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I stared at Ikuto as Utau wrapped her hands around his and smiled smugly at me, looking triumphant. Ikuto did not push her away but he didn't do anything. His face was palest blank I had ever seen on a person before. The look in his eyes were so far away and distant that trying to reach out to him would have been inevitably impossible. It wouldn't work how hard anybody tried. I blinked as a flash of a paparazzi's camera stunned me. This was getting ridiculous. Why did Ikuto have to be right there when Tadase confessed? And why did Tadase have to confess right at that moment? Why the heck was the stupid paparazzi here right now. I looked at Utau narrowing my eyes. She had planned this in every little detail. If she hadn't it was just a bunch of coincidences. But I doubted that. From the look on her face I was correct that she had schemed this whole thing up. Another paparazzi's camera flashed in my face as I pushed him away with annoyance. I felt completely crammed in and I had to get out. I needed to see Ikuto smiling. I didn't want to see him like that. I barged through the crowd of paparazzi as a hand grabbed my wrist making me stop. I turned around and stared at Tadase. His face was pleading, like he didn't want me to go to Ikuto. That's when I had the answer to Ikuto's question from before. This was the exact situation he meant. Who I'd choose. I gave Tadase an apologetic look as he sighed.

"Ok, but please think about what I said," he insisted.

I nodded politely as he let go of my hand so I could walk away from it all. The paparazzi weren't following me and Tadase was trying to keep them busy. If Tadase really was in an alliance with Utau, he must have understood that she was wrong. He wouldn't be helping me if he was in a really tight alliance, right? I charged towards Ikuto and Utau ready to tell him. Utau raised her eyebrows and stepped in front of me, her arms on her hips. I tried to get past her but she kept on getting in my way.

"Utau, please, I need to talk to him," I pleaded looking at Ikuto trying to make him understand that it was all a misunderstanding.

Did he seriously believe that I was going out with Tadase? The look on his face proved he did. Utau snorted not agreeing to let me past her. She was just one obstacle away, if only she would give in and realise that Ikuto only saw her as a sister. He had told that to her, but she was consistent in getting her revenge and going after him. She was only creating havoc for us all.

"No, you are Tadase's girlfriend now, so there is no reason to be talking to Ikuto," she said bluntly as she pushed back a little.

I looked at Ikuto pleading like mad that he wouldn't believe this. But he was totally convinced. He had been looking away from me for some time when he finally looked up and stared right into my eyes. I felt myself shudder his stare penetrating. I couldn't look away for even one second, I thought that if I did, everything would be lost. The words I need aren't coming out of my mouth. I feel completely speechless and I hate it. Ikuto then looked away from me and sighed turning around ever so slowly.

"I see you've chosen Tadase then," he said solemnly.

His back was now facing me as he walked away every step further felt like he was miles away. Utau smiled tucking her hair behind her ears. That smile was fake, there was nothing real about it.

"I guess the best girl won, huh?" she smirked as she turned on her heel and ran to Ikuto.

I watched her go feeling extremely angry and sad at the same time. If that was even possible. Besides this, I had another constent thought in my mind. How was I going to get home? I wanted to cry, I wanted to cry so badly. He's gone, and he's left me here by myself. Well, Tadase is here too, but that's different. I thought today would be an amazing day, but it ended up like this. I could already feel the tears pricking my skin. I don't understand why. Why do I feel so sad? Then it dawned on me. I am extremely dense. I laughed, but it sounded more like I was choking. I was much denser than any other girl I know. Maybe even worse than Rima. But I've just come to realise it and look what's happened. Ikuto has got the wrong idea. If only I had realised sooner when he had asked me who I would choose. I was just being stubborn. Stupid, so stupid. Tadase walked up to me, it seemed that the paparazzi had enough and had gone. He saw me crying as he put a hand on my shoulder. I shook my head, not feeling like talking to him or anyone, and walked away.

Ikuto's car had gone. It was no longer where he parked it. I sat down on the gravel floor playing with the rocks like a toddler. Damn, this is all Utau's fault. She had to mess everything up. I had actually thought that she had given up on Ikuto, I thought she was nicer. But I guess I was wrong. Now, I'm here. At 8pm, and kind of lost. I have no idea how to get back home, even though I was the one to drive here. I don't know any other way to get home. I don't have a car, and I don't know where I could get a bus. Beside that, I have no money with me. So I'm basically screwed. And to make it worse, crying. Did I really want to go home though? My parents, but mostly my dad, would probably rant on about how he was right that I should't have gone. I didn't particularly wanted to hear or see them right now. I gritted my teeth and picked up a rock throwing it forwards into the night. Why couldn't Ikuto understand? And why the heck did he leave me here by myself. I am upset but I am angry at him too. I throwed another rock as it something, or someone in the distance. I stood up feeling embarassed that I had hit someone, with a rock, carelessly. I was ready to apologise when I saw Kukai's face which was a mix between annoyed and grinning. He saw me, my puffy red face, as he suddenly became worried.

