he thought about this for a second. Then he smiled slighly "neither."with that he kissed me

I laughed at him and aloud him to deepen the kiss. I rolled him over so I was stradling him. He broke the kiss to look at me and raise his eyebrows. I looked at him and asked "what?"

He smirked and grabbed my hips firmly "You look really hot on top" with that he smirked and started to undress me. When i was down to nothing but my underwear and he in his boxers, we heard the front door slam open. Eric and I both instantly froze. I don't know why we did its not like i could care less if he heard us. Eric was laying ontop of me, supporting most of his weight with his forearms. He was frozen staring at the door. I could tell and feel that if that door oped, whoever it may be, would instantly get hurt.

We heard foot steps coming from down the hall. They stopped and by the way Eric's body got rigid and shifted slightly towards the door, I knew it was Michael. We sat there for several minutes knowing he was outside our door, listening and wondering what Eric and I were doing. Then after several more minutes we heard the floor boards creek and his foot steps walk away from our room. By the way Eric's relaxed I knew that he wasn't goign to go kill Michael tonight. It was weird to think that he would want to kill this man for me. That he wants to kill this man for all of hte pain that he has put me thorugh. I guess that's what love is all about. Its about making choices to do wahtever it took to take care of the person you love.

Eric slowly took his gase away from the door and looked deep into my eyes. It's like his eyes can see right through everything i through up as a defense. He can break those defenses. It scares me but I like it all at the same time. Is that wrong?

"Are you ok?"He whispered. His mouth nearly inches from mine. All I would have to do is lean in just a little and the distance would be closed.

I looked into his eyes and could see the care, and love. "No," I told him honestly. I honestly wasn't it had nothing to do with Michael. It was the fact that I still wanted him badly. i could tell he was worring about what i said and before he could say or ask anything. I continued "I'm not ok because we got interupted and I really didn't want to be interupted. I don't want to sneak around. I want to be able to annouce to the world that yoru mine but at the same time it scares me to do that because i have no idea what Sir would do. I want to spend every wakimg and sleeping hour in your arms. I've wondered for so long how it would be waking up next to you, in your arms. I'm still trying to grasp the fact that your actually going to bed with me tonight. If you dare ask if me if i'd rather have your sleep somewhere else ill hit you."He laughed slightly at that comment "I'm not scared of michael, Hell i'm not scared of anyone anymore knowing your here with me. THe mometn i think of you not beig here my heart throbs."I reach my hands around his neck and wrap my fingers in his hair. "But most importantly." I kissed him lightly on the lips "I love you"

She sat there wait for a response from him. He didn't move all that happened was his mouth opened up a little. He didn't say anything. His mouth kept opening up to say somthing but nothing came out. I have never seen Eric like this before. What could i have said to make him like this? Was it the part of me saying that i wanted to tell everyone? Or was it the fact i wasn't gonna let him leave this room tongiht with out me.

Then brigning myself out of my thoughts he spoke very gently "I have no idea what to say to that expect I am the exact same way. I dont' want to have to deal with going back to the agency after this job and watch all of the guys stare at you like a couple of bafoons. It drives me crazy. I wasn't any better but atleast I knew how to hide it." I laughed at his comment. It's true all of hte other guys would alwyas ask me to go out but i never said yes. I just couldn't. "I don't want to lose you but at the same time i dont' want to hold you back." i was to say somthing but he went on anyways "I have always cared and loved you. Hell i still love you. It took me so long to say somethng just now because i had to convince myself that it was real and not a dream. I'm never letting you go Alex and I'm always goign to be there to protect you."

Now it was my time to be shocked. Never in my life had i ever expected Eric to ever admit to loving me and never letting me go. I couldn't speak so instead i let my mouth say what i was feeling. I pulled him close and kissed him with everything i had in me. The kiss was long and passionate. He pushed closer to me so there was no gab between us. The feeling in my lower stomach grew more and more as the kiss heated up. I could tell he wanted me just as much as i wanted him. This time in this room i'm actually going to make love to a guy that i truely love and care about. For the first time i'm actually going to be willing with having sex with someone. No not just sex but somethng much more.

later that night/morning.

We laid there out of breath tangled in eachothers arms. Neither one of said anything. We couldn't, We didn't have the breath. I never knew how great that could be with someone you actually love. I was laying on his bare chest wiht one of my legs laying across his lower abdomen. HIs right hand was on my lower back and his left hand was laying ontop of mine. WE had the blanket on the ground the sheets wrapped around us to stay coverd not because we were cold. The sheet was draped across my butt and across his groin.

I looked up at his eyes and there was love rading in his eyes. I just hope that the same thing was showing in mine because its waht i truely felt. I skimmed my hand across his chest and instantly remembered what just happened. I slightly blushed and he smiled a true big smile. I remember us trying desperatly to be quiet but it was rather hard especially iwth being so good.

"your beautiful."he whispered while kissing the top of my head. Right when i was about to say something my stomach grumbled indicating it wanted food. I looked down and blushed and lightly.

"apparently i'm hungry." I said while embarrased. Why was i embarrased? my stomach has grumbled infront of him before. Maybe it was becasue we had just made love. Yep that's it.

HE laughed and it made me bounce up and down which caused him and me both to laugh harder. Once our laughter died down, he looked down at me "MAybe we should get dressed then and get some food"

I looked at him and pouted. My lower lip stuck out slightly and he got htis look in his eyes "but i don't want to leave"

That look did waver as he spoke "well i could go alone but what fun that be for either one of us." the he tilted my head up a little more and kissed me deeply.

Once we seperated i spoke "fine you win. I'll get dressed and go with you" HE smiled and started sitting up. WE began to dress with stilling glances and kisses from one another. We didn't care if anyone woke up from us, we jsut walked out the front door closeing it normally. "So were are we going?" i asked him once we were seated in his vehicle.

"It's a surprise." He looked at me and winked then drove towards his destination. Leaving me in wonder as to where we were going.