Not Like I Think About You Constantly

By: Tracy Cook

Disclaimer: I do not own anything; these characters belong to the creators of Glee, One Tree Hill, and The Vampire Diaries.

Authors Note: This is an AU fic that focuses around Glee/OTH/Vampire Diaries. There will be NO VAMPIRES and characters may be slightly OOC, but I will try and keep them in character.

Pairing: Quinn/Rachel, Brooke/Haley, and Caroline/Rebekah.

Rating: M

Chapter Twenty-Five

Maybe

Quinn flipped through the pages of her notebook as she rapidly wrote down any idea to get Rachel back that came to mind. Ever since her discussion with Emma, she had been attempting to think of ways that she could try harder. She wanted to show Rachel that she loved her, that she meant the world to her, and that she could not live without her. She wanted to show her that she was willing to do whatever it took to keep her in her life.

And she needed to do so before things intensified between Tyler and her.

Her list of possible ways to get Rachel back ranged from clichéd to crazy, and the longer that she wrote in the notebook, the more crazy the ideas started to get. She knew that she needed to stop and choose a few of the more logical ideas, the ones that wouldn't get her sent to prison.

Putting down her pencil she started to flip through the pages and choose a few of the best ideas. She laughed a little to herself when she realized that she was acting just like Rachel. "This is exactly what she would have done…" Quinn muttered under her breath as she put a star next to the best ideas. It was ridiculous how much the sight of a small shape could break her heart, but it was a star, and that was kind of Rachel's thing.

After choosing the three most promising ideas, she wrote them down on a separate list and started planning out how she would do them.

She needed to do everything perfectly. She needed to get her back. And once she did finally get Rachel back in her life, she would never lose her again. She would show her off proudly to the world and make sure that they knew that she belonged to her, that she loved her. She would never be scared again to admit to anyone that she was in love with Rachel Barbra Berry.

Quinn had never been happier than when she was with Rachel, and she did not want to live in a fake world any longer. She would rather lose every friend that she had, all of the family that could not accept her, than lose Rachel.

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Everyone was sitting in glee club. It was still shocking that all of them were attending, despite everything that had happened between them. In a way, they all felt like they were a dysfunctional family. They had grown to love each other for all of their faults and flaws. None of them could imagine not having glee club.

"Good afternoon." Mr. Schuester said as he walked into the room with a bright smile on his face. He had the perfect idea to practice for Regionals. "I hope that everyone is having a great day."

The group offered little response to his comment.

"Okay!" He stated enthusiastically. "Well, I have a wonderful practice exorcise for Regionals, but first someone has something that they want to perform for the group."

All eyes stared at Rachel. They expected her to be the one who would be performing. No one else in the group, aside from Kurt on occasion, usually prepared songs before the club started. But, Rachel glanced around the room with large confused brown eyes and it made it obvious that it wasn't her who had prepared a song. This confused the entire group and they all started to look around.

Quinn Fabray had prepared a song to sing to Rachel. She knew that music was one of the things that the starlet loved the most in life, so she figured that she would sing to her. As cliché as it was, she knew that Rachel would love it.

Plus, what better way to announce your love for someone proudly?

Yet, she wasn't feeling very proud and confident any longer. When she had talked to Mr. Schue about performing she had been hyped and even a little excited, but now she felt sick to her stomach and nervous. 'What if they all laugh at me…? What if Rachel hates the song I chose? What if she just hates me and wants me to leave her alone…? What if she's already with Tyler?' She shot a hazel eyed glare at the young boy as her mind raced with questions.

"Quinn? Do you still want to perform?" Mr. Scuester wondered.

Everyone's heads snapped to her, they were all staring at her with shocked expressions. She could feel their eyes wandering over her face and watching her closely. She could feel Rachel staring deep into her soul and it was intimidating. But, she knew that she couldn't back down now. She had to prove to Rachel that she loved her, she had to prove to her that she wanted to be with her, even if she passed out in front of the entire glee club in the process.

Standing to her feet, she smoothed out her summer dress and walked toward the front of the choir room. Moving to the middle of the floor and staring down at the microphone. Her hands were shaking, and she didn't dare look up. Her heart was pounding so hard in her chest that it felt like she couldn't breathe, and for a second she became claustrophobic in her own body.

But, then the music started.

