I swallowed hard as Chloe ran her hands over my body, this was so different to any other time we had been physical with one another. This was more open than I had been with anybody ever and I was nervous as shit.

'Chloe, I,'

Chloe's beautiful blue eyes met mine. I took a breath. She whispered 'scared?' I bit down on my lip. 'I am too, but I want you to know that these moments will always be my favourite, the Rebeca that only I get to see. The Rebeca that has showed me how to love, how to remember who I am, showed me affection and pride and who is wanting to be by my side.'

I stepped into the bath and sat with my back up against the tiles, Bec stepped in and placed her self between my legs so her back was up against my chest. I placed my arms around her and I felt her let out a small chuckle.

'Chlo, have you heard what has come on music player?

I lay there still, I could hear KT's vocals, and I started to smile too. 'coz I have faith…'

I laughed as Chlo begin singing along in to my ear.'

'So Miss Mitchell, I have been thinking…..and I think that we tell the children about us. I think the more we put it off the more complicated it will be, I want them to know I am happy and that is because of them and you, I don't want you to be some secret. I know Siobhan is going through a lot and I will get her some support when I get home, however I think that when you come back to Ireland we have a night and that we tell her together just me, you and her.'

'Chlo I don't know, I don't want them to be upset any more than they are.'

'Bec I don't either, but I am just feeling so overwhelmed by all of this and the lies and I don't know what is best and what isn't but what I know is that I don't want you to think that you are this person in the background when you are not.'

I was tracing patterns on Chloe's now wrinkled hands. 'Ok, firstly I don't feel I am in the background and second I do not feel like some big secret. I cannot wait for the day when we get to go to bed in the same house and the children will know when they wake up we will both be there. However, for the next 4 weeks how about we just see each other when they are at their dads? That way they are getting all your attention and we can message, skype, call etc every night when they are in bed and on the weeks, they are with Thomas we can either stay at mine or yours and enjoy dating each other and maybe once a month we do something together with the children?'

My heart utterly melted listening to Bec, she was just so able to make things seem so easy an so right.

'How did I get so lucky?'

'well I could ask you the same question? We laughed. 'Anyhow I am getting out of here before I shrink anymore in size, you take your time and relax I will bring you some wine'

With that I popped out of the bath wrapped myself in a towel, I leant down and kiss clo before leaving the bathroom.

I walked in to the bedroom and put on my sweat pants and tee and made my way to the kitchen, I pour a glass of wine took a sip and then took one into Chloe.

The night I had with Beca was lovely. After I got out of the bath she gave me a shoulder and back massage and we talked a little about when I began to realise I had an issue with eating and as much as I didn't want her to see my scars from self injury I knew she already had when we had slept together, however I told her about specific ones, she kissed each one we talked about ' Babe, I know that there will be times when we are together that you will still do this, I hope it is only rare but I understand it, but I want you to tell me when you have done it don't keep it a secret you don't have to ok, just let me know so I can seal it with a kiss before it heals right?' I let her hold me for a little while. Then we ate food she had cooked while watching some trashy tv show. We had several glasses of wine, we shared several heated make out sessions and she talked a bit about when she was growing up and a bit about her relationship with Jesse, and I did the same sharing a few embarrassing stories along the way.

'Bec what films does Alex have? Let's watch one.'

'a film really? It is our last night together for a little while and you wanna watch a movie?'

She started laughing 'Actually thinking about it I haven't finished our L-word seasons so put that on!'

'Chlo, really?'

'Really Becs, I am only up to season 4, episode 7 was the last I saw'

'ok I will cut you a deal, one episode of L-word, and then we do something else. And make desert'

I leapt over onto Becs 'why thanks!'

With that we settled down, cuddled into each other on the sofa.'

Shit this episode was a little hot, Paige and Shane certainly became a little more than friends. 'well of all the episodes chlo you picked that one? My god.'

'Why Becs what was wrong with it?' chloe gave me a wink/

'nothing was wrong with it. You know'

'What did it get you a bit hot under the collar? Don't tell me you have never got hot and steamy in a car? I don't believe that one bit'

'I am not saying that of course I have in a car, hasn't everybody?'

'We haven't' I looked at Chlo who bit her lip. I rolled my eyes. 'And we won't tonight either' she laughed. 'another time another place'

I laughed 'yeah my place in our bed.' Chloe was laughing 'Spoil sport'

'oh shut up and get in that kitchen you have smores to make!'

