Raivis wishes that Latvia would shut up. Just for once.
Raivis is the one who shakes. He is the one scared with a great deal many things that surround him. No matter what happens, something in the back of Raivis' head tells him something bad is going to happen soon. But soon is a concept of his he knows is skewed. Feeling Human while living in the body of a Nation. What constitutes as soon?
Then Latvia speaks.
It is not as if Latvia does not think before he talks. They confide in each other all the time and Raivis knows that their conversations are all in one head, so it could just be considered thinking, right? So he knows that Latvia thinks. Yet when words pour out of his mouth it is as if he has missed something. The situation around them, the context, something. And Raivis knows it is the wrong thing to say, but lacks the ability to stop him before Latvia has dropped them into a vat of trouble.
They have spent so much time in different places, different situations, all of which would end with Latvia saying something that would cause some sort of retribution. Lithuania and Poland's rule, being fought over by Poland and Sweden, the Era of Soviets...
Maybe it is Raivis who is missing something. But it is not Raivis who is getting them in trouble. So it cannot be him, can it?
But maybe it is because he shakes. Perhaps Latvia's words would not be so badly taken if Raivis was not trembling. This is what Raivis thinks Latvia will say if he asks, if he accuses, if he suggests that Latvia keep his god forsaken mouth shut.
Whenever Raivis even thinks that angrily he draws back from Latvia, from consciousness, just for a little bit so as to calm down. And he forgets about how angry it makes him and resumes trembling. At least he knows what will happen when he is trembling. It is one of the few things that Raivis knows for sure – that he has not forgotten over the many years he has survived.
Latvia says he will remember for him, all of the things Raivis forgets. Nations remember more than Humans, after all. Yet Raivis notes the things that Latvia cannot even see and wonders if that is true. Can Nations really remember more than Humans? Or are they the same, both destined to the same amount of decay in their memories?
After all, the real difference between the two that would have anything to do with memory is the fact Nations tended to live longer. Or, at least, they had.
Thinking about it, Raivis is rather glad he does not remember what Latvia remembers. Whenever Latvia remembers something, he wants to drink more than he already has. Latvia likes to drink. He likes to drink lots. Raivis lets the fog of inebriation cloud his thoughts as well because he really had no choice in the matter.
"W-why do you drink so much?"
"Why not?"
Raivis wonders if this is how Latvia tries to cope. He tries to cope by drowning his sorrows and then tries to cope by acting (the few times he is in the position to step forward) as if nothing wrong will happen with what comes out of his mouth.
Then Russia's eyes flash. They are no longer under his rule, are they? Raivis cannot remember and practically vibrates with fear.
"Vhat is vrong? You zought zat vas funny, da?"
"Of c-course not! I-I-I was thinking of s-s-something else c-completely!"
There are probably many reasons for why Latvia speaks like he does. Why Latvia does not seem to consider what certain reactions might be. They have lived in pieces and shadows for so long.
Raivis tries to understand.
But in the end... Raivis just wishes that Latvia would shut his fucking mouth.