Chapter 25

Location: Prentiss Household

Day & Time: Monday, 10.25

JJ made her way back upstairs once she had spoken to Garcia, she pulled the fresh clothes out for Emily, and she looked over noticing Emily had fallen asleep again. She hated to wake her but JJ had to, they needed to find the underlying cause of what was causing her to be so sick.

"Emily" JJ said softly, as she sat on the bed next to Emily her hand resting gently on her shoulder, "Emily, you need to wake up darling," JJ said softly causing Emily to stir slightly. Emily looked at her as she closed her eyes again, JJ shook her head slightly she hated that she needed to wake Emily but she knew they had to get moving.

Emily stirred more, her eyes focusing on her wife, "Hey" Emily muttered causing JJ to laugh slightly "Hey, come on Em, I know you don't want to move but you need to get ready so we can get to the hospital" JJ said firmly as her hand rested on Emily's cheek. Emily nodded as her eyes still focused on her wife.

Emily gave her the best smile that her body allowed, "I feel like I've been hit by a truck," Emily said as she leaned into JJ. JJ could not help rolling her eyes as she spoke "The last time you was hit by a truck you didn't look this bad" JJ said giving her a pointed look.

The last time Emily had been hit by a truck, she had argued with Morgan that she was fine and nothing was wrong with her. Well aside from a concussion and her arm being cut badly and every part of her body was hurting, but still Emily worked the case not backing down or giving into the pain, not allowing anyone to see how much pain she was truly in. though once they had both gotten back to the hotel room and JJ was able to finally inspect her body, JJ winced as she took in the deep purple bruises which laced her body.

"Okay bad example" Emily said her voice still slightly raspy. JJ chuckled "You think!" JJ teased slightly as she help her wife up so she was sitting up on the side of the bed. There had only been a few times that Emily had felt weak and this was one of them, she hated that JJ had to help her like this, but her body lacked any type of energy, her body ached more than everything and considering how many times she had been knocked out or in a fight.

Emily had managed to make her way downstairs with JJ's help, "I will just let the kids know where we are going" JJ said as she managed to get Emily to sit on the stool. Garcia looked at her the worry in her eyes; "Oh Emily" Garcia said softly, it was as though someone had stripped the happiness out of her, once her eyes fully landed on Emily. Emily could only manage a slight smile before JJ came back into the kitchen; her hand rested on Emily's back which Emily gratefully leaned into too.

"Garcia, I don't know how long we will be, but if you need anything Casey's number is on the fridge," JJ said as she wrapped Emily's coat around her frame. "Will you ring me and let me know if everything is okay?" Garcia asked watching her friends carefully. JJ gave a swift nod before taking Emily down the hall.

They had just made it to the hospital within an hour and a half; they would have been there sooner if it were not for the fact JJ had to pull the car over a few times so Emily could be sick. The drive had been mainly in silence; Emily had lent her head against the window for the most part her eyes not opening unless she needed JJ to stop. Emily hand kept her hand rested on the blonde's thigh since the moment they had set off.

The waiting area was quieter than JJ thought it would be which JJ was happy about, Emily rested her head against JJ's shoulder as JJ's arm wrapped around hers allowing her to run her fingers soothingly through the dark hair. She had never seen Emily like this and though JJ look the essence of calm on the outside, inside she was scared as anything.

They seemed to be waiting for ages before the young nurse called them through, Emily had not even acknowledged her as JJ helped the stubborn woman onto the bed and helping her into the gown. "Ma'am, if you would like to wait outside," JJ raised her eyebrow slightly. "I would rather stay here, with my wife." JJ said giving a pointed look, as Emily gripped her hand.

No one on the team knew but Emily hated anyone touching her, she disliked the closeness of people in her personal space, when JJ and Emily had first started dating, Emily always seemed to have a wall around her and the second JJ stepped into her space the walls seemed to come up higher. Emily wasn't use to people touching or caring about her, the only person Emily ever seemed comfortable with was Amy and that was mainly because she was Emily's daughter.