The rest of the evening we spent talking, laughing and taking stupid photos.

I remember Chloe falling asleep on me and me putting a throw over us, I desperately didn't want her to leave.

I woke up in the morning tangled up in bec and just lay there watching her for a little while.

'Oi creep'

I laughed 'it isn't my fault you look so cute when you are waking up.'

'Are you for real, I feel like death and need a very strong coffee so move it sweet cheeks'

We spent a hour having some breakfast and jumping in the shower and then we hopped in the car ad were heading back to Beca's.

'Bec are we going the right way? Aren't we supposed to turn left there?'

'erm normally yes, this morning I thought we could go this way.

It was so off track and before I knew it the car had come to a stop near some hills.

'Beca what?' she looked at me. 'seriously? Its broad daylight?' I was laughing so hard,

In between my laughing a crying out as Beca straddled me and was peppering me with kisses, I couldn't breathe I was laughing that much.

'my god this is not playing out the way I thought it would Becs' she pulled away moved my hair behind my ears and looked straight into my eyes holding my gaze. She looked down at my lips and back up again, she repeated this and then took my face in her hands, she kissed me passionately and pulled away it left me without a breath 'Beca,' within seconds things all became very heated and passionate, 'Beca I need you, to' before I got chance the seat I was in went backwards a whole lot quicker than I expected. 'What the fuck!'

'shit chlo, I am sorry are you ok baby?' beca was doing her best to ensure I wasn't hurt 'you sure you are not' I connected my lips to hers.

Jesus that wasn't so smooth Mitchell. I ran my hands down the side of chloe's tee and as much as I wanted to see her without clothes this wasn't the time or the place, I ran my hands up the inside of her tee and allowed my nails to leave a tiny scratch as I come towards her stomach. Chlo was arching back as I did this and alternated kisses between her lips and neck. She was only wearing sweat pants too black ones so this made what I was about to do a whole load easier.

I put my hand in Beca's and placed it on the inside of my sweat pants, and I looked up at her, 'I need to feel you. now' within moments I could feel how turned on chlo was, and I knew this was not going to take long. I ran my fingers across Chloe's core and placed pressure, she was making some some very hot sounds, after several moments of tease I placed two fingers inside her and began to move with the pace she had set, 'shit Beca, harder.' I became a little more forceful and could start to see and feel that she was close. I moved my fingers in and out of her much faster and harder 'fuck beca I did not imagine this, this morning, omg, seriously I need you to fuck me.' As I continued I moved so that I was on top of chloe and that my hips were moving in a rhythm to put pressure on my hand that in turn created a pressure on chloe, within moments of this. 'fuck beca my god do not stop, wow, oh god that was hot, wow.' She leant forward and we were kissing heavily. I removed my fingers from inside chloe and ran them across her clit 'oi wow stop it, its sensitive' I laughed and gave her a glancing kiss before she picked my hands up and licked it. 'hey whats that about' she winked at me 'no reason I just wondered that's all' I looked at her wondered what?

Before I got chance to open my mouth she cut me off with a kiss, and as I was still straddling her it didn't take long before she had her hand within my denim shorts and within moments I found my self riding out to her hand movements feeling her inside me always blew my mind but this was fast, hot, rough, passionate and everything last night was not. 'chloe I am going to come baby, as everything chloe rippled through me I had my arms around her neck and her fingers were still inside me while I rode this out. I kissed her softly and a few moments later she pulled out of me and even that brought a shiver of pleasure through me.

'Jesus, i hate to admit babe but chlo that was…' we both started laughing well 'come on Mitchell we need to get back they will wonder where we are.' I pulled the visor down and fixed myself up didn't want to just have that just fucked look. I was laughing that beca was doing the exact same.

'seriously though I have never had such awesome sex, you actually just know everything I want and how to give it to me Bec, even in moments like this now.'

I smiled and wound the window down and hit play on my mp3 'this is for you'….it was I feel it coming by the weeknd. She gave off the sultriest giggle and lightly punched me on the leg. 'good job I love you' I looked over and winked. She took hold of my hand and held it as we sang at the top of our voices, hair down, sunglasses on and ridiculous smiles on our faces.

As we entered the house Grand and Alex were there Jesse too, the children had all their stuff packed up and I could hear so much laughing.

