AN: Hey guys,thanks so much for the new reviews that Ive been getting, im soo happy that everyone likes my story so far btw this story is 108 pages so far!! EPPPP~ pffft my goal is 375 so when I hit that goal imma announce it REAL BIG! Anywhoo, there was a question that said, "Why couldnt Ella stay with Bella like Alice stays with Edward, as a sister" and I was wondering, did I NOT explain that too well? Someone, ANYONE write a review telling meh why or why you think so, if nobody replies or alotta pplz says that they dont know, then ill make a chapter of the story explaining that more clearly ^^ Anywhoo, this is a VOLTURI Chapter so get ready for some vampire action ^^ Love you all, and review meh!! I love reading them, and I reply to pretty much all of em ^^
Jane POV~
Sighing dejectedly, I slumped against the rough fabric of the International Airline`s plane seat, gazing aimlessly out the window. I didnt really try to "sight see" because with my eyes, I see things way to clearly and it gives me a massive headache...So I just blankly stared off into space, a hollow hole inside my chest making my thoughts numb. Ive been like this for quite some time now, every so often, I would sneak a peak at my bro-- I mean at the Commander and feel that hole grow larger. Im losing a piece of myself... My brother was everything...the bane of my existance....my only true family...Now that Alec is no longer "with me" my body feels as if a limb was missing...handicapped....incomplete...
"Jane, are you listening?"
I jumped a little. Not even in my wildest dream had I expected my bro--the Commander to speak to my directly, after all those hours in the car he spent avoiding me. Hope gathering in my spirits, I eagerly turned away from the view of the sparkling ocean to peer into the Commander`s eyes, trying to find a small piece of my brother inside.
"Yes, Commander?" I questioned innocently. So far, behind those glowing, ruby eyes, I couldnt see anything...If anything, I only found confusion...Why could Al--the Commander feel confused?
He sighed heavily, "Jane, you must learn to pay attention. I`ll explain things once more, but no more. In a couple hours, we`ll be landing in Forks. Master Aro ordered that we find a suitable shelter, somewhere discrete, and commence our search for Ariella. Once she is in our hold, we will "visit" the Cullens, maybe even bring Isabella back with us. You are to make no unnecessary movements or misuse your gifts."
All my hope from before shattered at his professional tone. He wasnt speaking to me, his younger, beloved sister Jane, he was addressing the Voluri Commander...
"Y-Yes, I u-understand...Commander..." I answered lifelessly, my voice cracking underneath the pressure of agony. If I was human, I would be fighting back tears, but now, I was fighting back the urge to cry out and embrace my lost brother. My knuckles turned ivory white against the seat, my veins bulging with the tension and restraint of holding back my emotions. Dont cry. Dont show your feelings. Dont speak. Dont look. Dont tremble. Dont think. My brain commanded all the orders..The very same orders that kept me at the top of my clan. Every instruction that I listened too, I became stronger, more void of these pesky emotions. Had I have obtained better control of my human emotions, I wouldnt be feeling such depression over my brother...No, thats a lie. A brother is a Brother no matter what. Vampire or no vampire, I still wouldve kept Alec in my heart and soul...Alec...
Inhaling deeply, I tasted the familiar scent rolling off the Commander. It was slightly ashy but nature-like. Alec always smelled like a forest after a fire, destroyed yet renewed. This loving, memorized-by-heart scent was the only thing that kept me sane, that kept me hoping. This person, he`s changed but Alex nevertheless. Closing my eyes, I remembered Alec`s smiling face, the way his white, pale skin would crinkle around his dimples, flashing his pearly whites. His whole eyes would lit up, a majestic cardinal red, vibrant and bursting with life and energy. A creamy, smoothe voice would sing a melody of laughter, one lovely enough to break through my defences and have me smiling in no time...No matter how hard I searched now, that smile appeared to be non-existant on that aloof, cool, professional mask plastered on my brother`s face...Alec... A lump formed in my throat...
Each ticking second was agony, as was every moment spent with this manequinn of Alec. Every brief minute stabbed my heart, dashed my hopes, and shattered my spirit. But, for unknown reasons, I kept re-building thosoe dreams, hopes, and my heart. He`ll come back...He`ll come back! I chanted to myself... Breathing him in again and again, I willed myself to be stronger, to make him remember who he was....who I was....
