I DO NOT OWN EMMERDALE OR IT 'S CHARACTERS...THEY BELONG TO ITV1
AUTHORS NOTE: Thanks for all the reviews x
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MID- JUNE 2013
When it got dark, they pulled into a drivethrou Macdonalds and ate their Big Macs and fries in the back of the camper.
Soon Jack couldn't keep his eyes open any longer so he fell asleep on the bunk.
Jackson and Aaron sat beside eachother on the rim of the sliding door, Aaron was screwing up the rubbish in his hands into a ball...the silence was taking over.
Jackson bit his lip...he looked at other cars with various couples doing the same thing, before steering his eyes on Aaron.
Aaron was looking up ahead...his blue eyes sparkling bright in the low light of the late evening...it was pretty calm, and airless too.
"I were thinking just now about Christmas...THIS christmas coming...well...I know it's six months away but...I wanna make it kinda special..."
Aaron looked at him unsurely.
Jackson smirked at him, " if it's any conselation, then you're better off not remembering our last few Christmas's together..."
Aaron looked intrigued, so Jackson continued, " Our first christmas we weren't even together...we split up just before hand, and we were both seeing other lads...then by the second Christmas we were back together but...well Jack had been taken to Spain by Sarah and that psycho ex husband of hers...less said about HIM the better...and then the third Christmas...Christmas just gone..." he trailed off, Aaron knew that had been the accident, he had been told enough times.
There was a pause as Jackson looked away...remembering it all again.
Aaron could sense Jackson was upset...blimey this bloke REALLY loved him...and whatever he felt back for him...it was something, so he hesitately placed his hand onto Jackson's kneecap.
Jackson met his gaze, and for a split second he had Rob's words going through his head,
"...Or I'll be reminding Aaron just WHY he was leaving you that night..."
"That night..." Jackson began nervously, not breaking their gaze, " the night of your accident..."
Aaron shook his head...it was clear to Jackson that this had grabbed his entire attention.
"...we had a massive row...but that was us...we rowed alot...but it never bothered us, because we would ALWAYS enjoy the making up after..." he teased.
Aaron shook his head, he wanted to know more...his mother had said that he was leaving Jackson that night, it was about time that he knew exactly WHAT had gone on.
Jackson sniffed and faced ahead of him, as he continued, " ...before...before the accident...we weren't getting on so well...or it was ME who wasn't getting on with you...that was part of it..." he turned his face to look at Aaron again, " but you was led to believe that I was cheating on you with Sarah's brother...but I wasn't, I'd be gladly put Jack's life on it...we were just friends THIS TIME round...but years ago...it were a different matter"
Aaron swallowed and removed his hand from Jackson's knee...he was taking in every word that Jackson was telling him...but of course nothing made any sense because he had no memory of it.
So it seemed that he thought that Jackson was cheating on him...with Sarah's brother...who ever he was.
So was this WHY he was leaving him?...did his Mum KNOW this and had hinted it to him?
His thoughts stopped as Jackson continued, " we were at Bar West...and Craig was in there..."
Craig was Sarah's brother, Aaron assumed.
"... Craig and that prat of a boyfriend of his...HE was the one who told you that me and Craig's friendship was more than mates...he led you to believe that..." he trailed off before biting his lip and carrying on, "...so you...so you ran..."
Aaron swallowed again...he had ran?
"...I caught up with yah at home...in the flat...and you said you were leaving me...I was trying to tell you what Kyle had said to yah was all bollix...but you were wouldn't listen to me...and...and I got angry"
Aaron narrowed his eyes...Jackson had got angry?...
"I couldn't believe you would THINK that i would cheat on you...even though I've got form for it..."
Aaron's eyes snapped up to him surprized.
Jackson shook his head, holding up his hands in his defense, " not then...WAY back...before we were married and...and you forgave me...MADE ME sweat abit!...but you forgave me...anyway, you must of thought that...maybe...possibly I might've done...and I got angry and...and I threw you out" he finished quickly, forcing his gaze down to the ground.
Aaron looked away feeling puzzled...so was he leaving him?...or had he been chucked out by him?...he was MORE confused than ever now...
"...the breaks were dodgy on your car...you knew that, but...in the heat of it, I suspect you proberly forgot...you were heading to the village that night...going to your Mums or Paddy's...but, well I think you know the rest..."
Aaron was still looking away...he turned his head back to him...Jackson looked worried...it was like he had just made some big confession to a priest or something and was waiting for the response...Aaron leapt up and went over to chuck the rubbish he had in his grasp to the nearby bins in the carpark area.
Jackson's eyes followed his everystep...was Aaron still turning it over in his mind, of what he had said to him...or did he even believe him?
Aaron made his way back and stopped about a meter way...his gaze meeting Jackson's.