And with the first lyrics, all of her fears melted away. She cast her hazel eyes up, and stared directly into Rachel's large brown eyes as she sang the song, her voice a little shaky from her nerves.

"I'm strong, but I break,

I'm stubborn, and I make plenty of mistakes.

Yeah, I'm hard, and life with me is never easy,

To figure out, to love,

I'm jaded, but oh so lovely.

All you have to do is hold me,

And you'll know and you'll see, just how sweet it can be,

If you'll trust me, love me, let me,

Maybe, maybe.

Someday, when we're at the same place,

When we're on the same road,

When it's okay to hold my hand,

Without feeling lost, without all the excuses.

I'm confusing as Hell,

I'm North and south,

And I'll probably never have it all figured out,

But what I know is I wasn't meant to walk this world, without you,

And I promise I'll try,

Yeah, I'm gonna try, to give you every little part of me,

Every single detail you missed with your eyes,

Then maybe, maybe, yeah maybe.

I don't want to be tough,

And I don't want to be proud,

I don't need to be fixed and I certainly don't need to be found,

I'm not lost.

I need to be loved, I just need to be loved,

I just want to be loved by you, and I won't stop 'cause I believe,

That maybe, yeah maybe

Maybe, yeah maybe."

Everyone was staring at her, but she had her teary hazel eyes focused intently on Rachel. She wanted to see how she would respond. She wanted to know if the song had meant as much to the petite diva as it had to her. But, she did not respond. She merely stared at her with conflicted eyes and knit brows. She looked confused and like she did not know what to say or do.

Quinn understood. She couldn't just expect that to fix everything. It was only the beginning of repairing their relationship.

A light blush covered her fair cheeks as she bit down on her bottom lip. "That was for you, Rachel." She forced the words out and urged her legs not to run out of the room. She could not continue to run away from her problems. Rachel wanted her to be proud, she wanted her to be brave, and part of that was not running away when things got too hard or terrifying. She had to face reality.

The glee club clapped for her, all except for Rachel, and she thanked them.

Lifting her chin up high, she walked toward her seat and sat down. Watching the back of Rachel's head and praying that she would turn around and look at her, but she never did.

O

"I told you that we could go anywhere in the world, do anything that you wanted to do today, and you choose to go to the zoo?" Rebekah asked her girlfriend with an amused smile on her full lips. She could not believe that Caroline would choose to go to the Lima Ohio Zoo, instead of anywhere else in the world. They could have even gone to a more flattering zoo.

"What's wrong with the zoo?!" Caroline asked excitedly, turning around and staring into Rebekah's eyes with shimmering blue. "I love the zoo!"

She chuckled under her breath and shook her head. "There is nothing wrong with the zoo, my love." Pausing she glanced toward the gate. It was free to get into the zoo, that was a definite sign that the zoo was not worth much. "It's just a tad bit more childish than what I had in mind."

Caroline gasped playfully. "The zoo is not childish!"

"Compelling argument." Rebekah smirked. "You have proven your point, I was wrong. Having your first date at a zoo is quite sophisticated, indeed."

"Indeed." She mimicked her British accent and tugged on her hand as she skipped toward the entrance of the zoo, dragging her girlfriend along behind her. The other woman was laughing at the childishness that Caroline was portraying. She found it absolutely adorable that she was so innocent and uncorrupted by the harsh reality of the world. She teased her about it, but it was one of the things that she loved most about her.

Rebekah glanced at the map of the zoo and she laughed a little. It would not take them long to get through the zoo. It was only about as large as the land that she had owned prior to the trial, and there were not many animals of intrigue. There was no way that Caroline could spend all day at the zoo.

Afterward, she would take her somewhere a bit more romantic.

"Oh my goodness! Look at the deer!" Caroline squeaked excitedly, her blue eyes squinting as she ran toward the pin holding the deer. She looked entranced by the animals and Rebekah could only shake her head at her. "They are soo cute! Aww, look at that one's eyes! I think she's looking at me!"

'Or perhaps she can last all day at this zoo if she is so easily intrigued by a deer…'

Caroline held out her cellphone to Rebekah and walked toward the fence, standing in front of the cage and flashing her a bright toothy grin. "Take our picture, Bekah!"

"You have got to be joking."

O

Haley stared across the bed at Brooke who was watching the movie intently. Her eyes wandered over her beautiful face. Watching as the light from the television danced across her pale skin and lit up her eyes. She did not look excited though, she did not respond in the same ways that she usually did when watching a movie. She simply watched it with a straight face.

