Hi so here is another chapter, i apologise for the delay but I've had exams and work and have just finished a marathon of Grey's from Season 1 to Season 11 which was emotionally exhausting. But here is another chapter.

This finally concludes are arc on the shooting except for one more episode, the next chapter deals more with Hugo returning to himself. He's had his huge emotional release and now he and Jackson can move on.

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I am going on holiday soon but my goal is to post at least two more chapters before that so fingers crossed.

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Little Lion Man

Chapter 25-7x05-Almost Grown

Jackson's deep in someone's brain, the house find out about a film crew coming to the hospital in the upcoming weeks and Hugo's sleeping issues get worse leading to a full confrontation between father and son for the first time since the shooting.

The peace of the morning breakfast (for once they all had a day that started at eight AM and therefore could sit down and actually eat something) was ruined approximately three minutes in by the slamming of the front door.

This simple task did nothing to dispel the terror that seemed to sweep across the room when the door slammed open. Alex jumped in his seat, Lexie practically inhaled half of her coffee, April screamed softly by the sink and Hugo who had been sat next to Jackson twirling his spoon in his cereal sat up hand coming up his head as Cristina Yang whirled her way into the kitchen her usual expression nowadays consisting of a mixture of fear and anger.

"You won't believe what the Chief is doing next week" she said rolling her eyes and grabbing the coffee pot. She seemed not to understand that she'd almost given the residents of the house near heart failures and Hugo dropped his eyes back down to his bowl. It had been another restless night for him and he was sick of it, it wasn't so much the nightmares now more to do with the insomnia and most of the time he spent staring at the ceiling wishing that he could fall asleep.

He chewed his lip carefully. He doubted anything Cristina could tell him would interest him. There were no cool surgeries, no more trauma recommendations, everyone was cleared to cut again. It was only the little things like the lot of them jumping whenever a door slammed and whenever the TV was on loud or the rain was too heavy that sent their minds back to that day.

It was never discussed.

"What the hell are they throwing at us now?" Alex groaned chomping down on another piece of toast.

"They want to film us" Cristina said with the relish that came with something exciting to talk about. Hugo dropped his spoon.

"Film?" he asked catching everyone's attention. "They wanna film us? For what? What did we do?"

There was an awkward pause.

"We lived"Alex said looking furious. "This is just gonna mess everything up what in depth interviews about the shooting and how it had an effect on us and all sorts of crap" he rolled his eyes before storming out.

Cristina watched him for a second before shaking her head. "We should have died that day" she said finally before grabbing her coffee. "This is pointless"

Hugo watched her carefully before his eyes drifted back to the food in front of him. He was so tired that all he wanted to do was sleep. But when he slept the nightmares just seemed to hit him again and again each time like the last.

Despite all the attention on the film the residents were quickly stunned into silence when they realised that they were being given the chance to for a day at least to act like Attending's.

"Wow" April said turning her head from side to side and looking at her navy scrubs in the mirror. "This is bittersweet" she turned to Jackson. "It's almost a tease for things to come, we've earned so much but so little" she shook her head as Jackson followed her out into the hallway to collect this morning's charts.

"Hey is Hugo ok?" she asked him carefully brushing back her red hair.

"Yeah why?" Jackson asked watching her. There was a reason why April was asking what she was. Whatever the reason April was the main one in the house who seemed to not struggle with the boundaries that came to Hugo. Alex and Meredith seemed to tolerate Hugo but seemed to struggle to connect with him and vice versa. Lexie was friendly but then again she was friendly to everyone and Derek Shepherd liked Hugo and was possibly fond of him but it wasn't like the two of them spent their time talking.

April shrugged. "I hear him sometimes" she explained. "In the middle of the night, most of the time he's watching TV but there are hours where he walks up and down the stairs like he's trying to tire himself out"

She stared at him and Jackson blinked because…really he didn't understand how April had figured it out. He had been worried about Hugo since the beginning regardless of how but in truth he didn't know how to broach the subject. Hugo was stubborn of that Jackson was well aware and he didn't admit weakness to himself even when it affected his heath. It didn't exactly make life very easy for Jackson in the long run.

"He…I think he has insomnia" he confessed to April who nodded. "I take it speaking to him about it doesn't help even before the shooting?" Jackson shrugged running a hand over his face as April ignored Karev's jab and followed him down the hallway.

"I think he had it before" he confessed. "I think he's always had trouble sleeping but the shooting…" April nodded as he trailed off. "I get it" she said closing her eyes for a brief second. "I have some nights where I wake up screaming and in a blind panic, God knows what he must go through being so young…but what are you gonna do Jackson? He cannot keep going the way he's going you saw him this morning he's half dead on his feet, yesterday even Alex asked me if he was ok." She rolled her eyes as if to emphasis her point.

