Raven's apartment;
The thing Raven loves the most is that she gets to come back home with Anya even if they have been doing it for weeks now, if not to her apartment to Anya's. But what she has not experienced yet is going home and find Anya waiting for her with a home cooked meal.
Anya in the other hand loves Raven's smiles, either the tired one she gives her after sex or the naughty one she exclusively has at work to tease her, or the one she has sometimes when she catches her staring at her or again the one she has whenever she tastes something she likes. Anya smiles unconsciously every time she sees one of her smiles.
"That's so good" Raven moans after taking the first bite.
"I thought you had dinner with Finn" Anya says confused but happy that Raven is enjoying her cooking.
"I was too busy talking to eat anything"
"And that's a good thing, right?" Anya asks curious to know more about Raven's dinner with Finn.
"I don't know, maybe?" Raven answers not really sure about what happened because it is nothing Anya and Lexa are expecting.
Anya frowns "Did he tell you where he's going to go or what he's going to do with his life?"
Raven stops eating and sighs "I think we should respect and trust him for once, Anya. Whatever he has in mind is fine with me, he's a grown ass man. He can take his own decisions"
"I know but he doesn't act like one" Anya disagrees.
"See! That's why he's leaving. He knows whatever he's going to do here, it will never be not enough. Whether he's trying to do something for his future or he's trying to redeem himself, it's always not the right way just because he screwed up and went to the Middle East…that's behind him, we should trust him for once"
"So you're ready to let him go just like that?" Anya asks.
"Yes, if that's what it takes to know that he's happy and he-"
"Being alone is not happiness, Raven" Anya interjects.
"I know but he needs some space, he really needs it this time and we gotta respect that" Raven argues pushing her dinner aside "he was offended when I called him, you know why? Because each time I've done it lately, it was to lecture him"
"Well, he didn't leave us a choice. He screwed up big wanting to sell his shares to Azgada" Anya replies, Raven lets out a deep sigh then says "Didn't we promise each other to not argue about this particularly?"
Anya looks at Raven for a moment then smiles guiltily "I'm sorry. You're right"
"I'm always right" Raven quips smiling back at her before adding "Thanks for dinner, it's really nice to come home and find you here"
"You barely tasted it" Anya replies trying to avoid 'the moving over' part because she hasn't talked to Titus yet and she doesn't know how he is going to take it.
"It's enough but I've another appetite you can satisfy"
"No, thanks" Anya says taking a step back when Raven stands and gets closer to her.
"That's insulting, how can you say no to this?" Raven quips gesturing at her body then wraps her arms around Anya keeping her from getting away.
"What's up with you today?"
"Nothing, I'm just not in the mood" Anya lies having no other choice, she can't tell her that she saw Clarke with a man when they were having lunch with Lexa. She doesn't want to do the same mistake, quickly jumping into conclusions and accusing Clarke of something that she might not even be doing. In addition, cheating is not something that can be taken lightly.
The minute Raven goes to take a shower, Anya takes her phone and texts Clarke to see her the next morning to make things clear. She doesn't know what else to do because she doubts that Lexa will recover from the heartbreak this time if Clarke cheats on her.
Lexa's mansion;
Clarke spent the afternoon in the garden getting things ready for what she has planned then cooked dinner and sat in the living-room impatiently waiting for Lexa to come home. She doesn't see why she should wait any longer to propose, she finally got the ring this morning and she wants to do it as Marcus told her she should know better than to wait because life is so unpredictable.
They lost too many years being apart and now Clarke wants to have a lifetime with Lexa and there is no better way to do it than proposing. Both Bellamy and Octavia suggested that she should do something big to make the proposal memorable but Clarke has something else in mind.
She wants to do it in the gardens of Lexa's mansion that look the same as the ones back in France which used to be their spot as kids. She can't think of a better place because it will give Lexa a good memory as last time she told her that she doesn't want their kids to be where she has spent an unhappy and lonely life. The mansion's garden is more intimate and not just a random place that may disappear one day just like it happened to their spot as kids.
When Lexa finally gets home she finds her again on the phone so the first thing she does before kissing her is to take the phone from her and put it away on the couch then asks Clarke to kiss her.
Clarke complies generously showering Lexa's face with kisses and asks in between "is…it…enough? Or…do…you…want…more?"
Lexa tilts her head away from her and says "It's never enough"
"I know" Clarke chuckles agreeing then adds "You're late tonight! I missed you"
"I missed you too. I needed to catch up with work, I haven't been efficient these last two days" Lexa explains caressing Clarke's hair.
