A/N: Warning this does include some smut, and has an M rating. So if that's not your thing you might want to just skip this chapter, and I'll be sure to give you a previously on in the beginning of the next update for the other content in this chapter, other than scrabble. For those of you that have been asking I hope you enjoy this chapter. Also sorry in advance for all the mistakes, I just got off a 15 hour shift, I cant sleep, and its 4 in the morning here, so I hope I didn't do too bad. Please review.
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Chapter 24
Jay's POV
It's the Friday after my birthday, school started again on Monday, and Erin and I are driving home from school.
"So my mom is working a double shift, and my brother is hanging out with his friends, so it'll be just us at the house again tonight."
"Ok." She says so quietly I almost miss it
"So I was thinking maybe we could um…" I say, before pausing to think about why I'm so nervous right now, I snap myself out of my thoughts to finish what I was going to say "Umm I was thinking maybe we could watch some movies, and order a pizza or something? Uh if you wanted to." I say quietly, I see her shrug out of the corner of my eye, as I continue on our route home
"Sure." Is all she says
"Is something wrong Er?" I ask her cautiously, as I reach my hand over the center console, to hold her hand in mine; I feel a little better when she intertwines our fingers
"No I'm fine."
"It's just you've been quiet all day, every period I had with you, even in passing in between classes and you just said you're fine, which I feel you only say when something is bothering you."
"Jay I…" She pauses, and I can tell without even having to look at her that she's thinking of what to say "everything's good." She finishes
"Erin." I say to sternly, as I park the car in the driveway. She seems to jump out almost as soon as the car stops. I turn off the car, before getting out; following her.
"I am fine Jay, I've just been thinking about some thing's people were saying around school today is all" She says, and I gently grab her upper arm, and turn her so she's facing me, instead of the front door of my house.
"What things?" I ask
"Nothing, it's fine Jay, and I really don't feel like talking about it, not yet at least." She says harshly
"Ok I know you'll tell me when you're ready."
"Yeah." She says to me as I unlock and open the door; Leo comes running and almost knocks her over
"Leo no." I say to him
"It's ok Jay, it's not like it's the first time he's excited to see us." She says sweetly looking at me
"He's not excited to see us." I gesture between us "he's excited to see you."
"Oh don't to be jealous Jay, I mean can you really blame him for being more excited to see me?" She asks, with a small smirk, and giggle
"No." I reply without hesitation, and it causes her eyes to lift up from the big puppy playfully bouncing around between us, to look at me and I take her in, for what had to be the hundredth time today. I look over her skin tight jeans, and green long sleeve shirt that hugs her upper body in just the right way. I lick my lips and bite back a moan as I walk a little closer to her, and she stands up straight. Lately I've had this intense urge; my body reacting to hers in way like never before, but I don't want to push her into something she doesn't want.
"Jay." She whispers against my lips, my face only centimeters away from hers
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Erin's POV
My eyes dart up when he says no, in a voice I've never heard from him before. I can see him taking me in, and then he licks his lips; my tongue follows a similar path on my own lips as he walks closer to me. His eyes are dark; his pupils taking over the usual green blue color, I can see his body reacting to me, the bulge in his pants growing more it seems with each step, and that's when I know we won't just be watching movies and getting take out tonight.
"Jay." I whisper against his lips, as he stands in front of me, and leans in before kissing me hard. This kiss is unlike anything we've ever shared, and nothing like I ever had before. He swallows my moan, as his hands move down my body, first brushing against the side of my breasts, before moving south, and gripping my hips, he pushes me back into the wall, and I moan again. His lips leave mine to trail down my neck, I feel his nose nudge my shirt to continue down to the tops of my breasts. I close my eyes briefly before I bring my hands up to cup his face, and bring his head up; crashing my lips against his once more, breaking the kiss only seconds later. My hands don't leave his face, trying to keep his attention.
"Jay, I..I don't want you to feel pressured or rushed." I ask him, and he just nods
"Use your words Jay, if you don't want-"
"I do, want this, I want you, I wouldn't just initiated this if I didn't." He says cutting me off, and grinding his hips into mine to emphasize his point, causing me to moan once again. I smirk at him, giving him a few quick pecks
"I want you too babe." I say to him and he continues to kiss me
"Jay, Jay, do you...do you." I stutter at him, embarrassed to say what I'm thinking, my pause causes him to stop kissing my neck
"Spit it out Er." He says kind of harshly
"Its just...do you really want your first time to be up against the wall?"
