A/N Sorry for the delay, life getting in my way again :/ but the end is almost in sight, I can almost taste it ;)

The real deal

Outtakes Part four.

Masen was four months old, and I was almost back in shape, although my breast's were still a ridiculous size as I was still breast feeding, my next stunt work was going to be on Edward's film and I was quite simply terrified to face him. It was almost a relief when production was held up, so I went to help Aro out on his latest film, it was good to be back amongst Renata and the kids again. I had seen that several pictures had found their way onto the web of me with Nessie and Masen, though luckily Nessie's hair was always covered well.

I had an email from one of the big movie award productions telling me I was nominated for their best actress award, it was a big thing and Jasper and Aro both insisted I accept the invitation to go. Jasper even answered the email on my behalf, damn him! this time I would have to go with Aro, he was nominated for best director, Renata was working but said her parents would take care of Masen and Ness. I checked the web out of habit before I left for the States with Aro, and was horrified to see that Edward was presenting the award I was nominated for. What the heck was I going to say to him? If he'd looked me up on the web he'd have seen the pictures of me with Masen and Nessie, so would he even want to talk to me? Aro almost had to tackle me into the car and drag me through the airport.

I was whisked from the airport straight to a hotel where I was presented a dozen dresses, I didn't really register the labels I just picked the one that hid what was left of my un shed baby bump, the matching heels were a ridiculous hight, I'd probably fall on my ass and make a complete fool of myself, well I didn't have any intention of acting again, so this was a one off thing.

I sat in the audience, Aro clutching my hand in an effort to calm me, I didn't have the heart to tell him that it was nothing to do with the awards, though I think he knew that. My category was up and Edward walked onto the stage to ear splitting screams, I saw his lips twitch as he said my name and I couldn't take my eyes off him, in his black suit standing there all chiselled and perfect. He said my name again and everyone stands and clamps, Aro pulls me into a hug and kisses my cheek. "Congratulations, just tell him Bella, I'm sure he'll be fine about it." he said and put my hand into someone else's, who walked me to my doom, also known as the stage, this was all so surreal, like I was looking down on myself, my nerves in shreds.

Edward hurried across the stage and reached for my hand, he was smiling brightly and his eyes sparkled. He kissed my cheeks and congratulated me, then I had to make a speech, I fluffed, saying it was just the work of Aro and Jasper that made me look good, and that I owed it all to them, then I walked back over to Edward and he took my hand and we walked back stage together. The media were waiting and they tried to get me on my own but I clutched Edwards hand tightly, and the moment we got away from them he turned to face me. "Congratulations." he said again, gazing down at me intensely.

"Thank you." I said automatically

"I am not letting you get away from me again Bella, I want to see more of you." he said suddenly.

"That's not going to happen with our schedules, is it?" I pointed out.

"I want to be with you every chance I get, Bella I want you to be my girlfriend." he said and I think I died inside at his words, but he didn't know the truth yet about Masen and Nessie, would he still feel that way if he knew? "Can you at least think about it?" he asked, when I still hadn't spoken as my mind raced to find the right words.

"Edward... I'd like that I really would... but..." I tried to say, but my heart broke a little with each word as my self doubt reared her ugly head, he was going to hate me. "My life is... complicated." Was all I could manage to say.

"Is there someone else?" He asked, Yes I wanted to say, yes your kids.

"No... no of course not... but, I have kids Edward, and every free moment I have I spend with them." I said.

"Please think about it Bella, could you at least discuss it with me, later at the hotel? You'll stay with me, tonight?" He was actually begging me. "Stay by my side for the rest of the night? Please Bella." he whispered, all needy, his breath blowing across my ear making me cross eyed with lust.

"I don't think they'll let me, I have to be back in my seat, I... I." I said as an usher came to take me back to my seat.

He lent down and whispered, "Promise me you wont leave here tonight without me, promise me, Bella." he begged, I kissed his cheek and nodded before I was led away from him.

Jasper was nominated twice in best actor, but it was Edward who won it. Aro got best director and our film also won best adaptation from a book and best film. We were at the after party before I saw Edward properly and once his arm had snaked around my waist he hung on tight and didn't let go again.

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Back at his hotel, he finally had the chance to speak openly, without fear of being overheard.

"I need to be with you Bella, please be my girlfriend." He begged me again.

"I... I have kids Edward." I tried again, wondering if I should just say it, 'they are yours'.

"And?" He asked, and I froze brain dead, I didn't know how to answer, I just couldn't make myself say the words.

"I don't come alone, I come as part of a package deal." I just managed to say.

"Bella, I.. I am in love with you," he said and I think my entire inside combusted. "I am prepared to accept any part of your life that you are willing to share with me." he said, but all I could register were his words over and over again, he, he's in love... with me?

"Your in love with me?" I said rather than asked, though I needed to confirm that I had heard right.

He pulled me into his arms, "I think I always have been." he said, and that was it, I was completely and irrevocably in love with this man.

"And there's nothing between you and Tanya? Or anyone else?" I had to be sure of this before I said anything.

"Nothing at all, you are it for me." he said, and I just melted into him, he scooped me up in his arms and carried me to his bed.

"Edward, I need to tell you something." I whispered, full of trepidation.

"What ever it is... it can wait, right now I need to make love to you." he said simply.

"But..." I tried but his lips with over mine to silence me as his hands moved to unzip my dress. There was nothing more to say, I was lost the second he slid inside of me, he made love to me over and over again, each time expressing our love as we reached nirvana together.

I woke up early as always, my chest aching my breasts over full as I hadn't expressed any milk for the past twelve hours, and I needed to do it now, I tried to pull out of Edward's arms, it was still dark outside, "No you don't, stay here with me." he said pulling me back against his naked chest.

"Edward, I need to get to my hotel so I can change and get to the gym, I promise I'll come back here after, I really need to talk to you about something important." I said.

"Fine, but you promise you'll come back?" he asked warily.

"I promise, now let me go." I said.

He pouted adorably, not wanting to let me leave, "Okay, take my key card so you can get back in." he instructed.

"Okay." I said kissing him quickly on the lips before leaving.

I rushed back to my hotel and expressed the milk in my engorged breasts, urgh, I so wish I had Masen here I missed him badly and Ness, I checked the time, and called them quickly, speaking to Nessie for a few minutes and assuring her I'd be back soon.

I called into starbucks for a hot chocolate and then I saw the headlines on the front of the news stand. My knees buckled and I felt my heart break in two, I couldn't believe my eyes, I passed someone selling flowers and spotted a black rose, death, how apt, the death of my heart. I was practically having to crawl on hands and knees to make me go back to his room, but I had his key card.

As silently as I could I entered his room and placed the paper and rose on the pillow I had slept on, the headlines screaming out at me.

'Cullen and Denali finally reveal engagement plans.'

I stared at his face, young and innocent in sleep, and I choked back my sobs until I was out of the room, I ran all the way back to my hotel and packed my bag, I called the airport, I had just thirty minutes to make it to the airport, they got me on an earlier flight back to France. I cried all the way to the airport and only just managed to hold it together until I was back with my kids, but the second I looked back into Nessie's eyes I started all over again.

A/N Poor Bella.. More on the way soon hopefully...