"Lexa not efficient? I doubt that"
"It does happen to me too, especially when my girlfriend is in my thoughts"
"Ow, that's cute" Clarke replies kissing her nose and leaning to grab her phone which kept buzzing but Lexa pulls her back against her and asks "No, it's my time. O has to wait until tomorrow when I'm not home"
"Let's go eat then" Clarke says with a mischievous smile because Lexa doesn't know what she has planned for her tomorrow.
"How was your day?"
"Busy but good, I had lunch with Anya and Raven" Lexa replies helping Clarke setting the table for dinner.
"That's nice. What about Finn, any decision yet?" Clarke asks again.
"I didn't call him, I'll wait a few days maybe he'll reconsider his decision"
Clarke smiles at Lexa, feeling sorry for not being able to help her and Finn get over what happened and move forward with their lives and find forgiveness. She knows Lexa wants him to reconsider his decision just to not push him away but what she doesn't understand is why she keeps hiding from her feelings instead of just having a heart to heart talk with her brother. No matter how hurt Lexa can be, Clarke knows she will forgive him one day because she cares too much for him.
"Maybe we should invite him for dinner some time and talk about it" Clarke lets out cautiously.
Lexa freezes looking at her confused for a moment before replying. She didn't expect such a crazy idea, it didn't even cross her mind for a second and she doesn't understand how nor why Clarke is suggesting it.
"He won't come and even if he does I'm not sure he'll be comfortable, none of us will be" She dismisses the idea avoiding Clarke's eyes.
"Why not? Think about it, we've done nothing to make things better we just ignored him. It makes sense why he wants to leave so if you really want him to stay you need to let him know"
"It's for his own good if I want him to stay not for me and I'm leaving too, remember?" Lexa replies and Clarke would have laughed at her stubbornness if the situation was not a serious one.
"I know babe but there's something you need to understand, you'll only drift apart further if you stay in your comfort zone"
Clarke's words make sense for Lexa, she knows that she will have to do it one day if she ever wants him back in her life in one way or another. She knows deep down that she might forgive him one day but she doubts she will trust him ever again and even if she does it's going to be in a long run.
It will never be the same as it was Lexa knows it, and that's what is scaring her from doing the right thing – stepping out of her comfort zone. She doesn't think it is going to be worth the pain she will feel when being around Finn and not trusting him, not telling him everything or share her thoughts with him because he might get mad or jealous and just do something stupid to hurt her again or worse hurt Clarke. A part of her wants to give him a second chance but she can't do it now, it's too soon.
"You're right but I'm not ready" Lexa replies in a whisper. Clarke leans and gives her a kiss on the cheek "I'm sorry for insisting, I just want you to be happy"
"I am happy" Lexa replies looking into Clarke's blue eyes and instantly her lips curve in a discreet smile.
"Happier" Clarke corrects her previous statement and Lexa nods understandingly then asks "What about you? Do you want to try?"
"I tried but each time I call or invite him; he says it's not a good idea so I stopped trying. I know he won't say yes to any of my invites unless you two are in better terms. It's obvious he doesn't want to antagonize you"
"I'm sorry" Lexa apologizes feeling guilty and Clarke shakes her head "You don't need to apologize, Lexa. We should never apologize for loving each other, we didn't mean to hurt him…I tried to ignore my feelings for you just to save my relationship with him but I couldn't and I know we could have been more…I don't know, I don't think there was an easier or a better way for things to unfold"
"Thank you" Lexa says with a smile loving how Clarke always finds the right words to reassure her then adds "I wasn't apologizing for loving you, I was apologizing for being the reason you're not in good terms with Finn"
Clarke rolls her eyes answering "Babe, you're not the reason of anything that happened between me and Finn"
Lexa wishes that it is true but she knows that Finn wouldn't dare to be too friendly with Clarke just because she is with her now. When she thinks about it Finn is right to keep his distance with Clarke otherwise they will have to be around each other while they clearly are not there yet.
For the rest of their dinner, they don't talk about the topic anymore. Clarke instead keeps the conversation light and enjoys her last evening with Lexa as girlfriends but then when she is getting ready to go to bed, she checks her phone and reads Anya's text who asked to see her the first hour in the morning and pointed out that Lexa doesn't need to know about it.
She quickly replies and joins Lexa in the bed but sleep doesn't come easy to her, she spends the night wondering what it is the thing that Anya is hiding from her girlfriend and hopes that whatever it is, it won't affect her plans.
She doesn't have much to do, she already found the exact spot where she wants to do it. She made the place reachable and it was a real challenge for her to do it on her own as she never did gardening let along chop off something big.