She had been acting strange as of late, and Haley knew that something was consuming her thoughts. And, she had a feeling that she knew what it was.

It had all started the day that she got the offer to go on tour with Mia. Brooke had gotten silent, started to stare off into space from time to time, and had been acting a little less enthusiastic about their relationship. Haley hated it and she planned to get to the bottom of it.

Crawling across the bed, she rested her head against Brooke's shoulder and placed a hand on her stomach, staring up at her. "What's bothering you lately, Brooke?"

"Nothing." She stated nonchalantly, never looking down to meet those eyes. She knew that if she looked into Haley's eyes that she would fall apart and tell her everything, and she didn't want to. She did not want to be selfish.

She sighed and tugged on her girlfriend's shirt. "Brooke, come on. Something is obviously bothering you. You've been acting really distant lately and I miss you."

"I don't know what you're talking about." Brooke dismissed.

"Yes, you do."

Haley watched the cheerleader closely. She was chewing on her bottom lip and staring at the television. She was hiding something from her, and she hated it. "You've been all distanced and upset ever since I agreed to go on tour with Mia."

"I'm fine, Haley. I promise." Brooke muttered out sadly, her voice cracking with emotion. She was angry with herself for being so apparent. She did not want Haley to doubt her singing career because of her, and she certainly did not want her to cancel the tour.

Finally, she had enough of the other woman's evasiveness and Haley sat up, straddling her girlfriend's legs and forcing her to stare into her eyes. She knew that Brooke could not lie to her if she was looking her in the eye. "Please." She pleaded, moving in closer. "Just tell me what's going on in that head of yours, sweetie. I hate seeing you like this."

Brooke took in a breath and forced a smile. "It's nothing."

Haley furrowed her brow in frustration and asked, "Is this about me going on tour? Do you not want me to go, because—"

"—What!? No, don't you dare say you will stay here!" Brooke stated desperately as she reached up and cupped Haley's face with her hands. She did not want her to give up on her dreams. That wasn't what this was about. "I want you to go on tour, babe. I do."

"Then what is it, Brooke?"

"I just…" She paused and gathered her thoughts. She didn't know how to say what she wanted to say without sounding selfish. "I'm going to miss you while you are gone, and I have no freaking clue what I am going to do with my life! I mean, high school is almost over and I've got nothing going for me. I want to contribute something to this relationship, you know?"

"Brooke, you contribute so much to this relationship. You mean the world to me." Haley offered her a smile and leant down kissing her, before resting her forehead against hers and staring into her eyes. "And I'm going to miss you too, so much. But, you can always come and visit me."

"I know." Brooke smiled. "And I will love that. Watching my sexy, rock star girlfriend sing before having some fun in the tour bus." She waggled her brows suggestively and Haley laughed, blushing brightly. "But… I just really want to make something of myself too. I wanna be enough for you, Haley."

"Don't you see that you are more than enough for me, Brooke? Just the way you are." Haley stated seriously. She hated that the woman she loved was feeling like she was not good enough for her. She was perfect. She was the one who made her believe in true love.

She sighed. "You know what I mean."

"No, I don't. You are everything that I want—"

"—I'm not everything that I want to be for you. I want to give you the world, Haley. I want to be better for you." Brooke whispered out, her naturally raspy voice breaking. "I went to the school councilor and I talked to Emma, and she suggested that maybe I should try turning my designing clothes into a career. But, I don't really know how to go about doing that, or even if I could do something like that for a living…" Her voice trailed off.

Haley's brown eyes widened and shimmered with excitement, a smile spreading from one ear to the other. "You could totally design clothing for a living! You are definitely good enough! We would just have to set you up with a website to sell your clothes from, and you would have to work on some designs, but I could help you with all of that." She encouraged.

"Really?" Brooke raised a brow at her. "You would help me?"

"Of course I would help you, Brooke." She laughed, leaning down and capturing her lips in a passionate and loving kiss. She savored the moment, committing the feel of her soft lips against her own and the sweetness of her lip gloss. Soon they would be apart for some time and Haley wanted to remember every detail of Brooke Davis.

"Mmm…" Brooke whimpered as Haley pulled out of the kiss and stared into her eyes. "So, when's my rock star girlfriend's first gig anyway?"