"C-comm...Alec?" I asked, mustering up all my courage. My eyes hungrily took in my brother`s peacful looking face. These hours, he`s been looking frustrated, angry, and upset. But now, his head was resting on his slightly built chest, rising slowly up and down. Long strands of dark brown hair was draped across his forehead, lush eyelashes just barely brushing his cheeks. A sense of tranquility played on his face and I could have sworn that a soft smile was on his pink lips.
"Alec?" I whispered, anticipation making my voice waver. He suddenly snapped up, a grimance on his complexion. When Alec opened his pale eyelids, I gasped at the sight of such fierce eyes. Blood red and piercing with fury, he glared at me. This shocked me so much that my hand dropped lifelessly and numb to my side. My mouth hung open, unable to utter a single word.
Scowling, Alec rolled his eyes. "Yes, Jane? Is there something you need me to confirm? Im certain that I explain all the details quite clearly."
"Oh...You did.." I managed to say, regaining some of my composure.
Quickly, annoyance flashed in his eyes. "Then what?" He snapped. This attitude made my mind numb, unable to create a decent reply or answer.
"N-n-no....N-never mind. Its nothing, I apologize." I replied, my voice extremely chilly and emotionall detached. Alec raised a curious, suspicious brow at me but turned away. It was as if my sudden chance in character surprised him into puzzlement and silence. In truth however, just that short sentence took everything that I had, my strength, power, energy, and will.
Your the fearless leader. One of the strongest vampires in existance. Commander ofthe prestigeous Volturi. Dont shame yourself like this Jane. My mind lectured me. I nodded in agreement with my stronger self. Im better than this...I dont deserve this pain...If Alec can treat me so coldly..I can do the same? I must!
Crossing my arms, I repressed the feelings and thoughts that cried out for attention. No Jane! Alec is your brother! You must not give up hope! Those kinds of pathetic thoughts were swiftly pummled into silence by my more dominant side. The side that I wore around me for survival. The side that protected me, guarded me, and created a fearful aura around me. Sighing once more, with my breathe, I released all feelings, thoughts, and even my heart out of my body. When I opened my eyes, I felt new, more powerful, and more.....empty.....Somewhere inside, I even felt regret...An eye for an eye...Just because Alec lost himself...How could I throw myself away....? Was Alec really worth nothing to me?
No! Volturi Commanders dont get caught up with human problems! Your a vampire!
Thats right...Im a vampire.....A faithful vampire too...This mission shouldnt be spent worrying about Alec...This was my chance to impress Aro...
Converting all my energy into creating strategies and planning out how I would spent the rest of my existance with Aro, I continued to drain all sense of human emotions out of me. That included regret. When I finished planning out my mission and my future life, I was a shell of my former self...This is how its suppose to be...My mind said. I nodded briefly, noticing that although I, with my own two hands, threw myself away, I still couldnt part with that hole in my chest. If anything, it seemed to have gotten larger...But, it didnt bring me pain...or sadness...It was just there, like an abandoned home in the middle of a desert.
Rubbing my chest thoughtfully, I comtimplated wether or not this was a problem but decided to ignore it since it waas doing to harm as of now. Looking out the window with my new perspective in life, I realized that we were flying over land now. Those landmarks below distinctly resembled the mountain ranges in Montana. We were getting closer...I wasnt sure why but the world below appeared darker...less appealing...as if an onominous shadow was casted over the earth...Was this because I no longer had feelings? Could it be just the weather and some clouds...? I definately hoped so...
A pinging sound caught my attention.
"We will be arriving in Forks, Washington`s international airport in 1 hour and 30 minutes. Please fasten your seatbelts and begin to gather your belongings under foot but not over head. Thank you for flying with us today." The intercom buzzed off and the flashing light alerted the passengers to keep their seatbelts locked.
Ariella....Cullens...Brace yourselves....The Volturi is coming for you.....
