A few hours later I ran over to Sel's house and knocked on the door, Chelsea answered "Selena!" she yelled for her "hey Miles, what's up?" - "you were right" she looked at me strangely "Joe and I just... you know" I blushed and her eyes got wide and her mouth opened "what? I knew it! You so fell for him" I chuckled "I did, there's no sense trying to deny it" she jumped up and down in excitement "wait, he used a rubber right?" I rolled my eyes "yes, he did. I'm not gonna jeopardize everything I have for a baby. I'm smarter than that Sel" she nodded "I know, but it's my job to ask" she smiled at me "so tell me, was it as good as you thought it would be?" she nudged my arm "better" I blushed and told her the whole story from the beginning.
About an hour later I walked back into the Jonas house and sat on the couch, sighing happily until Zac sat down next to me, he leaned over and kissed my cheek, I slightly pulled away from him "Zac, this isn't going to work, I'm not the 'one night stand' type of girl, I'm actually not even a girl who would sleep with a guy she just met either. I don't know what was going on in my head, but none of this can happen. It has to stop" he looked into my eyes, and I swore I saw his eyes become dead black, his face went from happy to angry, I could tell he was trying to hide it, but it was still visible. Really visible. He nodded and sat back "fair enough, your loss" I practically glared at him "no loss on my part, I got what I wanted, now you have no reason to talk to me, so any interaction will be completely innapropriate" I nodded my head once signaling "okay?" and walked off before he could answer, I could see his jaw clench in the corner of my eye. What the hell did I just get myself into? He had the look in his eyes that no person would want to see, the same exact eyes that Cody had when the officer brought him in handcuffed, fear ran up and down my spine as I quickly walked into Joe's room.
"Shit" I spoke and leaned against his door "What's wrong?" he asked, I looked at him and knew he could see the fear in my eyes, he got off the bed and walked towards me cupping my face in his hands "Miley, what happened?" - "I, I told zac that all of what was going on needed to stop, he said it was my loss and.." I paused "and what?" Joe spoke up "he had the same look in his eyes as Cody did that night" my lip began to tremble "Joe, I'm scared he'll try the same thing" I shook my head and let the tears fall, my breath started to quicken, oh no I thought, not again, I thought I was over this. I tried to control my breathing to keep me from freaking out again, but nothing worked, it sped back up again and I broke down. Joe pulled me into his chest and rubbed my back, he knew what was happening, and he knew the only person to calm me down was Sel, but he also knew that he couldn't leave me to go get her, and he couldn't bring me out past his parents and Zac without causing too much attention.
Joe knew what he had to do, he led me to his bed and sat down on it, letting me sit in his lap, my arms were tightly wrapped around his neck and my head was in the crook of his neck. "Shh" he cooed in my ear while rubbing my back "don't worry Miley, he's not going to touch you" he whispered, but nothing helped. He panicked, and let one hand slide down to my waist, feeling a small square in my pocket, he pulled it out and saw it was my phone. Perfect! He thought and searched for her number and pushing send letting it ring in his ear "Hey Miles, what's up?" Selena answered "it's Joe, you need to get over here, she's having another one of her attacks" - "what happened?" Selena asked in a worried tone "long story, please just get over here" - "on my way" - "oh Selena!" Joe added at the last minute "yeah?" - "come in nonchalantly, I don't want to draw attention" - "got it" and hung up. A few minutes later Selena walked into Joe's room, I looked up at her and hugged her, my breathing started to slow down and I started to relax. "I tried, but she wouldn't calm down with me" I could practically hear the sadness in his voice "it's alright, I've always been her comfort zone, she'll warm up to you eventually" Selena spoke and Joe nodded without saying anything.
"well, I'm just gonna be over here" Joe motioned in the bed and Selena nodded "you want to tell me what happened?" Selena asked me, I nodded and told her everything that happened "oh sweetie, he won't touch you, you've got big bad Joe over here to protect you" I giggled and she hugged me tighter then slowly pulled away wiping away my tears along with my running makeup "life is too short to be sad all the time, no more crying tonight, promise?" I nodded "promise" she hugged me and kissed my head "I love you Miles, get some rest. I'll see you in the morning" I nodded and crawled into bed next to Joe "goodnight Sel, love you" I spoke and laid down in bed next to Joe he looked at me "feeling better?" he asked "much" I responded and he smiled turning his head away from me, looking up at the ceiling. I turned my body and laid my head on his chest and cuddled into him, he wrapped his arm around me and ran his hand up and down my side, relaxing me. "Thank you for trying to calm me down" - "unsuccessfully" Joe spoke up "but you still tried!" I smiled and he nodded looking at the ceiling, I sighed "Joe, I'm sorry. It's not that I don't trust you, I do, it's just.." - "I know, it's a sister thing, like Selena said, you'll warm up to me eventually" I sighed again "I know you're hurt, I can hear it in your voice, please don't be, I just need time" he looked at me "hey, I'm not worried about it, I've got you, that's all I need" I smiled and leaned up giving him a little peck on the lips "goodnight Joey" and fell asleep.