The next morning;
Clarke keeps her eyes shut for half an hour faking her sleep and waiting for Lexa to leave knowing if she wakes up Lexa will want to have breakfast with her and consequently she won't leave to work early which means Clarke won't be able to finish what she has planned today since she has to give Anya some of her time.
Despite being curious to hear what she has to tell her that Lexa shouldn't know about, Clarke texts Anya the minute Lexa leaves asking to postpone their 'secret meeting' because she doesn't want anyone to know that she is going to propose today. She's simply afraid that what Anya is going to tell her might urge her to delay he proposal for a few weeks, or worse months. She won't give anyone the possibility to come between her and her engagement with Lexa, she waited too long to do it and she is determined to do it.
Anya: I won't take too much of your time.
She looks down at her phone and sighs remembering her first impressions of Anya, she is as stubborn as Lexa.
Clarke: Alright, don't be late.
Clarke doesn't want to be impolite with Anya but she has no other choice if she wants things to go her way and she knows Anya will understand after knowing about the proposal.
Woods office building;
Lexa's office;
When Lexa gets in the building she finds Anya already waiting for her by the elevator with some paperwork. In fact, she wants her to sign a few papers and inform her that she is going to take the day off and hopes that she is not going to ask questions.
"Morning!" Anya lets out and Lexa smiles at her "Did you sleep here?"
"No, I came early because I need you to sign these for me before I leave"
"What's so important that makes you leave so early in the morning?" Lexa asks getting in the elevator and Anya follows her greeting her teeth, that's exactly what she didn't want to happen.
"Something I needed to take care of a few days ago but anyway how are you?" She replies quickly redirecting the conversation focus on Lexa instead.
"I'm fine" Lexa says with a smile then adds "Actually, I'm more than just fine. Things with Clarke are getting better, I mean nothing was wrong in the first place it was just my insecurity"
"Really?" Anya asks curious because she doubts things get better in a night while she saw Clarke with a man, a stranger just the day before.
"Yeah, it was stupid of me to doubt Clarke"
She wants to tell Lexa that she was right to doubt but she knows she can't say anything until she talks with Clarke and hear what she has to say about the stranger.
"So you know with whom she's hanging out or she's still hiding something?" Anya asks hoping that Lexa knows who the stranger is.
"No, I didn't ask her"
"You didn't?"
"No, there's no need to do it. I trust her" Lexa replies confidently and Anya wants to punch her best friend for being so naïve.
"If you say so" She mumbles then starts going through the documents in her hands to make sure that she did not forget anything and as soon as they get to Lexa's office she urges her to sign the documents without giving her the time to read everything on her own saying that she already checked them.
"Alright, I'm done. I guess I'll see you tomorrow?"
"No, I might be back this afternoon" Anya replies rushing to the elevator without looking back at Lexa not daring to because she is hiding something from her that might break her heart and destroy her for good.
Once arrived to the mansion, Anya finds Clarke in the kitchen all dressed up with a cooking apron around her waist. 'It is clear that she is cooking for someone that she invited which explains her wanting to postpone our meeting' Anya thinks. Now she is certain she won't be back to work this afternoon like she told Lexa, she won't leave the mansion until she knows who's the lucky guest for whom Clarke dressed up so nice and even put her make up.
"Do you want something? Coffee, tea?" Clarke asks trying to be polite.
"No, I came here because I gotta ask you something" Anya replies coldly and Clarke looks at her confused thinking that she could have just texted her or called her about whatever she wants to ask her instead of coming.
"Alright, I'm all ears" Clarke lets out.
"Are you cheating on Lexa?" Anya blurs out. On her way to the mansion, she tried to find the right words to ask Clarke if she is cheating but she could not find any on her state of mind and after all there is no better way than to get right into the topic.
"What?" Clarke chuckles nervously taking aback by the question.
"I said are you-" Anya is about to repeat when Clarke interrupts her "I heard you the first time, it's just that I….what made you think that?"
"Are you?" Anya insists wanting to hear an answer.
"No, of course not. I love her, I'd never do that" Clarke defends herself feeling nervous. If Anya thinks she is cheating, Lexa is probably thinking it too and it is not going to end up well for her proposal.
"Then what were you doing yesterday around noon?"
"I…I was having lunch….with Bellamy. Why?" Clarke stutters not wanting to tell her that she went to pick up Lexa's ring.
"Bellamy?" Anya raises her eyebrow looking at Clarke defiantly.
"Yeah?" Clarke lets out confused. Yes, she lied but not about with whom she was.
"I saw you getting out of the car with someone. If it was Bellamy, I would have recognized him" Anya explains with a firm voice.
