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LOST: The Other Survivor
Chapter: 25
"My Mistake?"
I woke up with a start the next morning. I was being held down, a cloth pressed firmly to my face. I grabbed the wrist of my attacker and hit three pressure points up along his arm. It was the man that I'd punched in the throat. I threw him off of me and rolled to my feet. There must have been chloroform on the cloth, because I felt myself getting light headed and sleepy.
I looked around quickly and panicked- Jack was being carried off, Sayid being forced down, a piece of cloth being pressed hard against his face. Sawyer was fighting off three other men. I jumped up and kicked an Other coming at me.
"What the hell is going on?" I yelled angrily and flipped an Other over my body. I was trying to make my way over to Jack since he was unconscious.
"Git outta here Smiley! Run!" Sawyer yelled, his eyes drooping and body slowing. Jack was out of sight. We were losing. My old personality was ready to take over- end it all… get my friends back by maybe killing a few… but I knew I'd never be me again if I killed… I just couldn't… But watching my friends being taken from me- chloroformed and dragged off- It…
Rage building…
I thought I felt something inside me snap.
"No- I don't think so." I growled and grabbed the face of one man who was trying to subdue Sayid. I punched him hard in the nose and moved on to the next.
"Ceal, as much as I want em' dead- I can't let ya do this- Stop!" Sawyer tried yelling, he was on his knees… Two Others surrounding him and holding him down…
"I'm not leaving without you guys- these …. People know who I am- why they think it is smart to fuck with me- I don't know. But I'm getting rid of them." I said feeling satisfied and content that if I killed these people- I'd be safe- and best of all, my friends would be safe… Sawyer… Jack, Kate, Charlie… they'd all be safe.
"Ceal, I said 'NO' damn it!" Sawyer yelled angrily- the commanding tone and rumble of his voice stopping me. An Other-female- took this opportunity to tazor me in the center of my back. I cried out in pain and fell forward in pain and felt my back go numb and ache like hell. I was being punched in the face, kicked in the back, and forced to the ground.
"CEAL!" Sawyer yelled out- I was going in and out of unconsciousness, I didn't know where he was… or where I was. I kicked the man holding me down and forced my way up to my feet. My vision was going black- the Others were standing around me- looking at me in surprise and worry. I fell to my knees and watched Sayid be carried off. I rolled my head to the left and saw Sawyer go unconscious.
"Welcome back." I heard a familiar voice… I then went unconscious.
Later
I woke up on a concrete floor- wearing hand cuffs AND my shackles. I concentrated and opening my eyes slowly and assessing my whereabouts. I was in a room with a pool table… It was like a small game room. I rolled onto my back and groaned. The windows on all four sides of the room were barred and I assumed the front door and back door was locked too. I groaned and sat up. It was light outside still… The middle of the day. Standing, I barely was able to walk. I walked over to the faded white double doors and tried the handle. Locked.
"Hey…! Hey! Let me out of here!" I yelled angrily and fell to my knees. I shook my head and rested my forehead against the door.
"I've been drugged." I mumbled. I walked to the corner of the room and lay down. I could only sleep it off… I couldn't move correctly, or stay awake… I thought of Sawyer… Jack… Kate… Sayid… and Locke… where was Locke?
I heard my door open and I tried jumping to my feet to flee. Instead Juliet just stood with a plate of food with me and watched me try to drag my body towards the door. I stopped and looked up at her groggily.
"What did you give me?" I asked angrily. She just looked down at me and smiled sadly.
"Something to keep you harmless." Juliet said and put the plate of food next to me. I sighed and rolled on to my side away from Juliet.
"Where… where are my friends?" I asked slowly.
"They're all in isolation." Juliet said. I closed my eyes.
Later
I woke up feeling less drugged up. My food was still on the ground, and I was starving. I sighed with frustration and stumbled over to the sandwich. It was a cheese sandwich with a layer of ham. On the side were carrots and a water bottle.
"Yum." I mused aloud and took a bit into the sandwich. I suddenly heard the door open. I looked up with a carrot hanging out my mouth. It was Locke. He wasn't in shackles.
"What the hell?" I asked. Locke looked down at me and smiled.
"I'm leaving. I'm going with them- the Others. You, Kate, Jack, Sayid, and Sawyer stay here." Locke said slowly, letting me soak in the information.
"What-? Why? What'd they tell you?" I asked angrily. Locke turned to leave.
"Locke!" I yelled. He turned and looked at me with a sad smile.
"Good bye Ceal." Locke said and shut the door behind him. I punched the door and turned around huffing.
