Dixie sat up looking at her husband; she could tell by his eyes that he felt guilty
"Jeff It wasn't your fault." He didn't say anything but just continued playing with mia's hand.
"I promised her, I wouldn't let him near her again." He turned and she could see his pain.
"Jeff listen to me, you aren't responsible for her being here." Looking in his eyes hoping he would understand.
"But Dix I should be me lying there not her" How could she make him see the bigger picture? If he was there it would be both of them lying in intensive care, and how could she cope with that.
"No, No you're not sweetheart, you weren't the one stabbing her were you?" watching him shake his head looking down at his feet in shame.
"But if I was there Dix…"
" But you weren't, we have to focus on the future now. Focus on Mia getting better," The last thing she needed was Jeff moping about blaming himself.
"Yeah but Dix what if she doesn't what if she…"
"Aye, She isn't going to die, Look at her Jeff," seeing him turn towards Mia.
"She's a fighter Jeff she's going to pull through this," patting her hand on his leg.
"But what if she doesn't what will we do then," returning to playing with mia's hand
"Jeff, but she will, we don't need to think like that," How could they think about that, they had to stay positive.
"We need to be thinking about, helping her emotionally, Not physically," She saw Jeff nodding weakly.
"Trust me Jeff, They have him now, He will be locked up for a long time, after what his put her through,"
"You heard the Inspector Dix, He aint gonna get half of what he deserves, all because he has a good lawyer," Jeff was right in a way, but dixie was thinking positive
"Yeah well, he won't be the only one Jeff, But for now she needs us. She is going to need our support more than ever, not playing the blame game." As much as it pained him Jeff knew that Dixie was right, Most of the time she normally was.
"I know Dix but it's just…."
"Jeff seriously now stop it, when am I going to get it into that thick skull of yours that it wasn't your fault," Pointing at his head empathising the matter. She knew she was being harsh, but It seemed to work as he didn't say anything for the next half an hour.
"Dunno what made me think, I could be a good parent, I have completely messed things up," Jeff said this looking at the ground, Dixie a little confused.
"What do you mean sweetheart?" putting her hand around him.
"If I can't be there for her when, she isn't even a mile away, How could I even think about being there for Sophia and John?" Turning to Dixie, with tears in his eyes.
"Mate this is completely different, we didn't know this was to happen. And Sophia and john are safe, they might not be here with you but they are." Dixie knew that him seeing Mia like this reminded him of Sophia and john.
"I am a crap parent Dix, how can even think about looking after her when I can't even look after my own kids,"
"Because Jeff, Mia needs me and you, But Sophia and John well they need their mum, all you can do is be there. How can you say you make a crap parent, I would make worse, a lesbian mum with no fashion sense." Jeff let out a small chuckle.
"No Your brilliant Dix," putting his arm around her kissing her on the head.
"Why thank you Jeffrey, you make a better parent than Louie was to her," even the name made Jeff's skin crawl, but Dixie was true no matter what Mia did he would never hurt her, In any way shape or form.
"Yeah suppose your right, Don't think there is a coffee machine round here do ya?" Looking at his wife other than mia getting better the other thing he needed was coffee.
"Dunno mate, let me have a look," Getting up thinking that coffee wouldn't be a too bad idea.
"Here ya go princess," Handing her the loose change he found in his pocket. She took it then left with a mission to get there caffine fix. Jeff watched her leave then looked back at Mia.
"Please babe, wake up, we hate seeing you like this please," He got nothing, not even a tighten of grip from her hand.
"I'm sorry; I wasn't there for you, as much as it pains me to tell you Dixie is right. We need to focus on the future, and that means you being ok, so please." Jeff knew she was on a lot of pain meds, and probably wouldn't wake up but he had to try. He took a deep breath, then stroked the hair from her eyes, hoping she would wake, like she normally did when he done this, but still nothing. Dixie returned a few minutes later bearing two cups of steaming coffee,
"Here ya go mate," He took it gratefully and sipped down the boiling energy. They said nothing until they finished their drinks, Dixie got up placing the cups into the bin. She sat next to Jeff, Took her turn holding Mias hand. While her head was snug in Jeffs chest,
"She will be fine Jeff I just know it," Jeff turned to his wife smiling Glad he had told her how he felt. Then looking at mia. They sat like this for ages watching different people come and go. Dixie was soon asleep from all the stress, Jeff wanted to stay awake taking hold of mia's hand.
"Seriously Mia, You have slept enough now please wake up," Nothing still, He felt his own eyes getting heavy soon everything went black. He hadent slept in ages
Jeff woke up looking around, why had he fallen asleep? He looked down to mia nothing had changed she was still sleeping, although it was dark outside now.
"Come on mia please wake up, me and Dix need you to be well," He was begging, He wanted her awake, why wasent she awake.?
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