"Amu, are you ok?" he questioned.

That's when I broke down. The tears that I had tried to keep subdued for as long as I possibly could were falling. I couldn't stop. I had cried before, but this time they were falling endlessly. Kukai hugged me as I cried into his t-shirt. He patted the back of my head trying to soothe me. My tears finally started to stop as they were reduced to little 'hicks' instead. He pulled me away from him and stared at me. He seemed to want an answer. I decided it was better to tell him than keep it bottled up inside.

"Utau...T-Tadase...I-I-I-Ikuto," I stammered trying to tell him but I couldn't.

But he seemed to understand anyway. Even if he didn't, he knew that something bad had happened. He then smiled for me, a wide grin that lit up my heart. I am so glad I have a friend at the moment, or I don't what I would have done. I told him how Ikuto had drove off without me as his eyebrows furrowed.

"How could he leave you on your own? Why is he being so damn irresponsible!" he shouted angry at what I had told him.

Ikuto had his reasons. But I had to agree that he was irresponsible. Kukai calmed down as he took a deep breath.

"I'll drive you back then. Come on, my car's over there," he said pointing to where his car was sat.

I followed him sniffing as I wiped my face of the dry tears that had settled there. I sat in Kukai's car as he drove off immediately. The whole journey I said nothing. But I could tell that Kukai was deeply worried. I then understood why Kukai was depressed at the amusement park today. It was because he knew that Utau had not got over Ikuto and that she still loved him. I immediately felt some sympathy with him. The chances of him and Utau were getting slimmer and slimmer. All he could do was watch and hope. But that got you no where.

Kukai stopped outside of my house as I stepped out of his car. He looked at me and at the road ahead.

"Will you be ok?" he asked.

I nodded trying to convince myself that I would be ok. It wouldn't get me down. When I walked into my house I'd go back to the normal Amu. My blotchy face had turned back to being it's normal colour. I'd be able to get away with it. The fact was what would I do if I saw Ikuto again. I had to see him, I had to talk to him. Even though he probably doesn't want me to. I wouldn't give up. I was going to try my hardest. There was no point crying over spilt milk. Kukai drove away as I watched him go and waved. I walked up to my door as I was ready to ring the bell when my phone suddenly started vibrate in my pockets. I took it hoping that it would be Ikuto. But of course it wasn't.

"Hi, Ran," I said, sadness still clinging to my voice.

If Ran could tell I was upset she wasn't trying to ask me a load full of questions. Instead she acted like I was fine, which was ok in some ways.

"Amu, I have some good news. We can film your music video tomorrow! Just be at Easter at 10am. Ikuto, Utau and Tadase already know. Sayonara! See you tomorrow!" Ran said cheerfully as she hung up.

I stared at the phone trying to take it all in. I woud be in the same room with those three? Great, just my luck. But I could get the chance to tell Ikuto what I wanted to say and clear things up. If Utau even let me. I would just have to face tomorrow head on. I'll be fine no matter what happens. I rung the door bell as the door opened revealing my mum who had Ami cradling in her arms. I smiled at them as I walked inside. They hadn't noticed anything. I walked upstairs to my bedroom as I sat down on my bed and switched on the TV. As soon as it was on I saw Tadase and my face on it. I gasped realising what it was. I should have expected this. But I didn't know anyone actually filmed us. I only saw the cameras. Why didn't I expect this, of course I had other things on my mind. I wasn't really looking out for anybody filming. The camera was now pointing at a journalist who smiled.

"It seems that we now have a new celebrity couple. Hotori Tadase and Hinamori Amu," she said as I clicked off the TV and threw the control at it.

I grabbed my pillow as I lay on my bed hugging it. This was getting way too out of hand.

Sometimes I wish sleep could last a little longer. It's place where you let go of reality and delve into the land of dreams. It's like a haven from all the things you hate. But they never last long. Sometime you have to wake up. I did oversleep this morning though, a little more than normal. But yesterdays events were still haunting me like a ghost. They were still so fresh and vivid in my mind. I wanted to think about something else but couldn't. It was like my mind was a record getting jammed at the same place. I stood up slowly on my feet trying to get my balance back as I took a bite of toast that I had made when I went downstairs earlier. I looked through my wardrobe wondering what to wear. I took out an abercrombie and fitch jacket that was a shade of pink and was furry inside the hood and a plain black top and some skinny jeans. I searched through my shoes and put on some studded boots. I brushed my hair and put into a side pony tail as I dug my hands in my jacket's pockets. It was time to go, hopefully everything would be ok. I walked downstairs and said goodbye to my parents and Ami as I strolled out the door.