Moreover, since the incident with Doyle. Emily had become ashamed of her body, even when JJ would look at her body raking her eyes over her, Emily's eyes would become downcast, the shame over taking her. However, this was only something JJ saw, and over time JJ had healed the old wounds, which she had wiping out the memories.

The nurse nodded as the she asked Emily to lay back, and if the dark haired profiler was honest and had the energy to speak she would utter her thanks, as she leaned her sore and tired body back against the table type bed, "The doctor will be with you shortly" the nurse said kindly as she existed the room.

JJ placed her hand softly against Emily's cheek, causing Emily's eyes to open as she spoke softly her voice still raspy and slightly weak "Sorry Jen" JJ couldn't help the smile that crossed her lips.

"Emily, you can't help being ill baby" JJ said as she looked into deep chocolate eyes, Emily nodded against her, the slight knock on the door disturbed them slightly as JJ spoke telling them to come in. JJ breathed a sigh of relief as the older woman entered the room, she smiled slightly, as the doctor greeted them "Good afternoon ladies, I am Doctor Cooke," she said kindly as she shook JJ's hand. Emily just looked at her "Hi," was all Emily managed, she was too tired, Emily just wanted to go home and climb back into bed. "JJ and this is Emily," JJ said with a sad smile.

"I got the message from your doctor that we need to run an ultrasound and we also need to take some blood work," the doctor said as she took a seat next the bed so she was able to see her patient. JJ nodded as she kept hold of Emily's hand, "Emily, I am just going to lift the gown up slightly so I am able to look at your stomach" the doctor said kindly, Emily couldn't help the slight flinch as cold glove covered fingers touched her skin.

She feels around her scar from where the stake had been pushed into her body by Doyle a few years earlier, the redness and the pain as the doctor pushed down slightly caused Emily to wince and her muscles to contract, the doctor frowned slightly as she continued to push around the area.

"How long ago was the surgery?" the doctor asked as she continued to feel around the area, "About two years ago" JJ said, the confusion masking her voice as she spoke. "Did you have any complications?" the doctor asked as she started to move lower. "There was a couple, about six months later" the doctor nodded, "I will order a full blood count, have you had any injuries to your abdomen recently?" the doctor ask as she pushed Emily's pants lower revealing her pubic bone.

Emily nodded, slightly as she looked at the doctor, "I caught it about a month ago, but it healed up" Emily said, "What did you catch it on?" the doctor asked and she could tell by the look on JJ's face the younger woman didn't know about it. "Caught it on some wire" Emily said. JJ could not help but roll her eyes slightly. "But it healed within a couple of weeks" Emily admitted as she gave JJ a half smile.

The doctor nodded as she pulled the gel out and the ultrasound machine closer, "Right this is going to be cold, is there a slight chance you could be pregnant Emily?" the doctor asked. Emily's eyes sadden as she shook her head.

Location: Prentiss Household

Day & Time: Friday, 04.24 (two days before JJ received the letter regarding Simons refusal for early release) January

*Flashback*

Emily had woken with a slight start, the pain emanating from her stomach; she made her way to the bathroom on unsteady legs, as she removed her shorts her eyes fell onto the deep red stains of blood. Her eyes began to fill with slight tears as she called for JJ hoping she was able to wake the sleeping blonde.

She could not help the sobs, which came from her chest as JJ rushed in the sleepy haze still covering her mind as her eyes fell onto her wife "Emily?" JJ said softly as she looked at Emily whom seemed heartbroken. Sad sorrowful eyes fell onto her before she looked down at the floor.

JJ followed her as she took in the blood, her heart broke. They had been warned that due to the trauma Emily had gone through that her body might reject the fetus if the insemination had taken, JJ walked over to her wrapping her arms tightly around the heartbroken brunette. "Oh baby" JJ said sadly as she rubbed Emily's back pulling her close to her body.

"I'm sorry" Emily mumbled as she pulled back so she was able to look into JJ's eyes, blue eyes held hers as JJ cupped her cheek, this had been the third time they had tried and each time her body had rejected. "You have nothing to be sorry about" JJ said softly, before she stood up turning the shower on.

This was the last time Emily was going to try her body couldn't take the strain and neither could her heart, she felt like she was failing JJ, that she had let her down unable to give her wife what she wanted unable to give her another child.