"God damn it!" I growled. After a few minutes of trying to cool down, I ate the rest of my food and went back to sleep in the corner of my room.
Flash Back
"You can't quit. Ever. You belong to us now." Black Mask said. I rolled my eyes. I'd signed the contract and was ready to become the country's greatest assassin.
"Whatever, when do I start?" I asked angrily. Black Mask swerved in his black leather chair, a dark wooden desk separating us. I was in his dark office. No light was on, and the walls were bare.
"When I say so. Tim will lead you to your new room. Welcome to your new home." Black Mask said. I was pretty sure he was smiling behind his black expressionless mask, since the tone in his voice was light. A man walked up behind me and lead me out of the office. I looked up at the tanned dark haired man.
"Tim." I stated. The man nodded.
"Yeah. You're Cecillie right?" He asked. I nodded. His face was pale and dark bags hung under his eyes.
"So we're allowed to get high here?" I asked. Tim stared at me. He was sweating a little.
"We can do whatever we want here." Tim said. I rolled my eyes.
"You're going through withdrawls. If I were your partner I wouldn't trust you since you're unstable." I said bluntly. Tim stopped walking down the concrete hallway and turned to me- his black eyes angry.
"Well, I am your new partner, and you know what? I don't give a shit if you don't trust me." Tim hissed. We stared at each other a while, then slowly Tim turned and continued down the hall way. I followed closely and felt extremely annoyed that this drug addict was my new partner.
I was left at my new room- which was number 108. I opened the door slowly and stepped inside. There was a single bed inside to the far left corner, no windows, a bathroom to the right, one small closet… a small table and two chairs. No other furniture or decoration hung on the walls. It was cold in the room, and the walls were concrete. Tim had given me bed sheets, towels, toiletry, and I carried my own duffel bag.
I walked over to the creaky metal bed- probably used for prisoners too- and sat on it. The mattress was soft. There was one light in the center of the room and my bathroom had a mini light just above the small mirror over the sink. I saw a cockroach skitter across the floor and into my bathroom.
"Home sweet home." I muttered.
The next day I woke up to someone banging on my door and throwing it open. I got up in a defensive stance and saw Tim standing before me. The color had returned to his face, and he looked incredibly alert. I relaxed my stance.
"What're you doing?" I asked with a frown on my face. Tim rolled his eyes. He was wearing black khaki pants, and a black tank top. He wore a red bandana around his head, and overall was probably five ten.
"Waking your sorry ass up for breakfast then training. After training we're free the rest of the day. Here's your new phone. It's especially built by our own company. Can't be traced, tapped, the works. When it rings, you drop whatever you're doing and pick it up." Tim said, handing me a black phone. I took it. It looked like a regular disposable phone.
"Uh, okay." I said, and put it on my bed. Tim grimaced at me.
"I mean it. You takin' a piss, it rings, you drop your dick and get the phone." Tim said. I stared at him with a raised eyebrow.
"Ahm, I'm a woman." I said slowly.
"You know what I mean." Tim said annoyed and left. I looked down at the phone.
"Huh." I hummed and set to getting dressed.
End of Flash Back
I had been up for two hours bored as hell before I heard talking and shouting outside. I walked to the barred windows and saw the Others walking to picnic tables just fifty yards away, packing back packs, and walking around with gas masks on. I raised an eye brow confused. It looked like they were going somewhere…
Something shattering behind me sent me ducking to the side. I looked up and saw what looked like two frag cans roll in towards me. Gas seeped out of the two cans and filled the room with a white cloud. I coughed and dropped to my knees to keep under the gases. I crawled for the door but the gas was already taking its effect on me. I was losing consciousness.
"Ugh… not … again!" I groaned and fell unconscious.
I woke up again in the same place I'd been unconscious. I coughed and rolled on to my back. I realized my hands weren't cuffed anymore. I sat up and saw my feet free of the shackles too. I coughed again and smiled. I then forced myself to my feet and made my way towards the white double doors. They were unlocked. I walked outside slowly and cautiously. No one was around… It was like fifty people disappeared out of thin air. I took deep breaths of the fresh air and sighed. I had to find the others.
So, I made my way to Jack and my old house. I was sure I'd get some clues there. I walked inside and saw Juliet pushing Jack awake. I ran over to them just as Jack woke up with a start.
"Hey." I said. Juliet looked up at me in surprise.
"Ceal, you made it." She smiled and looked down at Jack who was coughing harshly. I knelt down beside him.
"Hey- you okay Jack?" I asked. Jack nodded and sat up- leaning against the hallway wall. Juliet sighed wearily.
