A/N: SUPER important question for you all! When you read Tobias, do you imagine it being pronounced To-bye-as or Toe-bee-as? The entire time I was reading the Divergent series, I thought it was Toe-bee-as but in the movie is was pronounced the other way… just asking for your opinion, I don't know if I'm just crazy or wrong or what, but yeah…
Disclaimer: I don't own Divergent
Tris POV
The next morning I am woken up by a knock on the door. I look at my clock and it's six o'clock, and I wonder who it could be at this hour. I reluctantly get up and shuffle down to the door to answer it.
To my surprise, it's Tobias. He is wearing a nicer shirt, a button down instead of the usual t-shirt, with his normal jeans. He is also holding the prettiest arrangement of flowers that I've ever seen, an assortment of daisies, sunflowers, and white roses.
I am now very aware of my appearance, I hadn't thought to change out of my pajamas or even brush my hair before coming down to answer the door. I am currently outfitted in an oversized t-shirt, pajama shorts, and bunny slippers.
"Good morning," Tobias says, handing me the flowers. They smell wonderful.
"Good morning," I say back with equal tone. I'm not particularly embarrassed for Tobias to see me in my current state, just a bit curious to why he is at my doorstep so early.
"Come in," I say, turning around to walk to my kitchen. Tobias follows closely behind. I take out a vase and start to fill it up with water.
"If you don't mind me asking," I start, "Why are you here at the bright hour of six a.m?"
"Well," he starts, "I wanted to take you out to show you something, if you're up to it."
"Sure, but I should probably change first," I say, looking down.
Tobias comes up behind me while I put the flowers into the vase, and whispers, "You look amazing, even in pajamas."
I turn around to be met with his face very close to mine, only inches apart. "Well, I would probably look more amazing if I put on something decent. I'll only be a few minutes," I say. I give him a quick kiss on the cheek, and then go upstairs to change.
I throw on some skinny jeans and a detailed top that I bought with Christina. I quickly grab a pair of flats and a heart necklace. Earrings, I'll just keep the same studs I have on. I brush my hair through, there's no time to do anything special with it. Am I forgetting anything? Perfume? Right, I spray some on quickly. Floral, smells good. I am about to run out of the room with my wallet in my back pocket when I remember Christina, she wouldn't want me going out on a date without any makeup on at all. I quickly swipe on some mascara, and then rush back downstairs.
"Wow, that's record time for a girl," Tobias says jokingly, "Three minutes is unheard of."
"That's so stereotypical," I say as I scribble out a note for my mom on the counter.
"Okay, I'm ready," I say, and we walk out to his car.
"Where are we going?" I ask Tobias as he pulls out of the driveway.
"I told you, I'm taking you out to show you something," he says vaguely. I give him the seriously? stare, and he returns it, saying yes, seriously.
I sigh, and lean back in the seat, thinking of what I should say next. "Thank you for the flowers," I say, forgetting to say so earlier, "They are beautiful."
Tobias smiles, and says, "You're welcome, I'm glad you like them."
"Why so formal?" I ask him. It's not like him to get dressed up, or act so proper.
"Just dressing up for my girlfriend," he says, still smiling. He really is the best, I don't know what I did to deserve him.
I must've sat there for a while thinking, because Tobias says, "Penny for your thoughts?"
"I don't deserve you," I say.
"What?" he asks.
"You're too sweet, and too handsome, and too funny and I-I'm just plain old me. There are so many other girls that you have, but- I just don't understand," I say. It sounds terrible to wallow in self-pity, it really does, but I've been thinking about it.
"But I love you, not them, you," he says, "You are so much better than any other girl could dream to be."
"I'm sorry, I love you too, so much. It just makes me nervous, you might not notice all of the girls staring at you in the hallways at school, but I do," I say.
"You're the only girl that I see," he says, "Guys stare at you too."
I laugh at that, there's absolutely no way. Tobias is lying to make me feel better, he must be. "I'm serious," he says.
"Sure, whatever," I say sarcastically.
"We're here," Tobias says as he pulls into a parking spot. I look out the window, but I can't tell where we are. I didn't pay attention to our surroundings on the way, but I am positive that this is my first time here, wherever we are.
Tobias walks around the car and opens my door for me. "What a gentleman," I say as I hop out, and he laughs.
"Welcome to the Chasm," he says.
I look around and find us standing in a cave-like area. There are holes in the ground everywhere, resembling craters in a way. Everything seems natural, like this place wasn't man-built, so there is no tables or lights or anything.
