Children of the Moon Chapter 26

AN: Meyer owns twilight, I make no money.

Alex and Seth fight, and I shall reveal another Alex secret, one that has harmed her in so many ways... find out,...

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Alex fighting with Seth almost made no sense to me. Really, and I'm the writer of this goddamned story! I struggeled a shit ton, but it sorta works, doesn't it? I hope it does, but it has to happen anyway. Everything for the plot.

AND THE GREAT REVELATION IS COMING! Alex' greatest secret if to be reveiled. ARE YOU EXCITED?! I AM!

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Alex P.O.V.

A silence fell over us, and I couldn't tell if it was a comfortable one, or an awkward one. My nerves were tearing at me, and I felt so stupid. Leave it to me to completely loose my senses, by the Moon I'm an idiot. Seth probably thought I was deranged or unstable, or both. He was probably thinking of an excuse to get out of here.

"I'm sorry-that was-that was stupid. I shouldn't have, I got caught up in the moment, I just really love that story, but you're probably super bored-"

"No-no Alex, that was really amazing, I'm mean, you are really good at storytelling, and the story was awesome and-and did that really happen?"

"Well, yeah, I-I think so, I've always thought it was, but I don't know..." I drifted into silence, looking a bit dumbfounded at Seth. He was staring at me, his eyes slightly distant and dreamy. I felt a tiny bit uncomfortable, and I looked away, blushing.

"God, you're so amazing."

I looked back at him, startled and confused, and I came with the most brilliant answer "Huh?"

"I said-" He leaned in, pressing a light tingling kiss to my forehead. I took a deep breath, trying my best not to lose my senses completely "that you are-" another one to the tip of my nose "amazing," he breathed, leaning in to kiss my lips, slowly, softly. It was like nothing but feathers were touching them. Lightly, as if he were trying to memorize them. I could feel my reserve slipping, my thoughts grew light, trying to float away.

But still, still I pulled away, and chasing away the fog in my mind. In a mere second my mind had taken a whole new course. I felt bipolar, strange. One moment I was happy and content, others sad or almost crazy. I really needed to get a grip, to take control over my emotions, or they would consume me. And I would, after cutting the last tie, and then I would draw away, and get myself under control. I had to, or it would get me killed in the end.

It wasn't right, the way I was dragging him down. Seth deserved someone so much better than me. I wasn't what he needed, not now, probably never. It wasn't that I thought myself low, but Seth should have something else, we just-we did not fit together.

"I'm sorry I-we can't,"

He looked at me, his eyes hurt. I felt like I had just kicked a puppy, but this had to be done, for the both of us. "Why not? Is something wrong? Did I do something?"

"Because you deserve something else. I'm not right for you, not in any sort of way. You deserve someone you can have a life together," Diverting his gaze, my eyes dropped to the forest floor. I really hoped he would make this easy for me, "A normal life." It came out as a whisper, but he heard me anyway, flinching.

"Alex, it's okay, it doesn't matter to me, I promise it's okay."

"No! No it's not okay! It may not matter to you not now, but it will, I promise you it will. You'll look back and think of how you-how I-wasted your life. And you'll hate me for it, so it's easier this way, Seth. Please believe me," Softly I cup his cheek with one of my hands, looking into his gentle brown eyes, "You should have something normal, something simple. I'm not right for you. You deserve better, and thats why I'm telling you this. I don't want to, but this is better," My voice is low, soft and solemn.

"No, Alex! I don't want that! I want you! You're my imprint, and you are more than good enough for me!"

"But this is not what you should have, you should have a normal girl, who worries about paying her rent in time, who thinks of what she should wear when she goes to meet her friends next Friday, or college applications! Not a girl who worries that the next person she meets is a vampire out to kill her, or her entire race! You'r life is more than crazy enough, you don't need me. You need balance, someone who can make you feel sane after all this supernatural-ity. Someone you can live out your days with, someone you can have kids with, and a dog, and a whitepicketfence and normality!"

"Alex, we can have that, I promise! Maybe not yet, but we can get a dog, Alex, please!"

"No, no, no, no, you don't understand!"

"How can I understand when you don't tell me anything!?"

"I don't have to tell you anything! I just can't-"

"Why not Alex? Why f*cking not?!" His voice was angry, and I couldn't help but flinch. If he would just understand!

"Because I CAN'T OKAY? I can't, this-" I gestured to us "Would never, ever work. And the more we cling to it, the more it will hurt us, until one of us lie dead on the ground! Because I have always been different, because I am damaged! Because I am the living version of a lone wolf! So let me be!" I stand up, but Seth holds on to my hand.

"Please Alex! Help me understand!"

"I'm full of scars, Seth, burns covering my face and my arm, jagged marks from injuries in battle, thousand imperfections, but one, one was always way worse. One scar has robbed me of any normal future. Because of this-" I violently pull up my shirt, showing him an ugly thick line, running from my lower right ribs, all the way to where my left hip met my thigh. It had almost torn me in half, even as a Wolf it had been a miracle I survived it. The Elders in Novea said I was blessed by the Moon, but I had just scoffed. This was not a blessing, it was not a curse.

Because of this, I would never have a child.

AN: DundunDUUUH! So Alex can't have children, which is just another reason for her to avoid Seth. She just wants to spare him heartache. And just resently, like while writing this, I realized she can just adopt. But, just, just ignore that, kay? Thank you!

And now Imma watch BH6 'cus I need some happiness in my life. And now I realized that's probably not the best movie for that. Well, I'm still watching it! ByeBYE!

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-IatST