Chapter 25

Sian pov

"Morning, Rabbit" I cheered. "What no comeback" I said to her as I noticed she was looking pretty pale.

"Kathy you all right" I asked.

"Yeah I'm fine, let's go…" she said as she collapsed.

"KATHY! Posh go get Gertie!" I yelled.

"What happened Sian" Gertie asked as she arrived.

"I don't know, she just collapsed." I panicked. Gertie lifted up her shirt and I saw the curves of her bones. "Shit" I thought.

By the look on Gertie's face she's was thinking the same thing.

"Is she all right" Noa asked.

"Why do you care" I snapped. I knew I was being unfair, but all I cared about right now what Kathy.

"She collapsed" Gertie answered her.

"She looks so thin, I thought she was eating" Gertie said to herself.

"Gertie…. I…. I've got a confession to make" Noa said as she looked at us.

"I'm listening" Gertie mumbled.

"She's been passing her meals to me, I tried to make her eat but she wouldn't hear of it." Noa whimpered.

"What and you didn't say anything" I screamed at her.

"She begged me not to, I'm sorry" Noa apologized.

"Sorry? You're sorry, you knew and you didn't say anything" I said as I got up.

"Shit" Gertie said as I was about to punch Noa.

"What. Gertie what, what's wrong" I asked.

"She's not breathing I have to perform SPR" she said as I started to panic. I held her hand until they came and put her on a stretcher. I didn't notice Sophie's presence until she came over to me.

"What happened" she asked me.

…

I started shaking when I saw Kathy hooked up to all sorts of tubes and machines. I felt Sophie's hand take mine. I looked at her as she gave me a sympathetically smile.

We went to sit down next to Kathy's bed.

"What if she dies Soph, then what" I whimpered, I really needed her comfort right now.

"She won't, the doctors said she'll be fine. She's in the best place you know" she replied.

I put my head on her shoulder and snaked my hands around her. "What kind of person does that" I whimpered.

"What" she asked.

"Just stand by the sides and watch someone destroy themselves, you must be a real coward to do that" I said to her as I felt her nod.

"Maybe Noa was scared she would make it worse by telling somebody" she said quietly.

"Worse? And what do you think this is" I snapped at her as she looked at the ground.

"Sian… yesterday I saw…" she said but she was interrupted by the doctor walking in.

"Visiting hours are almost over Sian" the doctor said.

"Please 5 more minutes" I begged him as she took Kathy's hand. I noticed Sophie staring into space.

"Something on your mind Soph, except for the obvious" I asked her as I followed her eyes to my hand that was now resting on Kathy's. "Omg this is bloody ridiculous" I thought.

"What are you doing" I asked her.

"What do you mean" she said as she furrowed her brows.

"Soooph, I can read your eyes like an open book." I replied as she looked down at the floor. "What are you doing thinking that something is going on between me and Kathy" I stated. "As if "I thought.

She started fidgeting. "I don't know I'm sorry. My mind is just a little… you know" She said to me as my lips curled into a smile.

"Yeah I know" I said looking at Kathy.

"Sian, yesterday I…. while I was brushing my teeth I saw Kathy" I heard her say said

"Yeah okay" I said still looking at Kathy.

"Sian will you please look at me" She snapped placing her hand on my shoulder. I frowned and looked at her. Why was she looking so nervous?

"I heard her" she said. I was getting annoyed at this point I didn't want to play games.

"Soph please don't talk in telegram style, because I'm really not following you here" I huffed.

"I heard her throwing up" she said avoiding my gaze. I took a couple of seconds for me to comprehend what she just told me. Anger started to ripple through my body as I looked at Kathy.

"You what" I said angrily as she started tapping her foot.

"I saw her throwing…." She repeated

"I HEARD you the first time Sophie" I hissed.

"Look I didn't even realize what was going on at first" she said with a guilty face. "How could she not" I thought.

"Well why didn't you do anything about it when you did realize" I demanded.

"She begged me not to tell anybody, I didn't want to betray her but…" she replied. I huffed

"BETRAY her, Sophie she could've died" I yelled.

"I know, Sian I was going to tell you today I swear" She pleaded with. "O yeah right" I thought.

"Oh isn't that convenient, I can't believe you Sophie" I hissed.

"I'm sorry" she said to me as I snorted and looked away from her.

"I want you to go" I said quietly.

"What, Sian" she croaked out but I wouldn't let her speak.

"Just GO I don't want you here" I spat as she got up. I couldn't handle her being here. "If she would've said something last night, maybe Kathy wouldn't be here. She almost killed one of my best friends." I thought.

….

Sophie pov

I went outside and sat down on a bench. The hate in Sian's eyes cut me like a knife. I brushed away some tears as I saw Gertie running towards me. "Why is she running like a maniac" I thought.

"Sophie" she screamed breathless as I frowned.

"Why in heavens name are you trying to run away" she asked sternly.

"What" I breathed as I burst out in laughter. I saw her furrowing her brows.

"Come on, you're not supposed to be here" she said as she took me back inside. She sat me down on one of the seats in the medical center. "Stay here okay" she said.

