Hanna left an hour ago, leaving Alison and I alone. I feel like I really missed out on catching up with Hanna. Alison bonded with Hanna a lot, they spent more time alone together than Alison and I had. That was really my fault though. I've fought with both of them too much, and left, leaving both of them to worry about me together. I've honestly been feeling really good these last 2 days. I haven't been able to fall asleep, but my thoughts are about Alison, or my mind is completely blank. I've made real progress with myself, and I know that it's the drug, but I've also improved myself. I know I should've gotten help right away, but I'm grateful that it's happened regardless.

"Hello? Em..you okay?" She snaps me out of my thoughts.

"Thank you." I say with a genuine smile.

"What? You're not making sense...I asked if you wanted to go get food. Are you okay?"

"I'm better than okay, babe. I just wanted to say thank you, that's all."

"For what?"

"You...staying by me this whole time. For everything. You have no idea how much you mean to me."

"Why are you such a fucking mushball? Honestly though, it's adorable. I'll never leave."

"I just...missed you. Missed us. Let's go get food."

We get into the car, and she's rambling about some great food she had before I got back here. She decided that she wanted to make it for me, she said that I would love it. I just stare at her the whole time, admiring her.

"Can you pull over?"

"What?! Are you okay?"

"Yeah, I just...please."

She pulls over, and as soon as she parks the car her head turns to me and I crash our lips together. I unbuckle her seatbelt and pick her up, and move us to the back seat. I can't wait anymore. I remove her shirt and bra and quickly move down to take her pants off. Her body is as stiff as a board, telling me she's shocked and nervous. "It's okay. Pleasee." I say and I can feel her relax. I tease her a little bit, kissing the insides of her thighs and my hands play with her breasts. I kiss all the way back up to her lips, and whisper in her ear, "Relax babe, I got you." I kiss her lips again, and insert 1 finger inside her. She moans against my lips, and it makes me want her even more. I make my way down to her breasts again, and play with them in my mouth. This also gets a positive reaction from Ali. I dip another finger inside her, but keep my pace slow and steady. My head moves down, and my tongue lands on her clit. She lets out a loud moan, and this makes me quicken my pace. My tongue works Alison, as her hips grind against my tongue. "F-fuck...Em...I'm gonna..." I continue to please her. "Come for me." That puts her over the edge, as she comes undone. Her body shakes uncontrollably, and I kiss my way up to her lips. Between each kiss I say, "You..are...so..beautiful...beautiful." I kiss her lips hard as I want her to feel how much I love her. She reaches for my shirt and pants, to return the favor, but I stop her.

"Nope. You are all mine tonight." I hand her the clothes that are scattered around her car. "Come on, let's go eat now."

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March

I wake up, and I smell bacon. Soon enough, my favorite blonde comes up to our room with a tray of food.

"Happy birthday Em!" She practically yells, and kisses me. "Now, I have to go to work for half a day, but...I was planning-"

"Well, I know this isn't how it's supposed to go, but I actually want to take you out tonight."

"What? You can't do that! It's against the rules!"

"Pleaseee? You can pay for everything if you insist, but I want to be in charge."

"Fine, but only because you're so irresistible when you beg."

"Yes! Thanks for the food babe. Smells good."

"Enjoy, I have to go to work now, I'll see you at 1!" She gets up and gives me a kiss before she walks out the door.

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"Honey, I'm home!"

"Hey babe, get changed. Wear whatever you want, you look amazing in anything...or nothing at all." I give her a wink and she blushes. She walks up to our bedroom, and I can hear the water turn on. That means she's going to take about an hour and a half to get ready, but that's okay. Our dinner reservations are for 7, so we have a flexible schedule. She comes down the stairs, as beautiful as ever, at 3. So I was off a little but, we will still be fine.

"Okay, so where are we going?"

"First, the movies, then dinner...then a surprise! Are you ready?"

"Yes I am birthday girl."

