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Chapter 25

Derek awoke when his cell rang not even realizing he fell asleep. He grabbed the phone and looked at Spencer who was sleep and walked out of the room.

"Morgan."

"Listen, I'm putting in for you to take a month off."

"Hotch."

"Morgan, Reid is gonna need you and yes while we need you here, he needs you more than we do. We'll get by fine and if we really do need you, we'll call, but for right now, take care of Spencer."

"What about Strauss?"

"I'll deal with her."

"Fine."

"Are you okay?"

"Am I okay? No, I'm not okay. I saw that asshole rape my boyfriend. It wasn't even twenty four hours, Hotch, and Spencer was beaten and bloody. This is all my stupid fault. I never should've left him alone."

"Derek, first of all it wasn't your fault, it had been weeks and nothing happened so you thought it was okay to leave him. Second of all, he wasn't alone. We thought Anderson and Cole would protect him."

"Hotch, Spencer is my responsibility. I'm supposed to be there for him and I wasn't. I let him get taken. Again."

Suddenly whatever Hotch was about say was cut off by Spencer screaming. Derek cut the conversation with Hotch and ran into the bedroom to find Spencer thrashing and screaming on the bed. He ran over to him and gently tried to restrain him.

"Spencer! Easy, baby, you're okay. Baby, wake up it's just a bad dream. C'mon, baby, you gotta wake up."

After several tries Spencer finally stopped thrashing and opened his eyes. He threw himself into Derek's arms. Derek just held him tight and rocked him.

"Shh, baby, it's okay. It was just a dream. You're okay."

"Don't. Please, don't."

"Don't what, baby?"

"Don't leave me."

"I won't baby. Whaddya say we get you into the shower or would you prefer a bath?"

"Will you sit with me in the tub?"

"Of course, baby."

Spencer nodded. Derek knew that Spencer wasn't gonna let him leave so he walked with him into the bathroom and sat him on the toilet while he drew them a bath. While the water was filling Derek decided to add some soothing bath salts to help Spencer's body relax. Spencer started whimpering and Derek turned to look at him and found him rocking back and forth whimpering. Derek crouched down in front of him and put his hands on his shoulders.

"Baby?"

Spencer shook his head violently, "NO! Please, no! No more!"

"Spencer, baby, calm down. You're okay, he's not gonna hurt you anymore."

Spencer whimpered and tried to pull away but Derek held on to him until he finally relaxed. Derek knew that he was gonna freak out if he took his clothes off.

"Spencer, in order for us to get into the tub, we need to take your clothes off. Will you let me?"

Spencer looked up at him fearfully and shook his head. Derek sighed.

"Baby, I'm not gonna hurt you, but you can't take a bath with the clothes on."

Spencer shook his violently. Derek stilled him.

"What about if you do it? Will you do it?"

Spencer bit his lip and then nodded. Derek nodded. Spencer stood up and slowly removed his clothes. Derek took his hand and gently eased him down into the tub once it had finished filling. Spencer grabbed his hand.

"Hang on, baby, I gotta remove my own clothes. Don't worry I'm coming."

Derek removed his own clothes and eased behind Spencer in the tub and wrapped his arms around his lover's waist and pulled him to his chest. He was careful not to try and touch him intimately or Spencer would freak out. He began to gently wash and massage different parts of his body. He heard Spencer start to whimper whenever he got close to his cock or his ass.

"Easy, baby, just relax. I'm not gonna hurt you, I promise."

He finished washing Spencer's body and washed his own before draining the water. He stood up and grabbed two towels one he wrapped around his own waist and the other he wrapped around Spencer's waist. He led him out of the tub and the bathroom. Derek sat Spencer on the bed while he got Spencer some clothes and handed them to him before grabbing his own clothes. Derek finished getting dressed and found Spencer sitting on the bed fully clothed. Derek sighed. He knew that they needed to talk about what happened but he couldn't bring himself to do that to Spencer just yet. He also needed to call Kathi. He knew that Spencer wouldn't go there just yet.

"Spencer, are you hungry?"

Spencer shrugged. Derek sighed.

"C'mon, let's get you something to eat."

Derek heated up some soup for Spencer seeing that it was quick. After making sure Spencer ate at least half, they cuddled on the couch together. Neither said a word, but Derek just held Spencer tight and Spencer put his head on Derek's chest and silently cried. Soon Spencer fell asleep again and Derek very gently laid him on the couch as he grabbed his cell and walked into the kitchen. He punched in a very familiar number.