Alec`s POV~
"Master Aro wanted us to find a place first, somewhere away from civilization though. We cannot afford to let our secret spill. Afterwards, we`ll scour the lands for Ariella and hopefully, the Cullens." I explained. When I didnt get a response, I tilted my head to get a view of my sister. There, slumped against the blue-gray seat was Jane. Her small frame nestled against the fabric, her shiny, lushious golden hair gleaming in the flourescent light. Jane was turned away from me though, gazing out the window. My heart lurched for a small second. Urgh...This annoying feeling repetedly flashed in my brain, urging me to do something. I had no idea what and the idea was too blurry and vague to even begin decifering. All I knew was that every time I looked at her babyish, angelic face, I felt this pang of...of..guilt? and a desire to protect her. Although my body itched to rub her hair and make her smile, my mind retched at such thoughts. Recoiling at it each time it came up. No matter how hard I repressed those feelings, they continually popped back like an annoying insect. How was my mind and body in constant conflict? Urgh!
"Jane, are you listening to me?" I asked her, deciding to answer my mental question later for I didnt have an answer this very moment. Jaane jumped a little and turned my way. Her full pink lips in an "O" shape, her vibrant red eyes boring into mine. I saw her pupils running around my face...What was she looking for?
Sighing heavily, I began to repete myself, "Jane, you must learn to pay attention. I`ll explain things once more, but no more. In a couple hours, we`ll be landing in Forks. Master Aro ordered that we find a suitable shelter, somewhere discrete, and commence our search for Ariella. Once she is in our hold, we will "visit" the Cullens, maybe even bring Isabella back with us. You are to make no unnecessary movements or misuse your gifts." I used a very detached and professional tone with her. It seemed to be the best for the both of us to remain as working partners rather than siblings...At least until Im able to figure and sort my feelins out. Right now, I was in too much of a mental wreck to think straight.
"Y-yes...I u-understand..Commander." She replied, her voice very dull and lifeless. Once more, that pain shot threw my heart and once more, my mind made me roll my eyes. Something caught my attention though. I noticed that from monents ago, beginning from inside the car, she`s begun to use a certain tone with me, much like how I began to use a very bussiness-like tone with her. Only Jane`s voice was more....human? It carried desire, pain, and hopelessness. It was very comparable to a destressed zombie...sort of monotone...Each time she talked to me using that, I felt a wave of depression...For some odd reason, it bothered my ears to hear to talk in such a manner...It was...heart-breaking?? I groaned inwardly, Im so confused!
As soon as Jane turned away, I hung my head. A terrible migrane was thrashing about in my skull, throbbing my brain. Slowly, I tried to raise my fingers to lightly rub my temples but realized that I didnt have the energy to do so. I felt so awfully mentally weak, so weak that it was effecting me physically... Mocking the position of a young, 5-year old boy a couple rows away, I closed my eyes and slumped lower into my seat. Of course, that boy was fast asleep and I couldnt but the position was comfortable...calming in a way. Oh, what I would do to be able to understand myself...Nothing left you more vulnerable and defencesless than a feeling of lost identiy. I mean, how could a person not know about themselves? I had my suspicions though...Something was very odd about Master Aro...Even now, when the word "Master" escapes my throat, my mind tells me that its normal, that Im only showing my dedication and loyalty but my body shudders at the rusty, un-used word. Also, being inside the castle, mentally prepared and burning with the desire to please felt werid...Like that wasnt me..It was as if someone sliced me in two parts and was holding me together with glue and tape...
Slowly, my thoughts drifted over to Jane...I distinctly remembered a time when she smiled at me. Obviously now she didnt but this old memory was when we both were human.. Although it was centuries ago, I could recall it was clear as a bell...
---FlashBack---
"Brother! Brother Awec! Hurreh! Itssa goin aways!" Jane shouted gleefully at me, running around an empty field. I was standing in trousers and knee-length socks. A large white shirt covering my upper body blew in the wind. The sun was streaming its light into my eyes, warming my back. Happily, I ran after my 3-year old sister Jane. Her braided, blonde pigtails flopping behind her as she eagerly chased after a butterfly. Her chubby, clunky legs raced awkwardly in circles, her baby-ish fingers outstreatched towards the sky. A pink, plump tongue stuck out the side of her mouth, something she usually did when she was concentrating.
"Janie! Haha! Wait for me!" I called out, my arms ready to scoop her and my lips ready to plant one on her head. Jane looked at me, her beautiful, wide blue eyes shimmering in the sun with happiness and curiousity. Long, thick lashes brushed her rosy pink cheeks each time she blinked.
