracted by you. That's how it usually goes."Adam said. I laughed. "Dude, you cut all of your hair off. I'm pretty sure she's going to notice. And kill you. She was counting on you having long hair for our wedding."Adam sighed. "It was getting to be too much of a hassle. I'm surprised you haven't cut yours all off yet."He said, looking at me. I shrugged. "Having long hair doesn't bother me, and it makes Vanessa happy. Gives her something to play with in her words. But you my friend? You promised her you weren't going to cut it. You did. So you're dead meat. I hope you told Amy and the triplets you loved them this morning."

"Dude, she's not going to freak out."

"We'll just see. Look, her plane has landed and people are coming out."I pointed out. I couldn't help but smirk when Adam gulped a little. As the people filed out, I kept an eye out for Vanessa. She was pretty easy to pick out of the crowd today. She had bright yellow pants on that could be seen from miles away. "Your sister sure loves bright colors."I told Adam, who laughed. "Of course she does. But who are you to judge? You're the exact same way."He retorted. I snorted. "Yupp. Bright colors are the best."

"JEFFY!"Vanessa yelled happily. I looked back over to her and grinned. "NESSIE!"I yelled back. She laughed and started to run towards Adam and I. "Told you she wouldn't notice."Adam whispered. I shook my head. "Just wait till she gets closer."I replied. The closer she got, the slower she walked. When she finally made it to the two of us, her jaw was hitting the floor. "Adam...you...you..."She couldn't seem to finish her sentence. All of a sudden her shocked expression turned to anger. "YOU ASSHOLE! YOU CUT YOUR HAIR THREE DAYS BEFORE MY WEDDING!"She yelled, hitting him multiple times. "You could have just fucking trimmed it, but NO! You decide to be an asshole and cut all of it off! YOU KNOW I WANTED YOUR LONG BEAUTIFUL HAIR IN MY WEDDING PICTURES! MY CHILDHOOD IS DEAD NOW! I HOPE YOU'RE HAPPY THAT YOU JUST BRUTALLY MURDERED IT!"She kept hitting him and yelling curse words at him. "Jeff call her off!"Adam pleaded, trying to shield himself from her attacks. I shook my head, laughing. "No way man. This is hysterical."I said. Vanessa quit hitting him all of a sudden. "I am now ashamed of channeling you last night."She said with a glare. Adam rose an eyebrow. "Channeling me?"

"Yeah. Didn't you watch my title defense?"

"No, sorry. The triplets kill my ability to stay up later than 10."

Vanessa sighed heavily. "I'm not explaining it. You're just gonna have to watch it on Youtube. I'll give you a spoiler though. I lost my fucking title."She said. I knew if she started to talk about it, we'd have an angry Nessa on our hands, and I didn't want that. I wrapped an arm around her waist and picked her luggage up with the other. "Come on Pepper. Let's get you home so you can relax. There's a surprise at the house for you anyway."I told her. She half smiled. "A surprise, huh? I like surprises."She said. "I know you do."I replied, kissing her temple.

*Vanessa's POV*

"AMYKINS!"I yelled happily when Jeff opened the door. Amy was in our house! I assumed the babies weren't far away either. "Shh Essiekins! You'll wake up the triplets!"She whispered. I nodded, but quickly ran over to her and hugged her tightly. "I've missed you so much."I told her. She laughed. "I missed you too."My redheaded sister in law squeezed me, and then held me at arms length. "I feel like they're going to kiss..."Adam muttered. I glared at my brother. I was not at all happy with him. "Adam if I were you, I'd be trying pretty damn hard to avoid my eyesight."I turned to Amy. "Why did you let him cut his hair?"I asked. She sighed. "He went off and did it by himself. I had no say. I told him that you were going to slaughter him. He didn't believe me. How hard did you hit him?"

"She hit me pretty fucking hard. I think I'm going to have bruises..."

"Good. You deserve it you asshole."

Adam just gave me a blank look. I sighed. "Anyway. Where are my babies?"I asked. "Jeff said to put them in your guys' room-"Amy didn't get to finish. I ran upstairs to mine and Jeff's room. I opened the door quietly and peeked inside. I smiled at the portable crib inside. I looked at my sleeping godchildren and grinned. Coming home to babies was a very nice thing. It's a thing that I would someday love to do everyday...

Wednesday

Mark, Shawn and I sat in an almost empty diner. The only people that were here besides us and the staff were two teenagers in the corner. I was happy that this place wasn't crowded. More privacy that way. I loved the fans, no doubt about it, but I just honestly wanted some time for my daddy and my idol. "So my little girl is getting married in two days..."Mark started our conversation out. Shaw smiled at me. "Our girl has gone and grown up."Shawn said, his smile growing. I just giggled a little bit. "What are you talking about, 'our' girl? She's mine. Not yours."Mark said, shoving Shawn a bit. "She's mine too! I claim a part of her! She idolizes me!"

"Just because she idolizes you, doesn't mean she's your daughter. She's mine Michaels."