"Hey, Thunder God. How is he?"

"Hey, baby girl. He's not doing well. Listen, I need your amazing skills."

"Derek, I know what you want and the answer's no."

"Penelope."

"Derek, no. What would it accomplish?"

"Penelope what would you do if it was Kevin who was hurt like this? I swear you people have no fucking idea how I feel right now."

"Sweetness, I do. I know you're angry, and if something like this happened to Kevin, I'd be furious too, but what you're planning isn't gonna help. What you need to do is just take this time off and be there for Spencer. He's gonna need you more than ever."

"Penny, please," Derek asked glancing over at Spencer to make sure he was still sleep.

"I would love to help you, honey, but I can't. I'm not gonna let you do that yourself and Spencer."

"Fine, if you won't help me, I'll get someone who will."

Derek angrily hung up the phone and moved toward Spencer as he started whimpering.

~TWO MONTHS LATER~

"No! No! Please, Derek, help!"

Derek woke up and immediately grasped Spencer, "Spencer, wake up! C'mon, baby, you gotta wake up for me. It's a nightmare. Baby, I'm right here."

"Frank, please! No!"

"Spencer, please, wake up, baby. You can do it. Wake up for me, baby. It's just a nightmare."

Like that past months it took Spencer several minutes before he was able to calm down and wake up. He threw himself at Derek again and Derek just held him and kissed him lightly on the lips. Derek was getting tired of seeing Spencer like this. If he had a nightmare or a flashback during the day he was quiet and withdrawn all day. Every time Derek woke Spencer up from a nightmare or he witnessed Spencer have a really bad flashback and had to pull him out of it he got angry.

"Baby, we gotta get up. Kathi's coming today."

Spencer looked fearful and shook his head, "No, Derek."

Derek sighed, "Baby, we go through this every time. I know you don't wanna talk to her. I mean, hell, I don't wanna talk to her, but we gotta."

Spencer frowned, "What time is she coming?"

"Ten like always."

"I don't like talking to her."

"I know, baby. I don't either, but we did kinda promise we would, and you need to talk to someone."

"What if I decide to talk to you?"

Derek shook his head as he pulled on a pair of jeans, "Baby, we've tried that before. It didn't work."

Spencer sighed and got off the bed to get dressed. Just as he was pulling on a pair of jeans he ran into the bathroom to puke. Derek sighed. He knew that Spencer's been doing that a lot lately and he had two more months to go before the morning sickness was behind him. Spencer came out of the bathroom and continued to dress. Just then the doorbell rang and Derek went to answer it.

"Morning, Derek," Kathi greeted as he opened the door.

Derek smiled, "Hi, come on in."

"How's he been?"

Derek shrugged, "With the pregnancy, he fine. Everything else, I'm not so sure."

Kathi took off her coat and handed it to Derek which he hung up. She moved to sit in the chair across from the couch.

"He's still having nightmares?"

Derek nodded, "If it's not nightmares it's some sort of flashback during the day."

Spencer exited the bedroom and moved next to Derek and gave Kathi a wave. Derek led Spencer over to the couch.

"Spencer, may I ask you a question?"

Spencer nodded.

"Before you met Derek, were you interested in guys and did you ever have a relationship with any?"

"Yes, I knew I was interested in guys. A person's sexuality is defined by at least twelve. And no, I've never been in a relationship with one. I wasn't the guy that got asked out a lot."

"I see. And what about you Derek? You said that you're bisexual?"

"Yes. I'm not sure when I knew I was bisexual just that one day I found out that I liked both girls and guys."

"But you were mainly interested in girls you seemed to try and hide the part of you that liked males. Is this due to your past?"

Derek shrugged, "I guess. In part. But as I got older it seemed wrong to like males so I buried myself in women."

"Spencer, I wanna go back to something you said last week. You said that it was your fault that Frank was the way he is. Why do you believe that?"

"I-I don't know. 15percent of people that are rejected in some form often turn to some form of violent behavior. I guess t-that if I didn't reject him he wouldn't have done this."

"Baby, you know that's not true."

Spencer looked at Derek, "Yes it is, you know as well as I do that there is always something that triggers an unsub's behavior. My rejection was the trigger."

"Let me ask you something, how old were you, Spencer?"

"Nine."

Kathi shook her head, "How do you see this as a rejection, most kids your age aren't interested in relationships then?"

"He was older than me. He was thirteen which means that maybe I wasn't but he was."

