Here's another chapter for you all. To the anon (I can't message you in private because you're not logged in) it's okay that you didn't really like the last chapter. It's understandable and you don't have to like EVERYTHING I write. In fact, I LOVE that you're honest with me and just tell me that you're on the fence about the chapter, it makes me want to write even better. I hope this chapter doesn't disappoint. Reviews are love!

Off course it's not all okay. It's not all roses and unicorns. It's hard and it's draining and sometimes he thinks that it was the stupidest thing ever to return a vampire.
He is having trouble managing his temper towards Damon, he feels like ripping out someone's throat every time they look at him wrong and he feels like he can eat an entire village if he just gets to change. But somehow Elena is always the one who is able to bring him back to his senses. Her strong stern voice, her soft velvety words and her deep chocolate brown eyes always calm him down and make him think about things before he actually does them. She is his lifeline, his savior, his perfect guardian angel guiding him through the darkness back into the light. He honestly wouldn't know how he would survive this time if it wasn't for her.

"So, do you think you're ready for the blood bag challenge?" she asks him. She's looking at him expectantly with a couple bags of blood in her hands and the biggest smile on her face.

He doesn't have the heart to tell her that he's scared to death of becoming the ripper because he doesn't want to burst her perfect bubble so he just nods.

"Okay, lets do this then" She drops the bags in front of him and takes a seat.

"What do I do? Just drink all of this blood?" his eyes bore into her and she just keeps smiling at him

"Pretty much. I know that's what Klaus made you do to turn into the ripper. Lets see how you react this time around"

He knows that this is dangerous ground they're walking on right now and he's not sure he's ready to do this. Damon's out and Caroline and Bonnie are nowhere in sight. The person on speed dial is Matt but he's doesn't know how a human could be of any help if this thing goes wrong. Then he just looks at Elena and she's looking at him with so much love and adoration and somehow he feels that she knows he can do this and she just has so much faith in him, faith he doesn't deserve. But, he also doesn't want to let her down so he takes the biggest breath possible and starts pounding down the blood.

He's twelve bags in when it happens. He can feel his throat burning up, the taste of blood filling his every nerve and he feels his eyes turn dark and his veins pop out and when he looks at Elena he can tell that she's scared" I need to stop" he tells her but she just shakes her head, takes her hands up to his eyes and encourages him to continue by kissing his bloodstained lips.

Twenty bags later he knows that the worst is over, he doesn't feel hungry anymore and the blood doesn't satisfy him like it did in the beginning. But, when Matt appears in his line of sight he suddenly feels a rush of adrenaline and he pounces himself onto him and tries to attack his neck. He can hear faint screaming in the distance and a hand touching him. The voice guiding him, the words talking him through the darkness "Stefan, no. We don't feed on people. Breathe and stop. Just breathe and stop" he hears.

He sits himself down against the wall, closes his eyes and takes deep steady breaths to calm himself down. He can still hear her voice in the distance, guiding him, taking him back to her, back to reality "Just breathe, Stefan. I love you, Stefan. Breathe" She kisses him and he slowly opens his eyes and looks at Matt who is just looking at both of them with utter confusion. Not a minute ago he was ready to kill him, bleed him dry, drink his blood and now all he can think about is this beautiful girl sitting in front of him being everything he needs to survive.

"So, how did operation blood bag go?" Damon asks when they're sitting at the table eating. Stefan looks at Elena with a guilty look on his face

"That good, huh?"

Elena gives him a reassuring smile "There was a minor complication when Matt unexpectedly walked in but other than that I say it was a complete success" Damon looks at Stefan as to ask him what she means and he just takes a deep breath

"I tried to feed on Matt but Elena talked me out of it" He can tell that Damon's shocked but he doesn't know if it's because he tried to feed on Matt or because Elena talked him out of it.

"Interesting" Damon looks at Elena and gives her the signal that he needs to talk to her alone.

"Excuse us for a minute, Stef. We'll be right back" she says when she follows Damon out of the house.

"You talked a murderous vampire out of killing someone?" he asks when they're out of earshot.
Elena looks at him, if he says it like that it sounds ridiculous. "I guess I did"
Damon just laughs and slaps her on the back "Well good for you, guess the sire bond is working for you two" Those words take her breath away. She never thought about the fact that it could be the influence of the sire bond that made him stop. She hoped that it was his love for her that stopped it but maybe it was both "Shit"
 She doesn't want there to be a sire bond between them, she wants him to have free will. She doesn't want to have to moderate every single thing she says to him because she's afraid he's really going to do literately everything she says. "What am I supposed to do now?"
She looks at Damon for guidance but she knows she's not going to get it from him. He's just as lost with this whole sire bond thing as she is.
"Never mind"

He feels that there's something that's bothering her. He can sense It. One of the perks of being a vampire is the fact that he can tell what someone's mood is or what someone's feeling without them having to say it. "Okay, fess up. What's wrong?" he decides that he's done playing games and just wants her to be able to tell him everything

"Can you please change into another shirt, I hate this green one" she just blurts out.

He looks at her weirdly "What? What am I supposed to do with it?"

She thinks for a minute "Throw it out, burn it, I don't care just don't wear it anymore"

He doesn't understand why this is such a big deal to her but he feels like he needs to do what she says so he takes off his shirt, throws it in the trash can and lids a fire to it. When Damon runs upstairs ten minutes later because of the freaking fire alarm going off he takes in his surroundings and just walks back down again.

"Stefan, we need to talk" she guides him to the window seat and sits down opposite from him and puts her hands on his knees. "Why did you burn that shirt?"

Stefan wracks his brain as to why he would do such a thing "Because you asked me to" he states.
Elena takes another deep breath and looks into his eyes "Stefan, do you think you should do whatever I tell you to?"

She can almost see the radars doing flips and turns in his mind before coming up with an answer "Yes" he says utterly convinced.

"No" she shoots back "You don't"

He's really confused at this point and just doesn't know what she wants from him "What do you mean?" Elena starts pacing back and forth thinking of the best thing to say to him right now "Remember we talked about a sire bond being a possibility when you turned?"

"I remember"

She looks for signs that her words are getting through but he just stares at her blankly "it's working" she says but he still isn't catching on

"What do you mean?" he asks again.
Elena walks back over to him and looks straight into his eyes "You are sired to me, Stefan"

Uh oh, dear lord, Stefan is sired to Elena? I smell trouble... But then again, this story is closing it's end so maybe it's not as bad as I make it out to be? Maybe, just maybe, you're just going to continue reading to see what the outcome will be.. Already hate me for doing this to you? Well, all I can say is I'm sorry and just stay tuned, I promise it'll be worth it..

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