He just shakes his head at me.
"I didn't think so, so do you think we can move this up to your room?" I ask and he just nods, a smirk of his own appearing on his face. We stand their against the wall of the entryway for a few seconds longer, before stumbling up the stairs, our lips and hands never leaving each other. We walk into his room; he kicks the door closed with his foot, and then he picks me up, my legs wrapping around his waist, and my arms around his neck. Then he throws me on the bed, and I bounce a few times, before I scoot back until my head meets the pillows. He takes off his shirt, and I lick my lips again, as I stare at him. He then crawls over me, grinning as his face hovers over mine. My shirt has ridden up during the journey here. His hand goes to caress the skin revealed, as he kisses me. Then his legs go to straddle mine, before sitting up and pulling me with him. His hands go to the hem of my shirt, grabbing the camisole underneath too, and bringing both things over my head, before I lay back. He leans over me again, and his lips pepper kisses from my jawline, to my navel, and back up, then bringing his lips to mine. My hands go for the button of his jeans; one of his hands doing the same to mine. I stop, once I get the zipper of his jeans down; I'm so tempted to cup him through his boxers, but tell myself 'soon enough', before halting his hands.
"Jay wait." I say in his ear, and he backs up a little
"If you changed your mind, that's ok Er, I know this was really spur of the moment, and I can wait as long as you want." He says, and I can't help but giggle, at how sad he looks saying those words, and then I smile at how I got so lucky to be with him, someone who would put their desires aside for me. I feel him back away even more, and I break from my thoughts, and focus back on the task at hand. I wrapped my arms around his neck again, so he can't back away anymore.
"No that's not what I meant by wait, I didn't change my mind. I was just wondering if you had a condom?" I ask him, and he smiles at that
"Yeah, I'll uh…yeah." He says to me, giving me a quick peck before he gets off the bed, and walks over to his dresser, that sits against the wall next to his door. I admire his back muscles, watching them flex as he searches through the top drawer; seeing his loosened jeans drop lower and lower, exposing more and more of the distinguished v of his lower abdomen, as his walks back over to the bed, he lets his jeans drop to the floor. He places the condoms on the nightstand next to his bed. Then he grabs my ankles, and pulls, so my body is laid sideways on the bed, and my legs are hanging off the side. He pulls my jeans off, and they join the growing pile of our clothing somewhere on the floor.
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Jay's POV
Once her jeans are off, I just take a moment to admire her beauty, before dropping to my knees. I trail kisses up her right leg, and place one lingering kiss over her pantie covered center, her scent wafting my nose, causing me to become uncomfortable in the usually very comfortable boxers, then I make my way down her left leg, and repeating the action. I stand up; crawl over her again, moving one of my hands under her back; unclipping the clasps of her bra. She pulls it the rest of the way off, and I find myself staring at her again, before moving my lips to light brown peaks of her chest. I then loop my fingers into the side of her light grey panties, and pull them down her legs; I kneel between her legs again, leaning in to kiss her bare center. I stiffening my tongue, and slowly drag it between her wet folds. I only get to do this a few times before she sits up, and her hands are pulling my hair, and then they move to cup my face, bringing her lips to mine, and I swallow her moan, as she tastes herself on my lips. She grabs my shoulders and guides me to sit down with my back against the headboard of my bed. She continues to kiss me for a few more moments, before I feel her hands grip the waistband of my boxers, and then she's slowly pulling them down, my erect member; free of all confinement and bobs between us. She looks down at me, as she throws my boxers on the floor, I watch her as she leans her head down, and I see her give me a wicked grin, before she wraps her lips around me, and I slam my head back against the headboard, my eyes rolling back. 'Holy shit' is all that comes to mind as she twirls her tongue around my head, before probing my opening with the tip of her tongue. She continues for just a little bit longer before I do the same as she did to me, and bring her head up, she lets me go with an audible pop, and gives me a confused and concerned look
"I didn't hurt you did I?" She asks looking down
"No babe, not at all, that was…" I pause not knowing what to say "Well I don't really know how describe that, but it was amazing, it's just that." I say looking away, but one of her hands quickly comes up to get me to look at her
"Hey you don't have to be nervous, just tell me."
