Saving What We Love

by EJGryphon

In the weeks after The Last Jedi, Rey and Ben discover they can still access the link between them. How will they work through their relationship in aftermath of Luke's death, the crumbling of the Resistance, and Kylo Ren's usurpation of the role of Supreme Leader?

25. Chapter 25

"I have no idea, BB-8," Finn muttered.

The rotund mechanical beeped urgently from his spot in the cockpit doorway where several of his robotic arms were plugged in to various ports in the controls.

"I hadn't thought of that. I guess," he replied. He flipped a few switches and the Falcon lurched nauseatingly in space. He had no idea how to fly; what had he been thinking?

BB-8 sputtered a few more beeps and whirs at Finn.

"Oh come on, there's no need for that kind of language. We're going to figure this out."

In fact, Finn didn't really have much of a plan at all, and the droid knew it. BB-8 hadn't wanted to come along but Finn had been struck by desperation as he lay in his cot in the Jedi temple on Dvorah 5 and had all but carried the little mechanical out to the Falcon. He'd watched Rey enough times to know how to get the ship started and he also knew that once they were in the air BB-8 would be able to override the controls and do most of the actual flying. Finn was sick with distress and worry; someone would surely have noticed his absence by now – there weren't that many of them in the first place – and he had a feeling that they might guess where he was headed. The First Order ship Destroyer was on his radar and coming up fast as they traveled in hyperspace.

Finn wasn't sure if he was more proud of or furious with himself. This was essentially a suicide mission.

"Look," he said to the droid. "Once we're on board, I'll go and take care of it. If I'm not back pretty quickly, then you get yourself out and back to Dvorah 5, with or without me."

They pulled out of hyperspace and the First Order ship loomed ahead of them. Finn felt like he might throw up. BB-8 beeped softly.

"Well you need to tell them," he said, choosing his words carefully. He thought of Rey, who didn't want him after all, who wanted instead the Supreme Leader of everything Finn hated, everything he knew Rey hated, too. Had been seduced by him, drawn away, pulled closer into the Dark side. The First Order, and all it represented, had to end. "Tell them I didn't betray them, okay?"