Just a warning I am Dyslexic so my stories will not be perfect but I now have one Beta reader to help me along the way :D
Thank you so much to Roshelle Diall for offering to work with me :D
Hello my sweeties,
Thanks for all you people looking forward to my new chapter!
The last few chapters have had mixed reviews but I hope the final product will
please at least most of you.
Prologue for my new story of your choice is out.
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WARNING: THIS STORY IS M RATED FOR A REASON!
I do not own Skip Beat.
thanks to my wonderful Beta reader Roshelle Diall
who is tirelessly working on my stories to make your reading
experience better :)
KUMA = italic underlined.
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"Yes, I have been given the chance to film with Kyoko this coming month in her début film. I'm afraid I can't give away many details as we don't start filming till next week, but I can assure you that if Kyoko is playing the lead role it will be an amazing performance. She is one of the most talented actresses I've ever had the pleasure of working with." Ren smiled as the Ishibashi brothers all smiled too. They also knew Kyoko was an amazing actress and they all cared for her like a sister or in Hikaru's case he hoped for more. Kyoko couldn't breathe. She felt her lungs had been ripped out as she quickly waddled off the stage and out of sight. Yanking off Bo's head, she sobbed.
"You OK, Kyoko-chan?" asked one of the stage hands running over, Kyoko quickly masked her tears her head swimming with thoughts and feeling. Her grudges were desperately pushing through the keyhole of that dratted box.
"I'm fine, sorry I just got a little overheated and was worried I would faint on stage." she said with a very odd laugh. The stage hand smiled knowingly.
"I'm sure any woman would get a little flustered with Tsuruga Ren saying such nice things about them." she added with a small wink as Kyoko shook her head violently.
"Oh no, its not that. Tsuruga-san is always polite about his fellow colleagues it's just the suite seems a little more stuffy today than usual." she added not very convincingly. The stage hand knowing Kyoko for being modest said nothing. Who was she to complain? That's the reason they all liked her. She treated them with respect, not disdain as some famous celebrities would have. Saying that surely Kyoko was too famous now to be running around in a chicken suit?
"Here," she said handing the half girl half rooster a bottle of water.
"You will need to be back out on stage in 5 for the question eggs. Do you think you will be OK?" she asked kindly as Kyoko drank half the bottle of water in one long gulp.
"I'll be fine thank you." she said with a small fake smile. The stagehand nodded and went back to her work as Kyoko leaned back against the wall fighting back the inevitable tears that threatened her.
I'm Bo I can do this! I'm Bo... I'm Bo... I'm Bo...
The rest of the show passed in a blur. She must have performed OK as she wasn't sacked though she couldn't really remember what happened after returning to the stage. She just went with her body which seemed to know what it was doing without her interference. She never thought once as she trudged back to the props room. Her mind was empty and blank, she was forcing it to be so. Not wanting to think, not wanting to care. In the back of her mind she knew it was fate when she turned that corner. Her body had brought her here without her brain's help. What else could it be? Walking slowly, she sat down next to the man waiting for her.
"Yo!" she said masking her voice as always, but still the enthusiasm was lacking.
"Hey." Ren replied as he sat with his head in his hands, staring at blank nothingness.
"You sound as bad as I feel." he tried to joke as Kyoko attempted to get her mushy brain to function on at least some cognitive level, but it was failing her so she just decided to answer without thinking.
"Yeah, I'm not feeling too brilliant at the moment to be truthful. But enough about me you wanted to talk?" she said as she watched the hunched figure next to her. Ren made a noise which sounded like a mixture between a snort and a laugh.
"You know it's sad really, a grown man like me having no one I can talk to, save for an over large rooster that dislikes showing me his face." he wasn't being nasty she could see. He was just trying to find the words he wanted to say, letting him come to his own speed she answered,
"Ah that's only because I'm cuter this way." that brought a little chuckle from Ren as he slightly turned to look at the fowl.
"You have a kind heart Bo. People with kind hearts can never truly be ugly. Even if they wish to believe it about themselves, it will never be true." Her head tried to think again at this point. The fog that had fallen around her brain tried to lift, but it fell again. Not allowing her the chance of thought, she would just have to continue with winging it.
"Thank you, I will try and remember that." they sat in silence for another few minutes. Kyoko was just waiting for him to speak. She couldn't think so striking up a conversation was impossible, but the silence wasn't uncomfortable.
"Bo?" his voice sounded weak, strained and tired.
"Yes?" why was her heart pounding so badly, why did she want to hug him and hold him?
"I made a mess of it." Ren said simply still not having raised himself from his slumped position.
"Made a mess of what? The show was fine." she answered automatically.
"I made a mess of telling my feelings to the girl I love. Now she hates me and won't speak to me." he replied slowly. Kyoko's heart stopped, but the physical side of her that was controlling her tongue made her speak. Even if her brain did not want to think and work at that time, or ever again for that matter.
"What did you do to mess it up?" she asked looking down at the slumped man before her.
"I never told her soon enough." he whispered in a voice that tore at Kyoko, he sounded like a child lost confused and afraid. He sounded so small.
