Well, so I went kinda MIA for a couple of days (weeks?). It was completely unintended, I just suddenly saw myself drowning with college stuff. But now I can happily say that I'm finally on vacation! A really short vacation though, just a little less than a month. But that's what you get after a six month long paralyzation of activities.

Anyway, enjoy chapter 25, so so sorry for making you wait this long!

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Chapter 25: W's POV

As I wait for Yuuri to come to bed I let my mind wander a little while looking at the beautiful starry sky. I feel so guilty and at the same time I can't stop. I still don't know who I am, but I know I'm not Wolfram, I'm not the person that Yuuri loves so much.

I think Murata has discovered me, or al least he's suspecting me. After today's training session he just smiled at me and left, but I noticed something in his eyes when he was searching my body for the power I'm supposed to have, and obviously don't.

Everybody else has done the same and just went on with the training, I don't think they found anything strange in me. However Murata, he's different, he saw something in me.

I'm not sure of what I want now. A part of me wishes he would unveil me, just tell everybody that I'm not Wolfram and hopefully tell me who I actually am. I want to know. I want to be free of this voice, the woman's voice. She knows who I am.

On the other hand, my heart wishes to remain this way, to stay at Yuuri's side, to be the person he loves. Not because I'm Wolfram, but because I'm me.

"Hey Wolf, are you with us?" Yuuri's voice startles me and I almost jump out the window.

"What? What do you mean?" I answer as a reflex. He comes near me and put a hand on my left shoulder while smiling. I sigh, silently, and direct my gaze to the sky again, every interaction with this man is filled with such affection, that I can barely stand it.

I know he says that it doesn't matter if I never get my memory back, he says I'm fine the way I am now. But that's just because he still believes that I'm Wolfram... right?

"You seem lost in space. What's wrong? The training with Murata didn't work?" he asks, walking away, in the direction of his dresser.

"I don't know. I still can't do anything, I don't even understand what I'm supposed to feel" I say and walk to the bed, I'm already wearing my nightgown, I have to admit the thing is quite comfortable.

"Don't worry. You'll get there" he says and sits next to me.

"But what if I never..." I can't bring myself to finish the sentence. He looks down for a moment, his bangs won't let me see his expression, but soon he looks up and smiles at me. Without saying another word he lies down and grabs my arm. I obey the unspoken request and lie beside him. I rest my head on his chest and listen to his even breathing and heartbeat.

"You don't want to remember, do you?" he asks. I can't really read his tone. I'd like to know if he'll be angry when hearing my answer, but he's not giving himself away. There's no use in lying now, is there? Maybe he even knows already...

"I want you to see me for me... I want to be the one at your side. This me, not the Wolfram you knew before..." Tears are choking in my throat, I just can't bring myself to speak anymore.

"Wolf I... I've been thinking a lot about this. I know you don't feel like the person you're supposed to be, and I understand what you're asking of me... but I just can't give you an answer right now, I don't understand this well enough myself..."

I'm holding my breath, while tears run down my cheeks and wet Yuuri's pajama top. He runs his fingers through my hair and pats my back from time to time.

"Give me some time to understand this... it's just that I..."

"Don't want to choose?" I finish his sentence for him in a whisper.

"I just can't believe that I have to..." I can hear his words getting caught up on his chest.

So he knows? No... but he's getting close...

Well... at least I can still share this nights, this embraces, with Yuuri.

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How horrible of me to come back after so long with such a short chapter! Even I hate myself right now! However, as a little "forgive me" gift, later tonight I'll upload chapter 26(which is longer, I promise)! I just need to spell check it ;)