"She cried when I retired. Did she cry when you told her you were done? I DON'T THINK SO!"

"But does she run to you when she needs protecting? Are you the one who saved her from prison Monday Night?"

"No but I saved her job!"

I couldn't help but laugh when Mark didn't have a reply. Before he could even try, our table was approached by the two teenage girls. One had really long brown hair, and the other shortish brown hair. The long haired one spoke first. "We don't mean to interrupt, but we don't know if we'll ever get this chance again."She said. "I'm Georgia, and this is my friend Ronni. We're really big fans of all three of you."Georgia said. I smiled at them. "Well, pull up a chair. We aren't doing anything special."I told them. The taller of the two, Ronni, grinned and instantly pulled a chair up. Georgia chuckled and did like Ronni. "So let's get this out of the way first, want do you want us to sign?"I asked.

"Nothing for me. Just meeting you and having a conversation is enough for me."Ronni said.

"Same for me."Georgia chimed in.

I leaned back in the booth. "Alright then. So...who's your favorite here?"I asked. "Definitely 'Taker."Georgia said, smiling at Mark. "Shawn's the best."Ronni said. Shawn grinned. "I like her."He said. I rolled my eyes. "Shawn you like anyone who thinks you're the best."I said. He grinned again. "I don't see a problem with that. "You're my hero too Shawn..."Ronni said. Shawn's grin grew. "Does anyone idolize you? I didn't think so. I got two people that idolize me."Shawn bragged to Mark, who rolled his eyes. "I idolize him. He's the freakin' Undertaker!"Georgia stated.

"This is a smart girl right here. She's going places."Mark said, pointing.

"So you're saying Ronni and Vanessa aren't smart?"Shawn asked in a defensive tone.

I rolled my eyes as they bickered back and forth. I turned to the girls. "So while they argue like a married couple, we can talk."I said. They smiled. "You and Rue are the only female wrestlers we can stand."Ronni said. Georgia nodded. "I really like Rue. She's badass."I laughed. "I agree with that. Rue is pretty awesome. She's one of my best friends."I said. "By the way, I think you should know that I thought it was complete crap that AJ screwed you over on Monday."Ronni said. "Yeah it was. But I liked how you channeled your inner Edge. That was cool."Georgia added. I gave them a strained smile. "Yeah well. She's going to get hurt on Monday. I'll promise you that."They grinned at that.

"Will there be blood?"

"Most likely."

They grinned again. "Awesome."Georgia looked down at her phone and frowned a little. "Ronni we have to get to the airport soon...we should probably go..."She said sadly. Ronni sighed. "I suppose..."She said, just as sadly. I chuckled. "Do you guys have twitter?"I asked. They nodded. "Twitter names?"They quickly wrote them down on a napkin. "Be expecting a tweet from me later today. I'll tell Rue to send you one too."I told them. "And I'm be sure to give you brownie points with the Iron Maiden shirt Georgia. That's Rue's favorite band. More like her religion, but whatever."I looked over at Ronni. "That Three Days Grace shirt gets you brownie points with me. Now, run along you two so you don't miss your flight."I said, waving my hands. I didn't want to be the reason they were left stranded in Cameron.

"Okay, but can you do one thing for me?"Ronni asked. I nodded. "Sure, whatcha need?"I asked. "Tell Jeff...I love him. And that you're the only person I approve of him being with. Also tell your brother I love him too."She said. I laughed and nodded. "Anything you want me to pass on Georgia?"Georgia nodded. "Tell Phillip...I love him. And to grow his hair out again."She said. I nodded, still laughing. "Will do ladies."

"Alright. It was nice meeting you all!"They said in unison, standing.

"You're leaving?"Shawn asked.

"We got a plane to catch."Georgia said.

"Well...it was nice meeting you!"Mark said.

"It was awesome for us. Thank you."Ronni said.

"Dude, we better go now."Georgia told her. Ronni nodded. "Alright. See you guys later!"She said, and with a round of goodbyes from us, the girls left the diner. And those were the kind of fans I loved to meet.

*Later, 3rd Person POV*

"Either I'm getting too old for this, or you're getting too heavy."A slightly perturbed Adam Copeland told his little sister, who, in his opinion, wasn't exactly so little anymore. Vanessa glared at him and flicked him in the temple. "What's that supposed to mean?"She asked, offended. Adam winced at the flick she had dealt him. "Nothing, nothing."He said dismissively, and craned his neck to look up at her. "It's not like I have a serious neck problem or anything, I can carry you on my back all day long."Adam said sarcastically. Vanessa smirked. "Don't blame your neck for your lack of muscle."She replied.

"I'm plenty strong, thank you."

"If you can't carry me when I weigh less than 125 pounds, you have a serious issue. You've lifted up people three times my weight. Come on Addy."Vanessa stated. Adam just sighed and readjusted his 27 year old sister that was latched onto his back. "Why do I continue to let you talk me into everything...?"He muttered. Vanessa grinned and nuzzled his whisker covered cheek. "Because you love your baby sister."She almost cooed. Adam couldn't fight the smile making itself known on his face. "Yeah I do."He admitted. "And don't worry, I love my big brother more than anything and everyone."She reassured him.