There is one opening to a side, where the only light in the room is coming from. Tobias takes my hand and walks me over, and when we get closer I gasp. This cave we are in overlooks a beautiful field, and we are higher up than I thought. This must be well outside the city, it really is a sight.
"It's spectacular," I say, breathless.
"I took you to the Net on our first real date, and I thought I should take you to my other secret spot," Tobias says.
"Is that was that park was called, the Net?" I ask him. It's a strange name.
"Not technically, I actually don't think it has an official name. I call it the Net though, my mother would always take me there when I was younger, and she coined the name one time when I ran into a spider web," he says.
I laugh at this, it's such a ridiculous way to come up with a name. "And this is the Chasm?" I confirm.
"Yes, and she came up with that name as well. I would always trip and fall into those craters back there when I was younger, so she started calling them little chasms," Tobias says.
"Your mom seems like she was a wonderful person," I say.
"She was," he says, sounding more distant now. He must be thinking about her, I would too if I was in his shoes. I've never really experienced someone so close to me passing away.
"I wish I could've met her," I say.
"She would've loved you," he says, now grinning, "I love you."
"I love you too," I say, giving his hand a squeeze.
"I still need to meet your mom," he says.
I completely forgot that they've never met. My mom knows about Tobias, but I guess they've never crossed paths, which is surprising because I'm with him a lot. "You will, I'll mention it to her," I say, and he smiles.
We start to walk back to the car even though we've only been here a short while. Only when Tobias opens the trunk do I realize that he is just grabbing something. He takes out a blanket and a box of donuts.
"I know I came early, so I brought breakfast with us," he says, and I laugh. I look at my watch and realize that it's already 8:30, time just flies when we're together.
"How did you know I love donuts?" I ask him.
"Everyone loves donuts!" he responds enthusiastically, and I just laugh. I love that we can act like idiots around each other and I doesn't even matter because we're so in love.
We just sit on the blanket eating more donuts than any person should in a day, talking and enjoying each other's company.
Tobias POV
Ever since the events of yesterday with our friends, I've wanted to see Tris. I barely kept myself from going after her then, but every minute longer we are apart I am convinced that I should've. I can't sleep, I need to see her.
I decide to wait until the next morning, and I end up waking up incredibly early due to my excitement. It's only 4:30, but I can't seem to fall back asleep. I decide in the moment to do something special for her, I've already taken her to the Net so I will take her to the Chasm today.
I have extra time, so I decide to look nicer than usual. I put on a button down instead of a t-shirt, I hope Tris likes it.
Wow, what have I become? I never used to care what girls think.
Well, Tris just isn't like the other girls.
By the time I'm showered and ready, it's only 5 o'clock. Tris will definitely still be asleep. What else could I do to make this special? Flowers? I think so. I get into my car and drive off to a florist. It takes me a while to explain exactly what I want, but in the end, it's perfect. A beautiful bouquet for an even more beautiful girl.
After the florist, it's 5:45. Darn, still too early. What else could I do? I decide to start towards her house, maybe I will see something on the way. I pass by a donut shop, turn around immediately to pull into the lot. I get a dozen glazed donuts in a box, and put it into my trunk.
I arrive at Tris's doorstep at six, and it's still awfully early but I couldn't wait any longer. I knock on the door, and less than a minute later Tris answers it. She must've just woken up by the looks of it, she is still in her pajamas. Wow, she even looks great in pajamas.
"Good morning," I say, handing her the flowers I was holding. She takes them in her hand, looking at them.
"Good morning, come in," she says, and walks into her kitchen. I follow her, and she takes out a vase to fill with water.
"If you don't mind me asking," she says, "Why are you here at the bright hour of six a.m?"
"Well," I say, "I wanted to take you out to show you something, if you're up to it."
"Sure, but I should probably change first," she says, looking down. Tris doesn't seem particularly embarrassed, which surprises me in a way. She can be so shy at times, and other girls would be mortified if their boyfriend saw them right when they woke up. But Tris is different, and I like it.
"You look amazing, even in pajamas," I whisper into her ear, coming up behind her. I just felt like I had to tell her, I felt like I had to close some space between us.
She turns around, and we are only inches apart. I am about to lean in when she says, "Well, I would probably look more amazing if I put on something decent. I'll only be a few minutes." She kisses me on the cheek, and heads upstairs before I can say anything.
Before I know it, she is back downstairs looking amazing as always. I am breath taken at first, but I say, "Wow, that's record time for a girl. Three minutes is unheard of."
"That's so stereotypical," she says as she leaves a note on the counter, "Okay, I'm ready."
We walk out to my car, and Tris asks, "Where are we going?"