"Kate was left behind too." Juliet said. I stared at Juliet.
"What? Why? Why were you left behind?" I asked confused. Juliet shrugged.
"I don't know…" Juliet said quietly. Jack sighed and tried getting to his feet- Juliet helped him.
"We can trust her." Jack told me while nodding at Juliet. I nodded in agreement and followed Jack outside where Sayid stood. I noticed Juliet was caked in mud.
"What happened to you ?" I asked while Sayid was glaring at Juliet- definitely not trusting her. Juliet looked at me and sighed.
"We were hand cuffed together in the jungle. We tripped." Juliet said. I chuckled.
"Where is Kate and Sawyer?" Sayid asked. I frowned and looked at Jack.
"Have you seen or heard from Sawyer?" Jack asked Juliet.
"No, but Kate said she was going to find you guys, maybe she found Sawyer." Juliet said.
"Alright, spread out- we'll look for Sawyer and Kate. While we're at it- look for weapons and things we can bring back to the beach. Useful things." Jack said. We all went separate ways except Juliet who stuck with Jack. I frowned at Jack's back. I knew Juliet and he talked a lot but…
I entered another yellow house that was shaped exactly the same as the house I'd stayed in. Different things were inside but the shape and rooms were the same. I didn't locate Sawyer or Kate or anything useful, so I made my way to another house, where I heard someone talking. I walked into the bedroom and saw Kate and Sawyer kissing on the bed. I froze and felt my heart beat pound loudly in my ears. Kate and Sawyer snapped away from each other and looked at me. I cleared my throat and laughed nervously.
"Ahhh, HI!" I said, and waved like a dork, "we are all outside…" I finished lamely. I relaxed my facial muscles, and controlled my breathing. Sometimes being trained in dark skills has its perks. I turned on my heel and walked down the wooden hallway, into the living room and outside into the blaring sun. Jack and Juliet were walking back towards me. Sayid coming from my side.
"Anything?" Jack asked, a back pack on his back. I noticed he held another back pack in his left hand. He and Juliet looked a little withdrawn.
"Uh, uh, yeah- Kate found him- they're in the house." I said and was handed the back pack. I put it on and passed Jack and Juliet. Sayid was watching me. Damn it.
Sayid slowly trudged next to me as Kate and Sawyer came out of the house. I pretended to be looking through the back pack. I was curious after all, to know what was in my bag that Jack had given me.
"Hey, you okay?" Jack asked Sawyer and Kate. Kate nodded.
"What's she doin' here?" Sawyer asked, pointing at Juliet angrily.
"She was left behind too." Jack said. Hmm, a gun in my bag, clothes, and a towel. Yay.
"She is not coming with us." Sayid said from beside me. Every eye turned to Sayid in surprise. Well except Sawyer's.
"Yes. She is. She's coming with us." Jack said sternly. Sayid frowned annoyed but didn't say anything. I could feel Kate's eyes on me. I kept close to Jack, Juliet, and Sayid to avoid talking to either Sawyer or Kate.
I was really confused. One moment Sawyer was telling me he loved me and the next he's sucking face with Kate…
"What about Locke?" Sawyer asked. I didn't look up at him.
"He went with the Others." I said.
"It's true, he said bye to me." Kate said quietly. Jack nodded then sighed.
"Alright, well, it's time to go back. Let's move." Jack said. We all walked towards the dark border of the jungle and the village. The sun was still at its highest so we were all sweating and panting as we walked further into the jungle. Sayid and I were in the lead, and I really didn't mind. Sayid was the only guy I wanted to be around (person at that…) at the moment.
"So… what did Sawyer do?" Sayid said quietly. I glared at him.
"Nothing." I said and stepped through some bushes.
"Ah, that bad. I am sorry." Sayid said, walking a little ahead of me. I ground my teeth and followed closely behind him. A light drizzling started, and I found myself beside Jack and Juliet. Sawyer and Kate followed close behind.
"Everything alright?" Jack asked me. I trudged through the mud and bushes in silence.
"Yeah. Everything is fine." I said slowly. Jack nodded. He looked deep in thought as well. I wondered for a moment if he knew…
It soon became dark and we had to set camp. I made a point to stay as far away from Sawyer and Kate as possible. I wandered into the jungle to look for some firewood with Sayid, while the others got settled. I heard twigs snap behind me and Sawyer appeared.
"Smiley." Sawyer stated looking at me. Sayid looked confused.