"You saw me with Bellamy and you didn't recognize him, that's why you think I'm cheating on Lexa?" Clarke asks in disbelief but Anya doesn't say anything.
Seeing that she doesn't believe her, Clarke adds confidently this time "Anya, it was Bellamy with his service car"
"Bellamy?" Anya asks confused and feeling stupid.
"Yeah" Clarke confirms then asks nervously "Does Lexa think that I'm cheating on her?"
"No…or maybe a little but not anymore" Anya replies making Clarke even more nervous "All I know is that she was worried and she said you're hiding something so when I saw you, I-"
"You thought I'm cheating" Clarke interrupts.
"I'm sorry, I didn't mean to question your loyalty but Lexa was worried and I couldn't not ask you"
"It's ok, Anya but I don't understand why Lexa would even think I could cheat on her…I love her"
"She didn't say you're cheating" Anya corrects her "She was just worried because you were acting weird and hiding something that's her exact words"
Clarke feels stupid all of the sudden, she thought she was doing well at hiding her surprise – proposal – but she is clearly not, she's even making Lexa think that she is being unfaithful.
"A proposal that's what I'm hiding and I'm doing it today" She blurs out gesturing at herself and Anya gawks at her for a moment letting her words sink in before reacting.
"Oh, that's…congratulations"
"We're not there yet" Clarke smiles at Anya feeling a little relieved but guilty at the same time for worrying Lexa. She doesn't know how she would have reacted if the roles were reversed, she would have probably freaked out and do more than just tell her best friend about it like Lexa did with Anya.
"We both know she'll say yes" Anya reassures her.
"I hope so" Clarke sighs, she can't help thinking what if Lexa says no, it didn't cross her mind not a second until Anya told her that Lexa was worried.
"She will" Anya repeats with a reassuring smile then suggests "I'm free for the day if you need some help"
"No, thanks. I've everything ready except for our meal but I'll be fine"
"Alright, I should go then" Anya says before leaving Clarke who gets back to her cooking feeling more nervous than she was before Anya's arrival.
Three hours later;
Lexa is sitting in her office dealing with some paperwork once again while almost everyone left for lunch break already when she receives Clarke's message. She can't help smiling like a lovesick teenager who just got a text from her crush.
Clarke: Lunch together?
Lexa: Of course. I'll wait patiently for you.
Clarke: Oh no. I'm cooking something,
come home instead :)
Lexa: It's more than just lunch, right?
Lexa hits the send button with a smirk on her face and waits for Clarke's answer knowing who comes right away.
Clarke: Only if your boss allows you
to take the rest of the day.
Lexa: I'm the boss, babe.
Clarke: See you later Boss ;)
Lexa chuckles reading Clarke's last text and goes back to her work to finish it and head home. She is thrilled at the simple fact that she will be spending some time with Clarke today instead of coming home and hearing her saying that she spent the day with someone and feel jealous and have doubts.
When she finally makes it home, she goes straight to the kitchen thinking that Clarke might be there but she doesn't find her. She keeps looking for her but to no avail, she takes her phone and calls her. Clarke tells her that she will find a note on the kitchen, Lexa goes back there and reads the note she missed earlier which says 'For lunch and some quality time, please come find me in the garden'
'My girlfriend is crazy' Lexa mutters with a smile, it's too cold to enjoy lunch outdoors. Nonetheless, she goes to the garden where they had enjoyed a few picnics together. She spots their lunch but Clarke is nowhere then her phone buzzes.
Clarke: First, come join me in the back.
I've something to show you :)
Lexa does as instructed hoping that she won't make her do something that may ruin her suit. She would have changed if Clarke told her that they will be having lunch outdoors because she knows they won't be just eating, at least that's what Clarke insinuated through her texts. Barely a few steps in the back, she spots something new. A rope ladder hanging out of the tree, and Clarke sitting there waving at her to join her.
Lexa laughs in disbelief before rushing to her girlfriend afraid that she falls because she is not really in shape like herself.
"Come down, you promised me lunch" Lexa says.
"Join me, Woods. Don't be a pussy" Clarke replies.
"Clarke, we're not ten anymore. Come down, please" Lexa insists not wanting her girlfriend to fall from the tree and get injured.
"I can't hear you, come up" Clarke lets out stubbornly.
It is only when she is sitting next to Clarke that Lexa notices her looks "You look…beautiful, too sexy and too dressed up for this"
Clarke smiles at her and instead of answering, she leans closer and kisses her lips chastely. Lexa instinctively wraps her arm around her waist to keep her from falling.
