Dedicationss~ Ahh I managed to forget to do one last chapter :L So I will put it in here :)
Okay the dedication for the last chapter was too LilyLuna21 for great reviews from the begginning :D
And this chapter is too dark but so Lovely and ukielicious96 for basically reviewing every time :D
Now onto the chapter you have alll (hopefully) been waiting forr (yn)
Bella POV:
We got to the church, but Alice begged me to speak to Nellie- saying she wanted to give her some prep talk about being a flower girl, I let them walk off together, too nervous to think of anything else but Edward.
Then the wedding started and Alice and Nellie walked back- Alice was giving a sly wink to Nellie, who giggled in response.
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He knows. He must know, he hasn't been able to keep his eyes off Nellie, during the whole service- but did he look angry? No more confused, I guess the anger would come later...
I held my breath, when the end of the service came to end- not that I'd been paying much attention to it at all, and I had to link my arm around Edward's and walk back down the aisle with him, would he say something now? What could I say? Luckily he said nothing until we got out of the church.
That's when I decided to be a bit of a chicken and run, to find Nellie.. of course. Luckily she was only a few steps behind me, talking to Rose and Emmett; I didn't dare turn back to see Edward.
"Hay Rose, do you mind if me and Nellie get a lift to the reception with you and Emmett?" I asked.
"Sure, but we are kind of leaving right now s-"
"No that's fine." More than fine, yes I was being a chicken, but I didn't want to have this conversation with Edward- right now. "Come on Nellie." I said, picking her up and following Rose and Emmett to their car.
Damm, no car seat. I thought to myself, oh well just have to strap Nellie in. Which I did, to her enjoyment- she liked being treated as a grown up.
Emmett though drove just as fast as Edward and Alice- was there something in their genes? So we got there pretty quickly, to meet Alice outside the venue- Jasper must have gone in already.
"There you are!" She shouted at us, giving us an impatient glance, "Come on we need to take photo's before everyone turns up!" she squealed, pushing us forward into the hotel, the same from last night.
She led us into the hall, but pushed us until we got outside- it was only now that I realised it was actually a lovely summers day- in October? Jesus Christ Alice was lucky...
The photographer was already there, telling us where to stand.
"Where's Nellie?" I asked confused, I swear she was just beside me before.
"She's inside now shut up and smile." Alice commanded me, which I obeyed; though I hated taking photos- I did my best for Alice.
After what felt like a life time, we were allowed back in, I chatted with Rose walking down the steps into the hotel hall- we were both shocked by the wedding.
But I had an even bigger shock when I walked in, as sitting by the entrance was Edward and Nellie, together.
Worst still, Nellie seemed to be babbling a lot about something to Edward- what was she telling him though? And could I just go over and stop them?
"Rose look!" I whispered to her, pointing at Nellie and Edward.
"Oh God, okay Bella- deep breaths, remember he is going to be angry now, so probably will say a lot of stuff that he doesn't mean." Edward didn't look angry though, more intrigued and confused by what Nellie was saying- WHAT was she saying?
Then Nellie noticed me staring at her and Edward, and shouted out "Mummy!" I could feel my cheeks burn, and feel Edward's gaze on me as well, but I refused to look at him. Edward then ruffled Nellie's hair, whispered something in her ear and started to walk towards me. Oh shit, shit shit shit shit! Was all I could think- what was he going to say or do? What had Nellie told him?
His expression was pained though- more hurt then angry- was that worse?
"Bella I think we need to talk." His voice held no emotion- so empty.
I just nodded, forgetting Rose was still behind me.
"Guy's don't mean to intrude, but for Alice's sake wouldn't it be better if you did this later?"Rose pointed out; I wanted to hug her so much right now. Edward just nodded- still a blank expression, then walked over to the top table- where Carlisle and Esme were already sitting.
It looked like Carlisle and Esme were trying to say something to him, but he dismissed it with some kind of comment. I quickly ran up to Nellie- she was standing in the same place as before.
"Edwardd is my dwaddy, isn't hwee?" How could a 2 and a half year old be so clever? It wasn't normal...
"Look we will talk about it later darling- but what did you say to him?" I asked, curiosity overriding my voice.
"Please can everyone take their seats!" Jasper called out, looks like I'd have to ask Nellie later.
I went over to the board to look where me and Nellie were sat, great, top table- by Edward. Well this is going to be awkward.
To make matters worse I couldn't ask Nellie what she had told Edward- with him sitting right by me- I was going to kill Alice for this!
Edward said nothing during the whole meal- and not to me, to everyone, he didn't say a word, he just played and fiddled with his food- never eating a thing. I couldn't eat either, so just helped Nellie with eating her food. Soon it was time for speeches.
Edward being best man- went first, I could tell he was trying to put on a happy front for everyone to see, but I could see through it very well. He gave a brilliant speech though, telling a few tales about Jasper-which all made us laugh and saying how Alice and Jasper were designed for each other- which I couldn't agree more on.
Rose's speech was next- her being maid of honour, but I didn't take any of it in, my mind was in a different place completely- dreading what Edward was going to say later, I was barely conscious throughout it. Soon people were getting up, wondering outside and talking to various people, waiting for the evening do to start; this was when Edward finally started to talk.
"Mum can you look after Nellie please?" He asked Esme, in that same dead voice.
"Of course darling." She said, while giving Edward a glare which I wasn't meant to see which roughly translated as 'don't be too hard on Bella'- Well at least they were on my side.
