Alright, so I'm back home. Thanks for all the well wishes, it really means a lot to me. I mean, you guys don't even know who I am, and you're all saying that you'll keep me in your prayers and that you hope everything is alright. You guys are more supportive than my actual family! (And there's a lot of us) Anyways, so we had a funeral for my grandfather, and I'm sorta just feeling sentimental right now, so I think this fic will be a little trip down memory lane for Vauseman.

-X-

Alex walked into their bedroom, holding a sleeping Skylar in her arms. It had just past the twins first birthday, and Nicky and Morello had found a place a few blocks down from Piper and Alex.

"I'll come over and babysit whenever you want!" Morello had insisted. Nicky had just rolled her eyes, but she smiled all the same.

Piper was sitting on the bed with Jamie, making silly faces and goofy noises as the little girl squealed and screamed at her mother. Piper laughed and picked her up, holding her close to her chest as Alex sat down next to Piper.

Alex propped herself up so that Skylar was laying on her chest, but so that she was still sitting up enough to see her wife.

Piper smiled at Alex and shook her head. "Remember when you didn't want kids?" she asked, looking down into Jamie's face.

Alex nodded. "Yes." She said. "But I'm so glad that I do now." She murmured. "Especially because I have them with you." She said. She grabbed Piper's hand and pulled her down towards her carefully, kissing her softly more than a few times before letting her go.

Piper looked down again at Jamie, who had fallen asleep, and laid her in a little bassinet that she had brought in from the twins room. She picked up Skylar, and laid her next to her sister, gently rocking them, gazing at them in wonder.

Alex sat up and moved herself over to Piper and the babies, resting her head on Piper's shoulder. Piper laid her own head against Alex's, their hair contrasting with the others, and gazing down at their daughters.

After a few minutes, Piper yawned and leaned back, pulling Alex down to use as a pillow, as she often did. She wrapped her arms around Alex's waist, closing her eyes and sighing softly. "I'm sorry Alex." She whispered.

Alex shook her head. "What are you sorry for?" she asked. As far as she knew, Piper hadn't done anything wrong, or anything that would have upset her. She pulled off the dark glasses that framed her eyes and put them onto the table next to her, then wrapped her own arms around Piper.

Piper shook her head. "Everything." She muttered. She turned her head and looked up at Alex, with a sad look in her eyes. "What happened in Paris, and in Litchfield, and Chicago…everything." She whispered. "I should have never left you in Paris. Your mom had just died!" she said shaking her head again. "I should have stayed and supported you. I was an idiot for leaving. I was worse than an idiot!" she exclaimed.

"And in Litchfield, I should have told you how sorry I was. And I should have done it a lot sooner than I did. And I should have just listened to you, when you told me what to do. I should have! I'm just so sorry, for everything." She whispered. "And I'm sorry that I couldn't get you out of that fucking dryer, and that I didn't open your letters sooner. I wish I had called you sooner, after Chicago, and put you on my visitors list so much sooner." Piper said, as she began rambling.

Alex sat up, pulling Piper with her, and took her face in her hands. "Hey," she whispered, trying to calm her. She could see that the blonde was going into hysterics. "Hey, hey, shhh…" she whispered. She held Piper's head to her chest and gently rocked her wife as she began to sob quietly.

Piper shook her head. "If I could go back and change everything, I would. I would, I would!" she insisted. "I wouldn't have left you. I would have stayed with you when you needed me. Because you did, you needed me. And I abandoned you!" she cried, clutching at Alex's shirt.

Alex sighed softly, rocking her wife until her crying lessened. She took Piper's face in her hands again, brushing away the blonde strands that were stuck to her cheeks, and Alex shook her head. "Pipes, if we could go back and change things, I wouldn't change any of it." She whispered. "I mean, it get why you would want to. It would have been great if you had been there for my mom's funeral, but the thing is, everything that happened to us, led us here." She said, smiling softly. "We have two perfect, beautiful daughters. We have our two amazing guard dogs, and a stunning house." Alex said, looking at their daughters. Then she looked back at Piper, holding her face close to her own. "And I have you. My beautiful, gorgeous, brilliant wife. Who I am completely and utterly in love with." Alex continued.

"And all those things that you're sorry about, all those things you wish you could change, they are part of the reason that we are here at this point now. Somehow, they all helped to create this future for us." She whispered. "So yeah, maybe I wish things might have gone differently from time to time, but I wouldn't go back and change any of it." Alex said firmly.

Piper bit her lower lip and nodded. "I love you Alex Vause." She whispered, still clutching at her shirt.

Alex grinned. "I love you too Pipes." She murmured in response.

The two laid back down on the bed, Alex gently ran her fingers through Piper's hair, and Piper ran her fingers across Alex's t-shirt, gently closing her eyes.

"You know what I'm really sorry about?" Piper whispered.

Alex sighed internally, but shook her head. "What's that?" she asked.

"I'm sorry that I ever said I hated you." Piper responded. "You know, in the kitchen, when I shoved you, and when you visited. Or whenever I said 'fuck you,'" Piper shook her head. "I never meant it. I never hated you. I've always loved you. Even when I left. That was one of the hardest things for me to do. I wanted to go straight back to you, because I still loved you. I've always loved you." Piper murmured.

Alex grinned. "Well, I'm glad you told me that bit," She whispered. "Because I've always loved you too. I never stopped, not for a second." She told her wife. "Not even with a broken heart. I still loved you." She kissed the top of Piper's head, and wrapped her arms around Piper, holding her as close as she could. Alex shook her head and sighed. "This is going to sound morbid, but I don't know what I would do if I lost you." She whispered. "I lost everything when you left. I went on a downward spiral." She whispered. "But I knew that you were still alive, and that you were probably happy without me. Somehow, those thoughts brought me some comfort. But I never stopped loving you." Alex muttered.

Piper shook her head. "I was never happy without you." She responded. "I just managed to fool myself into thinking that I was. I tried to replace you with Larry." Piper said, laughing. "Larry." Alex laughed too, before letting Piper continue. "I thought about you. Every day. I always wondered how you were, and what you were doing. I always kept my eyes open for any sign of you. In the newspapers, on the streets, anywhere. But until I saw you again, I didn't realize how much I actually missed you." She said. "Because I never stopped loving you either." She whispered.

Alex smiled and turned Piper's head up towards her, kissing her fiercely. She claimed Piper's lips for herself, kissing her again with hot kisses. Kisses that she only ever had for Piper. She kissed her to express the way she felt about her wife. That no one else had ever, nor could ever make her feel the way the Piper did. She pulled away after a few minutes and stared into Piper's eyes. "Marry me." She whispered.

Piper shook her head. "What?" she whispered.

Alex nodded. "Marry me." She murmured. "Let's have a big wedding ceremony. We'll invite everyone. Nicky, Morello, anyone else who got out. We'll even invite your family, just to spite them. We can introduce Jamie and Skylar to everyone then too." Alex said. "Let's show everyone how happy we are together. That we were meant to be together." She whispered.

Piper grinned and nodded. "Let's do it. Yes, I'll marry you again." She said.

Alex smiled and kissed her wife again. "Thank god." She murmured.

Piper raised an eyebrow. "What, did you think I would say no?" she asked.

Alex shrugged. "No, I just want to thank someone. So I thought, why not god."

Piper punched her wife in the shoulder. "Why not thank me?" she said, laughing. "I am the one who agreed to marry you. Again." She said, laughing.

Alex rolled her eyes. "True enough." She murmured. She laughed and kissed Piper again, kissing her until the twins woke again.

-X-

What will happen next? Hmmm….I wonder. Let's wait and find out, shall we?!

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