This is my fanfiction story. All rights belong to Kurt Sutter and FX. I am just borrowing the Sons of Anarchy characters. Reba is my OC as is Kaylee. I also give rights to the CW and the creators of iZombie for their known characters. This is a work of Fiction. Story rated m for rape situations and abuse. May include lemons in later chapters. Please Read and Review. This is my first story and I would appreciate any critique you have.

Guys, this horizontal line means sexy time rated M. Please excuse me if it is terrible. This is my first time ever writing a lemon, and to tell you the truth, I was very terrified.

Chapter 25: I'm Sorry

After Uncle Bobby left I made my way back over to Tig and said, "Baby, let's go home."

Tig nodded his head, grabbed my hand and led me to his motorcycle. We hopped on and headed home. When we arrived Tig helped me off the motorcycle and led me into the house. When the door shut behind us I froze.

Tig looked at me and said, "Baby, what's wrong."

I blinked back my tears and whispered, "I'm sorry. I'm so sorry."

Tig looked confused and said, "What are you sorry for baby? You don't have anything to be sorry for."

I whispered, "No. I do."

Tig said, "Come on. Let's go lay down upstairs and you can tell me what's wrong."

I agreed and we walked upstairs and changed. I changed into a pair of workout shorts and one of Tig's shirts, and he changed into just a pair of basketball shorts. Then we climbed up onto the bed. Tig stretched out and put his back against the headboard and I laid on my back with my head in his lap looking up at him.

He ran his fingers through my hair and said, "Okay, baby. What's wrong?"

I stared at him adoringly and said, "Please don't be mad at me."

Tig said, "Love, you know I could never be mad at you."

I took a deep breath and said, "Okay, when you were gone and I found out about mum, I locked myself away for 3 weeks while I was processing everything. I hardly left the bed, I ate crackers and drank enough water to keep me alive, but that was it. My time was either spent crying or sleeping and I couldn't get out of my funk until Happy busted up in the room and made me get up and shower and eat real food. He was extremely concerned about me. After my initial 'shutting myself down phase', I was doing partially better. I was talking to people again, and I was eating. I wasn't barely surviving, sleeping or crying. I was doing sort of better." I paused and took a shaky breath before I continued saying, "Then I got bad again. I seemed okay, but I really wasn't. I would be okay during the day. Happy and I would go around and prank the other Sons, and I was having fun. I wasn't focusing on my mum's death, but at night, the thoughts would creep into my head. 'All of this is your fault. You could have saved her. You're the reason she's dead. You really think people want to keep consoling you. Grow a fucking pair. Stop your crying and make yourself better. You're worthless. You shouldn't be here. She should. Major should have killed you when you were a bratty child.', and I let these thoughts in. I believed these thoughts. I didn't even realize when I had moved that first time, but I did. I was crying and I went straight to the bathroom and grabbed a razor blade. I stripped and climbed into the tub to try to get the hot water from the shower to send these feelings away from me. While I was feeling the hot water more thoughts crept into my head. 'You're the worst person here. Everyone hates protecting you. You're the weakest person in the world. You deserve everything that Major did to you.' I was okay trying to fight back those thoughts when the last two crept into my head. 'You are the reason Blaine is dead, and you're going to be the reason Chibs dies. Tig doesn't love you, he never will. He's with you out of pity.' I can't tell you which one it is that sent me over the edge, but the next thing I knew I felt a stinging pain along my thighs and hips from where the water was hitting me. I-I looked down and saw blood forming where I was stinging. I didn't even realize I had cut myself before it happened. I cried more after and I cleaned it up and went to bed. The next day Happy could tell I wasn't okay again, so we talked, and I told him what had happened the night before. We talked about it and he told me to holler next time I felt that way and maybe he could help, the other times it happened, it was much the same way. I never called for Happy, I was in the shower, and I never realized what happened until after it had happened. I never cut myself deep enough to end up in the hospital, but I'm probably going to have a few scars from it. I hope you still love me. If you want me to go I'll go. I'm not going to subject you to a life of dealing with my mood swings."

I finished my story in tears and I glanced up when I felt Tig's tears hit my face. I sat up and he pulled me into his lap. He kissed me passionately and then moved on to nuzzle my neck.

