If I Never Knew You
By: John Secada Feat. Shanice
If I never knew you
If I never felt this love
I would have no inkling of
How precious life can be
And, if I never held you
I would never have a clue
How, at last, I'd find in you
The missing part of me
"Kai-kun try it!"
Kai grunted. He was not trying the snow. He watched as she ate it. The snow continued to fall around them; he rolled his eyes.
"Tsuki, you're not supposed to eat that."
"Why?"
"Because…"
He looked into her big innocent crimson orbs and smirked. He scooped a piece of snow onto his fingers and ate it. Tsuki smiled at him.
"See? It's good!"
"It taste like water."
Tsuki ignored him and put another handful into her mouth. Kai chuckled, she was a strange girl; but she was his strange girl.
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In this world so full of fear
Full of rage and lies
I can see the truth so clear
In your eyes; so dry your eyes
It was the middle of the night. The storm continued to rage on; its own battle ensuing in the dark night sky. Kai cracked open one eye. Tsuki stood in front of his bed, a pout on her face.
"What Tsuki?"
"I'm scared…"
"Of what?"
"Listen…"
A loud sound of Boom could be heard, Kai smirked; she was scared of the thunder. She could fight 'evils' but couldn't stand harmless thunder? Kai shook his head.
"Tsuki, its just thunder, go back to bed."
"No…can I stay with you?"
Kai stared at her and sighed; he was going to regret this in the morning. He scooted a bit and indicated for her to hop in. Tsuki smiled and did just that. She snuggled up to Kai.
"Kai-kun?"
"Hmmm…"
"Will it eat us?"
Kai stared at her and wrapped his arms around her in comfort.
"No…now go to sleep."
"Okay…night Kai-kun."
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And I'm so grateful to you
I'd have lived my whole life through
Lost forever
If I never knew you
"Come on Kai-kun!"
Tsuki giggled as she ran towards the swings. She always wanted to try those and Kai promised that he'd take her to the park to try them. She situated herself on the swings and began to push herself just as the smaller children did so. Kai smirked and came round the back and gave her a gentle push.
"This is so fun Kai-kun! You should try!"
Kai snorted. Yeah right. He wouldn't be caught dead swinging. He gave that up a long time ago…like when he was seven!
Tsuki jumped off and grabbed Kai's hand and pushed him onto the swing; then she went around back and began pushing him. Kai raised a brow.
"Tsuki, I am not swinging."
"Please Kai-kun?!"
Kai stared at her. He was not going to fall for the pout. Nuh-uh! No way…Damn. Kai rolled his eyes and let her push him. She had won.
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If I never knew you
I'd be safe, but half as real
Never knowing I could feel
A love so strong and true
I'm so grateful to you
I'd have lived my whole life through
Lost forever If I never knew you
Tsuki giggled as Tala got hit in the face by a snowball; they were all having a snowball war: Bryan, Tala, Johnny, Renée, Aya, and Tsuki. Kai stood on the sidelines watching. They were so childish.
"Kai! Come on!"
Kai grunted at Tala. Hell no! He was in high school for crying out loud! They were going to be seniors next year! They shouldn't be playing like five year olds!
Tala rolled his eyes and looked among his friends; his eyes landed on Tsuki. He walked up to the girl and whispered something in her ear. Tsuki nodded her head vigorously and walked up to Kai.
"Kai-kun?"
"Hn."
"Come play with us!"
"No."
"Why?"
Tsuki cocked her head to one side and gave him a pout. Kai glared at Tala who smirked. That bastard! How could he?! The saying was true: 'you're closest friends could be the worst enemies.' He scowled but sighed. He just couldn't say 'no' to the girl. He nodded his head causing Tsuki to smile; she grabbed his hand and dragged him towards the others.
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I thought our love would be so beautiful
Somehow, we'd make the whole world bright
I never knew that fear and hate could be so strong
All they'd leave us were these whispers in the night
And, still, my heart is saying we were right
Oh, oh
Kai broke the kiss. He stared at Tsuki. He shouldn't have done that. But he couldn't help it. He could feel his heart beating against his chest. He had never felt like that before, not even with Aya. What was this feeling?
Tsuki looked at Kai, confused. She could see the emotions playing in his face. She brought her hand towards his face and caressed his cheek. He turned towards her.
"Tsuki…"
Kai closed the gap again. This was right.
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If I never knew you
(There's no moment I regret)
If I never knew your love
(Since the moment that we met)
I would have no inkling of
(If our time has gone too fast)
How precious life can be
(I've lived at last)
Kai opened his eyes.
"Where am I?"
He was in his room. He must have fallen asleep…It was just a dream.
"Kai-kun."
Kai froze. He slowly turned. She was there, standing in front of him, smiling.
"Tsuki?"
Tsuki smiled and nodded.
"Come on Kai-kun!"
She extended her hand towards him, still smiling that infectious smile. Kai smiled a genuine smile and grabbed hold of her smaller hand. She was there.
"Tsuki I…"
Tsuki pressed a finger up against his lips to silent him. She took hold of his hand and dragged him.
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"Look Kai-kun!"
Kai smirked, they were at the park…it was spring. The flowers were blossoming. Tsuki ran around trying to catch the butterflies. She stopped shortly and turned to him and smiled.
"I have to go now Kai-kun."
"What?!"
Kai looked at her. She couldn't leave, not yet, not now. Tsuki turned and began to walk away.
"TSUKI!"
She turned and smiled at him. She began to disappear just as she did that day. Kai outstretched his arm towards her, but slowly dropped it. She really was gone.
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I thought our love would be so beautiful (so beautiful)
Somehow, we'd make the whole world bright
I thought our love would be so beautiful
We'd turn the darkness into light
And, still, my heart is saying we were right
We were right
Kai opened his eyes. The sun shown brightly through his opened window. He looked towards it. Birds were chirping. Kai pulled the covers off him and slowly got up. It was just a dream. He let a small smile come onto his saddened features. It had felt so real. It had almost been four months since she left, and every single day, he never stopped thinking about her. He thought, maybe when he woke up, she'd still be there smiling at him. He missed her. Kai turned to leave but the small faint sound of 'Kai-kun' stopped him. He looked out his opened window. He smirked; he was imagining things…she was gone, but not really. She was gone physically, but she'll always be there, he'd never forget what she made him remember; what she helped him realize. Kai watched as the sun rose; it was the dawn of a new day, not the end. 'Thanks Tsuki…for everything…'
And, if I never knew you (if I never knew you)
I'd have lived my whole life through
Empty as the sky
Never knowing why
Lost forever
If I never knew you…
-The End-
TK: I decided to do a song fic for the end. I hope you like!!! Thanks to all those who read, like I've said before, this fic was so much fun to write...I'm kinda sad that it had to end...and with such a devastating ending as well! I know you lot are probably glaring holes at me and are planning to hunt me down to murder me and dump my body in some unknown place! I'm sorry...but I felt it had to be done...terribly sorry -smiles nervously-
Don't forget to review to tell me how the fic was overall. If it was good, if it was bad...if it was bad I have no idea why you read it...it just confuzzles me...yes, i said or wrote, confuzzles. So anyway, I hope you liked it and of course... THE SONG IS NOT MINE! Thanks again for reading and reviewing! Now I have to go and complete my other fics!!!! Check them out and see if you like any of them! (I just totally advertised...shame on me...lol)