Chapter 25: Too Much
Bella's POV
I felt arms wrap around me, I thought it was Evan at first and was about to hit him until I felt lips press against mine. Lips that could only belong to my loving and alive husband. I tried to turn around to look what happened but Edward tried to keep me from it, was someone hurt? Who did Evan shoot? I looked down at Edward's stomach and realized that he wasn't the one who got shot. Then I looked at me but realized that I would have felt pain. The last person that could have gotten shot had to be... I screamed and covered my face, Edward held me tighter as I hid my face in his shoulder and started to cry. Laying on the floor was Evan, gun in one hand and a bullet in his head. Blood was everywhere, I shook in fear and shock, I didn't think that he would kill himself.
I peeked at him again, his eyes were open wide, blood covered most of his face and you could see where the bullet went in. Edward rubbed my back and whispered calming words to me. But I found it hard to be calm when we just witnessed a suicide. Cops began to rush up the stairs, shouting orders and bursting into the room. Edward moved me away from everyone so we weren't in the way. I glanced at Natalie in her crib, she was laying on her back, eyes wide, but not crying. I looked at Evan, my knees getting weaker every time I saw him. Finally they gave out, I fell to the floor gasping for air. Edward bent down next to me laying a hand on my back.
"Miss? Are you okay?" A Cop asked.
I felt like I was in one of those dream sequence things you see in movies, everything was moving in slow motion and the voices seemed far away. I convinced myself that this was a dream, that I only blacked out and when I woke up everyone would be alive and unharmed.
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I was sitting on the back of and ambulance, they put one of those oxygen masks on me. Edward was next to me, the whole family, including Natalie who was with Esme, was in the yard talking to the cops, and Charlie was inside taking pictures of Evan. I stared at the ground in complete shock I didn't talk or move I just stared at the ground. I nodded at every one of the questions the paramedic asked me which were a list of: Are you okay? Can you breathe easier? Are you sure you don't want to go to the hospital? I was sure, I didn't need to go to the hospital, I didn't want to go to the hospital. I looked over to the front door when I heard talking, they were wheeling Evan's body out on a gurney. Edward stood up and stood in front of me blocking my view of it.
I let my head fall until my forehead touched his chest, I was glad he was here. He rubbed my back not saying a word, another thing I was glad about. I heard Charlie tell Edward that he was gone, I looked up to see Charlie standing and talking to another police officer. I ripped my oxygen mask off and ran for him, I heard both the paramedic and Edward yell at me. I ran to Charlie and threw my arms around him laying my head on his back. I began to cry all over again, he slowly turned around so that I was laying my head on his chest.
"It's okay. I'm here. Everything is okay." He whispered.
I cried loudly in his chest, the family looked over at us tears filling their own eyes. I wanted this day to be over, I wanted to know that when I went to bed I wouldn't have nightmares of seeing someone commit suicide. I didn't want to cry anymore but I knew I had to, I wanted to get it over with now and not do it later. I finally calmed down, but stayed in Charlie's arms. Esme walked over with Natalie, she smiled at me before looking at Charlie.
"I want you to stay for supper." She said.
"Oh Esme, I couldn't impose." Charlie said.
"No, you are staying for supper. We have enough food so there is no need to worry about that." She told him.
"There's no arguing with her is there?" Charlie asked me.
I shook my head smiling a little.
"There's that smile." Charlie said kissing my forehead.
"So you'll stay?" I asked.
"Do you want me too?" He asked.
I nodded.
"Then I'll stay." Charlie told Esme.
She smiled and walked away.
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"That was delicious Esme." Charlie said wiping his mouth with his napkin.
"Thank you. Whens the last time you had a home cooked meal?" She asked.
He thought about it for a while, "When Bells still lived at home."
"Wow." She said.
I rested my head on Charlie's shoulder.
"Bella, I moved the crib and changing table into your guys' room." Alice said.
"Thanks." I said.
"And I can have the blood cleaned tomorrow." She said.
I cringed.
"And maybe I can-"
"Alice! Enough." Edward snapped.
She shut up and went back to eating her food, there was an awkward silence that filled the room. I excused myself from the room and went into the living room. Natalie was sleeping peacefully in her bassinet that was set up in the living room by the wall. I walked over and picked her up, this was only her second day home and I haven't been able to really enjoy her. I walked over to the couch sitting down, I felt bad to admit that I had forgotten about her most of the time, forgotten that she was here. She didn't wake up when I moved her, she just stayed asleep dreaming about nothing and unaware what had happened in her own bedroom. I brushed my finger across her cheek lightly feeling the smooth baby skin on my finger. I smiled as she moved a little her little fingers opening and closing once before settling back into a peaceful sleep.
