Chapter 25

Night Visits part 2

An: Yoda talking

yes you read right Yoda is in this one.

Ezra's pov

With Kanan leaving,giving me a look like he was worried what I would find he shut the door but I could tell he was just outside the door, hoped he didn't have to explain himself to Captain Mother Hen or should I say Captain Hera, that would not be a pretty sight. Chuckling a little with the thought of Kanan being yelled at by Hera I got down to the task of which I had sent him out of the room for, contacting my parents.

In a way I hoped they were not there because if they were there that means that Travis was right and they are gone...but also if they are there it could mean I could talk to them anytime I want or maybe they could be in my head and I am only imagining what they would say if they were there and they are alive somewhere. Tseebo knew what happened to them and I know he told Hera about them, one day when I am ready I will ask what he said but not yet.

Right now I am so confused about what I want but whether that was from the snake bite or seeing my parents again like this, I wasn't sure...because also I wasn't sure I wanted their answer about the question I wanted to ask them. I mean what if it isn't what I want to hear but then I think that my parents would never do that to me.

"Karabast my head hurts" I thought as I closed my eyes.

"Calm my son, we are here" said a voice.

I open my eyes and see my parents, they looked like ghosts but different...a mist of blue aura surrounded them and their bodies looked transparent, but still they were my parents. My parents, as a tear falls then another then another as I realize what this means, they are one with the force, they are dead. My heart is breaking into a million pieces.

"Son we maybe dead or we may not be, one day when you are ready you will know but either way we will never be gone. We live within your heart and the hearts of all that remember us. We even have a place in the hearts of your new family as they learn more about us through you"said my mother Mira.

That reminded me of what I was contacting them for, I would worry about whether they were dead or not another time. I dried my eyes and took a breath then said "that's what I wanted to talk to you about...mom, dad I have feelings about my Jedi master Kanan".

"What kind of feelings Ezra?"asked my dad.

"The kind of feelings that I don't think I should have. For a long time now I have been thinking of Kanan as more than just my master, I think of him as kind of my dad and even now I am starting to think of Hera as kind of my mother and I think I would like to call them mum and dad, but I need to know if that is okay with you to call them that when I am ready to say it? I know I need to ask them to if that is okay by them but I wont call them that if it is not okay with you or them " I answered,words running out of my mouth in a confused jumble to get what I mean over to my parents and to let them know I wan't replacing them either.

"Ezra,do I have to remind you that you need to stand up for what you believe in, who will if you don't. Son only you can answer your question but you should know that what ever you decide, when you decide, we will love you, always. You just need to take the first steps"said my mother, making want to hug her but I know I can't.

Kanan's pov

I felt it through the door, the moment when Ezra started use to force. I wondered whether he had made contact with his parents or not,if he did I wonder what he is talking to them about and what they are telling him. I know what I would tell him if I knew what the question was but I am optimistic that he will find the answer he is looking for.

"listening on your apprentice's vision are you? learned nothing from your time at the temple"

"Master Yoda I am not listening, just don't want to leave him alone too long and what do you mean by my time at the temple? I learned plenty there"I said in a little huff, of course the little green man would check on us now.

"Remember the time just before you were apprenticed to Billiba what kind of youngling you were, do you?" Yoda sent.

I did remember, I was trouble in the classroom not focusing on what I should. That was a big problem when it came to getting my light saber crystal. Master Kenobi took us to ilum to get our crystals as always I wasn't listening to what he was saying about the chamber closing over with ice if we didn't make it in time, I was only thinking of the saber that I would build with the crystal I was going to get and it nearly cost me my life. In the end Master Kenobi got me out and I was punished for it, I never did that again. Maybe I should let up on Ezra sometimes.

"Deep bond you feel for your padawan...deeper than when you were at the temple on Lothal, deeper bond I have not felt in a long time. New type of Jedi I believe you both will be, not like the Jedi of old"he sent me now.

"Master I..."I started to say then stopped, unsure of how to voice what I wanted to say about how I felt about Ezra or even what he meant about a new type of Jedi.

"Worried are you? afraid of your feelings, scared to tell your padawan about your bond to him you are. Afraid of what it might lead to if something should happen to either one of you"

"I am,not because of Ezra, I know he needs what I can give him. He has been alone for most of his life and now he has us...me, and what I have leant of his life before coming to me...he was lucky to survive it but I don't know if I should let it get deeper than that. What if something happens to me? I just don't know how he will handle that" I said feeling better now I had got that out of my system.

"Remind me of another master you do".

"Who Master Yoda?" I asked, I didn't know who I would remind him of but then he has lived hundreds of years longer than me and has known many Jedi.

"Qui - Gon Jinn, next generation you are".

"I am not him, I could never be him" I said, not liking the reference to the Jedi master that was the master to one of the most famous Jedi of all time.

"No but like him you are. Qui - Gon was describe by many as a Jedi maverick who angered the Jedi council a lot with both his words and actions but by me I saw him as the ideal Jedi. A Jedi that walked both the light and the Dark, just as you do. Question not your feelings for your apprentice, let the answer come, padawan will understand but do you".

"I understand master"I said as I felt the master's presence fade away.

Suddenly I felt my padawan in the med bay room finish his talk or what ever he was doing in there. I wonder whether it was safe to go back in there, I didn't want Hera to come around the corner and see me here out of the room, that would not be advisable to my health, I might even end up in there beside my padawan.

"Kanan can you come back in here, there is something I would like to tell you"said Ezra through the bond we shared.

I walked back into the room to see Ezra sitting up and looking better than he had in a while. His talk to his parents must have helped him decide something. Of what I had know idea but if it had my padawan recovering faster then I was all for it.

"Kanan you know how I feel about you and Hera, that you are like my parents. So much so that I sometimes almost call you dad and mum but I am not ready yet to say those words and mean what they say. One day maybe but not yet"Ezra said looking down, his bluish-raven hair covering his what I was sure was a blushing face.

"Ezra look at me" and when he did I continued "Ezra whether you call me father now or someday in the future, it will not and cannot change the feeling I have for you. I care a lot about you my son"

As soon as I finish I see him smile, a real smile, not a smurk or a smile that smile that doesn't touch his eyes but a smile that touched his heart. A smile I am sure he has not smiled in a long time, not since his parents were taken away.

And with that smile I feel that the black spot and the darkness that was threatening Ezra for so long dissolve to the point where I believe he will soon recover from all that has hurt him in the past. Ezra is ready and so am I to move on.

An: sorry for the wait,re - wrote this many times. Rebels is back on the 20th,how awesome is that? and I hope this is what you wanted specter 13 more next time, happy new rebels new year everyone.