"Is she with someone else now?" she questioned
"No, its not that someone pushed her away. She must be so scared and so confused. I've tried to contact her to tell her how I really feel, but its useless. I'm nothing to her now." why did his voice pain her so much? Why were her eyes burning, the fog in her mind thickening? Ren continued,
"See we had been getting closer, I was so happy she was starting to accept me even if it was only because she was scared. I wanted to protect her. Show her I could always be there to protect her, that all I want is to be with her and only her. But my cousin pushed her too far it seems. They argued and she got angrier than I've ever seen her. She shouted at my cousin telling her she loved me, but it was too soon for her. Her heart has been too badly hurt, I wanted to mend those hurts, I wanted to soften the scars, but its too late now..." his voice trailed away as Kyoko's body remained in that upright seated position. Why did that story seem so familiar? Why was this man describing what she herself was trying to forget? She watched his limp form as his shoulders shook. To her surprise and horror, tears started to hit the floor below him, his tears. He was crying. He was crying for her.
She never noticed as she reached out a wing and rubbed his back, she never thought. She was still not capable of thought as she patted him. Not realising the small cracks that had appeared on her boulders surface, not realising what she was saying, but speak she did.
"It's OK mate, if she said she loves you maybe she just needs time and space for a little bit? They say time heals everything, even broken hearts." Ren never stiffened at her touch allowing his mascot friend to comfort him in his own little way.
"You think I should allow her some more time and space?" he asked softly his voice raw with emotion.
"I think that's what she may be seeking if she is confused. We all need time to think sometimes." Ren nodded. Isn't this how he had met his rooster friend in the first place when he had been looking for a place to stop and think? He sighed, wiping his eyes. Strangely his friends gentleness had calmed him.
"Maybe you're right, I may have to do something I've never done before, but she means more to me than anything." he said with firm determination.
"What are you going to do?" she asked, her grudges had finally got to her brain trying to sweep away the fog, trying to lift it and push it out of her head. She needed to think!
"I'm meant to be starting a new project with her Monday morning. I will find a replacement for myself and tell the director Monday morning I am unable to perform, then I will leave Japan."
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Kanae stared at the woman before her, body blazing her entire being trembling with the rage she felt. Their shouting could be heard through most of LME. Though none wished to even know what the two women were shouting about, all too scared to even think about it.
"YOU REFUSED TO LISTEN TO ME AND NOW NEITHER OF THEM ARE HAPPY! I TOLD YOU THAT I WOULD CONTROL THE SITUATION! WHY THE HELL DID YOU HAVE TO PUSH IT TOO FAR?" Kanae screamed as the woman before her finally crumpled, accepting what the younger woman said to be true.
"Look." she said, no longer shouting. This was the reason she had hunted the girl out In the first place.
"I'm sorry, I didn't realise just how delicate Kyoko-chan's heart was. I would never have done this on purpose. Even if I was raving mad at the girl then I would never...I would never have wanted this." Kanae watched her arms fold, the anger slowly tapering away as she saw the truth behind the woman's words.
"It's too late now. Sorry will not make Kyoko see reason. She's like a zombie, half dead inside it's like...it's like she tore out her own heart with those words Saya. It's like she ripped out her heart and threw it away."
Saya watched as the raven haired beauty began crying softly. Kanae had been so obsessed with helping Kyoko become happy, the fact she had truly hurt her one and only best friend was killing her. Just as she had told Kyoko that time before the project had begun, hiding her emotions and locking them away was eating her from within. She was hating herself more and more each day.
Saya hugged the taller younger woman.
"I'm so sorry Kanae. I know that won't make it right, but please I want to try and correct the wrongs I have caused. Please just give this to Kyoko-chan for me." she handed Kanae the hard, brown card envelope. It was quite large and weighed a little more than expected. Feeling through the card she realised it must be a book.
"This will not hurt her more will it?" she asked needing the assurance as Saya shook her head.
"No, or well I hope not. Just please give it to her for me?" Kanae nodded before she spun on her heels
"I better get back to work." with that she was gone, carrying the envelope with her.
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It was Sunday evening before Kanae had time to visit Kyoko. She let herself in with the key Kyoko had given her.
"Kyoko?" she called. There was no reply but Kuma appeared at the end of the hallway.
"Hello Kuma, is Kyoko home?" she asked, not expecting the dog to answer but feeling better in the continuing silence to speak rather than let it engulf her. Walking forward she met the large hound with a pat on the head.
Alpha sad sad, help alpha
How could he tell them that she was dying inside, he felt it, he saw it. She needed help and he had tried. Oh how he had tried to help his alpha, but she was trapped inside her own head. He hoped the alpha/omega would know what to do, he was sad. He wanted his alpha's back.
Kanae found Kyoko curled up on the sofa asleep, exhaustion had finally claimed her after Friday and this was the first time she had slept. Her small body shivered occasionally and Kanae slowly pulled out the sofa to the bed position, making sure not to wake her friend. She dragged the blankets and pillows from the bed into the lounge and wrapped her in them while she slept. She knew she needed to talk to her, she needed to get her to see sense before she did something stupid. Placing the envelope on the coffee table with a post-it reading 'open me' she was turning to leave when Kyoko's small voice rang out through the silent apartment.
"Don't leave me!" she cried so pathetically Kanae turned. Tears were streaming down Kyoko's cheeks yet she slept on. In that instant Kanae sighed. Pulling off her jumper she climbed onto the sofa bed next to Kyoko pulling her into her arms she held her tight.
"I will never leave you Kyoko-chan, and neither will Ren. We both love you very much." she whispered, kissing her friends forehead as the shivering of Kyoko's body ceased. With a contented sigh Kyoko snuggled into Kanae's chest,
"I love you, Ren." she mewed softly. Again, Kanae was reduced to silent tears.
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I know it seems like I'm making
them all live through hell,
but trust me its worth it!
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Well as long as Ren isn't really quitting and leaving the country I'll be okay.