'Mummy Alex is so cool, can he come and visit us at home' I looked at Alex

'Well me and Siobhan have found that we both love writing stories about silly things and we have then created little shows and Patrick and Sophie have been out actors haven't they'

'yep it has been so funny, Alex said that I can send him some of my stories from home to him, if it is ok with you?'

'Of course that is ok with me!, are you ok?'

Beca had gone through to the kitchen to find Grace.

'Hey Gran you ok?' I poured a drink and washed my hands before grabbing some pizza from last night.

Hello my beautiful granddaughter, you are looking very happy with yourself. An I am great, me and Alex had a wonderful time with the kids, Jesse has just rocked up said he wants to shout you lunch later so was dropping by to check it was ok. Alex said he is going to stay here until we go back too. He is carrying a few things that you need to help him out with. Boy stuff.'

'Ok thanks Gran, I mean for everything recently. I love you and I don't know what I would do with out you' I gave Gran a massive hug and kissed her.

'Sorry to break this up, Bec you free later for food?'

'yeah jesse of course, cheers for the playlist last night too'

'No worries, I owed you one. Right I am off to buy paint, babies room isn't going to paint itself. Catch you later weirdo'

I heard Jesse say goodbyes to chloe and the children and I could hear Siobhan chatting away to her mum about her stories, Sophie was outside on the patio playing with giant lego blocks and Patrick was on his ipad.

'Beca come here lets get a photo of me you and sophie before we go, come on soph'

I smiled as Grand took photos of us being silly.

I waked into the back kitchen to see Beca, Patrick and Sophie all making silly faces and laughing taking photos. 'Hey Siobhan Baby come here for a minute,'

I took her hand and led her to the patio, 'can we join in?' Beca looked up 'sure cause you can'

'Siobhan baby you sit between me and Beca, Patrick you sit on Beca's knee and Soph you come here and sit on my lap. We ready one big silly face photo coming up…' with that everybody made a silly face and were all laughing.

'right you lot, have you packed everything up?, mummy is just going to check we have everything and that she has got all her own things and then we will be off to the airport'

'Chloe I sorted a driver out to take you the airport,' she looked at me with such a sad face

'What you are not coming with us?'

'of course I am coming with you, I just got a driver'

'ahem no you didn't you asked me, and I am certainly not a driver….'

'chill out alex dude'

'yeah just because you want a sly make out session when you say your see you laters'

Me and chloe both laughed. Me Alex and Gran began loading everything into the suv.

We arrived at the airport and I was devastated, I didn't want to show it and I certainly didn't want to cry it was like a few days and I would be right back in Ireland. However it wasn't enough. The kids pilled out the car with Alex while he got their bags and then walked them to the sidewalk while me and Beca sat in silence in the car. I saw her hand move to her face, she wiped a tear away. 'hey baby no crying I thought you were the badass one right?'

'I know I know suck it up dude right?, however I don't feel like sucking it up dude, I feel like being dramatic and all this is shit'

'well it isn't attractive so stop it,' with that I rested my forehead on Beca's. 'it is like 3 sleeps and I get to have you back ok? enjoy your time with Alex and your gran. I will skype you every night the kids have gone to bed ok? you will be back with us before you know it, you went 30 odd years with out me three days should be ok.' I smiled closed my eyes and gave her such a kiss she had to come up for air. 'I love you…' With that I gave her one last kiss as I began to cry, our kiss had become a gentle salty entanglement. We both pulled away, 'see you in three sleeps Chlo'…with that chloe closed the car door and I watched her and the kids walk off into the airport….i was so lost in my own world that when Alex jumped back in the car I jumped out of my skin. 'Can we get beer Alex, I need one.' 'for sure we can you soppy git, and I want to know details about everything, and if you guys got all hot and bothered in anywhere but the spare room at mine I will hurt you' I started laughing. 'actually we didn't have sex full stop in your house.' I wasn't going to tell him I had the greatest car fuck that morning, that memory was all mine.

We were all checked in and the kids had sweets and snacks in their bags for on the flight and as we were sat on the plane strapped in and waiting for take off I placed my head against the plane window and a small teal fell down my face.

The next minute my phone pinged

Grace: I thought you might like this.

Attached to the message was one of the pictures she had taken before, however it wasn't anybody pulling a funny face it was of us al laughing, my family the ones I adore all laughing.'

Chloe: It is perfect Grace. Thanks, See you in three days! Xxx

As the plane took off I kept looking at that photograph. Three days and I get to start the biggest adventure of my life right? And this was only the beginning.