Spencer started whimpering and rocking back and forth while holding his head. Derek knew that Spencer was about to have a flashback. He gripped his shoulders and forced Spencer to look at him.

"Spencer, look at me. C'mon, baby, remember it's not real. It's not real, baby."

Spencer whimpered and tried to back away from Derek, but Derek gripped him tight.

"Spencer, look at me. C'mon, you can do it. Look at me."

Spencer tried to look at Derek but the vision of Frank pounding into him was too strong and he closed his eyes. Kathi didn't know what to do so she just sat there watching the two. Spencer screamed and struggled against Derek. Derek continued to hold onto him. Not tight enough to hurt him, but tight enough so he wouldn't get away.

"C'mon, baby, snap outta it. It's not real, baby. He can't hurt you anymore."

After several more minutes of Spencer screaming and crying and struggling, Spencer relaxed. He tired himself out and he slumped against Derek. Derek laid him back against the couch.

"Is it always like this?"

Derek nodded, "Pretty much."

Derek grabbed up his cell phone and walked into the kitchen and dialed Kevin Lynch's number.

"Kevin, its Derek."

"Derek? Man, if Penny knew I was talking to you…"

"She doesn't have to know. I just need a favor; I need you to find where they're holding Frank Garcia."

"Oh, man. Penny told me I'm not to do it."

"Kevin, she doesn't have to know anything."

"Alright, give me a couple of seconds."

Derek heard Kevin typing away, "Okay so Frank is being held at Fairfax Adult Detention Center. It's located at ten-five-twenty Judicial Drive in Fairfax."

"Thanks, Kevin."

Derek hung up from the call and entered the living room. Spencer was sitting up staring at his hands and Kathi looked as if she was trying to engage him in conversation, but was failing miserably. Derek walked over and sat down next to Spencer.

"Spence? You mind if Kathi stays here with you for a bit? Penny called and asked me to check out the heater in her apartment."

"You won't be long, right?"

"Of course not, pretty boy."

Spencer nodded and kissed his lips, "Okay."

Derek nodded to Kathi and grabbed his jacket and walked out of the door.

Frank was gonna pay. Derek knew that it was possible that Penelope and probably Hotch knew what he was gonna do, but he didn't care. His only concern was to make that fucker pay. He stopped at a store and grabbed a few supplies that he would need. As he was getting back into the car his cell rang. Checking the caller id, he saw that it was Hotch. He ignored it. There was no way he was gonna let this fucker get away with what he did.

Spencer sat on the couch staring at his hands. Kathi wasn't sure what to do so she tried to make conversation.

"When's the last time you talked to your mother, Spencer, or write her a letter."

"I saw on Thanksgiving. He's gonna kill him, isn't he?"

Kathi shrugged, "It's possible but I don't know."

"He's so angry."

"You know he's not angry at you, right?"

"Yeah, I guess."

Derek made it to the Detention Center and after showing his badge he spun a story about having Frank Garcia being transferred. Luckily, the people believed him and signed him out into Derek's responsibility. Derek grabbed Frank and threw him into the back of the SUV. Frank laughed.

"Agent Morgan, what a pleasant surprise. I was wondering if I would ever see you again."

Derek glared at him through the rearview mirror, "Shut the fuck up."

Frank laughed, "How's Spencer?"

Derek glared at him again. He pulled the SUV in front of a deserted building that he spotted on his way to pick up Frank. Cutting the engine he got out and yanked Frank out of the car. Frank laughed the whole time he was being dragged. Frank's laughter fueled Derek's anger. The minute they were inside Derek punched Frank in the face.

"You stupid asshole!"

Derek continued to punch Frank until his hand started hurting. He growled at Frank.

"How's it feel to be manhandled while feeling helpless?"

Derek had bought some things that he was gonna use to torture Frank with but he couldn't bring himself to use them.

"I'm gonna kill you, you sonovabitch!"

Frank laughed, "I'd like to see you try, agent."

Derek slammed Frank into the wall. "Don't fucking tempt me."

Frank laughed, "You and you're boyfriend are so fucking weak. Can't even finish what you started? I wonder how the two of could consider yourselves agents."

Derek punched him in the face, stepped back, cocked the gun, and fired hitting Frank in the chest. Frank looked at him before dropping to the floor. Derek glared at the body and then turned to leave when he came face to face with Penny. Hotch walked in behind her. Penny gave him a sorrowful look. Hotch glanced at Frank and then back at Derek.

"Hotch."

Hotch held up his hand, "Next time, try and control your anger."

Derek nodded as he followed them out.

TBC...