I took the bus which was quite close to my home. The journey didn't take that long and I had music ringing through my ears so I wasn't too bored. I had been addicted to Nagi's song since I first heard it. I wonder what happened with him and Rima. I haven't seen her so I don't know. I hope she had a better night than I did. I bet she was completely fine. The bus stopped near Easter as I got off as the song on my iPod changed. It was now Ikuto's song that I had first heard him sing properly live. He wanted me to download the song so I did. I felt like turning it off but I didn't. I felt kind of confident hearing his voice again.

I was now in Easter and making my way to the lifts. I pressed the up button as it opened revealing Ikuto inside it. I cringed when I saw him not sure whether to wait for the next lift or go in. He looked at me probably wondering the same thing about me. I stepped in and stood as far away from him as possible. Wasn't this my chance though? I could talk to him now without Utau in the way. I opened my mouth ready to speak.

"Ikuto-"

The doors to the lift opened as Ikuto stepped out and left me there gaping like a fish. I followed him into a studio where all the gear was set up and ready. There were a load of paparazzi that were talking to Utau who was at the end of the studio. Ikuto stopped at the opposite end from me his eyes following my every move. I felt kind of uncomfortable so when I saw Ran I felt really relieved. She waved for me to come over.

"Hello, Amu. We'll be filming your scene with Utau first and then you can have a break before the scene with Ikuto. Ok?" she asked.

I nodded taking it all in. I had forgotten about the details of the music video but now I remembered. This would be fun. Soo fun. The paparazzi left Utau as she walked up to me that smug smile from yesterday never leaving her lips. I was so mad at her that if I wasn't careful I would go mad. I bit my lip trying to stop that awful feeling from taking over my sanity.

"I can't wait to work with you. It will be so fun," she smiled, but she sounded rather sarcastic.

I smiled back at her fakely as Ran gave me the script. I looked through it reading every line. How was I going to memorise all this right now? It was impossible for me. I read it again and again dreading that I would be deemed as unproffesional. I really didn't want to be judged that way.

"Alright, Hoshina Utau and Hinamori Amu. It's time," the cameraman said as Utau and I both nodded.

I put the script by a bottle of water I had brought with me as I walked over to where Utau was. She looked at Utau and smiled at him sweetly as she smirked at me.

"Ok...Action!"

I leaned down on the wall sighing loudly as I took a sip of my water. That had been the most nerveracking thing I have ever done in my life. Utau was amazing. She really surprised me. I knew that she was great at singing but her acting skills aren't too shabby either. She was way better than me by far. And she knew it. Now I had a break of 10 minutes before the scene with Ikuto and me. I was already tired out and we hadn't even done that much. I kept on forgetting my lines, which was very expected, so they had to retake it a lot. This time I was going to do a lot better. I picked up my script as I stood up and walked to my backstage room. It was very lush, like what you'd always wish a backstage room to be. Though it wasn't a backstage room, but a backstage lounge. It was huge. No, not huge, massive. I sat down on the soft leather couch as I looked through my lines. I didn't have many this time until they led up to the kiss on the cheek. Oh yeah, the kiss on the cheek. How could I forget that of all things? I really have been too strung up about yesterday, I can't believe I forgot that. It's not like me at all.

There was a knock on the door as I said, "Come in."

The door opened as Ikuto stood behind it his mouth open like he was ready to say something. He saw me and froze right there on the spot. This was my chance, if I didn't get him to stay and tell him now I would probably never get my chance again. He was about to turn around as I stood up and ran to the door as fast as I could and shut it. He narrowed his eyes probably wondering why I shut it. I motioned for him to sit down as he did so still confused. I sat on a different chair opposite him as we stayed there in silence. Ok, I wanted him to be here but now I haven't got an idea how to start this conversation. Damn, what do I say. I heard Ikuto sigh as I looked at him

"You know what I should just go. You don't want Tadase to get any wrong ideas," he started to stand up as I did the first thing I could think of.

Kicked him in the shin.

He fell back into the sofa and glared at me. I had actually hit him quite hard, surprisingly.

"What the freaking hell did you do that for!" he shouted at me.

I laughed, not being able to control myself. He raised an eyebrow and snorted.

"It's because you won't hear me out. You keep on slipping away," I folded my arms.

He choked at this statement and looked at me like I was mad. It was true though. But I hadn't had a proper chance like this to tell him, so I guess I was lucky.

"I've been 'slipping away' because I know Tadase would have a fit if he saw me with you. He'd go mental," Ikuto pointed out.

He was really convinced that Tadase and I were going out. Utau must have brainwashed him further. That girl has some hidden skills that she hasn't been showing to anyone. I shook my head.

"No, that's not it. Tadase is..." I didn't get to finish my sentence when Ikuto rudely interrupted me.

"Why did you agree to go out with him! That guy is a complete twat! You know he doesn't get you like I do, right?"