The year that Emily had come back JJ had told her how much she would love another child, they had talked long and hard about it, Emily finally agreed, the only thing Emily requested was that they used the same donor as last time.

The doctor had been slightly concerned given the injury that Emily was still recovering from and her previous medical history, her womb was slightly scared from the abortion she had, had when she was 15, and the medical problems she had while she had been pregnant with Amy, they were all slightly unsure if Emily's body would be able to cope.

But now Emily knew the that her body would not carry, it had been the third time Emily had bleed, the third time Emily's body had rejected and JJ's heart broke for her wife. JJ helped Emily remove her clothes before she got in the shower; she made her way back into their bedroom grabbing Emily some fresh pj's. Her eyes scanned the bed; she let a slight sigh slip from her lips as she looked at the deep red, which laced the covers where Emily had been asleep.

*End of Flashback*

The doctor looked at JJ who in turn gave a weak smile, "Are you sure Emily." The doctor asked again taking the look that both women were giving her. "She's sure, Emily was artificial inseminated just after Christmas, but it didn't take" JJ said sadly.

The doctor nodded as she began the scan, "Did you do a test?" the doctor asked as she turned around so she could higher the volume. "Yes," Emily said, she had done two while she had been undercover as her stomach had started to cramp and she had begun to feel slightly bloated much like she had with Amy, but both tests informed her that she wasn't.

The rapid type beating could be heard through the doppler monitor, JJ's eyes went slightly wide as the beating sound echoed through the room "Is..." JJ started as Emily looked at the screen in shock. The doctor took in the expression of both women as she smiled, "Well looks like you are very much pregnant Emily and looking at the scan I would say you are around 12 weeks." Doctor Cooke said.

Emily could see the concern on the doctor's face once she removed the monitor causing the screen to go blank. "Emily, I am just going to get a nurse to draw some blood and get them rushed through" the doctor said as she rose from the chair, "Do you think it's an infection?" JJ asked, though she was still slightly in shock. Emily was frozen, in shock and fear this was the last thing she needed right now, she had a wife to care for, children to look after and maybe a job that she was going to return to.

"If the incision has become infected due to the wire, we will have to start you on antibiotics now, I will know more once we have the results back," JJ nodded. "Once the nurse has taken your blood and give you an anti-sickness injection which will start working quickly, as we need to get your fluids up Emily, I am going to ask that you be moved to one of the side rooms, so we can get you set up with an IV" the doctor said firmly before leaving the room.

JJ turned back to look at Emily, she had seemed to go paler than she already was, JJ could see the fear and panic lacing her wife's eyes. "Emily," JJ said softly pulling her wife's attention. "I can't be Jen" Emily said, JJ could hear the shock in her voice as she spoke. JJ would admit that she was in total shock, but she could not help the smile that over took her face.

JJ cupped Emily's cheek as she watched the worry cast over Emily's face, but before she had chance to say anything the nurse entering the room pulled her attention. "I have just come to take your blood and give you an injection then you will be moved into a side room so we can set up the IV." The nurse said a little too brightly for Emily whom was still in shock as she tried to hold back the bile that was rising in her throat. Before Emily had chance to even hint that she was about to be sick she leant over the side of the bed as she heaved, JJ grimaced slightly at the shocked look of the nurse.

Once the blood work had been done Emily was transferred into side room, both of them grateful that they were able to afford a private room, Emily hadn't said much as she laid there with her eyes closed, though it had more to do with the fact that Emily still felt like crap, but JJ worried.

"Emily" JJ said softly as Emily just nodded her head before she spoke, "Lights hurting baby" Emily said softly, JJ made her way over to the bed sitting next to her wife which enabled Emily to rest her head on the blondes chest. "I love you," JJ whispered as she placed her lips against Emily's forehead.

Emily leaned into her more as she spoke, "Jen, what…I mean" Emily sighed, "Em, let's just figure out what is causing you to be so sick and if you have an infection, I get the feeling they may want and need to keep you in" JJ said calmly, though she didn't feel it, JJ still didn't like being on her own and it was even worse when Emily wasn't around, the quietness in the house made the demons take over.