"He won't want to listen to me I'm his Dad" Jackson pointed out. "If I'm right and it's insomnia then I can either force him to take a sleeping pill, put him to bed for a twenty four hours and see if that helps or…"

"You can wait till it catches up with him and then have him committed like Lexie? Yeah I can see which one is the shitter option" April said nodding along. Cristina Yang passed them then heavily banging into April her head down.

"Sometimes she infuriates me…" April said shaking her head. "And then…"

"Then you see her operating with a gun to her head" Jackson said carefully.

"I'll keep an eye out when Hugo comes in after school" April said as they reached the end of the hallway.

"Thanks"

The majority of the day was spent with battling it out with Meredith over who got to scrub in on a solo surgery. Jackson wasn't a big fan of Nuro. Well he didn't have a choice but he had to admit brain surgery wasn't bad. Especially not when he finally beat out the wife to get the top spot.

And then brilliantly he fucked it up.

Some Avery he was. He had to be better than every resident, he had to prove he was deserving in the same way that Meredith Grey had to because when you had a name you had to prove it. You had to prove you were more than your parents or in his case your grandfather.

The Grey's had won again because while Derek Shepherd was cleaning up his mistake, Meredith Grey had done an open craniotomy by herself.

Somehow it was worse when he was being hugged by the nice woman whose long-time girlfriend's brain surgery he had just fucked up.

Perhaps Shepherd knew what he was thinking when he was standing in the room but he jerked his head towards the door and Jackson took it as a grateful means to an escape.

Hugo was sat in the waiting room leaning against his arm curled up into a position that might had been cute had Jackson not been so worried about him.

"Come with me" Jackson said grabbing him by the elbow and Hugo followed him without a fight. That should have been the first warning. The fact that Hugo looked dead on his feet was also a sign and Jackson dragged him into the first on call room that didn't have anyone in it which for once was a first.

"You haven't slept in God knows how long and if you don't tell me why I'm gonna bodily check you into a bed and force sleeping drugs into your system 'First Do No Harm' be damned"

Hugo watched him his eyes dull and lifeless from under the huge purple bags that seemed to be decorating them. He shrugged.

"Is it the shooting?" Jackson pressed. "Is it the nightmares? Come on kiddo you and me we've never had secrets before" he dropped his voice down an octave as Hugo ran the sleeve of his shirt under his nose.

"Hugo" he said again when he got no answer.

"I see you die" Hugo said finally eyes avoiding everywhere.

"I see you die" he continued before Jackson could finish speaking. "Everytime I look at you I see you die, and everytime I close my eyes I see you die in that OR which let's face reality that day was probable. And it would have been my fault because I was in the elevator with that shooter less than an hour before that and I told him you were a surgeon" he shook his head words tumbling out with next to no stopping them.

"So I don't sleep when you're at work because then I don't have to see you die or that was the plan until I realised that nearly a month of no sleep didn't work well so then I tried to sleep and I saw you die and then of course what's left? Hmm? Even when were in our house I hear a noise and I think it's someone coming in the door with a loaded handgun. God" he shook his head and when next he spoke he realised

"So no I don't sleep. I don't sleep at night, and I don't sleep during the day either because there's a choice between either losing sleep and knowing that your alive or falling asleep and seeing you die in that freaking operating room"

There was a split second after Hugo had finished before his face crumpled and his body seemed to curl in on itself and Jackson realised still staggered from what he was hearing that the last month had finally caught up with him.

"Come here" he said and Hugo thankfully moved into his arms curling around him and again with a horrible painful clarity Jackson realised that this was the first proper hug between him and his son since the shooting when they had clung together unsure of how they'd survived this far.

"Why didn't you tell me?" he asked under his breath.

Hugo shrugged looking so undeniably tired that Jackson's heart broke.

"I want to sleep and I don't want to see you dying when I do. I want to sleep and not wake up in cold sweats and I want to know when you go out to work your'll come back alive and I cannot do that when you're here all the time and I love you and your all I have left"

And with that he finally broke shoulders shaking.

Jackson buried his face into the dark hair in front of him because the fact that he and his son…that he and his real whole fucking world were alive despite everything was pretty fucking incredible. Despite everything the two of them were alive and despite Charles and Reed and all the other deaths surrounding them, despite Cristina's collapse and Meredith's miscarriage they had managed to survive and that was pretty incredible.

It was some time later that they broke apart. Both of theirs eyes were suspiciously red but it didn't seem to matter to the other very much and they steadfastly ignored it.

It was some time later that Jackson finally managed to get Hugo to his car, back home to the thankfully deserted house and into bed.

It was a long time later that Hugo slipped into Jackson's bed like he'd done when he was little, depending on his Dad for comfort even in the most trying of times.

It was a long time later when Hugo Avery finally fell into a somewhat restless but nonetheless deep sleep.

And it was a long time later when April Kepner shushed Alex Karev from making to much noise because father and son were both fast asleep.

Next Chapter-7x06-These Arms Of Mine-In which a film crew films the residents, Hugo, Jackson and April are all on film and life slowly but surely for the three of them starts to get back on track.