"See, it's easy"
"Who did this?" Lexa asks because to the way the tree looks now, she could tell it is not Titus who took care of it.
"Me" Clarke replies proudly "don't you like it?"
"I….Clarke! If you told me you want this….whatever this is, I would have hired a professional to do it. You could have injured your-"
"Just enjoy the view, Woods" Clarke interjects.
"Clarke, I'm starving and our lunch is going to be cold"
"We'll heat it, Lexa. Just relax, doesn't this remind you anything?"
"Of course, it does. It's-" Lexa replies softly when Clarke interrupts her "It was where I realized how beautiful your green eyes are, where I found out why I love to see you smile and see you happy…because I was in love but I was too young to know what it is"
"I've always loved you. I will always do and I'd never cheat on you, Lexa" Clarke adds and Lexa squeezes her eyes shut embarrassed "You talked to Anya, didn't you?"
"Yes"
"I'm sorry, I didn-"
"Hey, it's fine you don't need to apologize. I haven't been honest either so it makes sense" Clarke says and Lexa's face falls, she was not expecting Clarke to confirm that she lied to her.
"Clarke, please" Lexa lets out begging Clarke to elaborate because she is freaking out.
Clarke smiles at her nervously gathering all the strength she has left and repeats "I love you, Lexa….I always did, not only as a best friend but more but I was too young and stupid to realize it until we got older and it hit me full force. I was the happiest when we dated"
"At least for a few weeks then I lost you again…and I lost dad the same year which is the hardest thing I'd ever experienced in my life" Clarke feels her throat tightening at the memory.
"I'm here, I'll never leave you" Lexa promises caressing Clarke's cheek to comfort her, Clarke smiles and says "Stop interrupting me. What I'm trying to say is that I always wanted more with you but I was too young then I was old enough to realize that I love you more than a best friend but I was stupid and now I don't want to waste our time…"
While Clarke is talking, Lexa feels her heartbeat racing. Clarke's words sounds more than just reassuring words and she can't help freaking out internally thinking 'Holy moly, she's going to propose…or is it her way to reassure me that she's not cheating''
"…I want to spend the rest of my life with you, I want to know that you're mine. I want you to be my wife, I want us to be more than just girlfri…"
'Oh my God, she said wife' Lexa thinks taking a deep breath bracing herself for what she's going to hear next because even if she is not sure, Clarke's blue eyes are expressive enough with the way she is looking at her.
Clarke takes the engagement ring box and opens it "…and it's time for me to ask you. Lexa, do you wanna marry me?"
Despite her now blurry vision, Lexa keeps looking at Clarke with a stupid smile on her face. She can't believe Clarke is proposing to her, she can't believe it's actually happening. The thing she always dreamt about is happening, differently to how she imagined it but the same outcome.
It takes her a moment to snap out of her daze, she blinks her teary eyes looking down at the ring then back at Clarke who is smiling nervously at her and waiting to hear an answer.
"Lexa?" Clarke lets out softly and almost pleadingly because she can't handle her silence.
"Yes" Lexa replies pulling Clarke's face to hers and kisses her then adds against her lips "Yes, I wanna marry you"
"Then give me your hand" Clarke asks in a whisper, and Lexa pulls back chuckling then complies watching the love of her life putting an engagement ring on her finger.
She stares at her engagement ring for a moment while Clarke is looking lovingly at her, she wants to kiss her girlfriend her fiancée so hard but she can't risk them falling just for a kiss.
"Let's go down so I can kiss you" Clarke says and as soon as they do, she pushes Lexa against the tree and kisses her passionately. Lexa feels Clarke's love though her kiss reaching the deepest corners of her being.
When Clarke breaks the kiss, she wipes Lexa's tears off her cheeks and says "That's my promise to you, I will never leave nor cheat even when it gets hard"
Lexa nods not knowing what to say in return and lets Clarke take her hand and walk her to their lunch. Clarke notices that Lexa is not eating and says "Were you not starving just a few minutes ago?"
"I forgot about my hunger when you proposed" Lexa answers with a cheeky smile.
"Eat, I don't want my fiancée to starve just because she's overwhelmed"
"Say that again" Lexa demands with a grin on her face.
"My fiancée"
"Your fiancée" Lexa repeats slowly articulating then adds "I like how it sounds but not as much as when you said 'I want you to be my wife'"
"Me too" Clarke agrees scooting closer to Lexa who wraps her arm around her and says "I don't know if I told you before but you look stunning"
"Just like my fiancée" Clarke replies with a smile then takes Lexa's hand and kisses it before adding "It fits you perfectly"
"It does" Lexa agrees then looks at Clarke thoughtfully for a moment. She is wearing an engagement ring but Clarke is not which means anyone can approach her thinking that she is single and she wouldn't want that.