"Mia and I talked, and we want our first gig to be here in Lima. We're setting up something at the local club for Halloween." She smiled excitedly. Her stomach twisting in knots as she thought about going on stage in front of the entire town, it was both exciting and terrifying. "Then we'll probably head out that night. But, we'll only be gone for like three months, and I'll be back in time for graduation."

"Good, because I'm gonna miss you like crazy." Brooke admitted a little sadly.

"I'll be back before you even notice I'm gone."

"I doubt it." She chuckled. "I notice you're gone when you leave the bed for five minutes in the middle of the night."

Haley laughed. "I know! You always tug on me and try and force me to stay in bed with you, and then when I get back you've replaced me with a pillow."

Brooke grinned deviously and reached out for one of the pillows, pulling it between the two of them. "You better get used to it. This pillow is gonna be keeping me company the whole time that you're gone."

She gasped and tugged the pillow away from Brooke, laughing when the cheerleader pouted. "Shut up and kiss me."

"Mm… Yes, Ma'am!"

O

"Let's go through the petting zoo!" Caroline practically shouted as she ran toward the gates, with her rock candy in her mouth. It terrified Rebekah for a moment. She did not want her to trip and accidently choke on the candy. She had insisted that going to the zoo, was not going to the zoo unless you got rock candy. So, Rebekah had bought her some, naturally.

She wanted her to enjoy their trip.

"I don't know about that, sweets." The blonde Brit said with a hesitant look at the animals.

Caroline pouted. "Please?" She whined and pulled her girlfriend toward the gate of the petting zoo. Rebekah laughed and rolled her eyes at her persistence, before finally giving in.

"Fine, if you insist."

"I do." She stated proudly, standing up on her tiptoes and pressing a kiss to Rebekah's lips. Then she pulled her into the petting zoo and started to run around, petting all of the animals while her girlfriend watched her. Rebekah could not comprehend the appeal, she would much rather be in Paris, or shopping in a nice store, but she did understand that Caroline loved it and that was enough for her. She looked absolutely adorable running around and petting all of the animals.

And Rebekah even joined in and pet a few of the less dirty animals.

"Ooh! Look!" Caroline pointed at a giant spider-web made out of ropes and she grinned widely, running toward the contraption. It looked dangerous for a children's toy, but she didn't care. Setting down her rock candy, she climbed onto the web and lay on her back. Rebekah stared down at her with a smirk.

"What do you think that you are doing?"

"I'm having fun, unlike you. You're being a big grump." She pouted and sat up on the spider-web. "Come here."

"I don't think so." She stated with trepidation as she eyed the web.

"Please?" Caroline whined and reached out grabbing ahold of Rebekah's hands and pulling her toward the web. She nearly tripped and fell on top of her, but she quickly caught herself.

"It does not look safe, Caroline." Rebekah stated honestly. She could already feel herself giving in to her girlfriend though, and finally she allowed her to pull her down onto the web and on top of her. Caroline smirked deviously and reached up, twisting her fingers in long blonde hair and pulling Rebekah's body closer as she captured her full lips in a heated kiss.

Rebekah felt her body react immediately and groaned out loudly when Caroline shoved her thigh between her legs, pressing it up against her heated center. "Fuck." She moaned out against her lips.

"Do you wanna?" Caroline waggled her brows.

"Here?" Rebekah laughed. "I do not believe that is the intended use of this contraption." She stated pointedly. "Besides there are children around."

"I was just joking, Rebekah." She leant up and kissed her once more, applying more pressure against her womanhood and smirking against her lips as she moaned out loudly. "Besides…" She whispered, and Rebekah started to rock against her thigh.

"Yes, lover?" She was trying to stay in control, but she could feel her body reacting and her arousal growing.

"You've still gotta buy me something from the gift shop!" Caroline rolled out from under Rebekah and laughed when the other blonde fell flat on her face on top of the web; she turned around and glared at her.

Caroline offered her a shrug and a proud grin, before skipping down the trail.

O

Haley finished folding their clothes. Brooke was currently at work, and they had a schedule where whoever was at home did the chores while the other was working. It was a good system. They rarely ever got into arguments about who was to do what, because it was always done.

Grabbing a stack of clothing, Haley made her way toward Brooke's dresser and she pulled open the top drawer placing the clothes inside. Suddenly, she noticed something out of the corner of her eye. It was a black box that was partially hidden beneath a shirt. Pulling her bottom lip between her teeth, she furrowed her brow and debated on whether she should or should not open it.