"I uh…I want to be inside of you, when I…." I say to her. She just nods, and gives me a soft smile. My eyes don't leave hers, as I reach for the nightstand, blindly searching for one of the condoms I just placed there. When I grab one, she instantly snatches it from my hand, bringing it to her mouth to tear open the foil packaging with her teeth. Once it's open she disposes of the foil, and then looks back at me, as if to make sure, and I just nod. She rolls the condom down on me, and then she's moving to straddle my legs. She rubs her core on me a few times, before she grabs my member, and guides me into her center. My head slams back, and my eyes roll again. My hands go to grip her hips, trying to keep her still, as I try to keep this from being over too soon. After a few moments she starts to slowly rock her hips against me. She quickly finds a rhythm that suits us both. My eyes are still tightly closed shut. The room is filled with the sounds of the headboard slamming against the wall, the clap of bodies moving against each other's; the moans, and whimpers that are coming from both of us. My mind soon becoming clouded as I feel her center tighten around me, and I feel myself reacting, my balls tightening a little more with every coil.
"Jay open your eyes." I slowly do as she says. My eyes look into hers, as her hands move from their place on my shoulder, and chest, so she can weave her fingers through her hair. Then my eyes trail down, and I watch her breasts bounce with her, and I let out a moan, before continuing down, and watching where our bodies are joined, which causes me close my eyes again, the sight proving to be too much, as my release wash over my body. Erin continues riding me for a few more seconds before she too gets pushed over the edge, and her body, sweaty, and spent clasps against mine, and I move to seal kisses up and down the side of her head, down to her neck, and chest. We stay in the same position for a couple minutes, as we try to calm our breathing, and I soften inside of her, before she rolls off of me. I dispose of the condom, before moving to bring her close to me, pulling the covers over are bodies. She curls her body into the side of mine, and her hand goes to traces patterns on my chest; one of mine going to wrap around her, and trail up and down her bare back.
"They were saying I'm not good enough for you. Not pretty, or sexy or smart enough for you. That's what I was thinking about all day." She whispers into my chest, and I kiss her forehead
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Erin's POV
He kisses my forehead after I say what I thinking about all day, but then he doesn't do or say anything after that for a few minutes, but then he tilts my head up to give me a kiss on the lips.
"Hey babe, what did you just say to me last week? Don't worry about being his definition of enough, you already are. Don't worry about what they're saying about you, cause it's not true. You are the most beautiful" He says kissing my forehead again "and the sexiest" he says kissing my eyelids "and the smartest girl" He says then kissing the tip of my nose "I've ever met babe, and you are enough, don't let anyone ever tell you differently." He says before giving another kiss on the lips
"I don't deserve you." I say to him in between kisses
"We deserve each other babe, and I love you." He replies
"I love you too." I lean up kissing him on the lips again before moving to get up
"Where are you going?" He asks
"I have to pee."
"Oh ok."
"Then I'm going to take a shower. Can I borrow a pair of your sweatpants?" I say and ask
"I don't know. Am I going to get these sweatpants back?"
"Maybe." I say innocently, with a giggle
"Alright well go pee, and I'll bring your stuff." He says to me with a chuckle
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Jay's POV
I watch her walk out of my room in my shirt, and then I go to put on a pair of boxers and basketball shorts, before picking up my jeans and boxers I wore earlier today, and throwing them in the hamper in the corner of my room. I then grab a pair of my sweatpants, along with her shirt, bra and underwear. I'm about to leave the room, when I turn back to grab a condom, before making my way into the bathroom, and into the shower with her. We play a quick round of scrabble in the shower. We we're done, we dry off; get dressed, and then we make our way downstairs to order food, and find a movie to watch. After the food arrives, we eat and watch the movie. About an hour later, I'm laid out on the couch, with Erin asleep on top of me. I turn my attention from the TV to the gorgeous girl sleeping in my arms, and wonder how anyone could hurt her, and I think about how I wish I could protect her from everything, and everyone that wishes to break her.
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A/N: I hope I wrote this ok, not feeling it though. Please review, let me know what you thought. I'll try to update again soon. Thanks