Emily wrapped her arm tightly over the blonde's waist as she placed a soft kiss on her chest where her head was. "See if Garcia can stay with you just in case Jen" Emily said as a stray tear fell.

A few hours later the doctor reappeared at the door she knocked before entering and the look on her face told JJ everything, "How bad?" JJ asked before allowing the doctor to even speak. "We need to set up the antibiotics so they will start acting quicker and get into Emily's system faster, she had a server infection and we need to be able to get it under control so it won't affect the fetus. Emily's eyes snapped opened as she looked at the doctor.

JJ swallowed slightly, as a porter entered the room setting up the IV equipment, "We are going to have to keep you in Emily," the doctor smiled as she waited for the information to settle in.

"Could I lose?" Emily hid her face into JJ trying to regain control over her emotions; she took a deep breath before turning to look at the doctor again, "What are the risks?" Emily asked instead, "If we can reduce the infection over the next two days, there will be no long term effects,"

JJ frowned slightly "What if it doesn't?" JJ asked the doctor smiled kindly at them both, "Your body has already started to fight against it," Emily nodded "I don't understand how when it happened weeks ago" Emily said as she looked straight at the doctor.

"If you have been under a lot of stress that may have triggered it, or even something that has upset your system emotionally can trigger an infection especially since where you caught yourself with the wire it is already a weak point" Emily nodded as she held on to JJ more tightly "Thank you" Emily said softly.

JJ turned to look at Emily her eyes held unshed tears as she began to blame herself for her wife being so ill. Emily look at her rising an eyebrow "Jen, get that thought out of your head" Emily said giving her a pointed look. "But, it is my fault you have been under stress Em" JJ said sadly. Emily cupped her cheek so JJ was looking at her, "You darling have not stressed me out," Emily said with a soft smile, "However, all this with the investigation into what I did undercover, now that has stressed me out let alone that bastard dying" Emily said honestly, "Emily what haven't you told me?" JJ asked the confusion evident on her face.

"I could have lost my badge Jen," Emily said even though JJ already knew that, Emily took a deep breath "And since Robert died because of the injuries I had inflicted on him, I could have been charged and sent to prison" JJ looked at her in slight shock, "But none of that is going to happen okay" Emily said with a soft smile as JJ threw her arms around Emily.

Emily closed her eyes, the energy she had gain seemed to leave her body, the slowing of her breath caused JJ to smile as she spoke, "Em, I am just going to ring Casey and then Garcia to bring you your go-bag." Emily nodded "Jen, don't tell them yet please," Emily mumbled slightly, "I won't, darling" JJ said softly "I am also going to get her to bring Henry with her so he can see where you are okay" Emily nodded grateful that her baby boy would see and know where she would be. "Jen, do you think he's going to be okay?" JJ placed her lips on Emily's forehead "He will be find baby, I promise"

JJ made her way down the corridor as she dialled the familiar number. "JJ, is everything okay?" Garcia said not giving JJ a chance to speak, "They are keeping her in, can you bring her go-bag and Henry to the hospital, you can use our other car since it has the car seat already set up." JJ said as she leaned against the wall outside. "What about Amy?" Garcia asked as she tried to locate Emily's bag, "If she wants to come she can, but Casey should be there by the time you are ready to set off"

Though JJ would, rather Amy be with her, she also knew that she was safe. The fear that she had for her daughter was slowly going, though it came in waves fear and panic for Amy would come like a tidal wave but once she had seen or spoken to her JJ would settle, though at night she was worse nightmares would often wake her in a cold sweat screaming for her.

Once the line went dead JJ took a moment for herself allowing all the information they had been told to sink in, the shock had worn off and in its place happiness and joy had taken over, something she hadn't felt in months, they were going to be parents again. It would be something JJ could focus on and take her mind away from the trauma she had endured.

JJ her way back down the corridor and into Emily's room, she couldn't help the smile that graced her lips as she watched the brunette sleep, her eyes fixated on Emily stomach, there was a life growing in there, a baby which was going to be loved so much and deep down JJ hoped it would also heal their family.