Her curiosity got the best of her and she reached out, picking up the box and looking it over. It looked like it would have jewelry inside of it.

Haley's heart started to speed up at the thought of Brooke buying her jewelry. She loved jewelry and she loved gifts. She knew that she shouldn't open it, that it would ruin the surprise, but she could not stop herself from peeking inside. Gently, she pulled the box open and her eyes widened at what was inside of it.

She almost dropped it.

Her hands were shaking and her eyes were huge as she stared at the ring inside of it. It looked like an engagement ring. It was beautiful.

Taking in a breath she tried to control her rapidly beating heart, she tried to rationalize what else it could possibly be. But, it was obviously an engagement ring. 'Oh my god, was she planning on asking me to—oh god! No wonder she got so upset about me going on tour, but she can't possibly think that we are old enough to get married…? Can she…?'

Haley closed the box and returned it to the hiding place, still staring down at it.

'I'm not ready to marry Brooke… I'm too young… aren't I?'

O

"That was a lovely song, Quinn." Rachel whispered out softly as she approached Quinn in the hallway. She had been avoiding her ever since she sang the song for her. Truthfully, she did not know how to feel about it. She was happy that Quinn was finally willing to sing their love for the world to see, and the words meant a lot to her, but she was not prepared to forgive her yet. Not after everything that she had put her through.

Quinn froze and bit down on her bottom lip, not sure how to take the words. Taking in a breath she forced herself to be brave and turn around. "Thank you, Rachel. I'm glad that you liked it." She offered her a small smile.

Neither of them said anything for a second. They simply stared deep into each other's eyes, lost in the weight of their emotions.

It was suffocating.

"I wanted to sing something in order to show you that I was proud of you, to tell you how I felt about you." She whispered under her breath, her voice catching and tears filling her eyes. She had never felt so vulnerable.

Everything that she wanted and loved was hanging by a thread.

"It was a very sweet gesture, Quinn." Rachel smiled. "And I loved your performance; your voice truly has improved since you joined glee club…" Her voice trailed off uncomfortably and she fiddled her fingers.

"But?" Quinn's voice cracked.

"But… It doesn't change anything that happened between the two of us. You still have a lot of self-evaluating that you need to do, whether you believe me or not, and I need to focus on myself as well. I have a NYADA audition coming up that I need to put all of my attention into, perhaps after that we can look into starting our relationship back up. If you still wish to do so, that is." She turned to walk away.

Quinn watched with horror-filled eyes as Rachel started to walk away from her. She wasn't used to the other woman walking away. That was supposed to be what she did. It was heart-breaking to know that she had pushed her to such lengths. She couldn't let her leave. She needed to fix this and set her plans into motion.

Reaching out, she grabbed ahold of Rachel's arm and stopped her. "Wait, Rachel."

Rachel did not move. She just stood still and waited for Quinn to say whatever she needed to say.

"I know that we can't just get back together. I get that you don't trust that I've changed. You probably think that I am just pretending to be different and that I will go back to normal once we get back together, but I have changed. Please, just give me the chance to prove to you how far I have come." Quinn pleaded desperately. She needed Rachel to say yes.

Turning around, she stared up into hazel eyes searching them for answers. Her brows knit together in confusion. "How do you plan to show me that you have changed?"

"Let me take you out on a date." She stated seriously. Her voice dangerously low and almost scary.

Rachel looked around hesitantly and then asked, "You mean out in public?"

Quinn swallowed hard and nodded her head. "Yes."

Sucking in her cheeks, Rachel debated on whether or not she should give her another chance to prove herself. Deep down she felt that she shouldn't, but she knew that she would. She loved her too much to deny her.

"Okay, I will give you one more chance, Quinn."

O

Authors Note:

I hope that y'all enjoyed this chapter! :) I also wanted to tell anyone who enjoys this fic that I started and will be updating another Rebekoline/Faberry/Baley fic. Anyhow, this is setting up for a big Faberry breakthrough in the next chapter. I know that there wasn't much Rebekoline in this chapter, but Faberry has to make a breakthrough and so will Baley shortly! No worries though, plenty more Rebekoline planned out!

Thank you all for reading! Y'all are wonderful and I love you all! Please do leave me some encouraging reviews and I promise to add the next chapter very soon!

-Tracy Cook