Grey's Anatomy: On the Line

by Yolanda Bush

This takes place after lexie and mark's elevator encounter where lexie chickened out instead of telling Mark how she felt in "The Lion Sleeps Tonight," It is a view on what could happen if Lexie and Meredith's father Thatcher Grey ever fell off the wagon

25. Chapter 25: Time to decide

Lexie sat up straight, gazing like a zombie as the woman discussed all of Lexie's legal options involving the assault. She only half-listened to her boring speech and barely comprehended any of it. Which was not like Lexie at all having an exquisite memory. Even though she wasn't sure if at the moment she could say that she was herself. Nothing was as it seemed. Her own father had attacked her. She felt bad for not paying attention but all she wanted to do was sleep. She felt bad for also sleeping so much. Even though that was a silly reason. She just couldn't take the thought of all the familiar faces staring at her as if it was such a strange thing to see her alive. Yet she could not see them back.

She knew how lucky she was, but somehow she couldn't feel it. She just felt pissed off and lost. She wondered how she'd get back to being Lexie Grey. She felt like an alien in her own body. To sum it up, she felt like crying, but knew that it wasn't the appropriate time. To think, moving your emotions around to fit a schedule.

"Lex, did you hear her?" Mark very carefully shook her by the shoulder.

"Huh? Uhhh yeah," She was blindsided at first, but recovered with a lie. She could feel the eyes on her, waiting for her decision, but she didn't have one. "I'm going to need more time,"

"Ok, go ahead Honey. I'm here all day. I have to talk to your sister next since she's the one who called me in here today."

Of course Meredith. Lexie thought, but in a way she was almost happy that she did. It meant that Mer truly cared about her. Or it could mean that her hate for Thatcher was driving her to seem sisterly when in reality she just wanted to put Thatcher away.

After the lady left Mark turned to Lexie gingerly and in a gentle tone said, "Are you okay Lex? You seem…Really out of it. Given the circumstances I understand if you need more rest or some alone time."

"I hate to say this but I think I might. I'm so glad to have you here but…I need to figure this out….Alone," She admitted.

"You got it. I'm gonna go home for a while myself. Just to keep Julia from going insane. Be back soon, I promise." He patted her leg and then left, happy to see her awake and healthy for at least one moment.