"Does Jeff know that?"Adam slightly teased.

"Jeff is very much aware that I love you more than him. You're my big brother. The brother who bent over backwards to make me happy. The brother who threatened to beat people up when they mocked me for liking Shawn. How could I not adore you?"Vanessa said, smiling. "And while I do love Jeff, you're always my first, bubba."She told him. Adam just chuckled. "It's good to know someone appreciates me still. Mom keeps insisting she doesn't know who I am."He said, laughing.

"It's your fault you know. You're the one that cut your hair."She ran one of her hands through her brother's short blonde locks. "But you know what? She'll get over it. I had to."Vanessa moved her hand from Adam's hair to her own. "Besides, now I'm the Copeland with the gorgeous blonde hair."She said cockily. Adam's eyes rolled. "It's just hair Nessa. Although yours is very nice and soft."

"Being blonde does have it's downsides though. Phillip always tells me he can tell I'm a natural blonde."Vanessa sort of pouted. Adam chuckled. "Well he wouldn't say that if you didn't act like one. Which you do most of the time."He teased. Vanessa's eyes narrowed at the back of Adam's head. "I'm very smart thank you very much! Who taught you all of the big words you know, hmm?"She asked, sliding off of his back. Adam straightened up and turned to look at the youngest Copeland. "I never said you weren't smart. You're very book smart. You just lack common sense most of the time. Ask anyone and they'll tell you. One thing Vanessa does not have, is common sense."

"Asshole. I have common sense."

"Says who?"

"Jeff thinks so!"

"You're marrying him, he doesn't count."

"Mark!"

"He's old, doesn't know what he's talking about."

"Cena told me I'm very wise for my age."

Adam almost fell to the ground laughing. "You took him serious? Vee-Vee, John has even less common sense than you do!"Adam said in between his laughter. Vanessa crossed her arms over her chest and glared at her brother. He finally stopped laughing and noticed how ticked off his sister looked. He just laughed once more, and kissed her forehead lightly. "I'm just teasing. No need to get all angry Nessie on me."He said. Vanessa rose a blonde brow at him. "Are you gonna take back what you said?"She asked. "What? That you don't have common sense? Not a chance. I'm your big brother. It's my right to tease and taunt you."He told her. Vanessa nodded in understanding. "Alright then..."Her gaze shifted downward at the mud covered ground. She smirked, an idea coming to her.

She bent down slowly to the ground, still talking to Adam. "I guess you do have that right."She replied to Adam, who was staring at her curiously. "Hey Ads? Do you still hate getting things in your hair, even though it's short?"She asked innocently. He nodded slowly. "Yeah...why?"He asked cautiously. The infamous Copeland smirk graced her lips. Before Adam could react, she flung a handful of mud right in his face! She giggled up a storm at his surprised look. In fact, she was too busy giggling to notice Adam also bending down to scoop up some mud.

The giggles quit when she too got a handful of mud in her face. The siblings glanced at each other, and smirked. "This. Means. War!"They simultaneously yelled. Soon, mud was flying everywhere! It didn't take long for the two to get covered in mud. Vanessa's white pants were probably ruined, and Adam's white button up was most likely too. They didn't seem to care though. They sat in the mud, laughing away. "We should probably head back to the house and get cleaned up. Jeff wouldn't appreciate me keeping you out too long. He misses you know."Adam said, standing up. He reached out a hand to his sister, who accepted it, and pulled her up.

"I know he does. I miss him too. I don't like being separated from him. Nor do I like being away from you. I miss you Adam."She said. Adam hugged her tightly, also sharing some of his mud with her. "I know Nessa, I miss you too. But you gotta know, I'll always be here for you. I'll always have my arms wide open to my baby sister. I'm just glad you're here with me now."He said. Vanessa sighed. "I know it is. But I'm glad too. I miss our sibling time."

"I do too. Let's talk about this at the house though. It's starting to get a little chilly out and I don't want you to get sick."Vanessa nodded. "Right."She agreed. Adam held out his arm to her, and with a smile, she linked hers with his. With that, she and Adam began making their wait back to his house, smiles etched on their faces.

I...am so sorry. I feel bad that I keep promising the wedding, but I never deliever it...anyway...I did manage to get some Adam time in there! Check for Addy! Um, yes I kinda got stuck for an event to happen with the Shawn/Mark/Nessa thing. So Georgia and I appeared. It happens. I'll do it for any reviewer that wants it too, just give me your name haha. But anyway, Raw rant? Punkers. Heel. YESSSSS! That makes me happy. And AJ as GM is fucking great too. I'm not promising the wedding anymore, but just know it's going to happen. I PROMISE! But lookie here! REVIEW RELPIESSSSS.

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