"Fuck sakes" I muttered.

After an hour or so of doing nothing I decided to go back to my room. I went to find Gertie and told her I was going back.

…

As Sian entered the room I stood up quickly. "Hey, how's Kathy" I asked softly.

"Like you care" she huffed.

"I do care, why are you being like this" I asked hurt by her words.

"Sophie, you almost killed her" she hissed at.

"WHAT, no I didn't. I didn't hold a knife to her throat Sian, I waited one day with telling you" I hissed back at her.

"Well you might as well" she replied.

"O there's no use in talking to you is there" I replied as I felt myself seething.

"No there's not, I miss the days where you actually shut your mouth" she spat. I was baffled at what she just told me. I felt a lump forming in the back of my throat as I tried to swallow it away.

"Yeah? Then I might as well just go back to those days ay" I snapped at her.

"Good" she replied.

"Fine" I yelled as I stormed out of my room. I took a cushion in the living room and placed it on my head screaming at the top of my longs.

…

Sian pov

I was at Kathy's bedside for the 3rd time. Me and Sophie had been fighting for almost a week now. I couldn't stand it, the venom in her sentences the anger in her eyes, but I just couldn't let it go.

I heard the Kathy's monitor changing his rhythm; I started to panic, but relaxed when I noticed she was opening her eyes.

"Kathy?" I said as she looked at me. "It's me Sian" I added.

There was no reply.

"Okay I'm gonna get the doctor "I said as I was leaving

"No, I'm fine you twat" she croaked out with a horse voice.

I smiled. "I see you haven't lost you charm" I smirked as I went and sit next to her on the bed.

"You need more than …. What happened actually" she asked me.

"You collapsed…. From not eating" I hissed at her as I saw her expression turn to shame.

"Oh, suppose Sophie told you after all. I knew she wasn't gonna be able to keep quiet" she replied.

"Oh no she kept quiet all right, that's the whole reason you're here." I stated.

"What are you on about" she asked me.

"She almost killed you" I explained.

"What? But you just told me I collapsed." She stated.

"Yeah, you did" I answered.

"Well, then how did Sophie get in the equation? I collapsed from not eating….. not from Sophie" she said as she frowned at me.

"She saw you; if it'd been me I would've told Gertie that evening and not waited until the next morning to see you collapse. She almost killed you, I can't let that go" I almost shouted.

"Sian, Sophie didn't almost kill me, I almost killed me. She's got nothing to do with this" she stated.

"Yes she does, If she would've said something then….." I replied.

"Then what, I would've been in here sooner and I would've been fine" she asked as I furrowed my brows.

"Well yeah" I stated.

"And what am I now? Dead? I'm fine aren't I" she asked.

"Luckily, could've been worse…." I started saying only to be interrupted.

"You do realize that this is just one of your ways to push her away don't you" she stated.

"What, no it's not" I said as she was nodding.

"Yes it is, look at you I can see you've been fighting with her. Your eyes are puffy, your face is red, and you look like you haven't slept in days." She stated pointing at me. Even after all this, she could still lecture me. I looked down, I knew deep inside she was right.

"Sian, you've got to stop doing this. I might almost kill myself physically but you're on path of emotional self-destruct. You need to snap out of it. YOU LOVE HER okay?" she stated

"Yeah okay" I replied as she smiled.

"Finally! Now go get her" she said as she nudged me off her bed.

"I don't think she'll want to talk to me, after all I said" I sulked.

"Uh no no no no no. those are excuses, now get out of my room and don't come back until it's sorted okay" she demanded.

….

Sophie was already asleep when I entered the room. I made my way to Sophie's bed and I could see the tissues that were lying around on her nightstand, she had been crying again.

"I've really done it this time, haven't I" I thought as I was stroking her hair. I didn't notice that she woke up until she croaked out my name.

"Sian….. What are you doing" she whispered. I wanted to cry when I saw the faded tears on her cheeks.

"Kathy woke up" I stated as she sat up.

"Is she okay" she asked. "How is she doing" she continued.

"She's fine" I answered as her expression changed.

"So how come you told me, do you suddenly believe that I care" she hissed as I looked down. I know I had treated her unfairly.

"Soph, I'm sorry. I should never have taken it out on you." I said as I sniffed.

"Yeah, you shouldn't have" she said as she turned around and laid back down.

"Sophie please, how do I fix this" I pleaded.

She didn't answer. "Soph, please talk to me" I begged her as I pulled at her arm.

"Oh so now you want me to talk, thought you preferred it when I shut my mouth" she replied.

"I know I said that and I didn't mean it" I pleaded with her.

"Then why say it" she replied.

"I'm sorry I was upset" I whimpered.

"Well how do you think I felt when you told me I almost killed Kathy" she snapped at me. "I don't know how many times I apologized to you over the last 5 days and you never took it, so why should I take your apology right now." She asked.

"I know, I know. I'm just hoping that you're a better person than me and will." I said hoping she would forgive me.

"I had enough of this, go to bed Sian" she said to me as she turned around again.

"Soph, please I….. I love you" I said.