"I need to get you a ring" She blurs out and Clarke looks back at her with her mouth full and shrugs "Not important"
"For me it is. I don't want anyone approaching you thinking you're single because you're not" Lexa replies seriously making Clarke chuckle.
"I can't believe you're jealous over something hypothetical while I just asked you to marry me"
"It's not hypothetical, it's a fact. Each time we're somewhere men try to flirt with you. A ring would stop them at least" Lexa argues.
"Alright, if that's what you want" Clarke shrugs.
Later that day; Raven's apartment;
The awkward conversation Anya had with Clarke made her think about her own relationship with Raven. She has been tiptoeing around moving in with her not because she doesn't want to do it but simply because she doesn't have the guts to face her father about it and this is nothing like her. She was never a person who bends to someone's will and comfort over her own happiness.
She doesn't know why she is cowering, it wouldn't be the first time for her to defy her father over something she wants. She realizes that if she keeps waiting, things between her and Raven will change and not for the best. Raven might even get tired of waiting for her and just the thought of it, terrifies her more than anything.
It terrifies her more than the thought of facing her father so instead of wasting her time further, Anya grabs the bull by the horn driving straight to her place and starts packing. She takes everything that comes into her hand without any logical order then loads her car to the maximum and drives to Raven's apartment their apartment.
By the time Raven gets home, she finds Anya collapsed on the couch and her living-room filled with boxes.
"Anya?" Raven lets out hardly managing to contain her laugh and Anya jolts sitting properly on the couch smiling embarrassingly at her girlfriend. That is not what she had in mind, she wanted to unpack her boxes and cook a nice dinner for Raven before she comes back home.
Then, wait for her to notice that she had a few of her stuff in her apartment and realize it on her own. She wanted to surprise her but it seems that she didn't see the time pass.
"You took the day off just for this? Why didn't you wait for the weekend and we'll do it together?" Raven asks making her way through the boxes to join her girlfriend on the couch.
"That's not why I..." Anya replies but stops taking a deep breath then resumes "I just wanted to surprise you"
"You did" Raven smiles pulling her in for a kiss and when Anya tries to deepen it she breaks the kiss saying "We should finish what you started"
Anya whines feeling too tired to get back to it and suggested "Or we can leave it for later"
"Alright, let's cook something for dinner then we'll get back to it" Raven agrees tugging her girlfriend's hand with her to the kitchen.
"That's not what I had in mind" Anya pouts following her.
Once they get in the kitchen, Raven barely lets Anya touch anything knowing that she is exhausted after carrying all the boxes up to the apartment. However, when they are done eating she makes sure that Anya helps her with the boxes and half way through it she looks at her and asks "How did Titus react?"
"What?" Anya looks at her girlfriend taken aback by her question. The question she was hoping Raven wouldn't ask, at least not tonight.
"Titus, what did he say when you told him?" Raven reformulates her question.
"I…actually I haven't told him yet" Anya blurs out.
Raven hardly manages to not roll her eyes at her girlfriend's cowardice "I can do it with you"
Anya seriously considers Raven's suggestion for a brief moment then smiles at her and says "It's fine. I'll do it next weekend" She doesn't want her father to say something that might hurt Raven's feelings knowing how blunt and insensitive he can be when she talks to him about her relationship with Raven.
"Thanks for not agreeing" Raven lets out chuckling "I just suggested it to be a supportive girlfriend. I didn't really mean it, I know Titus hates me"
"I love you" Anya says with a smile. She could tell her girlfriend that it is not true, that he is just an overprotective father and he never liked any of her partners anyway but she won't as it is obviously not the truth for now. Another reason is that deep down she hopes that one day he will warm up to her when he would realize that she makes her happy.
Anya knows that it will happen one day because underneath his serious and conservative layer there is a caring and a loving father. He might not approve of their relationship but she knows that he will never do anything to hurt her.
Lexa's mansion; bedroom;
"Just pick up the phone and talk to her. She's not going to stop until you do and I don't want you distract while in bed with me" Lexa tells Clarke seeing that her phone won't stop buzzing.
"I don't know what to tell or advise her anymore" Clarke replies putting away the extra pillows.
"Why, what's wrong?"
"She's worried. She doesn't understand why Costia is not texting her back nor answering her calls" Clarke explains then adds cautiously "Maybe you can talk to her?"
"Costia?" Lexa asks and Clarke nods.
"And what would I tell her?" She asks again confused.