I let Ali pick out the movie. She picks out The Shallows, and Ali's really into it, but I'm honestly not even paying attention. Our hands are intertwined, and I'm just really happy to be here right now. We've overcame a lot together, and that's really only made us better. When the movie is over it's 6, so I drive us over to a restaurant neither of us have been to before. It's Italian so we both decide to get 2 different pastas and share them. We finish up eating and talking at around 10. She probably thinks we're done for the night, but since it's my plans, I know the night is far from over. I drive past our road.

"Hey? Where are you going...you just passed the house?"

"I told you...a surprise place!" I look at her and smile. She doesn't say anything else the rest of the ride, she's too focused on guessing where we are going. We get to the destination a little after 11. Alison looks confused because we're in the middle of nowhere, there's only forest around us.

"I know what you're thinking, no I'm not going to kill you. And yes. I brought your coat and mittens."

She gratefully takes her winter items and I lead her into the woods. There's a little bench that sits atop the forest overlooking the city. It's a beautiful night tonight. It's snowing and I have my favorite person by my side. We sit on the bench and adore how the city looks with the snow and all the lights. We take up my favorite activity, looking at stars. She does the normal thing, I look at the stars while she's nuzzled against me. I look at my phone-12:05.

"Okay, so..." I stand up and she copies me. "I couldn't wait..so..." I grab the small box from my pocket and get down on my good knee. Ali's eyes tear up, and her hands cover her mouth in astonishment and excitement. "I knew. I always knew, that you were the one. I think you've always know that too. I actually knew at Christmas, that I was going to ask you. I had the ring picked out, I just hadn't bought it yet. You have no idea of the effect you have on me. You have loved me more than I have loved myself, I am so grateful for you. You stayed by my side when things were down, and you were always there when things were good. Like I've told you before, your love is too much. Your love makes my heart grow, and sometimes it feels like my heart is going to explode. I can't even express how grateful I am to you. You saved me. You saved me so many times. I don't want you to save me anymore, I don't want you carrying me up the stairs anymore, I want to do those things for you. You've given more to me than I could even imagine that you would've. I couldn't wait any longer to ask you, because you would've know. You know me better than I know myself, and it scares me and makes me feel safe at the same. I have loved you since the day that I met you. There were recent times...where I didn't show it very well..or got carried away. But what matters is that...I'm here now. I want to be the one you've always been waiting for. We got a second chance, and we've made the most of it. I never lost sight in the goal. I just lost sight of myself, I lost myself. I forgot how to love you, like the way you deserved. But once again, you were there to save me, and the past 3 months have been amazing. I love you so much. I love you so much it hurts me. Every time I see you, it's like being punched in the stomach. In a good kind of way. You take away my oxygen. You're so breathtaking. I owe everything to you. I owe everything that I've become to you. If it weren't for you, I probably wouldn't be here. I wouldn't be here. There were times I struggled with myself, but you got me through it. And you always have. So please, Alison, will you marry me?"

Tears flood her cheeks and she sniffles before she responds. "Yes! Yes, of course!" I slide the ring on her finger and kiss her. She hugs me so tight I think I may never breathe again.

"Sheesh, you'd think I just gave you 1 million dollars."

"Emily..."

"Alright babe, I'm sorry."

"Please tell me you video taped that! I want to show everyone!"

"Of course I did. I've been setting up for the past 3 days, I wouldn't miss capturing that moment for anything."

"Why are you so perfect?" She asks as she kisses me.

"I'm not, but I have to call Hanna. I didn't tell her I was going to do it today."

"Why'd you do it today anyway? It's your birthday!"

"Check the time."

"Oh! You little shit!" She talked me to the ground and pins my arms above my head. I don't fight back, I just lay there looking at my princess.

"What? You can pick the date for the wedding!" I say and kiss her on the cheek.

"Really?! I already have a date in mind! I'm making our save the date cards as soon as we get home!" I can tell this makes her very happy, as she likes to make these kinds of decisions. I honestly don't even care, I'll marry that girl anyway.

"Hmmm, that's what you want to do as soon as we get home? Mmmm okay."

"Well I wanna warm up first, but-ohhhh! Well I mean after that!"

"You lost your chance for that, guess I'll just have to do it myself then." I wink, and walk over to the camera I had set up and slip it into my pocket. I walk back over to Alison, and pick her up. "Let's go home princess, you have cards to make."