LalaHachi: I'm tired, I need sleep. I haven't read it through properly (neither did I with the last chapter) and I'm pretty sure that I'm taking this "Make-Axel-Depressed"-plan too far...
"Axel, what was that all about?" I asked as they had left and sat down beside Axel. He was currently smoking and seemed too depressed to even notice me.
"The girls who were here all have two personalities. They just change once in a while without knowing. They have medicine and all that but now I wasn't sure which personality was the right one," Axel started explaining slowly. "Then I fell in love with Ellie. About three months after I had left you we got together. But I always knew there was a possibility that the Ellie I knew was just a personality that tried to push the real one away." Axel sighed and blew out some smoke. "According to these doctor files, the one who has no idea about the other personality is the real one. So today I confirmed that the Ellie I love is the sickness I'm trying to cure."
I tried to say something but couldn't really think of anything. "I feel bad for you," I said and put an arm around his shoulder only for him to jerk away from me.
"No, you don't! Not really anyway! I bet inside you're happy that I'm alone again so you don't have to be jealous! Just like with Marluxia! You're happy with Riku and I'm not complaining! Why can't I be happy without you going all cranky and jealous!" Axel shook his head and stood up. "I really hate you…" And with those words he left the room.
He… Hates me? Axel… Hates me? Without realizing it, tears had started rolling down my cheeks. I can't believe it…
….
"Riku can I sleep in your room tonight?" I asked as I looked down at the ground. I felt ashamed because I knew some of the things Axel had said were true. Yes, I had thought it was a sad story like when you watch a sad movie but the fact that Axel was alone again made me slightly happy. I felt horrible.
"Yeah, I guess… Did something happen?" Riku asked as he made room for me in the bed.
"No, I just like lying in the same bed as you," I lied and let him wrap an arm around me.
"Then maybe…" Riku started, sounding tired. "We can move into the same room when we get home?"
I bit my lip. I wasn't ready for that! "Uh… Yeah, maybe… Good night Riku," I said and let my head rest on the pillow.
"Good night, Roxas…" Riku mumbled before his breathing got heavy.
…..
It took me three days until I finally dared entering Axel's apartment again. To my big surprise Axel was sitting in the middle of the room, his legs crossed with closed eyes. I went up to him and sat down in front of him. "Eh… Axel?"
"Yes, Roxas?" Axel said, his eyes still closed.
"I'm sorry… About everything… And I'm sorry that I've been acting the way I have," I said and sighed, letting my head hang.
"I know you are," Axel said still not opening his eyes nor making any effort to move.
"I was hoping that maybe… You would forgive me sooner or later…" I mumbled, biting my thumbnail.
"Roxas… Let me tell you about a quality I have and one I've never had," He said and adjusted himself slightly. "I'm also a very jealous person, just like you. Which makes it impossible for me to handle you together with Riku."
"Oh…" I got out and hugged my knees. "And the other quality?"
"Well, ever since I've met Ellie, I've realized that I can't save anyone. So don't bother with me anymore," Axel said, opened his eyes and stood up. He looked awful, really. He probably had been crying all night or something. He then turned around and slowly went into his own room, closing the door behind him.
I had never seen Axel so depressed before. Not even when the two of us broke up the first time. And wasn't this the same situation?
No, this was nothing like that really… Axel and Ellie still loved each other but the Ellie Axel loved never really existed. I curled up in the couch and soon fell asleep.
I must've looked peaceful, lying there. Little did I know that my dream wasn't just a dream and that hell was soon to break loose.
LalaHachi: I'm going to Greece. There I said it! That means that my last chance to update is Thursday... Then I'm gone for a week, home for two weeks and then gone for three weeks in England... Anyone who lives close to London or Oxford? Maybe we'll meet then O_O
READ DEMON DIARY AND WRITE ME ERUTIS X KRAYON AND I WILL LOVE YOU FOR THE REST OF MY LIFE! (And get Axel and Roxas together in the end...)