"To stop playing my best friend?" Clarke lets out half-jokingly.
"I'd rather not get involved with whatever they are" Lexa replies as she gets in the bed.
"Why don't you want Costia to be with someone?" Clarke blurs out feeling jealous.
"No, it's not that. I just think we shouldn't interfere because we're together, O is your best friend and Costi-"
"is your ex-girlfriend" Clarke interjects and Lexa frowns finishing her sentence "my friend" adding "Are you jealous?"
Clarke keeps silent for a moment before answering "I just don't understand why you keep defending her"
Lexa realizes that Clarke did not deny the fact that she is jealous, she preferred to ignore her question and just explain and it is enough of an answer for her so Lexa tugs Clarke closer to her and says "Clarke, babe. Costia is my friend and yes she's my ex and if I defend her it's just because I know her the way you know Octavia and defend her"
"I don't care if she's with anyone" Lexa adds reassuringly and Clarke smiles shyly understanding that her jealousy is too obvious.
"They're both adults and know what they're doing and we're not in high school. I don't want any unnecessary drama for us" Lexa explains.
"You're right but O is-" Clarke tries to argue back but Lexa interrupts her with a kiss then whispers against her lips "can we talk about something else?"
Clarke smiles against her lips and says "We don't have to talk at all"
Octavia's apartment;
During the whole evening, Octavia has been writing and deleting texts for Costia. She can't decide whether she should send her one last text or not. She tried to get Clarke on the phone to tell her if it's a good idea or not but it seems that Clarke is busy with her own life which means she won't get any help from her tonight.
I'm sorry for botherin… 'Too stupid' Octavia mutters erasing once again her text and types another one.
I think I'm fallin…'Too desperate' She groans deleting it.
Now I understand why everyone… 'No' Again she deletes it.
Octavia: I miss you.
And she finally hits the send button then puts her phone away to try and get some sleep knowing that Costia won't reply to her as she has been avoiding clearly avoiding her.
A few minutes later, her phone buzzes making her heart skip a beat. She rolls on her back to the edge of the bed and grabs her phone.
Costia: Sorry for not texting back earlier
Having a crazy day. How are you?
Octavia looks down at her phone and smiles even if Costia ignored everything she told her in her previous texts and just asked her 'How are you?' whereas she should know how she is, her texts were pretty eloquent.
Octavia: Fine. Me and Chewy miss you.
Costia: Lol! He saw me only
behind a screen.
Octavia: I've seen you, I've touched
you, I've even tasted you…
Octavia waits a few minutes but Costia doesn't say anything so she texts her again.
Octavia: Sorry, didn't mean to make
you uncomfortable.
Costia: I'm fine. I miss you too.
Costia: I think we should stop texting.
Octavia: You mean sexting!
Costia: 'I miss you' doesn't belong to
the sexting dictionary.
Octavia: I'm afraid it's too late,
I'm addicted now…
Costia: What if I'm addicted too?
Octavia stares at her phone for much longer than she would admit. Even if she is the one who has been trying to get Costia to answer her texts, she can't do it herself.
Costia: Did I say something wrong?
Octavia: No, I just wasn't expecting this
answer and I don't know what
to say…
Costia: I'm here and I'm down with
anything you suggest :)
Octavia: I doubt you would.
Costia: Why?
Octavia: Cause you don't believe in
long distance relationships.
Costia: People change their mind
all the time, why not me?
Octavia: Don't play games with me or
I'll come to France.
Costia: That's what I was hoping
you would suggest…
Octavia: Really?
Costia: Yes, I think we should try.
A week later; Lexa's mansion;
Living-room;
Finn might be used to the awkward meetings he has once in a while with Lexa since their argument back in France just like Lexa got used to his presence at her company despite the bad blood between them.
However, this time around Clarke is with them and she is definitely not used to any of this. Neither being with Finn as they did not really had the chance to sit and talk after he left her on their wedding day except the one time she met him in the company's lobby but he quickly ended their conversation. Nor being with Lexa and him at the same time while wearing an engagement ring which symbolizes her union with Lexa and not him.
"It's nice having you here" Clarke says breaking the silence and Finn smiles at her nervously "Thank you, Clarke"
"Do you want anything to drink?" Lexa asks.
"A coffee would be nice" He answers and Lexa leaves him and Clarke alone in the living-room something he was dreading when he saw that Clarke is going to stay with them.
After a long awkward moment of silence, Finn finally speaks what has been in his mind since he stepped in the mansion "You look happy, both of you"
Clarke feels her heart tightening at his words and barely manages to answer him "We are"
"It's nice to see that what happened wasn't for nothing, I've never seen Alex so happy"
Clarke gulps her guilt then forces a polite smile. She doesn't know what to tell him because she is aware that she caused Lexa's unhappiness that he is talking about.