Edward walked in the room, he smiled when he saw me with Natalie on the couch. We were a family now, it was hard to believe that I was a mother now, I was responsible for this little person. Edward wrapped a arm around my waist before giving Natalie a kiss on the forehead. I took a deep breath in and out feeling content for the first time that day, I fought to keep that feeling. I tried to not be depressed but I knew it wouldn't last long.
"You okay?" Edward asked me looking at me with those green eyes that made me stop breathing.
I looked at him unable to breathe.
"Bella. Breathe!" Edward said laughing.
"Right." I said starting to breathe again.
He kissed me, "Are you okay?"
"For now." I said.
He nodded, "You don't have a certain time to get over this you know that, right?"
"Yeah." I whispered.
"You- We were apart of something traumatic, we cant just forget about seeing someone commit suicide and just go on with our lives. It takes time to get over." He told me.
"I know Edward." I said wanting to stop talking about it.
"Okay." He said rubbing my leg.
A Few Hours Later- Bed Time
I crawled into bed and curled up into Edward, he was shirtless and reading a book. He swung one of his arms around me, I ran my fingers up and down his chest. On the way down he snatched my hand and brought it up.
"If you go any further, I'm going to be doing something other then reading." He said looking at me.
I laughed, "Okay."
I leaned up kissing him, I reached over to the bedside table and shut my light off. I snuggled into the blankets and closed my eyes. The second I did Evan's face came into my head, I knew this was going to be a long night.
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"AHHH!!" I screamed as I sat up shaking and sweating.
I looked over to Edward's side of the bed, he wasn't there, but there was a note: "Bella, I'm with Charlie, he wants to go have a drink, be home when you wake up." I read it over and over again, go have a drink? I knew Charlie drank occasionally but that was beer, and Edward never drank. I got off my bed my knees shaking, Natalie was sleeping soundly so I decided to go see who was up. I walked down the hall and saw Carlisle and Esme's light on, I walked up to the door and knocked.
"Who is it?" Carlisle asked.
"It's Bella." I said in a small, shaky voice.
"Come in." He said.
I pushed open the door and closed it behind me feeling like my knees would fail to hold me up any longer. I walked over to the bed and stood at the side looking around the room because Esme wasn't in the bed with him.
"She's in the bathroom." He told me answering my unspoken question.
"Oh." I said.
"Are you okay? Your literally shaking." Carlisle said.
"I had a nightmare," I said, "And no one else is up."
"I see." He said patting the bed.
I climbed on immediately wrapping my arms around him tightly, I sobbed quietly in his shirt as he held me. I continued to shake picturing Evans face right before he shot himself, I held on to Carlisle tighter. Esme walked out of the bathroom slowly shocked to see me in her spot.
"We have a visitor." Carlisle told her.
I looked up, "Oh. I'm in your spot. I'll just get up."
I got off the bed but my knees refused to support me, I fell to my hands and knees.
"Bella!" Esme said rushing to my side.
"I'm fine." I said getting up with her help.
"Get back on the bed." She said.
"But I'm too big to be in the middle like a little girl would." I said.
"Nonsense." She told me.
I climbed up and scooted in the middle of the two, it was awkward for the first twenty minutes. Carlisle started to hum lightly as Esme got up off the bed and shut the lights off. I felt safe, I was with my parents who were sure to protect me. They had a dream catcher so I hoped that it would stop any bad dreams that were going to come from actually coming.
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CRASH!
I gasped propping myself up on my elbows.
"What was that?" Esme asked half asleep.
"Dad." I whispered.
"Huh?" He groaned.
"Did you hear that?" I asked.
"It was probably Emmett breaking something." He mumbled.
"Emmett is sleeping." I said.
Esme got up, and so did I, I walked out of the room checking the bedroom first to make sure Natalie was okay. After doing that I walked downstairs with Esme following short behind me. when I got down the stairs I saw Edward stumbling around the room, he was tossing and pushing things out of his way.
"Edward?" I asked.
He spun around almost falling, "Bella?"
"Are you drunk?!" I asked.
"...Yes." He said pointing a finger at me and stumbling sideways.
"How could you go and get yourself drunk?!" I asked him.
"I told you... That I went and drank with your father." He told me.
"You said you were going to have a drink. One drink can not get you this drunk!" I snapped.
"Whoa," He said stumbling towards me, "Watch the snapping!"
Esme grabbed my arm, "How could you come home drunk! You have a child Edward!"
"She's a newborn, she wont care!" He said laughing.
I smacked him in the face angry. He grabbed his cheek before growling and slapping me with the back of his hand, his ring cutting my cheek as I fell to the ground bringing Esme with me. I looked up at Edward shocked as tears came to my eyes, Esme helped me stand as I continued to stare at him. He stumbled past me and walked up the stairs, he tripped up them a few times before making it up to the top. I broke down into tears turning to Esme for comfort, I covered my face with my hands and cried in her shoulder. Emmett and Carlisle walked down the stairs slowly, they were half awake and had no idea what was going on.