"Ya mind excusin' me an' Smiley a minute, Ali?" Sawyer asked, his voice tense. Sayid frowned annoyed. I glared at Sawyer.
"Enough with the names Sawyer." I growled while Sayid and I turned to look for more wood.
"Can I just talk to ya?" Sawyer asked following. I rounded on him.
"No. Leave." I said hotly. Sawyer watched me a while, frowning, his mouth in a tight line.
"Smiley ya don't know what ya saw." He said in a whisper. Sayid sighed loudly.
"I will leave you two alone." He said, and wandered off. I looked at Sawyer and smiled.
"I don't care. You can do what you please. It's alright." I said, trying to sound careless. Sawyer stepped closer to me but stopped when he saw my smile draw into an angry scowl.
"I didn't kiss her. She kissed me." Sawyer said quietly. I rolled my eyes.
"OH OKAY." I said sarcastically. Sawyer's eyes widened into disbelief and sadness.
"I swear! Woke up n' she attacked me!" Sawyer said exasperated. I rolled my eyes again.
"Sawyer just… don't. Okay? I don't care. Come on." I said and walked passed him to the camp. Sawyer grabbed my wrist and frowned down at me.
"I ain't givin' you up that easy just cause of a damn misunderstandin'. Did ya forget I said I loved ya? That I'd never leave? Kate probably saw somethin' goin' on with the Doc and Blondie. She got sad and turned to me." Sawyer said, a small smirk on his lips.
"Why the hell are you smirking? Am I supposed to be impressed?" I asked annoyed. Sawyer frowned at me again and leaned in close to my face.
"Fine. Git pissed." He said, and stalked back to camp. I felt like my heart had been broken in half. I shook my head to stop the tears and took a deep breath. I then headed in the direction Sayid had gone and looked for fire wood along the way. A minute or two later I found Sayid and we silently collected a little more wood, and then headed back to the others.
Kate was sitting staring at the ground in deep thought when we got back, Sawyer was sitting a little ways away from us all, and Jack and Juliet were sitting side by side making food. Sayid and I dropped the fire wood in a small pile in the center of our circle, then put the rest near a tree behind us. Sayid began lighting the fire.
I sat a little ways away from the group and leaned against a tree. Kate was around Sawyer and Sayid more- while Jack took interest in Juliet. Jack walked over to me and kneeled in front of me.
"Hey." He said.
"Hey." I echoed, and smiled wearily.
"You okay?" Jack asked me. I nodded and pushed some hair out of my face.
"Yeah, I'm fine. You?" I asked. He nodded, his brown eyes watching me. He lowered his voice and cleared his throat.
"Something happen to you and uh, Sawyer?" Jack asked, his stubbled face looking serious. I hesitated, and pursed my lips in frustration.
"No. Nothing happened." I said watching his eyes. Jack took a breath and opened his mouth slightly to say something then turned his head to look at Sawyer who was talking to Kate.
"Huh," He chuckled, and looked back at me, "I think we gave up on the wrong people…" Jack said looking me in the eyes. I felt my heart quicken, and a need to just embrace him overwhelmed me. But I knew I couldn't… I loved Sawyer and Jack loved Kate… and me… And I loved Jack… But-
"Don't give up on Kate." I said quietly, my eyes were probably red. I was tired even though I slept way too much.
"There's something you need to know." Jack said, his voice tensing. I raised an eyebrow at him.
"What…?" I asked, but was nervous since Jack was being so serious. Jack scratched his chin with his hand looking away in thought- like he wasn't sure how to say something. He then looked at me and sighed.
"When Juliet and I were looking for Sawyer and Kate, we saw them through a window… They were… together." Jack said, and I realized that was the reason he was acting all silent and distant from Kate. I nodded and looked down, not being able to meet him in the eyes.
"Yeah, I know." I said silently. Jack sat down next to me and stretched his legs out in front of him. Jack was staring at me. I was getting pretty annoyed with everyone watching me. I kept my gaze down and at my feet.
"You knew." Jack said quietly. He then chuckled.
"Yeah. Sawyer said that Kate kissed him though." I admitted, not to throw Kate under the bus- intentionally- but to see if it looked like Kate kissed Sawyer like Sawyer claimed.
"Yeah, Sawyer the victim. There's a sight I'd love to see." Jack said and looked over at the two whom were staring over at us but small talking too. Juliet was being eyed by Sayid and looked like she really wanted someone next to her by her side.
"I don't know what you want me to say Jack…"I said and chewed my bottom lip. Jack got up and smiled down at me but his eyes looked tired and sad.