Aaron shook his head, as to say 'thanks...but please don't say anymore'...he then made his way over, pushed past him and went to his bunk to lie down...
Jackson turned his head to inside the camper to watch him...Jack was sound asleep on the other side.
Aaron's eyes were still looking at Jackson...before with a huff, he rolled over and faced the other way.
Jackson bit his lip...what did that mean? Maybe Aaron just DIDN'T want him near him tonight...so on standing up, he reached for the sleeping bag...looked at Aaron one more time before sliding the door shut and hopped into the drivers seat...he climbed in the sleeping bag and settled back in the seat...
...and he closed his eyes...FUCKING BOLLIX! HE HAD RUINED THIS HOLIDAY BEFORE IT HAD EVEN GOT STARTED...
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Aaron didn't really sleep much that night, the bunk was far too hard for his liking, so at the crack of dawn he was already up and about.
On waking, little Jack was still asleep opposite him...and he WAS aware that Jackson was kipping in the drivers seat at the front.
Careful not to wake either of them, he had crept out and went off for a walk...and to think as well...his head at been spinning all night with what Jackson had told him about the night of the accident.
The sun was warm, even at 7 in the morning...it really was going to be another scorcher of a day, just right for lying on the beach...and that was all he wanted to do, he had dreamt alot about that...lying on a beach with Jackson...
As he strolled towards the bridge that gaped the motorway, he thought about more of what Jackson had told him...they had rowed...but Jackson had said that was nothing out of the ordinary for them.
He was never going to know what really happened that night...not with out remembering the events first hand himself, so he was past resorting to rely on it.
He had to take Jackson's word for it...why would he lie...and anyway if and it was a big IF Jackson had cheated on him with this Craig pratt...what a price to pay for it...nearly losing the guy he loved in a car crash.
That would have been punishment enough...but Aaron knew deep down, and he didn't really understand how he knew, just a feeling, that Jackson was telling the truth of sorts.
Aaron leaned on the bridge railing and watched as the cars and trucks flew past several feet beneath him...
...this morning was a new day...it was a holiday...it was time to start again, make a go of it like he had planned to do...
His memory was never coming back...so as far as he was concerned 'what was done is done...'
This morning...as far as HE was concerned...was the start of a clean slate...and he dug into his pocket to make sure it was still there...
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When Jackson had opened his eyes earlier, his neck had been stiff...he had slept awkward in the driving seat.
He had immediately jumped out of the campervan, pulled himself out of the sleeping bag, and stretched himself, rubbed the back of his neck.
When he slid aside the campers side door...Jack was awake and was moaning about wanting his breakfast...and as he focused on the opposite bunk...there had been no sign of Aaron.
Aaron had gone...Aaron had left them...because of what he had said to him the night before...how was he going to be able to tell Jack.
And what about Aaron?...if he had done a runner...how would he get home?...great holiday THIS was going to turn out to be for them.
But then, as he turned around he spotted Aaron coming across the carpark from the direction of the drivethrou Macdonalds.
In his grasp was a bag of donuts and a tray of drinks.
Jackson scratched his dried hair and frowned, " blimey! Up before 7...that must be a first for you!"
Aaron raised his eyebrowes and nodded his head towards the tray as if to say 'take it! I only have one pair of hands'
Jackson did so, and as Jack was jumping in between them wanting his share of the donuts Aaron had bought them.
Jackson looked into Aaron's eyes as he took the tray, " about last night..." he began nervously.
Aaron shook his head...and his face said, 'no...don't go on'
Jackson blew out a laugh, " I thought you did it...left me..."
Aaron pulled him an 'as if' face...although that maybe due to the fact he didn't know where here was...so running away would make him look like a right div!
Jack sat on the campers bumper and chomped into his donut, Jackson was about to take a bite out of his when his eyes met Aaron's, " look...I know you don't wanna talk about last night but...am I allowed to say that i'm sorry...for it all"
Aaron thought about what he had been thinking about since he had got up...he shook his head with a half smile and placed a hand onto Jackson's shoulder.
Jackson looked at it...and something was shining...catching the sunlight, catching his eye...it was his wedding ring...Aaron was wearing his wedding ring...he hadn't done before...he didn't know if because he had lost it...or it had just got lost at the hospital...but it WASN'T there before...
Jackson looked up to Aaron open mouthed...
But Aaron didn't smile...he just nodded very very slightly when he realised Jackson had spotted it...but there was a knowing look in his eyes, as he removed his hand from the shoulder...
And Jackson knew that, for now anyway... Aaron was here to stay...
AUTHORS NOTE:
HOPE YOU ALL HAD A GOOD NEW YEAR!...SORRY IT'S ALITTLE SHORT...BUT IT WAS JUST A 'TURNAROUND' CHAPTER TO SET THINGS UP FOR THE NEXT STAGE OF THE STORY xxx