Six months later..
Spencer and Natashia are sitting alone in their living room after coming home from the hospital with Derek, neither of them has spoken a word to each other. They were in the middle of a nasty fight when they got a call from Garcia saying Savannah has been shot, now there is still tension in the air but also pain and grief. Reid found some of her birth control pills and thought that she was still taking them and that's why she wasn't pregnant yet but she keeps telling him it's not the reason.
"How long" he asks after a while?
"How long what" she says?
"We agreed to try for a baby six months ago and yet you still aren't pregnant" he barks.
"It's not my fault" she yells at him.
"It's not mine, I got checked" he shouts and stands up looking at her accusingly.
"So what you think I'm somehow sabotaging any recent pregnancies? I'm not a monster and I want a baby just as bad as you do" she yells feeling tears rise in her eyes.
"Obviously you don't, I have not heard you mention it in weeks" he yells at her.
"Stop shouting at me and let me talk" she yells.
"There's no point, this conversation is over" he says.
"Oh really? I hate when you do this, you start an argument and make me feel like the bad guy like nothing is ever your fault" she yells pushing his chest when he grabs her hands firmly stopping her.
"It isn't my fault you ran, it isn't my fault that you got caught, it isn't my fault you had a miscarriage and it isn't my damn fault you aren't pregnant right now" he yells before pushing her hands away and heading up the stairs.
"Do you want me to be here? I mean do you want me at all" she calls to his back making him stop.
"To be honest, right now I don't want us sleeping in the same room must least bed" he says and she nods as he heads upstairs.
Natashia plops down on the couch and curls up, she pulls a thin blanket over her and turns her back to the staircase as she sobs not even bothering to hide it. She thought they were past this but it's obvious he blames her for losing their baby, she blames herself and it's has created a huge hole in her marriage.
Spencer is standing in his bedroom doorway and pauses when he hears his wife crying, half of him wants to go downstairs and tell her it'll be alright but the other half is too angry right now at everything. He shakes his head and closes the bedroom door.
-X-
The next day, Reid comes home after checking in with Morgan at the hospital holding his son Derek Hank Morgan. He walks in the living room to see Natashia cleaning up toys, they haven't spoken all of today and he really needs to hear her voice and just be near her.
"Where's Mercy" he asks?
"She's at JJ's for a play date" she says putting the toys in the toy chest before heading towards the stairs.
He follows her as she goes into their bedroom and pulls out some on her clothes, he watches as she walks out and into the guest room before he stops her by placing a hand on her wrist. She flinches a little but he notices and releases it.
She walks out of the room and into the bathroom and closes the door behind her, Reid hovers by the door and raises his hand and knocks on it but gets no response. He grasps the door handle and opens it to see her sitting on the closed toilet seat with a white stick in her head, he knows what it is but he doesn't want to get his hopes up.
"What's that" he asks?
"I took it while you were away" she says not looking at him.
"What does it say" he asks?
"It looks like I can actually get pregnant, congratulations" she says and stands up placing the stick in his hands and walking out of the bathroom.
Reid looks at the positive test and races after her downstairs before pulling her into his arms, she doesn't bother hugging him back too hurt from last night.
"I wish this moment could be happier but with a killer targeting the BAU, I can't" Reid says kissing her head and when he pulls back he sees her eyes are sad looking.
"Are you sure you want to bring a child into this family where the father hates the mother" she asks?
"I don't hate you" he says.
"Don't pretend you don't, I hate me for losing our baby. Don't pretend that you're over things when you're not, don't pretend that you trust me when you don't. Don't pretend that you love me when you're not sure and don't pretend-that you want me-when you would rather I still be gone" she says her voice breaking with tears as she finishes her statement.
"I'm not pretending! I do love you, I am in love with you. I will always love you, you are my wife and you're carrying my child. You are my family just like the BAU" he says wiping off the tears off her cheeks.
Natashia looks up at him and he slowly leans in and presses a kiss to her lips, she molds against him and smiles when she pulls away. She rests her head against his chest and sighs.
"How's Morgan" she asks?
"I don't think I have ever seen him like this, Hotch took him off the case but knowing Morgan he will still work out. His wife was killed in front of him" Reid says.
"Garcia will be there for him" Natashia says.
"I doubt if she can even pull him back from this" Reid says and Natashia cuddles closer against him.
She can only imagine what Morgan is going through, she was told by Hotch what happened with Hailey.
"It could have been you" she whispers softly.
"What did you say" Reid asks?
"It could have been you and not Derek or Savannah and I know this might sound bad or selfish but I honestly wish it was anyone but you or Hotch. You're all the family I have left" she says.
Reid sighs and tightens his arms around her, he places a kiss to her head. Derek may have decided to leave the BAU and he understands why, his son is his main concern with him now being a single dad.