"I told you, I'm taking you out to show you something," I say, I know she hates surprises but I can't help but tease her. She gives me a look, and I return it.
She sighs, and I resist the urge to laugh. "Thank you for the flowers," Tris says out of nowhere, "They are beautiful."
I smile, I'm am beyond happy that she likes them. I love to make her happy. "You're welcome, I'm glad you like them," I say.
"Why so formal?" she says, referring to my outfit most likely.
"Just dressing up for my girlfriend," I say casually, still smiling. I would never admit how much I've wanted to see her since last night. Some may find it cute, but in a way it is also pretty clingy.
We ride in silence for a while, and I look over at Tris. She seems deep in thought. "Penny for your thoughts?" I ask, wondering what she is thinking about.
"I don't deserve you," she blurts out.
"What?" I ask, surprised by her response.
"You're too sweet, and too handsome, and too funny and I-I'm just plain old me. There are so many other girls that you have, but- I just don't understand," Tris says. I hate when she puts herself down like this, she will never realize how amazing she is.
"But I love you, not them, you," I say, "You are so much better than any other girl could dream to be."
"I'm sorry, I love you too, so much. It just makes me nervous, you might not notice all of the girls staring at you in the hallways at school, but I do," she says.
"You're the only girl that I see," I say, "Guys stare at you too." It's true, I give them my best glare when I notice it and they back off for a few seconds, only to look again. It's annoying as hell, to be honest.
She laughs at this, does she really not believe me? "I'm serious," I say.
"Sure, whatever," she says sarcastically, and I don't say anything else on the topic because I know she will deny everything that is true.
"We're here," I say as I drive up the rocks and park. Luckily my car can withstand the terrain here, we are farther outside the city. The drive didn't feel terribly long, though, that always happens when Tris is around.
I decide to walk around and open Tris's door for her, I am already dressed nice so I should play the part. "What a gentleman," she says, and I laugh.
"Welcome to the Chasm," I say.
I look around, this place brings back so many good memories. Most of my best childhood moments were here, I remember running around when I was younger, throwing a football back and forth with my mom. She was always my biggest fan, she is the reason I let Zeke talk me into playing for the team.
"It's spectacular," Tris says as she looks around. Her face shows amazement, and this place really is unique. I don't know how my mom managed to find it.
"I took you to the Net on our first real date, and I thought I should take you to my other secret spot," I explain.
"Is that was that park was called, the Net?" she asks.
"Not technically, I actually don't think it has an official name. I call it the Net though, my mother would always take me there when I was younger, and she coined the name one time when I ran into a spider web," I say. That was a fun day, and thinking about it now it is kind of a silly name for a park, but I wouldn't change it now.
Tris laughs, she must realize the same thing, and asks, "And this is the Chasm?"
"Yes, and she came up with that name as well. I would always trip and fall into those craters back there when I was younger, so she started calling them little chasms," I say.
"Your mom seems like she was a wonderful person," Tris mentions.
"She was," I say. Some days I still can't believe that she's gone, even though it happened a long time ago. So much changed when she passed, everything is different now. Marcus would've never started abusing me if she had lived through the birth. (A/N: I know in the book that Marcus abused the both of them and that is the reason that Evelyn left, but just to clarify, in my story Evelyn is actually dead and the beatings started after she died.)
"I wish I could've met her," Tris says.
"She would've loved you," I say, smiling at her, "I love you."
"I love you too," she says, squeezing my hand. I love the feeling of her hand in mine, they fit together perfectly.
"I still need to meet your mom," I remember all of the sudden.
"You will, I'll mention it to her," Tris says, and I smile. Most boys might dread meeting a girl's parents, in some cases it could be really awkward and it could mean that the relationship is getting a bit more serious, but I'm actually excited to meet Tris's mom. I hope she likes me.
At this moment, I remember the donuts still in my trunk. I lead Tris back to the car and take them out, along with a blanket that I always keep in my trunk.
"I know I came early, so I brought breakfast with us," I say.
"How did you know I love donuts?" she asks.
"Everyone loves donuts!" I exclaim, and Tris laughs again.
I set up the blanket, and we sit together and eat the whole dozen together, talking about random things the whole time. I love how simple and easy things are between us, it's never nervous or uncomfortable together. We can just be ourselves.
A/N: Sorry guys, it's only been a few days but I know I usually update more often and I'm sorry. I know excuses are lame but if you know anything about the moving process, it's extremely time consuming. I have been out of the house all day every day because there have been people looking at our house, so this is really my first computer access. I'm not blowing you guys off, I'm going to do the best I can!