"Like I said… I think I gave up on the wrong person." Jack said, looking down at me. I stared up at him wide eyed and watched him walk back to Juliet who looked relieved. I glanced over at Sawyer who was watching Jack with a scowl. Kate looked regretfully after Jack. Sawyer and I made eye contact for a moment. He then turned back around.
I glanced over at Jack and wondered… briefly… if maybe- I made a mistake? I thought back and for once, felt truly stuck.
Flash Back
"Your first assignment." Black Mask said, holding up a vanilla folder with a single name inside. Tim chewed at his nails, looking impatient and sweaty.
"Name?" I asked.
"Read the file. This time he goes by the name Hoffman." Black Mask said. Tim nodded.
"Okay, okay, let's go." Tim said, snatching the files and storming out of the room. I'd talked to him during training and breakfast- we didn't get along at first but now we held mutual respect for each other and actually hung out outside of …work.
"He's going through with drawls." I stated to Black Mask.
"Yeah, that's his choice. Word of advice- when we terminate our employees- we terminate them." Black Mask said. I shuddered but sucked up my fear.
"But- he's one of us." I defended.
"He's endangering this corporation. Be prepared in a month or two for a new partner." Black Mask said. I breathed shakily and nodded.
"O-okay." I said. Black Mask walked up to me and stopped. I could see the cold blue eyes through the mask. He reached up with his left gloved hand and caressed my cheek.
"You'll be one of my favorites. I know it. I will protect you." He said. I nodded my thanks and left quickly. When I reached the equipment room Tim was already ready and waiting impatiently.
"You should quit." I said, while grabbing my gear and clipping it on. Tim scoffed.
"I need this hit- it gives thirty five thousand. I can have enough drugs to last me months." Tim said watching me get ready. I flipped him off as I changed my shirt. He chuckled and turned around.
"I'm just saying it isn't good for you." I continued, and finished up.
"I don't need your advice." Tim spat. I sighed. Every time Tim ran out he turned into a dick. Recently he even tried assaulting me, (I kicked his ass) but failed.
We walked outside and into the underground parking lot where we held black cars. The target had settled into a hotel in Tennessee. Tim and I would be taking a plane from California to Tennessee at another base.
Two hours later
Tim was getting more and more aggravated. Even as we sat on the plane, his hostility spread from me, to the stewardess, and to the people around us. Needless to say, it was a long flight.
When we finally settled in Tennessee, it was midday and hot. Tim broke seven laws driving to the hotel we needed to get to. Once there, he told me to take the guy out while he waited in the car. Black Mask wanted this to be my first kill while Tim waited in the car. I took the elevator up wearing an expensive fur coat. It was an elegant hotel.
I reached the third floor and walked down the red carpeted hallways to the door that read: 134.
I knocked once and he answered. It was an old man. He had thin white hair, blue eyes, and looked a little like a toad. Black Mask told me he had conned people out of their money, destroying lives and in one case, caused a man to kill his wife and then himself. He had done this to more than fifty families, stealing millions.
I whipped out my gun and pushed my way into his hotel room. He yelled out in horror and held his hands up. I shoved him to the floor and shut the door behind me. I had my first gun- a silencer.
"Hoffman… That's a cute name. What's your real name? And don't you dare lie to me or I will start killing you slowly." I said. The man gasped.
"I-I- my name is Anthony Cooper!" He shrieked. I stared down at him. I realized my hand shook. The old man noticed this. He started getting up.
"Don't move!" I yelled aiming at his forehead. He stood up straight then smiled.
"You're not going to kill me." He said. My hand shook harder. Cooper strode across the room, opened a desk drawer, and then, with no hesitation- shot me. The loudness of the gun made my ears ring, and the impact of the bullet sent me falling back. I shot up and ran out into the hallway, down the emergency stairs and into the alley where Tim waited.
"What the hell happened to you?" Tim asked. I glared at him.
"I got shot! What the hell does it look like? Fuck this hurts…" I said through tears. Tim sped off.
"Did you kill him?" He asked. I couldn't breathe- it hurt so bad.
"Quit crying! Did you kill him?" Tim shouted.
"YES!" I lied. Tim nodded.
"Good girl." He said, as we sped off to our base in Tennessee.
End of Flash Back.
I glanced over at Sawyer. He was falling in and out of consciousness. Anthony Cooper sounded a lot like the guy that messed up Sawyer's family. But then, I didn't know if the guy that destroyed Sawyer's family had a personal agenda against them. I sighed wearily and decided to sleep.
A/N: A bit longer chapter and way more drama. Reviews are nice people, so press the button!