"What's going on?" Emmett asked.
"Go talk to Edward, he just hit Bella." Esme said looking at them.
I heard Emmett growl before rushing up the stairs. I stood up taking my hands away from my face, I smeared the blood down my cheek as I took it away from my cheek. Carlisle gasped, he came over to me to look at the cut.
"He... He..." I gasped.
"Shh." He said looking at Esme.
"He cut it open with his ring." She told him.
"This is too much! I can't handle all of what has happened today in one day!" I cried.
"Shh, it's going to get better." Carlisle told me.
"We should call Charlie." Esme said.
"No! He will arrest Edward or get him in trouble for hitting me! Please!" I begged.
"Okay, I wont call him." She promised.
I was afraid to go upstairs, yet I wanted to make sure Natalie was away from Edward. If he hit her all hell was going to break loose. Alice walked down just as the thought left me holding a still sleeping baby in her arms, I sighed in relief.
"Emmett's talking to him now, more like yelling." She told us.
I nodded, she started to hand me Natalie.
"Alice. I'm shaking, I don't want to drop her." I said.
"Okay." She said.
She walked over and put her in the bassinet.
"He's out." Emmett said walking down.
"You hit him?!" I shrieked.
"No, he fell asleep, after I slapped him around for a few times." He said.
I groaned, "Emmett."
"What?! He hit you Bella, and that's not something I'm okay with." He told me.
I sighed, "Thanks... I guess."
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I woke up to the sound of someone throwing up, I sat up from the chair I was in with a bad back ache. I stretched before standing up, I walked into the bathroom before shutting the door behind me. Edward was kneeling over the toilet throwing up. I bent down next to him rubbing his back, he gasped for air before sitting up slowly. He stood up before going to the sink leaving me on the floor, I sighed and flushed the toilet fighting the urge to gag and throw up myself. Edward walked out of the room cursing the sun and holding his head, I followed him standing behind him as he stood by the bookshelf.
"I don't remember a thing from last night." He groaned.
I looked at the floor, "I do."
He turned around slowly walking over to me, I lifted my head up so that he could see what he did to me.
"Bella! Who hit you?!" He gasped touching my cheek lightly.
"You." I whispered.
He looked at me his mouth falling open slowly, "I did this?"
I nodded, tears that were left over from last night filling my eyes.
"I'm sorry." He said.
"No, it's fine." I said my voice shaky as I walked out of the room.
"Bella!" Edward called after me.
I walked downstairs, Alice was on the couch holding a fussy baby.
"I don't know what's wrong with her!" Alice said.
"I'll make her a bottle." I told her.
I walked into the kitchen, I got out the formula powder, a bottle and the purified water for babies. Edward walked in as I opened the formula up.
"Bella..." He started.
I looked at him as I scooped up some powder and poured it in the bottle.
"I know what I did last night was not good." He said.
"No shit." I snapped.
"I said I was sorry!" He said.
I poured the right amount of water in the bottle, I put the lid on the water jug and walked over to the fridge. I put it back before going back to the island and put the lid back on the bottle I shook it looking at Edward not too happy with him.
"You came home drunk Edward. You cant fix it by saying sorry, maybe if you hadn't hit me but you did." I said before walking around the island.
"Bella." He said grabbing my arm to stop me.
"If you'll excuse me," I said ripping my arm from his grip, "I have to go take care of our daughter."
I walked back in the living room, I took Natalie from Alice and sat down on the rocking chair. I got comfortable before placing the bottle in Natalie's mouth, she immediately began to suck it down.
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I walked downstairs after putting Natalie down for the night, I walked in the bathroom and threw my hair up in a messy bun not caring if I looked like crap. I walked into the kitchen and stopped, all the lights were off and there was candles lit everywhere. I looked around totally confused to see Edward standing by a candle lit dinner. I looked at him.
"Edward? What is this?" I asked looking around again.
"I want to make up for what I did, I feel really bad about hitting you and I know it's not right to hit you. I hope that this will make up for it, even if it helps just a little." He said.
I couldn't help but smile, "Edward, this is amazing."
"Really?" He asked.
I walked over to him wrapping my arms around his neck, "Really."
"So, am I forgiven?" He asked.
"That depends, is the food good?" I asked smiling.
"See for yourself." He said picking up a chocolate covered strawberry and feeding it to me.
"Mm." I moaned closing my eyes.
"I take it I'm forgiven." He said chuckling.
"You're forgiven." I told him.
Whew! That was a lot to right! Are you guys happy?! Evan is finally out of the picture! =D Go review! Tell me what you think! =P