"Bella." He barely said the word, while getting up and walking towards the doors-which led outside.
"I'll be right back." I whispered to Nellie, kissing her forehead and guiding her to Esme- who gave me a 'good luck' smile.
I took a deep breath, and had to run to catch up with Edward, he walked for a while, up the grass bank- until there was no one near us, he stopped- took a deep breath then turned around to face me- the tortured expression was all over his face.
"Edward I-" I began to say, put he put his hand up cautioning me to stop.
"Don't please, Nellie told me everything I needed to know." This confused me, Nellie? But what did she know?
"But Nellie knows nothing Edward!"I protested.
"I know, but she told me how she had been listening in on your conversations with people, while you thought she wasn't- she's such a clever little girl, I don't even know how old she is." He said, sighing- I did feel pity with him, he should of been there and knew from the beginning and if I had it my way then that's what I would of made happen- but I just couldn't.
"She's 2 and a half. She was... she was born 22nd of March." I whispered back, he just nodded his head, "What did she tell you?" I asked, curiosity getting the better of me.
"Not to be mad at you, that she was scared of you getting upset, and me; and how you tried to tell me before" Nellie must of gotten up from her bedroom the night after I told Edward Nellie was Jake's and listened through the door, she must of knew something was up, "and she told me why you didn't tell me before, she didn't understand it herself, bless her- only saying it was because you didn't want to break up mine and Tanya's family." How did she know this? Sure she was clever but not physic! I know I never told anyone that story, with her nearby!
"Oh." Was all I could manage to say, I looked down at the floor- scared of his reaction.
"But, Bella you still, you still should have told me!" He cried, finally some emotion coming into his voice- but only sadness and hurt, it matched his face.
"I know, I know." I cried back, just shaking my head.
"I-I don't know what to do Bella, I really don't- I hardly know the girl in there, that's meant to be my daughter! And who's fault is that! She's two Bella, TWO!" He shouted, but only hurt was on his face- no anger to match his voice, but that was so much worse than anger.
"I'm sorry... I'm so, so sorry Edward, please." I begged, beginning to cry, but never looking up while talking to him.
"You can't even look me in the eye and say that Bella! You even told me that Jake was the father! Why Bella! Why, when you had the chance didn't you even tell me?!" He shouted now, pointing his hands and fingers everywhere.
I looked up to his face "I- I don't know Edward, I was scared, scared of this happening! I'd only just gotten you back in my life; I didn't want to ruin it! I wanted to know if you loved me, or if you would just get back with me because Nellie was your daughter!" It was true, I didn't think it at the time- but my subconscious did.
"Bella, how could you ever think for a second that I didn't love you?! From the moment I laid my eyes on you I fell in love with you! You meant everything to me! B-but how can I love someone who has lied to me for 2 years!" The tears were gushing out of my eyes now- unable to even try and stop them.
"Please Edward, please don't leave me!" I pleaded, unable to see a thing through the tears.
"Bella... I need to...I need to think, a lot, I've... got to go." He said, in voice back into the same non-emotional monotone, killing me with every word.
"EDWARD!" I shouted, but he was already gone, I felt my feet slip underneath me, and soon I was lying on the ground, tears pouring out of my eyelids like a water fountain. I didn't know how long I stayed there, only until I remembered about Nellie...
A/N: I'M for another cliffer D: don't bite my head off! :L haha, but i've been working my ass off today with history revision, so really did not had time to write more! and i also wrote another chapter for destinied souls- which has like 5 reviews :( come on guys DONT be mean, review that chapter & this one and you'll GET A DEDICATION NEXT TIME :D i promiseeeeeeee :) soo perrrleasee someone do it- so I don't look stupid 8D haha :L
anyway so back to the story, this one I think actually took me the longest to write, even tho it's so short- I really though had to put myself into bella and edward during the fight scene, to imagine what they would both say- so sorry if it went wrong (N) I did try my best :) It also made my beta cry :( duno if it did 4 anyone else :L
so probably an update 2mrw- depends how I feel after 2 history exams :( I am going to dieeeeeeeee.... but yeah, if not then it wont be untill friday :O, sorrryy!! :( i don;t do it on purpose! just on wed i have 3 EXAMS- 3! (double french and english D:- yeah had to be my two WORST subjects) so tues night im guna be revising, then thurs night i got to go to a six form open evening, and i got a sci mock which i need to prepare for fri (N) im soooo sorry especailly coz its on such a cliffe- but i will try my hardest to update 2mrw:) also 2mrw is my little sisters birthday- so ill see if I have time- and happy birthday to her :D
speaking of birthdays- you know Nellies bday? Same as MINE :D lol sorry had to put that in :) so no forgetting it now ;) haaha
umm again no song lyrics- as nothing goes with it :L do you guys even care about the lyrics? should I just leave them out? anyway while writing this I was listening to: Everybody in love by jls- it's awesomee :D and also leona lewis's new album- echo, she is truly amazing I (L) her :) so wana go to her 1st uk tour! but tickets are like £100... and im like no way :L
anyway after this week there should be updates like really fast :D no mocks! rejoice :)
okay so I will shut up now as I doubt few ppl's reads this :L
so PLEASEEEEEEEEEEEEE REVIEW :D- btw sme new reviews for last chapter- was it becoz of the hits thing ;)- so thankyou, keep it up guys! :D and i KNOW more of u can review so PLEASEEE doo XD
thanks
Laura