"Awec!" Jane laughed a toothy-grin. Small, little white teeth poking up from her gums. Aww...Such a cutie..
Running at full speed, I grabbed her legs, secured her head against my shoulder, and raised her high into the air, swinging her bridal style.
"Hehehe! Awec!" Jane giggled, her voice shrill and cracking. Her lacy pink dress rustled in the breeze, her two black shoes clacking together. Falling onto my back, I laid Jane on my tummy, stretching out on the fresh, green grass underneath. Small wildflowers filled the air with such potent, graceful smells that swirled magificantly with each gust of wind. Inhaling deeply, I sighed contently.
This was what I wanted life to be like. Me, my sister Jane, together, playing like kids in an open, beautiful field. Using all that nature has to give us.
Suddenly, Jane, crawled up to my chest and propped her head on my neck.
"Hey, ouch Jane. Your hurting me!" I wheezed, smiling at her to make sure that Jane doesnt get scared or offened. To my surprise, Jane removes her elbows off of my neck and places her hands in my hair, twirling strands of it around.
"I wove you, big brother!" She giggled, breaking out into a large grin. It stretched from ear to ear, her dimples casting shadows in her cheek. Even her eyes smiled with her face, little laugh lines crinkling around her big blue eyes. This sight was so heartwarming...touching..and those words ment soo much that right there, I hugged my baby sister and cried. Vowing to love her, defend her, and protect this smile forever...
---End of FlashBack---
Briefly, I wondered where my past feelings went... Was this why everytime I saw Jane`s face I felt so guilty? Because I couldnt keep my vow? Because she no longer smiled? Stress and panic got ready to pounce on me when that image of her smiling sprang into my mind. I smiled back at my 3-year old Jane.
"Alec?" I heard her say my name. Surprise electrified my body, catching me off guard.
Weak! You gave that vow up long ago, why are you beating yourself up about the past! Jane no longer smiles, thats her fault! She`s the only thing thats hurting you! My mind hissed at me, shattering the peace and warmth my heart had managed to retain from that memory. Fury bubbled in my stomach. I`ve had it with my split thoughts!
Glaring at my sister, taking out my anger, I answered coldly, "Yes, Jane? Is there something you need me to confirm? Im certain that I explain all the details quite clearly."
"Oh...Y-you did.." She stammered, biting her lower lip. Her cardinal eyes caught bits of the light and created an image like she was crying. Its the lights..ignore it! No, comfort her! No, you dont care! No, you love her! The 2 sides butted heads, coliding into each other, creating frustration and more white rage to burst open inside me.
"Then what?" I snapped, unable to control my anger, it was seeping out of me.
"N-n-no....N-never mind. Its nothing, I apologize." Jane`s voice started out weak but morphed to ice by the time she finished that sentence. I felt odd, hearing that. My spirit felt empty, as if I lost something very important...but what?
Hesitantly, I tried to say something back but couldnt come up with the right words...Curiosity got the best of me and I ended up raising my eyebrows but that was all. Shamefully, I turned away, unable to look at her face, fearing how I would react. Even to my own self, my own actions and thoughts were unpredictable....How sad...
The intercom pinged and a light flashed on, "We will be arriving in Forks, Washington`s international airport in 1 hour and 30 minutes. Please fasten your seatbelts and begin to gather your belongings under foot but not over head. Thank you for flying with us today."
Ohhhh, I groaned and moaned to myself. Why couldnt the plane take longer!? Im not mentally ready to do a mission! Urgh....
I peered past my sister`s body, purposefully avoiding any urges to glance at her and took a peak below. My enhanced sights zoomed into the geography below, showing me down to the kittlest blade of grass.
The time for action was drawing nearer....With such an unpredictable mind how will it end? With such a strong lack of self control, how can I manage to succede?
There was no time to think, sort things out, nor plan....Will things turn up favorable to me?? I prayed to any and all gods to help me, adding a last minute prayer to help me find myself and to help Jane find her smile...Where could we have gone?
AN: Ok! I promised a long chapter, granted its not as long as my 5,000 word record but hey! Its close....I think Alex is getting annoying.. Idk about you guys readin but writing in his POV is sooo frustrating.. hehe, im tempted to say what happened to Alex but I want you guys to feel Jane`s POV a bit more ^^ The next chapter is Bella so you can finally read about my original character!!!
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