I stared blankly at him trying to process it all through my mind. Tadase doesn't get me like Ikuto does? I don't...

Ikuto sighed, "You don't know why. You know, what's the point in talking to you? You like Tadase not me. I thought, up on that roof, that there would be a chance that you liked me. But you just kissed me without a care and decided Tadase was better. Utau was right. You have one strange sick mind."

I had had enough. This was going way too far. He was really crossing the line this time. I stood up and slapped him right across the face as he sat there dazed. He touched his cheek slowly and looked up at me.

"How dare you! I can't believe you would judge me like that. Utau's brainwashing you right? Well guess what, einstein, I was going to choose you. Not Tadase, you," I tried to make it clear to him.

I took my script as I stormed out of the room leaving him speechless. I was so so angry. I never ever thought Ikuto would say something like that. And that he would believe what Utau said. I felt like hitting something so bad. I stomped into the studio and sat down on the floor glaring at the script in front of me. If I face him now I'm sure to explode. I heard footsteps as I looked up and saw Utau smiling at me. Trust the bitch to come annoy me now of all times. If she steps out of line then I don't know what I'll do. But it won't be pretty.

"What do you want?" I hissed.

She sat beside me leaning her back against the wall.

"I came here to tell you that if you talk to my man again your dust," she said smiling sweetly which only made it creepier.

That was what she came to tell me? Really now, I had already caught the gist that she didn't want me near him. But she had to say it again. Although, at this point of time I wasn't that bothered.

"Fine. You can have him. Someone like him who judges people without asking them first isn't good. So I hope you are very happy. I hope you and Ikuto have a good stinking life," the anger was pouring out of my voice but I could hear that I was already starting to blurt it out in sobs.

I gritted my teeth not wanting to cry. Especially not in front of her. She looked stunned that I had given in so easily. Actually, I hadn't. I was dying inside. But I didn't want her to see that. So I took a deep breath and kept my composure. The doors beside us opened as Ikuto walked seeming like he was looking for someone. And that person was probably me. I stood up as I walked away from Utau hoping not to be spotted by Ikuto. So unfortunately he had noticed. He walked after me and grabbed my hand turning me around. I glared at him and thrust his hand away from mine.

"Amu..."

"Go away," I put bluntly.

Though he didn't go anywhere. He seemed confused and not sure what was right and wrong. I just wanted to get away from him as quick as possible. But he didn't have the same intention.

"Look, I didn't..."

I interrupted him again, "No, you look. I don't want to talk to you. And maybe, maybe I will go out with Tadase as you think I'm that kind of girl to just jump from boy to boy. Just get the hell lost and don't you ever come back!"

Ran walked up to us an awkward expression on her face. I felt sorry for her to be in the midst of and arguement. But Ikuto had to understand that talking to him any longer would just break me down. I was actually putting up a front. Of course I was angry, but I was more depressed. I was completely gutted.

"Sorry, but we need to film now," Ran insisted.

I nodded politely and glared at Ikuto as I followed Ran to where we had to film. I knew the lines quite well this time so I was sure it wouldn't be as bad as the last time. I took a deep breath trying to build up my confidence. Then they started filming. Ikuto was the first one to speak.

"I know that I've said bad things about you. But I don't like her. I like you. Can't you understand that?" he asked.

It was like this wasn't an act but reality. So I let reality take over me. I looked away folding my arms.

"I can't. And she's my best friend. Can't you understand that?"

Though the bit about her being my best friend was definitely no way near true. Ikuto shook his head as he put his hands on my shoulders.

"It doesn't matter. I'm learning to fall, I can't hardly breathe without you," he said.

I scrutinized him. What the heck.

"That wasn't in the script!"

He nodded, "I know."

And then he kissed me, but not on the cheek like he was supposed to, but on the mouth. It wasn't like the kiss on the rooftop. This was much more fiery and passionate. It felt like he would never see me again. He had pushed me up against the wall and his hands played with my hair. At first, I was stunned and had no idea how to react. But the tears were now falling. He pulled away and looked at me at my tear stained eyes. He stepped back as his face turned back to a depressed look.

"I'm sorry for everything. I didn't mean to do that either," he paused, "No I did. Amu, when I sing my song at the Xmas Dance I want you to listen to it very carefully. As it is for you."

That was the second time he had kissed me in the last two days. But of course there was a difference. I nodded not saying anything else. We then noticed we had an audience. The cameraman bent down to talk to Ran.

"What should we do? Retake it?" he asked.

Ran shook her head, "No. Keep it."

He nodded as we walked off the set. Ikuto smiled at me before he walked away and out of the studio doors. I was now very intrigued to hear the song he was going to sing. The Xmas Dance was only a few days away after all.

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Thank god Amu's realised. I've been annoyed myself at how long she took. Hehe. The next chapter will probably be the Xmas Dance so look forward to it!

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