JJ's eyes went slightly wide as the realisation hit her, "We need to move" JJ said in a whispered breath causing Emily to groan slightly. JJ allowed her mind to wonder, they had a beautiful home already, but since Robert had been to their house, if JJ was honest she couldn't fully settle there but when Emily had mentioned it JJ had refused and that was only because she didn't want to be the reason for unsettling the children. Now there was a reason to get out of that house which had not felt like home since she had been released from hospital.

Too much had happened there, Amy's dad had caused a mountain of problems once they had moved in and when JJ adopted Amy he had flipped, it was then that Emily installed the CCTV in there house, the cameras covered the whole of the outside of the house and were well hidden so no one saw them unless they truly looked. Which when Doyle had come back it had been a saving grace, but it had been their home since they had gotten together some six years ago.

The slight knock on the door pulled JJ from her thoughts, Garcia entered after a few moments she smiled brightly at JJ before her eyes fell on Emily, and Henry was wrapped in her arms "Mama?" Henry said softly as he looked at Emily, "Hey little man" JJ said causing Henry to fling himself out of Garcia's arms and into JJ's.

"Mama is poorly Henry" JJ whispered as she took him over to the bed "I think she needs a Henry hug" JJ said softly as she place Henry down at the side of Emily, his little arms wrapped around Emily's waist as he cuddled into his Mama allowing JJ chance to talk to Garcia, "What have they said JJ?" Garcia asked, she could not help the smile gracing her lips as she watched her nephew curl into Emily. Moreover, it had amazed her that Emily seemed to pull him closer as though she knew he was there even though she was sleep.

JJ chuckled slightly as she placed a kiss on henrys head before seeing the look on Garcia's face, Garcia pulled out her camera wanting so badly to catch the moment, "She will kill you Pen" JJ warned slightly knowing what her blonde friend was planning on doing. "But it is just so cute" Garcia gushed.

JJ shook her head as she motioned her friend out of the room so as not to disturb Emily, "What have the doctors said?" Garcia asked, "She has an infection," Garcia looked at her concerned "How?" JJ smiled, "She caught her scar on some wire," JJ said though she was not able to take the grin that was still spread over her lips. Garcia studied her for a moment, but before she had chance to speak Morgan had come up the corridor.

"Where is she?" Morgan asked not even greeting them both, "In there sleeping" JJ said though she was slightly puzzled of how he knew where they were, "What's going on, is she okay?" JJ smiled "Emily is fine, she has a bad infection so she is staying in for a few days" JJ said, "But she is going to be okay?" Morgan asked, JJ nodded knowing how much he worried about his partner.

"Hotch, Rossi and Reid are on the way, Amy didn't say what had happened aside from my princess was in the hospital" JJ shook her head, she should have known the team would all turn up, though she was surprised that Garcia hadn't called him. "She is fine Morgan I promise" JJ said, he seemed to stare at her for a moment. "What are you not telling us JJ?" he asked, "Nothing," JJ said with a slight glare.

By the time the rest of the team where there they were, heading back into the room JJ had asked them to be quiet as Emily was asleep, as soon as JJ opened the door she couldn't help but laugh looking at their son. Henry had managed to climb up onto Emily's chest, his head nuzzled in tightly in Emily's neck, as Emily's arm was draped over his back rubbing it softly.

Garcia couldn't help it this time as she took a picture grinning at the sight in front of her, JJ shook her head before she made her way over to Emily running her fingers first through Emily's hair and then through Henry's, both of them were fast asleep though Emily seemed to follow the touch of her wife.

The team all sat in the room keeping an eye on both women and talking amongst themselves, Emily groaned slightly as she spoke "You guys shut up" Emily grumbled causing JJ to laugh slightly, Emily was never the best at being woken up unless it was her children or her wife waking her, Henry moved slightly on top of her causing Emily to pull him slightly closer.

"How you feeling Prentiss?" Morgan asked as he moved into her eye line, Emily looked at him for a moment "I'm fine" Emily replied giving Morgan a soft smile, "Do you want me to take him?" Garcia asked as she hovered near Emily and JJ, to which Emily shook her head "He is fine" Emily said as she kissed his brow.