A/N Still don't own Divergent, just my idea
They order food from the waitress. They talk about little things Tobias trying to avoid talk about visiting her family at their graves for the first time since the funeral. They finish lunch and they walk back to the car. He drives to a quiet park that he knows by the lake. He stops the car and runs quickly around to the other side to open the door for her. He takes her hand and walks her to a quiet pavilion deep into the park and leads her to a bench. Finally he decides its time he brings it up it would be healthy for her to talk about it.
"I know earlier was hard on you, but do you want to talk about it?"
She takes a deep breath willing herself not to cry because she feels like ever since she met Tobias she's been a crying mess.
"It was hard. The day of the funeral was the last time I saw them in any capacity outside of the pictures I hid, or my memories. I asked Peter so many times the first year and half can I go see them, but every time he always told me no they were dead there's no point. As time went on and I asked he would hit me and tell me to forget my family he is all that matters. Going there was so hard because I always carry the guilt that I am the cause of their death. I felt like I killed them, and then forgot them."
She took a deep breath. "I just wanted them to be proud of the person I became. I know I failed them by becoming who I am now. How could they be proud of me when I am a horrible, weak person, I let someone abuse me for years."
Tobias at this point can't take it anymore he can't take hearing her beat herself up about things that are not her fault. He wraps both his hands around her cheeks and presses his forehead to hers
"Listen to me your therapist, and I have told you before that your parents and brother dying was not your fault. You were not driving that other car; you not getting there on time did not cause them to die. That drunk driver who plowed into their car is the reason they aren't here. Your family would not want to see you beating yourself up over this. They would understand that you couldn't come to see them because it was beyond your control. You always thought about them and carried them in your heart so you could not forget them. They would not be ashamed of you because you were trapped in a terrible relationship. They are looking down on you always."
He looks at her and sees that her eyes flutter closed. He presses his lips to her forehead
"And for you to being a weak, horrible, person that cannot even be possible."
He moves one of his hands to caress her hair. "You are the most amazing, loving, talented woman I have ever met. I am so honored that I have gotten to meet you, and be part of your life."
He looks down at her and sees her head tilted slightly lips parted. He groans outwardly.
She looks at him her eyes partly opening. "What?"
"Tris you looking like this right now makes it so hard to just be friends with you. It takes a lot of will power to stop myself, but you are worth it."
She reaches up to him and kisses his cheek. "I don't know how I got so lucky to have met you. Thank You for being there for me and helping me."
"Come on"
He takes her by the hand. "You need to go home and rest if you want to go out tonight."
They go back home Tris goes into her bedroom to get some sleep. He told her he is going down to the station to talk to Zeke today they DA was supposed to get the evidence for the cases against Peter, and Eric and see what they are charging them with."
He drives to the station and walks in and sees Zeke at his desk.
"So what did the DA say about Tris's case."
"Hello to you too! They are charging peter with 8 counts of rape, 4 counts of assault and battery, 10 counts of aggravated assault, 12 counts of domestic abuse, and one count of Voluntary Manslaughter against the unborn fetus. Eric is being charged with one count of assault and battery, and one count of aggravated assault. They are going to be processing the charges and they should both be placed under arrest in the next two days.
"The DA said after Peter has been placed under arrest and a court date has been set they will need to speak to her, and have her testify against both of them. They will be filing restraining orders against both Peter and Eric for Tris so that need to stay at least 500 feet away from her at all times. "
"How is she holding up?"
"She has her good and bad moments."
"Zeke can we talk somewhere else out of away from here it's personal."
"Sure man, let's go and get some Starbucks."
They walk towards Starbucks neither of them saying much to the other in till they sit down.
"Spill it what is bothering you? All the years I have known you. I have never heard you say you need to talk. Four you are the most stoic person I know. "
Four takes a deep breath and looks at Zeke. "Its Tris I am in love with her."
"Four my man that was not hard to see, you are my best friend I knew it since the first night you met her."
He then proceeds to tell him about her asking him to sleep with her the night before, how he comforted her, and then finally the kiss."
"What am I supposed to do it is so hard being near her and just being friends with her? The second I kissed I knew everything changed. I will not have her move out. One because she doesn't have anywhere to go, second I can't bear the thought of already not being near and getting to see her every day."