"I promise I will always be there for you in times of darkness. I will always pick you up when you're down."

I kissed Tig and decided right then I was never going to let this man go.

Tig started nipping at my neck and I felt myself growing wet at the feel of his beard tickling me. I let out a slight moan as he moved his hands over my hips and under my, his, t-shirt. He cupped my breasts and I let out a whimper. This felt amazing. I laid back onto the bed and moved to take my shirt off. When I was laying on my back in front of Tig with nothing but my workout shorts and panties on, Tig laid on top of me and brought his mouth down to one of my nipples. He sucked on my left one while he used his hand to pinch the nipple on my right breast. He switched around and sucked on my right nipple and played with my left one using his hand. I moaned and Tig pulled back. He looked me dead in the eyes and said, "Baby, are you sure you want to do this. It's okay to say no." I nodded my head for him to continue and he moved to kiss my stomach. He kissed along my hips paying special attention to the new scars that I made. He did this along both sides of my body until he came to the top of my work out shorts. He slowly pulled my shorts and my panties off my body in motion as I lifted my lower body off the bed to assist in removing my clothes. As I laid naked under Tig I came to the realization that he had way too many clothes on. I got my hands on his waist band and jerked his pants and boxers off. When I saw his dick, I gasped and he took the opportunity to attack my mouth again. Our tongues fought for dominance with Tig's eventually winning. I wrapped my legs around Tig's waist and felt him bring a finger to my entrance. He used his finger to slowly circle my clit before pushing two fingers into me. I moaned out Tig's name and he curved his fingers inside of me hitting my g-spot. Tig abruptly pulled his fingers out and he grabbed my hips to hold me still. I removed my legs from around his waist as he slid down my body kissing every inch of my skin. With his trail of kisses, I felt my whole body on fire. When he got to my pussy, he completely avoided it and kissed both my thighs and my scars. He finally put his mouth to my pussy and began to part my lips so he could delve his tongue into me. While he was lapping my juices, he removed one hand from my hip and brought it back to my clit. He flicked my clit as I felt myself grow closer to the edge. With a final thrust of him simultaneously flicking my clit and flicking his tongue inside of me, I felt a coil tighten in my lower belly and then erupt. I came hard and was shaking as Tig lapped my pussy juices up. When I came off my high I needed to get Tig inside of me as fast as I could. I used my lower body to flip us over where I was on top of Tig. I kissed down his happy trail until I reached his dick. I put my mouth over his penis and swirled my tongue around his slit. I felt pre-cum leaking and I happily swallowed it. I began to work my way down Tig's dick with my mouth and what parts my mouth couldn't reach, I used my hands to pump him. Tig moaned at my touches and said, "Baby, I need to be inside of you." At his words, I removed my mouth releasing his dick with a pop and positioned myself with his head. He took the head of his dick and moved it against my clit and slowly entered me. He pushed into me and then pulled almost all the way out before pushing back up into my pussy. Tig bent his knees and I leaned backwards some putting my hands on his thighs near his hips with my feet on either side of his hips. I started moving slowly letting his dick fill up my inner pussy. Tig gasped out, "Baby faster." I started bouncing up and down on his dick as fast as I could. Tig flipped us over and put one of my legs resting over his shoulders as he pumped in and out of me. Panting, I mumbled, "Mmmm. Faster baby faster." Tig obliged and we started meeting each other thrust for thrust. I was beginning to see stars when I felt that coiling in my belly. I managed to say, "I'm about to cum" as Tig grunted with each thrust. He was slamming his dick into my pussy and I couldn't get enough of it so I reached out and grabbed onto his shoulders with my fingers. This slight change of position allowed him to hit my clit and my g-spot with each thrust into me. I felt the earth stop spinning and I dissolved into pleasure feeling my pussy pulsate and pull Tig over the edge with me. He spilled ever bit of himself into me and kissed me as we rode out the rest of our orgasm together.

Tig helped pull me up off the bed so we could go and take a quick shower. When we were done with our shower we changed into night clothes and went to lay down in the bed. Tig pulled me to his side and in between kisses said, "Baby. I. Fucking. Love. You."

I giggled at Tig and said, "I love you too, baby." Then we blissfully fell asleep in each other's arms.