"Some people are meant to be together" Finn adds softly.
"I'm sorry" The words come out of Clarke's mouth before she can stop them and they surprise her as much as him.
"I should be the one apologizing, I should have realized that you were not happy"
"I loved you, Finn but-"
"Not enough to stay" Finn interjects looking away.
"I care about you and I know Lexa does too so I hope you won't disappear from her life just because I broke your heart" Clarke adds quickly before Lexa comes back.
It takes Finn a moment to let her words sink in before he replies "I tried, I tried to be back in her life but she's pushing me and I'm at a point in my life where I need a fresh start"
"I know, just promise me to never give up on her"
Finn doesn't know what to answer because he is not sure he can do it any longer, Lexa is the most stubborn person he knows and she is certainly not going to trust him ever again to let him back in her personal life fully.
"I'm not sure I can do that, it doesn't depen-" Just as Finn starts answering her, Lexa walks in the living-room with his coffee.
"Alright, I leave you guys to your business" Clarke says to give the siblings the space they need to talk.
"Thank you for coming and I'm sorry for taking too long to call you back. It's never easy to take such a decision" Lexa doesn't waste their time getting right into the topic.
"You've been doing it for years…taking decisions" Finn comments.
"Not like this one" Lexa disagrees "We both know this time it's not solely a business matter, it's more than that"
Finn nods taking a sip from his coffee to take some time for himself because he doesn't want to anything wrong that may aggravated their situation.
"I had hard time taking this decision, I mean agreeing to it. It wasn't my intention to offend you, Finn" Lexa confesses and just as she is about to add something Finn interrupts her "Let's not dwell about the past, Alex"
"No, I've to apologize first" Lexa lets out softly "I'm sorry for offending you. I shouldn't have interfered nor asked Raven to talk to you. It won't happen again"
"It's fine" Finn replies then asks "Do you have the draft of the share purchase agreement ready?"
Lexa is taken aback by Finn's question, she was not expecting it so soon "I…no. I thought it would be better if we do it together in the office"
"What I'm going to say now might be hard to believe but it's the truth, Alex. I trust you and I trust everyone working with you. They ar- were my friends too and I trust them so you guys do whatever you need to do, I'll just take the money and leave and I won't bother any of you anymore"
Lexa frowns at Finn's coldness of his last statement then says "Thank you for your trust but I'd rather you are part of it…and you're not bothering us"
"I shouldn't have said that" Finn mutters squeezing his eyes close.
"It's fine. we all say things we shouldn't say but I mean it Finn, and I speak on behalf of everyone in the company you're not bothering anyone"
"Thank you" Finn smiles at Lexa appreciating her effort and kindness.
"Can I ask you a question?" Lexa lets out warily, Finn looks at her for a moment then nods "Of course"
"Why are you leaving?"
Finn smiles nervously at Lexa not knowing how to word his answer then says "I need to have a fresh start. I really do need it, Alex. All I did, it was to get a…chance to work this out" He gestures between the two of them then continues "but all I did was make it worse"
"Alright, we all need space from time to time. I get it but I hope that you won't…" Lexa pauses for a brief moment to gather her emotions before continuing "I hope that you will choose a safe place"
"Don't worry, I'm done with the Middle East"
"That's good to know" Lexa comments with a smile.
"Anyway, invite me to your wedding if you're going to wear a dress" Finn quips throwing Lexa off guard.
"Oh…of course. I mean we don't know if we're gonna do the whole wedding ceremony yet but you'll be invited if it happens" Lexa reassures him then adds with a smile "and no, I won't wear a dress so don't get your hopes up"
"A man can dream" Finn replies then adds "Do I have to ask you one question too?"
"Yeah"
"Cool, I just want to know…do you really think that one day we'll be ok?"
Without batting an eyelash Lexa replies "I hope so"
"Alright, thanks. Hope is enough for me" Finn replies with a grateful smile before leaving.
A month later;
At the airport;
"Ready to go?"
"Yes, love" Lexa replies happily then leans closer placing a soft kiss on her cheek.
Clarke looks at her best friend and asks one last time "And you? Are you sure about what you're going to do?"
Octavia nods with a cheeky smile "Yes, I've never been so sure"
"You're crazy" Clarke comments shaking her head.
"She's in love" Lexa adds knowingly and Octavia replies with a shrug "I'm both"
"I've been there, done that" Lexa mutters to herself.