I'm so sad! This is the very last chapter in this story. I can't believe it. It seems like forever ago that I published this and I could never have imagined the results. You guys are so amazing, you don't even know.
Disclaimer: For the last time, I don't own Big Time Rush.
Chapter 25
"Katie? What is holding you back?" Dr. Wilson said to Katie. Dr. Wilson was Katie's therapist.
"What are you talking about?" Katie asked back.
"Something is stopping you from letting go and moving on. Something is blocking the road. What is it?"
Katie thought about it for a minute. She knew what the answer was, she just couldn't quite place it into words.
Dr. Wilson sensed her hesitation and pressed her. "It's ok, Katie. No one is here to judge you. Nothing you say goes beyond these four walls." She smiled sweetly.
"All right, I guess what's holding me back the most is the guilt."
"The guilt of what?"
"The guilt of killing Andy. I don't care what he had done to me. He was still a person who had parents and siblings and aunts and uncles and grandparents… And I took that away. I mean, what I did made me no better than he was, didn't it?"
"Katie, I understand your guilt. Anyone who is in your particular situation would feel the guilt. But what you don't understand is that only one of you was going to make it out of that warehouse and you did what you had to do to make sure that it was you."
"But I still killed a man."
"Yes, yes you did. But think about it, if you hadn't killed Andy, more than likely the police wouldn't have caught him that night, there were too many ways out. So, Andy would have still been out there and what would have he done? He still would be after you and your family. If it weren't for you, Andy probably would have killed your family. So, even though you took Andy's life, you saved six others."
"Six?"
"Yes, Kendall's, James', Carlos', Logan's, your mom's, and let's not forget your very own."
"You're right. He would have killed all of us. I did what I had to do."
"Yes, Katie, you did."
Katie smiled the most genuine smile she had since the night at the warehouse. "So, where do I go from here?"
"This, my dear, is the start to the road of recovery."
"Dinner's ready!"
Immediately, everyone within hearing distance bolted to the dinner table. Why wouldn't they? After all, it was Fish Stick Friday.
Everybody who lived in the apartment took their rightful spot at the dinner table. Mrs. Knight put down the plate of fish sticks and tator tots.
Everyone dug in except for Katie. Instead, she watched as Kendall, James, Carlos, and Logan basically inhaled their dinners. She smiled as she watched them.
It had been one month since that breakthrough session with her therapist and she had made such progress since then. She did not flinch nearly as often and she didn't freak out every time she saw something that reminded her of Andy. Of course, there were still times that she fought back tears and some nights she had nightmares, but for the most part, things were beginning to return to normal.
But Katie would never forget Andy Robertson and what he did to her.
She would have scars along her back, side, and forearm and she would always have that little part of her brain that would always question things and would always be afraid, but Katie was learning to ignore it.
Katie would also never forget the immense support and love that she got form her brothers. They were with her every second she was in the hospital and even risked their very own lives for her sake. James even took a bullet for her. She never knew the love that her brothers had for her and she didn't know how much she loved them back.
Her brothers had given it all up for her. They almost got fired because they had been away for so long and the media was having a feeding frenzy on this story. Their careers in Hollywoodhad almost ended. She would be eternally grateful.
"Katie?" Carlos had snapped Katie out of her trance. "Are you ok?"
"Yeah, yeah I am. I am just fine."
And for the first time in over a year, Katie truly meant it.
And there we go, for the last time. This is kinda a bittersweet moment, isn't it? I can't believe that this story is truly finished. When I first started this, I never could have imagined it would be such a hit. So, thank you.
I want to thank anyone who had reviewed, added this as their favorite stories or me as their favorite author, signed up for story alerts, or just read this story. Ordinary Day would be nothing without you guys. When I posted the very first chapter, I expected ten, maybe twenty reviews at the most. Now look where I am! Thank you so much.
This story has done so much to me. I have gained confidence in my writing, created a name for myself, and even made a few friends. This story has made me so proud of myself and each review or email saying someone adding this as their favorite story or me as a favorite author made me smile.
Yes, I know what I'm doing for my next story. Can you guess what it'll be? That's right! Get ready for some JAMES ANGST! I'll be taking a little break before I start it though that'll probably last maybe one or two weeks. So, be on the lookout for my next story in the very near future!
Is the story over? Yes. Does that mean you shouldn't still review? Absolutely not! PLEASE keep reviewing!
Again, thank you all so much for the support and encouragement you have given me. Until next time…
-PizzaTop21
