Before we knew it, it was the morning of Jons first day back to work. I knew something had changed in him now that he knew he was able to get back into the ring. We walked the halls backstage in St. Louis before raw and everyone was eyeing Jon and I, as if they heard the gossip that went down. Jon headed into the locker room to get ready for the night as I walked my way to catering.
Feeling a hand grab onto me and pulling me, I turned to my side seeing it was Colby. He pulled me into a storage room with him as he closed the door.
"Colby what are you doing?!" I screamed.
"I'm sorry I had to drag you in here but I needed to talk to you." I rolled my eyes as I crossed my arms.
"Didn't you already do that the night you drunk dialed me?"
Colby sighed as he backed a little away from me. "I'm sorry I had to say all that while being.. Intoxicated. But I know that I most likely would have never been able to tell you otherwise. Everything I said to you, I meant."
"Okay... But Colby... What do you want me to do or say? I'm with Jon. I'm sorry about what happened, I really am. Maybe if we would have met before Jon then yeah.. Maybe we could of had something.. But... Not now."
I tried to turn around to open the door but he slammed his hand on it, holding it close.
"I understand you're with Jon, I do. I want you to be happy... But at the same time I hate the way I feel." I let go of the door handle as I listened to him. "Every single day I have to walk in this company and I have to see him with you and then I turn around and have to watch the way he treats you and it just.. It bothers me. I care about you and I just wish you see what I do. Jon isn't who you think he is Maddy, I've known him for too many years and I've seen how he treats women." Anger rose inside me this time.
"Colby stop, okay?! Jon may have been this man whore you knew but he's not that anymore! God.. Why can't you just let him be happy? Isn't he your brother?!"
"Yeah he is.. But.." I put my hand to his face. "But nothing! He's your brother.. You should be happy that he finally found someone he loves." Colby took my hands into his. "How can I be happy for him when the woman he loves is the same woman I'm falling for?" I didn't say a word, granted I really didn't know what to say. He moved closer to me as he moved his hand to my face and placed it on my cheek. Tucking the hair behind my ear he smiled. "I'm falling for you Maddy. I know I'm not perfect and I've made mistakes but one thing I would never do to you or anyone I'm with is cheat. I broke up with my girlfriend a week ago... I couldn't be with her anymore when my heart is with someone else. She deserved better." Wow... That's mature. "I just... I don't mean to make you uncomfortable or weirded out.. I just am tired of not saying how I feel. I've held it back for so long. I guess you make me want to be myself again." He leaned into me, his lips inches away from mine. I could feel the tension and energy that was between us. My heart was racing as his lips got closer.
"Maddy?! Hey Show.. Have you see Maddy?!"
Colby pulled away from me as I snapped out of the so called trance, I guess you could say, and realized that was Jons voice behind the door.
"Colby... We can't do this. I gotta go..." I whispered. He tried to pull me back to him but I pushed him off. "No! I can't do this! Please... Please just leave me alone..." I turned back towards the door as I slowly opened it. I looked around me noticing Jon was gone, as was Show. I sighed in relief as I walked out of the room and back towards catering.
I grabbed a plate full of food as I sat down at a table by myself. What was I about to do? Was I going to let Colby kiss me?
"Hey girl... You okay?" I looked up noticing Nikki standing in front of me. She pulled a chair out as she sat down. I nodded. "Yup..." She shook her head and laughed. "Jon may be able to not know if you're lying or not but I can tell. Do you want to talk about it?" I shrugged my shoulders, grabbing another piece of fruit off my plate. "We don't have to talk here.. We can go into John and I's bus. You shouldn't keep in how you feel, you need to vent. And I don't mean towards Renee.. Although I heard that was worth seeing." I smiled as she stood up reaching her hand out for mine. "Come on... I have snacks on the bus too." I agreed as I took her hand and we walked out of catering and towards her bus.
"Thank you Nikki... Seriously. No one really wants to talk to me here." She laughed. "Yeah... That's usually how they are back here. They're all focused on their matches and always stay to themselves. They will open up eventually."
Heading towards her bus I heard someone running behind us as we turned around to see what was going on.
"Maddy!" Seeing Jon running up to me I stopped, as did my heart. Stop feeling guilty Maddy.. You didn't do anything wrong. "Hey babe.. What's up?" I asked. "What's up? I've been looking all over for you! Where were you?" Shit. Shit. Ahh. What do I say?
"She was with me.." Nikki spoke. "We were hanging out in my bus. I thought she needed a girl to hang with." I smiled. "Yeah... I just needed to hang out with someone who understands what it's like to be with a huge wwe star." Jon nodded as he smiled. Thank god he believes it. "Well... That's good. I'm glad you're making friends here. But next time... Please tell me. I was worried." I nodded, agreeing as he pulled me into a hug. "You have fun.. I will see you after my match. Be careful! I know how Nikki loves to get all... Brie mode." Nikki laughed as she put her hand on my back. "Don't worry.. I will be good." She said. Jon smirked as he kissed me quickly and headed back to the locker room.
"I seriously owe you!" I told her as we got into her bus. "By the way.. This thing is bigger than my apartment! Holy cow!" I walked around the bus, mesmerized by how big it was and how beautiful something like this could be. "Yeah.. It's literally my second home. I love it! So... Let's talk.. Come sit.." She tapped the sofa, as I walked over and sat down next to her. I was never one to confide in anyone besides Sara but it would be nice to have someone on the road to bond with. We talked about everything from how Jon and I met to all the drama that he and I have gone through. She was a great listener and I understood why John loved her.
"So what else is bothering you? Not to intrude or anything but I saw Colby and the way he looks at you. John has told me something's but you know.. What they say in the locker room is supposed to stay there."
I laughed. "Yeah but it doesn't ever stay there right? What has john told you?" I asked.
"Just that Colby talks about you all the time and always gives Jon dirty looks and walks away in anger every time he sees him talking to divas. Is something going on?"
I sat back on the couch as I sighed. I needed someone to tell it all to. "Colby... Well.. He's in love with me." Nikki's eyes widened. "Omg! Are you serious? Does Jon know?!" I shook my head. "No.. He would kill Colby! Not to mention the fact Colby almost kissed me earlier." Nikki sat in shock as she put her hand on my leg. "I.. I don't know what to say. Lord knows I'm good at lying to my man a lot but he always finds out. Learn from my mistakes Maddy... You need to tell Jon. Keeping stuff like this from him is just going to get worse. If he finds this out from Colby and not you, this could all backfire and make Jon blame you for it all. Gosh.. All this going on how to do you not stress out? I bet that's hard on you with you being pregnant."
I sat up from the couch. "Yeah.. It's very hard on me. I don't think there's been a day I haven't been stressed out. But you know what Nicole, you're right. Jon does need to know... Just not right now. He just got back to work and telling him all this could cause him to get into trouble again.. God knows Jon will kill Colby this time."
She nodded, understanding me. We changed the subject and bonded over things and I realized it was nice having someone on the road to hang out with and talk to. All that was on my mind though was Colby and what almost happened between us. I felt so guilty about it and I honestly don't know why. Nor did I understand why I got so nervous when he got so close to me. Here I am getting mad at Jon for being the way he was with Renee and now I'm here feeling a certain way and keeping secrets from him. Things needed to change.