"The only advice I can tell you is take it very slow with her show her there's nothing to be scared of. You can work your way up with her by doing everything slowly. If you love this girl as much as you say you do then time is of the essence and patience. You have to have her comfortable, and trust you first. If you rush her in any way you will lose her probably forever. None of us know what it's like to be abused we can't relate that's why those groups are so important for her to show she isn't alone in this."
"Thank Zeke that helped me a lot."
Tobias as he is leaving realizes he need to tell Tris about his past maybe if he shares his past with her she will become a little bit less scared of him.
He comes back to the house ready to tell Tris about his past and what happen to him as a child. He sees her sitting on the couch watching T.V.
"Hi Tris."
"Can we talk?"
Automatically her mind drifts to the worst thinking he is kicking her out of the apartment, because she couldn't be with him. She starts freaking out where will she go."
"Tris, before you get start getting scared this is nothing about you. I realized that you probably feel like no can understand what you been through, but I can to a point.
He turns to look at her. "I know I told you my parents are together and you saw some of the pictures up of my family. The thing is the man I call my father isn't my biological father he is my step-father Max. Marlene and I don't think of our step-father as someone who isn't our father. He has been in our lives as long as we can remember in some capacity. My real father Marcus was a horrible human being my earliest memory of him was hitting my mother. I remember one time he threw my mother against the wall just punched her over and over again. When I turned about four he would start to hit me at first it was on occasion, but then it got worst. When my mother would be at work he would beat me with a belt and then lock me in the closet with no food or water for hours. About a year after he started abusing me he started to hit Marlene the only difference is he didn't lock her in the closet he would just lock her in her room with no food or water. It happened to me for about 4 years in till my mother saved up enough money and was able to get us out of there. At that point she had met Max who she knew before she married Marcus. We had moved in with him just because we didn't have anywhere to go eventually they got married. I just telling you all this because I understand what it's like to have nightmares of being abused, believing it's your fault."
He looks at her wondering if he should show her his back that is now slowly becoming covered with the outline of the tattoo and is slowly becoming colored and shaded.
"It took me a long time to get over the abuse and the scars that it left. I promise you that it will get better the nightmares will go away maybe they will come back sometimes, but they won't haunt your dreams every night. I have something to show you."
He slowly takes off his shirt and turns around to show her the scars that have been on back since he was a child. On the top across his shoulders is the words Fear God Alone in the middle of his back is a dragon rising from the flames, and ashes that covers the bottom half of his back and lick across the sides to his ribs. Tris lifts her hand and touches his back and sees the scars that have haunted him for years.
She turns around and looks at him with a new understanding almost if he understands her now more than he has ever had before.
He whispers "I want you to know no one outside of my family has ever known about what has happened to me when I was younger, or seen my back. I knew you were special and would understand."
Tris leans in and wraps her arms around him hugging him. She whispers into his ear "I am so sorry that you went through that. No child deserves for that to happen to them. She touches his cheek and whispers
"This has made you such a stronger person because of that. I wish I could meet Marcus and tell him he never deserved to have someone like you as their son."
He looks at her not able to believe it's possible to love this girl more than at this moment. He tells her his deepest darkest secrets and she apologizes for what he's been through. Her story of abuse is far worse than his and yet she is comforting him.
She angles her face upwards and slowly so slowly bring her mouth to his and kisses him lightly before she pulls away.
"I am going to go shower and get ready for tonight."
A/N SORRY GUYS IF THIS CHAPTER IS AWFUL IT LITTERALLY TOOK ME HOURS TO WRITE BECAUSE I COULDN'T FOCUS. I AM NOT REALLY HAPPY WITH IT AND MAYBE ONE DAY I WIL REVISE IT. I HOPE YOU ENJOY. I WILL TRY TO UPDATE ONE MORE TIME THIS WEEK. I CAN NOT PROMISE WE WILL SEE IF INSPIRATION STRIKES. THIS CHAPTER JUST KILLED ME. I WILL DEFINTELY NOT BE UPDATING THIS WEEKEND IT IS MY BIRTHDAY FRIDAY SO I AM CELEBRATING ON FRIDAY, SAT, AND HAVE A BRIDAL SHOWER ON SUN
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