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Bunnee

For some reason, my obedient to Sebastian voice inside my head has begun to scream again. At first, the was a dream, where I knelt before Sebastian, paying attention to every word he says, worshiping him, referring to him as "master". I was sickened by it. Now the dream has seeped its way into my life. I'm training, the voice is saying, "Run away, Run away, Sebastian will cherish you. To love is to destroy, all you find is love here. Run away."

Wow, I think, The voice is right. I mean that if to love is to destroy, and all there is here is love, why stay and be destroyed? I'm walking at a brisk pace now, practically running, toward the door. As I open the door I come to my senses, and I do the normal stuff to get rid of the voice thats egging me on to leave and go to Sebastian. I feel like I'm going to rip in half. I repeat my mantras for this, "You're wrong, Sebastian's evil, love is amazing, and I belong here." Then I say the names of everyone I must stay for, "Caleb, Clary, Simon, Alec, Violet, Moth, Izzy, (believe it or not) Jace." over and over. The voice doesn't go away, my head pounding as if the voice is try to pound its way out of my skull. I sink to the floor, head throbbing. Thump, thump, run away, run away, to love is to destroy, Sebastian. The message repeating, getting louder as I repeat my defense. Eventually the voice gets so loud its screaming, and I do the same. I can only imagine what people think when they see me on the floor rocking back and forth, holding my head and screaming at the top of my lungs. I feel someone kneel behind me and whisper, "I'm here, Bunnee, its your voice, just a different one, control it." Its Jace. Of all people he's the one that probably most thinks that I'm poison in the veins of Shadowhunter society, and he's helping me. I do as he says, making the voice fade. I look up and I see his golden eyes, I've never looked at him, I mean his eyes before, they look like they could be pools of molten gold, and I swear that the irises move like it.

"Thank you." I whisper.

Jace just nods his head in acknowledgment.

"So now that you've made a scene wanna go to Taki's?" Jace offers. "But you're payin'"

When we get a table at Taki's, after we order. Jace immediately says, "What's going on with you? You haven't had much of a freak out since you came back from captivity."

"I really don't know."

"I believe that Sebastian can control demons, as Valentine did, maybe its your demon side acting up?"

"But the thing is, I've been part demon since birth, why the break? Maybe I can turn the demon in me on and off. Like a volcano, the demon will be dormant for a time then, BAM! I make a bad decision and my life sucks. Today, I almost went willingly to Sebastian and I thought it was the right thing to do."

It is the right thing. The voice says. Shut up. I retort.

"Jesus Bunnee, your eyes."

I look in the reflectiion of me in a spoon and believe it or not, my eyes are completely black. Then, I make a huge mistake, I look at some werewolves. They all get up and they sprint at me, wolf enough to have claws and teeth. Where's Jace? I wonder as they are finally on top of me, scratching me down my chest, on my face. "Please, don't kill me, I'm a shadowhunter please." But as soon as I say those words, my fear is gone, and I feel super charged, wired. I slug a werewolve in the jaw, harder than any human could, and I take a silver knife and plunge it into its chest. I attack the others with the same manner, killing them. Then the entire diner erupts into chaos. The cowards, sit in a corner screaming, and the brave ones who think they could have a chance against me are in a line to die. I laugh a laugh that is inhuman, but I don't care, these downworlders deserve it. I take a kick at a vampire. He goes flying across the room, and hits the wall, leaving an indent.

"Bunnee! This isn't you! He's controlling you!" Someone yells.

"No ones controlling me, my master Sebastian has helped me greatly, given me this power."

Then, I look across the room and I see a guy, with golden eyes. I can literally feel my eyes snap to normal. What have I done? How many people have I killed? I see the 15 bodies on the floor. I did this? I'm a monster. I run out, not looking up as I sprint as if the devil's chasing me. I run into something, someone. Jace, grabs me by the shoulders firmly.

"Bunnee, look, you are very special, you are no monster. You're only part monster."

Then, over taken by grief, I hug Jace, and you know the what the surprising part is? Jace hugs me back.

"Come on Bunnee, lets head back to the institute, we need to talk to everyone."

With that, Jace walks and I stumble, toward the Institute.

"Bunnee what have you done?" Proclaims Izzy.

As if I'm not ashamed enough.

"Hey, she's not a monster." Argues Alec.

"She looks like one to me!"

"Guys I don't know what happened. I was a different person. I have no recollection of what happened."

"Let me tell you what happened, YOU KILL 15 DOWNWORLDERS." Yells Izzy.

"Cut her some slack, Issabelle. She can't help what she is." Says Alec.

The was a punch to the gut.

"Alec, you're saying I AM a monster. I know what every one of you think of me now and maybe I should just leave."

Silence. No one confirms or denies that I'm a monster. Except, Jace. He speaks up and says, "She is still the same Bunnee we know. She was part demon when we first saw her, did you think she was a monster when you saved her from Sebastian? I don't think a monster would bear all the pain that she did when Sebastian, starved, cut, drowned and did unspeakable things to her, to get inside information, but she never said anything. Would a monster do that?"

Silence.

"Thank you, Jace." I whisper.

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